Fox by Ilya Popov
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your. incantantaions. are. impressive.
people are bewildered and amazed by your magical abilities, even if you don't hear people talking about them.
your spells are potent. they are influential on their environment.
your robes are lavish, and they are not overly gaudy. your brain is lying to you.
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Hi. Sorry this is a bit long, but I could really use the help.
I guess I should start with who I am. Iām a member of the Creature Community, as you probably could have already surmised, but I donāt exactly look the part. You see, my genus looks rather similar to humans. That is, upon death. Our āghostsā are almost indistinguishable from living sapios, at least for the first few years.
Now, Iāve recently died. Contrary to what many expect, it honestly hasnāt affected me too much. Sure, it takes some getting used to, and I have gone to therapy to work through the event itself, but itās no more rattling than a particularly violent metamorphosis.
Iām lucky enough to still have some friends from before my death. One such friend, letās call her āAmyā, has been very kind to me. Sheās helped me work through this transformation, and even set up a small altar for me in her house.
The other day, Amy invited me over to her parentās house for dinner. I was quite excited, after all, Amy had been one of the nicest people Iāve ever met, so it would only make sense her parents would be just as kind, right?
Goodness, was I wrong. Ever since my death, I canāt exactly consume food in the usual way. I was under the impression that this was conveyed to Amyās parents, but I was mistaken. Upon sitting down at the table, I was served the same as everyone else. I assumed thereād been some kind of misunderstanding, and attempted to explain that I couldnāt eat anything that wasnāt on an altar or otherwise spiritually offered to me. Her mother seemed a bit irked, and said something along the lines of āthereās no need to be so picky.ā
I tried to explain to them that I wasnāt being picky, but that I physically couldnāt eat it. It was around then I realized that Amy had never told them I wasnāt sapio, least of all that I was dead. Still, I did my best to try to explain it too them without it being seen as offensive. The food they had made did look and smell delicious, but that didnāt make it any more possible for me to eat.
That was when her father chipped in. He said, and I quote, āWell, you donāt look dead.ā
I know that technically, to him, heās right. To most humans who saw me, I did not look dead. But for some reason, what he said really upset me. I mean, what did he want me to look like, Slimer from Ghostbusters? A Haunted Mansion animatronic?!
I left pretty quickly after that, though Iāll admit I said some pretty harsh things before I went. I just donāt know what to do. Iāve already tried to apologize to Amy, but she wonāt answer any of my texts or calls. I know that I was wrong for yelling at them, but I canāt help but feel that maybe theyāre not all the way in the right either. How can I fix this without letting them hold onto those biases? Or should I just let it go?
I think you're being really rather hard on yourself here, reader. I don't see that this mess is yours to fix at all. First, you were put in a very awkward situation because of your friend's lack of forethought. Then you were apparently left to fend for yourself in that awkwardness, with no support from the friend in question.
You were subjected to casual sapiocentrism in a place where you might have expected to be treated more kindly. You say that, āfor some reasonā, you were hurt by Amy's father's comments ā as if they weren't immediately, obviously insulting comments and dismissive of the variety of forms post-life vitality might take.
Finally, after being subjected to a mounting pile of microaggressions, you removed yourself from the situation. Perhaps this removal was a little less graceful than you might prefer, looking at it in retrospect. But given the givens, I think you did very well to be as polite as you were, for as long as you were.
You have even gone so far as to try to apologise for the unpleasantness of the situation ā despite said unpleasantness being almost entirely the fault of other people's rudeness, ignorance, and inconsideration. But those attempts have fallen on ears that as not so much deaf as willingly plugged.
I don't think you need to worry about making amends with Amy's parents. You were their guest and they treated you poorly, with no indication that they have any interest in learning from the experience. Even if they did want to do better, you aren't their guinea pig. You have no responsibility to teach them the error of their ways, and the relationship isn't one you need to maintain.
Your friendship with Amy, however, does need some work. Amy has clearly demonstrated that she loves and cares about you. Her treatment of you following your revitalisation shows this. But sadly, love and care are not always enough to prevent harm.
I recommend offering to meet up in person to talk about the evening in question. You can certainly tell her that you want to make amends, but it's important you also make it clear that this is not a one-sided apology. Tell her you want to talk about some of the ways she could have supported you better as a person of the night in that situation, with a view to strengthening your friendship.
If she agrees to meet, remember to stay calm and be clear about the particular behaviours you want to address. This isn't about making Amy feel punished or blamed. It's about helping her to love you better. You have certain needs as a recently revived individual, and if she is going to invite you to an event, she has to make sure those needs will be met.
She also needs to understand that, while she may not see your post-death vitality as anything to write home about, that doesn't mean other people feel the same. It is unkind of her to put you into a situation where you will be expected to defend your identity or bite your tongue in the face of anti-liminal sentiments.
I sincerely hope Amy proves herself willing and able to listen to you and learn from this. Her previous behaviour suggests its certainly possible. But if she can't, please understand ā this is not on you.
Sadly, some people are only interested in being kind so long as they can also be comfortable. You are better off keeping them at arm's length and keeping your more intimate feelings for those who can be trusted with them.
Am I really sad or am I just not eating enough Souls of the Innocents?
I'm afraid my abilities do not extend quite as far as to be able to look into your very being and answer such a personal question as this! Fortunately, my answer is the same in either case.
"Comfort eating" gets a bad rap among certain circles, but really, what could be more natural than giving yourself a delicious treat to tide you through the bad times?
Try a few Souls to start out with, and see how you go. If it makes you feel better, all to the good. If not, you can try other ways of looking after yourself. A spot of immolation might do the trick, or changing your bedsheets.
Finally, remember - there's no difference between sad because you're hungry and being "really" sad. It's all the same emotion, whatever the source, and you deserve comfort and kindness in either case.
[For more creaturely advice, check out Monstrous Agonies on your podcast platform of choice, or visit monstrousproductions.org for more info]
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Every full moon I leave an open can of tuna in front of me so that the beast within can have a tasty little treat š§”
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āTasty little treatā godddd no wonder nobody takes werecats seriously yall are so corny š go back to the zoo
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The beast within fucked you mom to make her a better son
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LMAO he blocked me
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why is it always the Victorian vampires who say shit like this. what compels them to say this sort of crap about other monsters on tomblr dot com
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Racism turned with them
Iām having a meltdown. When I was 9 years old I read an article in a magazine called Backyard Adventures about how this antelope, the saiga, was on the verge of extinction. I enlisted the help of my best friend and launched a fundraising campaign called Save the Saigas. We sold lemonade, had bake sales, sold belongings, yelled at strangers as they passed in their cars. Our parents were able to match the money we made. Our school helped. It wasnāt much, it didnāt save them, but it helped the organization at least a little bit.
Yāall. The saigas have been saved. A little piece of my passionate child heart that has seemed hopelessly lost and endlessly disappointed for a long time feels so soothed. Maybe itās not all hopeless. Maybe our efforts arenāt a complete waste. Maybe we keep trying and actually hope for the best.
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