MY GOODNESS!?!

to crave a person's presence and energy instead of only there body is the purest form of intimacy one can have..

Pyaar haule haule bhi nahi ho raha hai!

Then- am I- close- mental breakdo-

no girl is as close to a mental breakdown as that girl who says:

I'm like in such a better place right now... Mentally I'm just doing so much better right now... I couldn't have asked for anything more

Today, as I was browsing YouTube, I stumbled upon a video uploaded by SVF clips featuring scenes from the Bengali movie "Villain." Intrigued by the snippets, I promptly logged into Hoichoi to watch the full film.

However, the experience turned out to be quite disappointing. The storyline, plot, music, and dialogues were all incredibly cringeworthy. I find myself regretting my decision to watch it.

It makes me wonder why the Bengali film industry seems preoccupied with producing such films. Movies like "Bindass," "Herogiri," and others of their ilk — are they even worthy of being called movies?

I forgot to add the beautiful lyrics of the song present in the movie "chokhe legeche dhoya tor angul choyar nesha legeche bedon (ki egulo???) nei thik thikana bhule giye bahana, sudhu thote thot khujbe norom, doze doze doze chade pyaar ki yeh doze"

I'm feeling deeply unsettled at the moment. Once a year, Koushik Ganguly and Srijit Mukherji return with their thought-provoking films, which truly stand out as gems. I find myself longing for the era of Satyajit Ray and Rituparno Ghosh, whose films defined Bangla cinema.

Ajke ei tuku, pore ashchi ekta chotto biroti niye songe thakun shusto thakun.

oi building ta te jodi ekbar jete pari, tahole mone korbo, I am living a srijit mukherjee film...

একলা মনের রিকশা চলে

দমকা প্রেমের গল্প বলে

শুকনো পাতার সন্ধ্যেবেলার গান

কোন হরিণের দুষ্টু ছায়ায়

খেলনা দোকান ডাকছে রে আয়

ভুল করেছি আর যাবো না

মিথ্যে মায়ায় চমকাবো না......

Sotti anek shahosh er dorkar hoye erokom kicchu lekhar jonyo..

We people often take ego as self respect. She has no ego.. She has self respect. 🌷✨

Lots of love..

A letter to someone whom I don't know exists or not, a letter to someone I don't know I will ever meet or not, A letter to my love, my desire. A letter to Tamanna ki Tamanna ~

Love,

How are you doing? I hope you are fine, this is your girl, your jaan, your non stop bakar bakar karni wali, pretty and hot mess gf/wife,best friend,travel partner,dance partner and how can we forget reading partner. (Damn you so lucky hehe) I hope I am there beside you reading out this letter sitting on your lap while we cuddle.

I know sometimes you will get tired of having this mentally unstable and overthinker girl as someone you will call as your life partner, I know it will be hard to handle 3 kids in the house for you, I know it will be exhausting for you to handle all my nakhre and comfort me while crying, But I believe it will be more fun to have me beside you admiring moon in starry nights, it will be more fun watching sunsets near the riverside~ you admiring the scenery and I admiring you, it will be more fun to have me teaching you how to do that one couple trend, it will be more fun dancing with me in the rain, it will be more fun listening me sing

"Acha ji main Hari chalo maan jao na~"

Whenever I make you sad. You know what the idea of us living together itself is the most exciting thing.

Okay, so here goes a little life update cause at this moment I don't have anybody to rant or yap my life to~

I started writing the story I wanted to write for long time, it was supposed to be a love story par Aashna decided to give me a lot of ideas to make it a thriller one, so I don't know what it will end up to be but I am sure it will be gorgeous Chaos just like me.

You know what while I am writing this letter to you in my room, I can hear the sound of Rain pouring and as I heard that one thunder sound I decided to put my headphones on. Yeah, it's me and my silly fear of thunders but ig it won't be existing in future, I hope I will look up to enjoy rains and find comfort in that sound of thunder with you beside me.

You know what I will forever be jealous of you without even existing at this point of time in my life (maybe you exist but me being dumb didn't realised) you own everything, you own a special place in my Spotify playlists, my Pinterest Boards, My Notes app or ab ye sab kam pada tha jo meri kahani bhi aapke baare main honi lagi. Mere nritya, mere geet , meri kavitayen or yaha tak ki mere khat ye bhi ab aapke hi hai.

Okay so now, at end I would like to wish us a life full of endless twirls,music,books and food. I wish we always stay together dancing our life out and have that love life jisko dekh ke log bas yahi bole ~

"Ye to ek dum dramon wala pyaar hai "

With this I take my leave ~

Signing off

Always yours

Desirer 🤍

I have seen in my 17years of life that I was the only one who wanted or still wants to hold onto people. For example I always tell my close ones that, "say that you will never leave me" or "you will stay, right? I hope you won't go away?"

me, yes, I was the only one who wanted people to stay in my life. However, nobody ever told me to stay or never leave them. For once I wanna hear this. From my very own initiative I have told people that "I won't leave you" but nobody ever told me "I hope you won't leave me, would you?"

I am the most hated person in school right now. I really don't have a friend who will only stay with me, will roam around with me, fool around, talk shit, study together, help each other, support each other and what not. I hope I will always be alone. My paternal family members likes loneliness but I can't bear that.

There are things which I really wanna do all alone like, bunjee jumping (spelling might be wrong), bike riding on a highway (harley davidson heritage classic), driving, jump into the river and swim, weight loss, aesthetic life and what not.

Still I wanna do things with someone like I wanna a have a wishlist with someone. Only me and her/him.

Thats alll

CHOKHER BALI (2003) Dir. by Rituparno Ghosh

She will never be the same as she used to be!.

STREETS OF WEST BENGAL ASKING FOR JUSTICE