THIS!! I Watch His Transition Timeline Way Too Much

Canon

i think toby fox giggles and kicks his feet whenever he writes a new divorce into one of his games

I kinda feel like I kind of grew up like this:

Little kid (kinda gender neutral childhood, I didn't feel pressured to be anything. I looked like a little girl, but my childhood was more masculine kinda) -> hell™️ (puberty, first E puberty hopefully I'll have my T puberty soon!) -> purgatory (my current stage, waiting to move out and start my life.)

I was very detached from femininity most of my life; I have and had masculine hobbies and interests, stuff like that, but it's like I was cursed to grow up in a body that didn't suit me.

It kinda feels like I was not a female-looking and feeling person until my puberty.

Hope this made sense!

The trans FTM experience of not knowing how to feel about your detachment from femininity and growing up a woman

Diary entry #14

Cw family issues and slight sui themes

The wait to move out is killing me. I just want to live on my own already but I'm autistic and sometimes I screw over myself on accident. I've been binge eating a lot and it's distressing me.

I just want to start my life already. Sometimes I think of telling my grandparents I need to transition now or it's going to kill me, but I'm sure they won't believe me until it's too late.

They think my identity, my very being, is a joke. I hope it's funny. I hope they enjoy the fact that my life hangs in the balance, hope they get some sort of sick thrill out of it. I'm so enraged at them and yet I can't raise my voice at them. I just write posts on the internet, stuff I'm too cowardly to say to them irl.

They think I'm stupid, or at least too stupid to understand that I'm "being lied to" with "transgender ideology".

The internet and fox news has radicalized them into believing in the stupidest shit. They don't listen to me, and I don't think they ever will. Being autistic probably doesn't help me in this aspect.

I just want them to just come out and say more horrible stuff so I can hate them fully. I can't bring myself to not be a rug and not let them walk all over me. I sabotage myself so others, especially my family, can get ahead.

I don't know, I'm mostly just yelling into the void.

BEGGING PEOPLE TO DO MY SURVEY FOR MY LINGUISTICS CLASS

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Neopronouns Attitudes

Thank you for taking the time to participate. This survey is being used to gather data for my end-of-semester assignment for my linguistics

i’m so sick of hearing people complain about “whiny transmascs who don’t transition and still want to be treated like men”

either pay for my top surgery or shut your mouth. some of us are disabled and have to find doctors willing to take the risk of a potentially deadly health crisis mid-surgery, on top of living paycheck to paycheck. do you have 13k, plus travel expenses for a week to the only surgeon i trust to not kill me? because i don’t.

Dark room shower supremacy ‼️

dr. zomboss doodles

I hate this guy so much bro 😭🙏

Adding my favorite stims that I do!! Idk if some of them are technically stims but I figured I’d add them anyway :) also I’m autistic btw

Listening to music, swinging on my web swing (doing both rn!), snapping fingers (this is a new one but it’s pleasing to my brain), walking and dancing at the same time (hard to explain, but I kinda do an interpretive dance while I walk?? It looks strange but it brings me joy), spinning, singing/lip syncing, bouncing leg, fidget toys (slime/putty, infinity cube, magnets), chewing gum/chew necklaces, flexing my stomach, blinking fast, humming, cracking knuckles, sighing, inhaling (with nose), touching soft stuff, pacing, and more I can’t really remember right now. Some are more situational, but I enjoy all of them!

stimming is a self-soothing behavior that can be used to calm down feelings of stress, anxiety, overwhelming emotions, or physical discomfort. stimming is a natural, and healthy behavior, and it is important to allow others to stim when they need to. i am a nonspeaking autistic AAC user, and i stim a lot because it is a helpful way to regulate my emotions, and a way for me to express myself. stimming is a beautiful, and essential part of who i am, and i am proud to call myself a stimmer!

celebrating my 5 year top surgery anniversary today, so I wanted to draw something that reflects the bliss of feeling your chest for the first time. happy pride 🏳️‍⚧️⚧️💙🩷🤍

[ID: A banner on the Health Disparities Among LGBQ Youth government website saying "Any information on this page promoting gender ideology is extremely inaccurate and disconnected from the immutable biological reality that there are two sexes, male and female. The Trump Administration rejects gender ideology and condemns the harms it causes to children, by promoting their chemical and surgical mutilation, and to women, by depriving them of their dignity, safety, well-being, and opportunities. This page does not reflect biological reality and therefore the Administration and this Department reject it." /END ID]

Hey tumblr.

As you may have heard the words trans and queer were completely erased from the fucking STONEWALL national Parks page on the US Government site. Yes, Stonewall, as in the one at the beginning of the LGBTQIA+ movement, in which many people whom are trans or would have been considered under the trans umbrella today were a HUGE part of of the beginning of the movement for. The one in which many of the people involved in use the word queer to describe themselves were involved. YEAH. THAT ONE.

So not to sugar coat it this is the most 1984 shit I’ve ever seen.

(Added highlights to some instances, but the whole page is like this)

However there is one small thing we can do.

This is the contact form at the bottom of the page. You’ll notice it says it’s an official government form and you can state if something was helpful.

Listen I know this isn’t the sexiest or most helpful form of direct action but there is SOMETHING we can do, which is being really fucking annoying to them.

Much like we’ve been doing with Google and Apple Maps, we can use this form to state that this is fundamentally unhelpful, erasing a part of history, and to fucking put the T and Q back (also the IA+, but vitally those two given how obviously they were slashed from the text).

If nothing else we just fucking review bomb the shit out of this. Will it change anything? No, to be honest, but it will make their days a little harder snd while it might not bring direct change, being annoying WORKS. We already have democratic *and republican* senators who are now trying to do something about Musk now that they’ve gotten so many calls from us, and speaking on the fact they’ve gotten so many calls. We need to keep that energy. So fill out the survey, call your senators, and being fucking loud. At least have our dissent on the official record.

The owner and operator of the Stonewall Inn which is connected to national monument, has been loud about how heinous this is, and has been organizing protests in NYC. If you’re local to that area I’d recommend heading out that way https://amp.cnn.com/cnn/2025/02/14/us/stonewall-monument-protest-nyc

CNN

Stonewall Monument: Community rallies in New York after ‘trans’ and ‘queer’ removed from website | CNN

After the words “transgender” and “queer” were removed from the National Park Service’s website for the Stonewall National Monument, a landm