It Kind Of Makes Me Sad Knowing I Spent So Much Wasted Time And Energy On Fear That Others Caused, And

aussie hell is the worst kind of hell to find yourself in, so the studio should be shaking in their boots. i feel like that's why my love for marvel isn't as much as it used to. i feel like they were trying to milk that cow as along as they could, and after a while the quality started to go down— at least for some films. i love that for you, because if that title doesn't invoke fear into the studio then i don't know what will. i would love to marvel in a spiderman movie, but i don't know if that will ever come.

alright, alright — message received loud and clear. i’m honestly a little scared for the studio now... aussie hell sounds intense, and i fully support it. you’re absolutely right though — if they hadn’t been off making seventeen different spin-offs and squeezing every drop out of the multiverse, maybe we’d already be swinging through another film by now. but hey, i admire the commitment. i’ll consider this your official application to be the voice of the people — and if i do end up in those meetings, i’ll just casually drop, “alycia debnam-carey is not impressed and she’s sharpening her boomerang,” yeah? also, side note — if you ever want to cameo and show them how it’s done, i’m just saying… you'd make a killer addition to the spider-verse.

the universe hates to see us winning, and by winning i mean being in each others lives. how long do you plan to be in london? i'm going to be in the UK here soon for an extended period of time. coming to spend some time with a special friend, so if you happen to be in town we have so much to catch up on. maybe even toss in a little gossip.

I miss you so much it’s actually rude at this point. Honestly, you’re right. It has been way too long and I hate that our lives have turned into a game of schedule Tetris. I just wrapped in London and I’ve got a glorious little window of freedom before my next project kicks off, so yes to dinner. Yes to catching up. Yes to all of it.

he was a waste of time. seems to be a trend for me. i'll just be a little busy after july filming godzilla, but i'm gonna do my best to be at as many games as i can be. i'll keep that in mind. let's just hope i bring the team good luck again this year.

Ah, okay I see. Well, I am sorry. You're right though, and I like the way you're thinking. You're good company to have, so losing that is definitely someone else's loss. You will? That would be even better, and I will send you over when our games are. If there is a city we're in that works the best just let me know, or you can come to Buffalo and watch us at home. If you do, you know that I will give you the full Buffalo tour and show you all the best spots.

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alycia: i think so too. nothing wrong with stepping away as long as you all come back to each other. you boys always seemed to have such a good friendship. i never thought the break was a permanent one. that is the one. it was definitely such a unique project to work on, especially since the whole controversy surrounding the show was so big in australia for the longest time.

luke: not so bad though. we seems to work good as a team. at least so far. already 10+ years in and nobody has walked yet. apple cider vinegar, right? started that a couple weeks ago.

maybe i made you find out through a random headline because you refer to it as the 'new kong movie'. put some respect on godzilla's name and include my favorite radioactive lizard too. if you want my full, honest opinion i'm still in a state of shock about it. i went toe to toe with some pretty big names for this role, and the fact that they chose me is wild. i can't spill the details just yet on what side of the team i'll be on, but i promise as soon as i can you will be the first to know. no more crappy headline news for you, it will come straight from the source.

hold up… lycia. you didn’t think to tell me you’re in the new kong movie? i have to find out through some random headline while scrolling? really? that’s how we’re doing things now? i thought we were tighter than that. i would’ve at least expected a dramatic text like, “guess who’s starring alongside a giant ape?” or something. c’mon, spill—how’d that even happen? and more importantly, are you running from the monster or fighting it? @alyvas

it was very special. i was so blessed to be part of something so big, but you are right about that i was wasted, especially right at the end when i became a special guest star in a show i had helped build from the ground up. tell me about it. that's why i sort of caved and made my tik tok account public. i've only posted once, but i guess if i'm about to be in a huge movie franchise i might as well get used to using that as another form of promo. holy cow— seven ducks? that's a dream. please don't hesitate to send me all of the videos of their little feet paddling along the floor. that's my favorite asmr. stop— i want all of the ducklings! i want all of the pictures once you get them all. i'll live vicariously through you.

Being in a franchise as big as The Walking Dead had to have been pretty special though, right? But I do think you were wasted slightly. Oh, you're right, Social Media is king, it's a lot harder to break into the industry now with the rise of TikTok and AI. That's exactly what it is, just being shut inside your own brain all day, it's so exhausting. But when it all comes together it's so rewarding. Admittedly the ducks are a recent addition and my impulse buy. I went to see a man about a rooster and left with two roosters, and seven ducks. We had talked about getting ducks so it wasn't totally impulsive, perhaps the sheer amount of them... In my defense two of them were parents to three ducklings and I didn't have the heart to separate them. We have a variety of fancy breeds, we've got Indian Runners, a Welsh Harlequin, a Cayuga and the ducklings are cross bred. We'd like to get a Pekin duck, because we named all but two of the ducks after Beatrix Potter characters, so we'd like a Jemima Puddle Duck and only a Pekin will do.

alycia had gotten lost in a state of bliss. since their return from prague to the uk, she had been riding the high of her new found relationship with jamie. a part of her had always hoped they'd end up together. any sort of future she had ever seen for herself involved him, but he had always been out of reach. she never thought she'd be here, standing on the balcony of their suite over looking a city they were going to call home for the time being. she had fully prepared to spend her break from work alone with her thoughts, but this was a better alternative.

alycia had gotten lost in the views of the city from where she stood. there was something so authentic and beautiful about the UK, and she could have gotten lost in the views until her attention was pulled elsewhere. a sense of comfort took over as soon as she felt the embrace of familiar arms around her waist, the hair on the back of her neck standing at full attention when his lips made contact with her skin. he had her so easily wrapped around his finger. "hmm..." there was a playful tone to her voice as she pretended to give some thought to what activities they could do that day. "a stroll through the city does sound tempting, but the idea of spending the whole day in bed with you sounds a lot more tempting." she turned until her back was against the railing, both of her hands settled on his chest as she leaned her entire frame into his. "what do you want to do? a stroll through the city or me?" she teased.

Jamie would admit that it felt a little surreal to him that he and Alycia were now officially a couple, something that he'd wanted to happen for a while but he never thought would. The fact that she had the same feelings for him that he had for her made him feel like he was on top of the world, and there was a part of him that couldn't help but feel a little sad he hadn't said something sooner. They could have been together for a while now had he just gotten the nerve to put himself out there, to tell her what he was feeling. But that didn't matter now, they were together, and Jamie was going to enjoy every second of it, but he was also going to make sure to make up for lost time, because he wanted to spoil her as her boyfriend, not just her best friend.

They had left Prague after his convention was over, and they were now in the UK, and while he was getting prepared for filming, he still wanted to make sure to make time for him and Alycia to do things together. Even though she had told him that she would be happy staying in the small hotel room with him that the studio had booked, he'd still managed to talk the studio into giving him a little bit of an upgrade and at least getting a suite for them so they had a little more room together. It was a gorgeous room, and Jamie felt pretty lucky that it had a lovely balcony, which was where Alycia was right now, and Jamie couldn't help but smile as he watched her from the room. She was so beautiful, and he couldn't help but feel a little giddy in that moment that she was his.

Walking out to the balcony, Jamie approached Alycia and wrapped his arms around her from behind and dipped his head down to press a kiss against her neck. He looked at the view for a moment, wondering what she'd been watching before he'd gotten there, before speaking. "So, how do you want to spend the day today? I have the whole day to focus on you. Do you want to go explore the city for a little while? Maybe find another haunted adventure? Or do you want to stay in the hotel for a while and go back to bed?" He asked the last part in a more teasing tone than anything, but had she picked going back to bed, Jamie would be all for that, of course, because he couldn't get enough of Alycia, and he was pretty sure she knew that. @alyvas

exactly! maybe the little terror gene will skip my kids and go straight to my brothers kids. it's what he deserves for being a pain in my ass for so long. i can understand that. i feel like modeling is much harder to get work, especially after a certain point because the standards that have been set for us, especially women, they feel like a woman can't still be sexy once she turns thirty. that's why i'm so thankful the little bit of modeling i do is for work related photoshoots. i don't think i could cut it in that side of the business long term. that is understandable. hopefully you both can make it, and if not i will carry you both with me in spirit. oh definitely, i think at this point they come as a packaged deal. i've heard that i have a whole heap of people i have to battle for that spot, but i'm fully prepared to duke it out. regardless if you sound like your mum, it's sound advice. i actually have been letting life just happen, and i think it finally threw me a bone— a whole bag of them actually. i think that's a fair deal. i love the way you look at it though. it is just a piece of paper, and it has no real substance to the love that you have for your partner.

that is absolutely right! they will be your little terrors and nobody else could call them little terrors but you because you had to birth them and raise them. haha but i seriously couldn't see you having anything close to a nightmare of a child. you're far too sweet for that. oh most definitely! i feel like it keeps you on your toes. i had a similar situation with modeling. especially after i stepped back from Victoria's Secret. i haven't really had a loss for work but there was a brief period where i wasn't sure of where it was going to come from, especially after i had Elijah. i hide my bumps pretty well but it does get pretty hard to do some of these shoots when you're six to eight months pregnant and about to pop. oh most definitely! if we can, we definitely will be there. i'm sure he'll make the time regardless. i just have to be in NYC a good nine point nine tenths of the time because i've got the boys and i can't just up and move out to Los Angeles. he has been the greatest discovery of 2025 yet. well, him and this little one. but i can kind of lump those two together, right? makes sense? i wouldn't have one without the other. you and Lucy are definitely going to be rivaling at that one. she's already trying to make arrangements to camp out at my place in NYC and feel all up on the little slice. i completely understand you there. but i definitely recommend just going with the flow of things and letting it happen when it happens. don't let time get in your way of doing the things that make you happy just on your own while you are still young. good lord i'm talking like my mother now. i'll make you a deal. how about we all focus on the slice for now and once they're born we can then start obsessing over the engagement ring. i hope he doesn't think that is going to be necessary before i have this little one. because there is absolutely no rush in that from me. i'd be just fine if we never got married. it's just a piece of paper at this point. it doesn't really prove how much love two people have for each other. that can't be shown on paper.

i don't think you ever have to worry about that. you have always made me feel like a queen when i'm with you, and that's not something i take for granted. after being around so many terrible people who have treated me like shit and like a last option, you've reminded me that there are still decent human beings in the world. i wouldn't care if you showed up in a plastic bag. you look good in everything— or nothing at all. i would be a terrible hype woman if i didn't have confidence in all that you do. it helps that i haven't found a single thing you weren't capable of doing. you are magnificent in so many ways. stop— i love your ears. very nibble worthy. i've been lying to myself for so long about how i felt about you. i felt exactly how you did about our friendship, i would have rather had you as just a friend than not at all, and i see now that i've been depriving myself of happiness. you have always been the person i run to when i'm happy or get good news, but you are also the first person i want to run to when i need comfort. you have, and will always be my person, and i want nothing more than to be with you too. i sit back and i try and envision what my future looks like, and all i see is you, and it's beautiful.

I'll never mind when you wake me up, darling, and it won't matter what time it is either. Plus, I always think it's cute when you do it. I'm glad you feel the most spoiled with me, that's how I want you to feel always when you're with me. I love putting you first in every situation, though, because that's what you deserve. I can't imagine doing anything else, you know? I'm also glad to hear that, and I'll make sure I dress to the nines that night just for you, darling. I'm always going to be your biggest support system, that's something that will never change. Look at you saying things that you know will make me blush, love, but thank you. Your confidence in my abilities makes me feel on top of the world, I hope you know that. I had a feeling you'd say I was an elven king, though, and you're welcome to call me baby more often if you'd like, I like that. It's funny, because I've always hated my ears, so I'm laughing a little at the idea of me having pointy ones. I love you too, you know that, and I'm very thankful to have you as my best friend, darling. I wouldn't know what I'd do without you. Plus, it means the world that you take care of me like you do, especially when sometimes I'm not the best at taking care of myself. It's really not out of my reach? I just don't want to ruin our friendship, you know that. I mean, I guess someone would say we probably ruined it a little by sleeping together like we do, but you know what I mean. I want to be with you, though, if that wasn't obvious, and I'm tired of acting like I don't or keeping you at arm's length.