How I Feel Everyday

I fucking got triggered into a depressive episode when i watched pitch perfect for the first time last night. Seeing the two main characters not talk to eachother because of a fight is one of my biggest fears with me and the few people i do talk to. I hate myself lmao

It’s crazy how I can’t get you off my mind, but I doubt I’m even on yours.

Did it hurt? Did I mean anything?

@drunkidiotwriting

You rub a genies vase and out comes a very attractive genie. “What is your first wish?” the genie asks, bored.

“I want you to be my sugar daddy”

“Your wish is gr- Wait, what?”

I really am so alone. I just want to die. I am meaningless. No ome actually cares, so why would I?

He's starting to understand my feelings towards him texting his ex. I know its my fault, but ive dropped every guy that had ever dated, even if they were my friends before this. I don't think he knows this but i don't ever want him to know. I don't want him to compare me to her. I don't want to seem like another 'her'. Oh man i wish it wasn't so goddamn hot in room so i could self harm. Or i might just go to the bathroom for a bit. Take a bath ya?

Ill make sure he never finds the cuts.

I wish i didn't fall for you as hard and fast as i did. I hate myself for it. I want to die. I want to be ripped up and into shreds. I just dont want to exist anymore.

Trying to disinfect a pin so i could use it and my dumb ass slides my fingers on the pin and i hear the skin pop. Fuck man

All i did was make myself look like a guy by messing with my hair. And thats how he responds. Fine then P, i got you. I thought you were going to okay with it and think it was funny but nooooo you had to make me feel like shit because now even if i was a guy, i still wouldn't be attractive. Fuck me and fuck my life man