That Warms My Heart. To Know That She Still Holds Such A Solid Part In The Lives Of Those She Touched—

i think hitting the gym is such a healthy outlet for stress. i am in the best shape of my life at the moment because i've channeled all of my stress and anxiety into pilates. i think you should allow yourself to eat your feelings for day one, and then once it's over you find something that makes you feel good and you focus on that.

some things just never change and that’s me hitting the gym to solve all my problems. when kylie and i fell out i hit the gym and had one of the biggest transforms of my life. i know it didn’t really solve my problems but it helped me out. any suggestions i can do before i eat myself into a vanilla salted caramel ice cream coma? @hfrpstarters

that is so exciting! i think it's a dream of every star wars fan to land a role in that universe. i couldn't imagine the excitement you must have felt when you learned you had gotten that role. i think it's beautiful that the universe as a whole is opening up to more people of color, especially women. i love to see that. oh gosh— i don't know how to answer this? i think when i landed fear the walking dead is when i had that moment of 'i made it!'

Andor Season 2 is dropping so soon, and honestly? I couldn’t be more excited. I’ve been a massive Star Wars fan for as long as I can remember, so stepping into that galaxy, into that universe, still feels surreal. If I could go back and tell my younger self that one day she'd be part of a story like this, that Hollywood would start making space, real space, for Latinas on this scale? She wouldn’t believe it. I’m curious now, how did you first break into your industry? Was there a project or moment when you thought, “Okay, I made it”? / @hfrpstarters

it kind of makes me sad knowing i spent so much wasted time and energy on fear that others caused, and robbed myself of so much time with you. i know there is no point to dwell on the past, but it's sad. it does bring me so much comfort to know that you love me, too, and that we're both on the same page with everything. i trust you more than i trust anyone else in this world, and i know that i'm in good hands with you. of course i want that future. i've wanted it for so long, i just never had anyone who wanted it with me until you. i think we could have a beautiful life together. we've already had a beautiful friendship, so why not upgrade that to a lifetime of happiness together? i'm already yours— officially.

You are the most important thing to me, that's something that's been the case for a while now and something I don't ever see changing either, darling. Is that so? Well, I guess I'm pretty happy to hear I made it hard, and I'm glad that you ended up falling in love with me, even if you tried not to. Which, I'm in love with you too, in case that wasn't obvious. I'm sorry you were so afraid to get hurt again, but I understand because I had a little bit of that fear as well. I want us both to be happy and focus on our happiness together. I want you too, and of course I'll have you if you'll have me, darling. You really want that future? I guess getting older, I've just realized that I want to have that before I'm too old to really enjoy it, you know? You're speaking my language with a gothic wedding, though I'm not sure our kids should look or take after me, since I'm a mess most of the time. But since we both want this, we both want that life together, then we should do this, right? Be together. Officially.

i hope so. i have been fortunate enough to work with some really big names on these last few projects so i'm hoping that kind of helps toss my name into the pot of potential contenders. if not then i'll just keep pushing on until something happens. at least it gave me time to finish my first script. i've also wanted to move more to the behind the scenes stuff. i dipped my toe into the directing pool and i sort of fell in love with it. i love to hear that! i certainly cannot wait for season four. ted lasso is such a guilty pleasure show. i love that! you two always make me want to get a farm. i know i could never keep up, but the urge is there.

Well that's a shame. But you're right, such is the nature. I'm sure something will pop up soon, I'm banking on it. Lucky for me, I always have production projects on the go, even if I'm not actively working myself, I'm overseeing things and working on behind the scenes stuff, writing for other people. But aside from the brand new wife and the beautiful baby I'm currently in the midst of writing Ted Lasso season 4, getting things prepared for filming later in the year, and we've also started planning Big Slick and Thundergong. My broody hen has been hiding eggs from me so I became a grandrooster of three at some point in the last week The joys of living on a farm.

am i the only one who hates having any sort of time off? when i'm working i can't wait for a little time to myself, but now that i'm not booked and busy like i have been i have no idea what to do with my free time. do you have any recommendations of places to travel or things to do? i've tried to think of things to do, but i'm drawing a blank. @ayodebiris

alycia: sounds like you just reach out to me every two years. 😂 alycia: i understand what you mean tho. i have been all over the place these past few years. getting me on the phone, or in person, hasn't been the easiest. alycia: i appreciate that. it's been a decent trip thus far. alycia: that is adorable! i did both ballet and ice skating for a very long time, so regardless of which one she sticks with she is going to have a blast. i learned so much about myself doing those activities.

Abel: well, it feels like that — like I catch you every two years, and somehow I still have the right number LMAO Abel: Good for you, girl. Have your fun Abel: She’s doing great. I’m doing fine — we’re learning as we go. Signed her up for ballet the other day… she hated it and ended up using the dance bar like monkey bars. Now I’m moving her over to ice skating. So far, as long as she’s got snacks, I’ve got no complaints.

that is the cutest reaction. it always feels my heart with so much joy to witness worthy people get the projects they deserve. imagine all of those adorable little girls who will see you and think, "wow! she's just like me, so i can do this too!". to know that you are able to touch a life like that is so beautiful. i had that when i played lexa. so many from the LGBTQ community felt so seen, and i loved that i could be part of that. have you? how far did you make it into the series? if you haven't made it far, then boy are you in for a treat. right? to see where i was two years ago to now is like night and day.

I still remember getting the call and just… freezing. I think I blacked out for like five minutes before I fully processed it. And you're so right, the fact that the Star Wars universe is making room for more women, more people of color, more depth, it makes being part of it feel even more meaningful. I actually started binging FTWD earlier this year. You brought so much grit and heart to that role. I loved it. Isn’t it wild to look back and realize how much we’ve grown since those early days?

i hope you keep that same sentiment the next time i wake you up for some exciting news. i have no sense of time when it comes to these types of things. i always feel the most spoiled with you, i hope you know? never been around a person who whole heartedly puts me first in every situation. it's refreshing. i guess you are in luck then, because there is no one else i'd want on my arm than you. you are the only person who deserves to be. you've always been my biggest support system, even when we're worlds apart. that has meant more to me than you will ever know. i think whatever role you are put into will be among the greatest. while i'll mourn the fact that they didn't make you an elf, i know whatever role you do get you will crush it. baby, you are an elven king. all you need is the pointed ears and you'd never be able to tell. i love you. you've been my best friend for many years. i'd do whatever i could to make sure you were happy, safe, and healthy. i can say with the upmost confidence that it's not out of your reach. i think if there is something you want you should go for it. the outcome might surprise you.

You're right about never minding you waking me up at all hours for things that made you happy, and I'm always happy to be good to you, which I'm sure you're more than aware of. I'll always spoil you, there's no doubt about that as well, darling. Is that so? I'm glad I'll play all of my cards right and then some. I like hearing that. Plus, I'm pleased that the invite is already mine, I don't think I'd care for anyone else being on your arm after all. Believe me, you're the one person I wish I could tell. I just hope that the big reveal is worth the wait and that you, of course, get what you've wished for. But I agree that it would be a missed opportunity. I look a bit elvish, don't I? Really? I must say I'm glad to hear there's nowhere else you'd rather be than by my side; that means the whole world to me. And the fact that you've been such a support system for me during my lows is something I'll always remember, love. You're not making me feel uncomfortable, it's just, are you sure it's not out of my reach? Because sometimes it feels like it is. Sometimes I feel like it's within reach, and then other times I feel like there's no way I could grasp it.

the universe hates to see us winning, and by winning i mean being in each others lives. how long do you plan to be in london? i'm going to be in the UK here soon for an extended period of time. coming to spend some time with a special friend, so if you happen to be in town we have so much to catch up on. maybe even toss in a little gossip.

I miss you so much it’s actually rude at this point. Honestly, you’re right. It has been way too long and I hate that our lives have turned into a game of schedule Tetris. I just wrapped in London and I’ve got a glorious little window of freedom before my next project kicks off, so yes to dinner. Yes to catching up. Yes to all of it.

i can imagine it must be difficult keeping up with that sort of thing when you have little ones running around. i give you all the kudos in the world for being able to juggle it all. parents are the unsung hero's of the world. thank you so much!! it was such a pleasant phone call to get. i've been stressing so much about work, and now i have one of the biggest projects of my career to look forward to. i heard about your little surprise! i am so happy for both you and ollie! i knew from the moment he told me you two were dating that you would go the distance. he is very lucky to have you, and vice versa.

i have been so bored that i've forgotten what day it is honestly if only because i was too bored to really care or look at the calendar. if there wasn't a doctor's appointment or a meeting that i had to be at, i was just doing whatever i could to fill the day with activities with the kiddos. that is so fantastic! happy to hear it darling! that is great news to get in 2025! sounds like your year has taken a turn for the best! well. the year has brought me so many surprises. a boyfriend and, crazy enough, two short months after that a new surprise baby that we'll be welcoming to the family at the end of the year! so we'll get to round it out on a high note too!