কিচ্ছু চাইনি আমি, আজীবন ভালবাসা ছাড়া ৷

Ananya Chatterjee, Abohomaan (2009)

It's unfortunate that some individuals misuse their time by sending harassing messages to newly created accounts. I hope the platform's moderators and developers can implement more effective measures to prevent such behavior and create a safer environment for all users

Seriously.. Get a work..

Then- am I- close- mental breakdo-

no girl is as close to a mental breakdown as that girl who says:

I'm like in such a better place right now... Mentally I'm just doing so much better right now... I couldn't have asked for anything more

Some students in my school are writing poems. how can someone write poems everyday?? like- anyways the poetry's are quite dumb. not kidding but poems should contain some twist or some topsy turvyness. Metaphors, personifications, oxymorons, similes, hyperboles, ironys are missing. Those poems won't make you think twice. It won't just touch your heart. Simple and flat writing. For example "you are my guy and you are the only one I love, can't forget you" blah blah blah...

Poems should contain :- (purely my opinion)

"evening sky made thoughts run through my idle brain, drowning me, bewitching me and what isn't. It made me think what in the world am I doing? competition on its highest peak, humans running like as if hypnotized by the pied piper of hamlin to enter into a hole full of darkness, however, dark success, which, covering our mouths with some bitter currency which won't reach to the siren heaven after human expiry"

Love, is their only topic. Poems should contain some heart burning emotions. Might be love, might be betrayal, might be the economy, even a broken glass or a tulip so white, so sad, so pure, so happy, so DEADLY. Sylvia Plath wrote about tulips. In our current world, people are making love so playful that they are making dumb poems about it. Love isn't filthy. Love is like getting into harvard, writing a book, clicking photos, looking deep into the sky and a person. love is not always romantic. Sadism isn't always sad.

(No hatred to them)

This much is all. Leave to be granted.

I have no words to say.. Everything is said perfectly by you! 🌸✨

For every person who thinks you're "too quiet" there's one who thinks you're an amazing listener. For every person who thinks you're "too clingy" there's one who loves how much and how openly you care about others. For every person who thinks you're "too weird" there's one who admires how you dare to stand out from the crowd. For every person who thinks you're "too sensitive" there's one who respects you for being so in touch with your feelings For every person who thinks you're "too confident" there's one who thinks your self respect is an inspiration. What's a negative trait in one person's eyes might be exactly what someone else is looking for. It's not black or white.

to crave a person's presence and energy instead of only there body is the purest form of intimacy one can have..

"Don’t waste time fixing bonds you didn’t break."

Today something happened with me. And I sincerely want to ask my favorite mutuals that the thing which I have done is wrong or not.

So there is a guy who is blindly in love with me (I don't know he says so). I recently blocked him because he told me thay he has vivid imagination about me being his "wife". He told me he will love me forever. But I don't love him. I don't know why I just don't want him. I have been telling this to him several times but he won't listen. He is forcing me to love him. So I blocked him. Again he has created a new account and send me note saying that same stuff. I have again blocked him as he was destroying my mental peace. He is a very nice person but love cannot be forced. Even I fell in love (was it love? I really don't know) but I never forced that person to love me back because love cannot be FORCED.. NOTHING CAN BE DONE FORCEFULLY IN THIS WORLD.

my message to him if creates another account and tries to contact me: It was nice meeting you on study stream last year and I was really surprised to see you here as well but I never thought that you would force me to love you. So I beg you please don't contact me. I don't want someone who cannot be a friend. I am sorry but to me you are really not a nice person anymore.

Now I want to ask this to all my favorite mutuals. The thing which I have done is right or wrong.

@intellectual6666 @enigma-the-mysterious @aahanna @kaalboisakhi @arjokonya @sociallyawkwardpeanut (asking you as well because you are one of my fav mutuals whom I met yesterday) @natkhat-sa-shyam @misti31 @zeherili-ankhein @deepsayss @shadowseductress @dopebanditlightpie @choppedphilosopherharmony

Cycling 🚴🏻

The most relaxing but the most body storming work. I love cycling. I wanna drive a Harley Davidson but my height is short so my leg won't reach the ground if I get into a harley. I wanna drive a THAR as well (not dreaming of mercedes or ferrari because I don't have or don't want soooo much in my life, just a simple four wheeler which will be driven by me, will work). To brief things out, I don't wanna be a passenger, I wanna be the driver. I want to be solely depended to myself because no one is going to save me when I will fight my depression, my anxiety, my fears, my mistakes and so on.

I was in class 10th when I learned how to ride a bicycle. Within 7days Iearned the whole stuff. Less than one year I went for a long but short drive with my cycle. Just me and my cycle. My mom wants to make me self-depended before being independent. She makes me do my works all by myself.

I was in class 9th when my father tried to make me learn how to ride a bicycle. In first try I failed. Practically I fell down from my cycle and he scolded me. The next day, same scenario and he gave me two tight slaps as well as gave me a good beating and (to be specific) on the road in front of random public. One random aunty came up and told my father, "at one go, no one can do anything, even you failed in things on your first try". Coming back home I cried a lot and that day was the end of my cycling. Then again in class 10th my mother hired an aunty to make me learn cycle and I learned.

Now I take my cycle everywhere except school. My father takes me to school in his Royal Enfield. In future I will ride that bike. Damn I got chills with the thoughts of it.

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A sudden feeling

today is 30th January... I am sitting in my bathroom writing this while my mom is listening to masakali.. And it is very much audible from the bathroom as the sound is quite high..

anyways.. I am feeling very low these days.. I overthink a lot.. And overthinking helps me to actually know the whole truth because whenever I overthink about something it turns into reality... Moreover, this blog is the result of my overthinking...

Being neglected by the people I basically love to hangout with, talk to, has been a habit for me because I know that I will lose them.. But still I don't hurt them.... Okay so now my mom is playing shishe se shisha takraye...

Anyways feeling a little bit better after writing the feelings which I kept in my heart for like a week maybe.... A two day or one day trip to shantiniketan can give my soul a little bit of shanti now.. Hey Rabindra Nath come and take me out of this one sided "shesher kobita" phase.. Anyways bye... Don't feel uneasy to judge me.. Because I am judged by every single human being... If anybody can relate my current condition, do comment... (I don't even know if I will post this but still)

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(Posted today itself XD)