I Got Bullied All Throughout Middle School And High School, Moved To A Different School In Tenth Grade

Starting uni today, I've been trying to hold my tears in since I woke up. I couldn't get much sleep because of how nervous I was, I woke up at three in the morning, and finally got up to get ready at five; It's almost seven now.

How strange this is, I feel as if my youth withered away. I miss my childhood, and especially my teenage years, which weren't too cheerful as I was a strange child, and even stranger teenage girl. I guess nostalgia is a bitch, but I just want to be fourteen again. Time goes by so quickly I'm getting whiplash.

I'm scared about meeting people, scared to not make friends, scared to be that weird teenage girl forever. I can't eat, my stomach's all closed up, and I've got a migraine. God, this is weird.

Anyway, I'll keep you posted, lots of love,

Anna.

eclectic array from the button museum.

mikey madison is angelic, omg

mikey madison and sean baker (2024) & jane birkin and serge gainsbourg (1975)

tumblr girls are like big sisters i idolize yall sm pls dont die

angels do exist, we're too busy shitposting on tumblr rn to save the world tho

I had my second creative writing workshop today. I didn’t write to you guys about the first because it was just an introduction, and not much happened. Today was good, though.

The class is from four to seven p.m. and pretty dense in terms of what we are taught, I enjoy it a lot. I submitted my first short story (I will publish it on Substack once my teacher corrects it).

I also went to uni today, although I’d dropped out, I went to meet with some friends and stayed for a class. I loved seeing everyone and catching up, I laughed a lot.

The air is not so chilly anymore and it starts to smell sweeter, like cherry blossoms. I like when I can feel spring clawing its way through. Anytime spring comes slowly I always think of Hades and Persephone bidding their goodbyes in the underworld.

Also, crazy thing happening lately on my tumblr!! I’ve been getting asks of people genuinely insulting my appearance, and others asking me if I had foetal abnormalities. First of all, I do not. I am not disabled and I’m very lucky. Second of all, I do not tolerate these kind of attitudes so I’ve blocked those accounts.

I know I’m not the prettiest girl in the wolrd, but that doesn’t make me worth any less. Plus, I am pretty, and happy, and loved. I’m good.

All yours,

Anna 🫶🏻

P.S. I’m dyeing my hair tomorrow! (only fixing the roots, might post a pic of it! ☺️)

The type of girl Van McCann’s writes songs about

Rodion Romanovich Raskolnikov original Pat Bateman???