dulcinea septimus......big fan....
all the “harrow’s three weed smoking girlfriends” jokes are ten times funnier when you remember that the three weed smoking girlfriends are god’s daughter god’s girlfriend and god’s only saint
i have wanted to draw the wing severing scene ever since i first read abm... so here's my little take on it.
Sorry Luci
tumblr tags bring out the insanity in me
i need a friend group that consists of the narcissistic blond twink who sold his soul via a painting of himself, a miserable gay artist (dead) who is in love with said blond twink, and a corrupting nobleman who didn't get the memo that it's okay to shut the fuck up sometimes
Gideon Nav: a woman who, surrounded by the most repressed elderly nuns ever, independently invented being a masc lesbian
kind of regretting not actually making my thoughts on each chapter throughout tlt coherent. i was spamming one person's twitter dms 24/7 and that was it. half of it was 'what the fuck' and 'i miss gideon :('
what if 200 children were killed so you could be born and you carried this guilt with you and you thought you were the most rotten most awful thing in the universe and then your parents killed themselves bc of you so that’s 202 deaths and you were the saddest most desperate loneliest girl in the entire universe and you thought you would never be loved and then a girl loves you so much she KILLS HERSELF for you. so that’s 203 deaths. she loves you so much she wants to be one with you she wants to mingle your souls and so she kills herself even though she knows you’ll hate her for it. and THEN you have to perform a lobotomy on yourself so you’ll forget her so you can’t consume her soul completely so there’s still a part of her that’s alive and untouched by you. because you would rather keep her in a shackle inside your mind than lose her completely to yourself. and also there’s ghosts in your brain. well this all happened to my buddy harrow
ok i'm sleepy and having emotions and i'm not gonna grab my copy to pull the specific quotes but. you remember that scene in htn where mercy and augustine are arguing. i think it's the "you have rendered yourself unlovable" one. and augustine tells her that he could kill her if he wanted. he could do it without a second thought, could stub her out like a cigarette beneath his shoe, and john would forgive him? john would understand? augustine is his favorite, and they all know it, to such a degree that mercymorn ceases to matter in the slightest?
cool great. now remember that time when john killed mercy? without a second thought? stubbed her out beneath his shoe? and then he turned to augustine and he said, you understand why i did that, right? you know that you're my favorite? you know i love you? she doesn't matter. we can put this behind us. augustine, can't you forgive me?
and augustine says no, john. no, i can't.
cause i'm thinking about that and i'm tearing my hair out. i'm eating the drywall. her death was too far. it was too far and augustine couldn't forgive him. he was right about john, probably more right than he realized, but he could never have brought himself to do it. it was unforgiveable.
baru cormorant strap sucker. lesbian. relapsed twitter user
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