I'm Very Uncomfortable With Being Alive

wow i really hate being alive this is all so embarrassing and losery

i feel very crazy

so much sadness, so much despair

pain no longer tickles that little corner of my brain like it used to, i'm tired

Our theme colors are merging together symbolically (and homoerotically) as we fight each other to the death btw. If you even care

i want someone to want me

fuck i wanna read jurdan fanfic but my bed is calling me...

literally the only thing keeping me going is the thought that i'll be able to do something unhealthy or self-destructive if i stay alive

just straight up withering away would be really good rn

contemplating suicide and my dad is listening to maria and call me maybe in the living room. IS MY LIFE A JOKE