Fifteen Year Old Me Did NOT Have To Go Through All That

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tears in my eyes, every time someone comments on something I wrote

top weird girl canon events:

listening to Lana for the first time

7th grade winter break

being told you’re “an old soul” and “mature for your age”

hating your dad at one point

reading no longer human for the first time

obsessing over a girl you have no chance with

getting bullied by the “popular boys”

counting calories at 12

watching girl interrupted for the first time

feeling like a lost dog in friend groups

I am done with the first week of school. I DID IT!!

Honestly I love my teachers, my classmates and the "friends" that I have started making (I know it takes time to make actual friends, but I am anxious, and impatient and all i want is to go out, have study dates, go to the bookshop, gossip and call people my friends)

My latin and greek classmates are fun, really sweet people and I have to say I feel so comfy with them.

I am so lucky (and tired, and studying hard, even on the first week)!

Xx, Anna🫶🏻

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This diva is such a good writer and such a cool girl 🫶🏻🤧

"The doctors said this was typical for my condition, my brain simply works differently. It might be a struggle but I can do other things better than most people, I have different abilities. "Differently abled", I hate that term. They make my brain sound like some kind of alien substance. A material from a different planet, a repulsing slime that disgusts and intrigues them at the same time. One that they cannot study because they don't know how and they cannot name because they wouldn't know where to start.

I named it, it's "no borax, no glue, no shaving cream, no contactlense fluid activated slime". In a way, they're right. It disgusts me too sometimes."

-An excerpt of the story I'm currently writing (haven't decided on the title yet)

I FINISHED MY EXAMS!!! AND I PASSED EVERY CLASS!!! I did get some grades that I am not too proud of, but overall I am doing a lot better than I was doing this time last year.

since I don't have exams I have a lot more free time on afternoons and weekends, I have been reading a lot lately, also watching TV and sleeping, overall just relaxing.

Also, the weather is changing and it is colder now, I can wear sweaters :)

Anyways, Lots of love

Anna 🫶🏻

I was so fall ready and now it's 30°C cmon...

I am starting uni on September 16th. I am scared, as I don't know anybody (all of my friends are going to other colleges, and studying things far more useful than literary studies and classics).

A couple months back I went on a tour of the humanities faculty building and it is absolutely beautiful, it looks like it could belong in a Donna Tartt novel, or a Shirley Jackson story: creepy, kind of unsettling, old, reminiscent of gothic architecture, beautiful.

I am excited, but also extremely confused, when I was building my timetable I realized none of my classes were on Fridays, and upon further research I found out there is no class on Fridays. I am confused about that.

Anyway, as I do every year before school starts, or, As I've done for the past three years, I will be re-reading The Secret History by Donna Tartt. I have had to buy a new copy because the one I've had since 2021 is so used the pages fall off. I am currently reading The Goldfinch, also by Donna Tartt.

Have a good academic year, lots of love,

Anna.

I hope your weekend was amazing, mine was pretty good.

I spent my weekend relaxing, I dyed my hair and got my nails done (if there’s typos here blame my acrylics).

I finished ‘La familia’ by Sara Mesa and I liked it less than I thought I would.

I got my creative writing workshop project corrected and i’m happy with the feedback I got.

I’m looking into reformer pilates because I got injured and can’t go running for a while, and that was all the exercise I did apart from hiking and walking everywhere I could.

I’m really into patterned tights, polka dots and pastel pink hair lately.

Ciao, Ciao. Til next time,

Anna.