Gideon Nav: A Woman Who, Surrounded By The Most Repressed Elderly Nuns Ever, Independently Invented Being

“You became to me the visible incarnation of that unseen ideal whose memory haunts us artists like an exquisite dream. I worshipped you. I grew jealous of every one to whom you spoke. I wanted to have you all to myself. I was only happy when I was with you.”

is just one of many things i casually say to my fraternal sibling (definitely NOT the man my homosexual-ass has become absolutely obsessed with and who i’ve reshaped my interpretation of art to fit the image of).

tumblr vs twitter which hellsite will take less time to make you begin to conjure fresh & exciting ways to tear someone's heart out their chest: the question of all time

bi erasure incident. one dead. four victorious.

I love folks asking for no spoilers for the rest of Gideon the Ninth after they've read it. "Please no spoilers" my sibling in Jod, I even if I laid the rest of the plot out in bullet points for you step by step in an annotated diagram there is no way I could prepare you for what was happening. I could tell you point blank what happens to each and every character in the series and you'd still read the books and go "what the fuck". Tamsyn Muir made a spoiler proof trilogy. It's like the matrix. You cannot know what happens in future books. To be frank even if you read them it's pretty much uncertain you know what happens in future books. I want the next one right now.

what do you think about people talking about you on every platform miss cock?

what the hell is a griddlehark I feel like I just unlearned english, but I support them put me into your fictional world

@magicorealismo guess who bitch https://docs.google.com/document/d/1rpTkkLM8Zgf832ZHDV7vPCQyM5EOwoDQj5maM5IyfuI/edit?tab=t.kkyweol92633

hey do you guys know why harrow's name is written as "harrow nonagesimus" in the book sometimes? like i feel it only happens when she's being vulnerable or in a very intimate moment... is there an actual reason/deep meaning behind it or am i just crazy? i'd like to know y'all thoughts

some examples below the cut

from harrow the ninth (chapter 53):

gideon the ninth:

(chapter 19. "look at the key moron, not me" moment)

(chapter 20. harrow calls gideon by her name for the first time)

(chapter 24. gideon hugs harrow moment)

(chapter 25. when gideon needed harrow's help to keep jeannemary safe)

(chapter 26. when gideon wakes up from her nightmares)

(chapter 31. literally the pool scene)

'The chain of a kiss'

One does not play memories of music; one plays music itself. And lifetimes, from beginning to end, are as sheets of music, ready to be played.

Ryka Aoki, Light from Uncommon Stars

i would be feral abt t4t paldulcie

adds such a great layer to the ambiguously erotic long distance mentorship situation… dulcinea as a trans elder… i’m frothing at the mouth

SEE i wasn't thinking of Dulcie as a trans elder in this situation, I think Juno Zeta would put her her son on blockers aged 10 and be the kind of mom to have a toddler portrait tattoo redone to be like, still extremely binary but now the baby is dressed in blue with a baseball cap.

specifically I want to explore the experience of being trans and having these kind of... long distance, no faces, text only relationships where you can feel fully affirmed and the disconnect that then exists between your real world experience, and how this interacts with of course also being critically ill and not wanting anyone to see you because of that. the compounded body horror and also then, intimacy when there IS someone you trust to see you sick, see you naked, and the way that interacts with the vulnerability and exhaustion of sickness,

and there's another layer I really want to explore regarding how critical illness i.e. cancer can often impede or slow medical transition while ALSO drastically shortening the time in which one has to make these decisions. to quote my favorite movie "there is still time", but what if there isn't? what is there ISNT time? what if you're dying, and you want to die in the body you want to be remembered in, but you don't know if you'll get there? there's a horror in that. this quote from harrow the ninth:

"“The only thing that ever stopped me being exactly who I wanted,” she said, “was the worry that I would soon be dead … and now I am dead, Reverend Daughter, and I am sick of roses, and I am horny for revenge.”"

i think this would add to Palamedes' like... "i need to cure her i need to save her" and also heighten Dulcinea's rebellious streak (she wants cigarettes!!! she hates roses!!!) while also interacting with how she DID, in fact, decline Palamedes' proposal. she decided to stay where she was. there's so much here. im getting dangerously close to getting really personal here on tumblr dot com but im shaking the bars of my cage