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Confession #2
i don’t know how to get through this pain. i don’t know how to get on with my life. i don’t know how to be happy i don’t know anything. it’s killing me. i don’t know what to do.
It shouldn't be normal for every second you're not distracted to be in absolute agony.
Emotions shouldn't cause this kind of physical pain ALL THE FUCKING TIME.
I heard too many sounds at once and now I am a bitch
Your pain is real.
PATREON
Rupi Kaur
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There’s differences between schizophrenia and schizoaffective order, and lots of people get confused when they hear “schizo” and they think it’s the same thing.
Schizoaffective disorder is kind of a blend between the symptoms of schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. You have mood swings that go back and forth between mania and depression which stem from bipolar disorder, and usually have psychotic symptoms similar to schizophrenia for at least two weeks at a time. In that time you may experience hallucinations, delusions, confused speech of thinking, unusual body movements, lack of emotions or lack of empathy, withdrawal from social activities and social anxiety.
It’s common that people get misdiagnosed (schizophrenia, bipolar, bpd, etc) when they have schizoaffective disorder, because a lot of the symptoms are also symptoms that other mental illnesses and disorders have. Take into consideration if you have a close blood relative who may also have schizophrenia, schitzoaffective disorder, or bipolar, because your risk of developing will be higher. As well as stressful or traumatic events that may have happened to you. These are both things that can cause symptoms to arise. The main difference is the mood disorder that comes with schizoaffective disorder.
There’s 2 types of schizoaffective disorder (depressive type and bipolar type) whereas there are about 8 different types of schizophrenia (paranoid, hebephrenic, catatonic, undifferentiated, residual, simple, cenethopathic, and unspecified schizophrenia).
Doctors treat schizophrenia with antipsychotics and schizoaffective disorder with antipsychotics as well as possibly prescribing a mood stabilizer. These have been considered effective and
Know that you’re not alone, there’s more people out here in this world with the same disorder, even if it is rare. We are here. We are listening. We understand. I was scared shitless and hopeless when I found out about it. Especially because it’s not curable, just treatable. But you can’t let it stop you from living life a full life and neither will I
It hurts me how demonized schizophrenics are and how it is often seen as one of the most frightening disorders by families and even doctors...
And it frustrates me how many assumptions and lack of information and misinformation there is out there on schizophrenia, and how not much light is being shed on trying to understand this disease at all in the slightest really in a helpful or moving forward type of way. Not even really helping families understand the illnesss schizophrenia as well as professionals and even teachers, way more people should be able to assess a mental health crisis or know how to help a mentally ill person/persons
People always are so quick to try to assume what you hear or see if you hallucinate things even the professionals also assume for themselves and they make it out that it's the worst or that's it's gonna be exclusively frightening or only very bad when this is not always 100% the case.
Schizophrenics symptoms are all unique SCHIZO SYMPTOMS ARE ALL UNIQUE...
You can actually have good hallucinations and positive voices or supportive voices in or outside your head. You can also see or hallucinate things that you feel are comforting to you and that are helpful to you.
When I was young I used to see characters I liked in shows walking with me at school and stuff they would talk to me. I've been hearing voices for as long as I can remember but since 12 years old that's when they became the most noticeable from that point on I had assumed everyone heard voices. I was soon to discover that most people don't hear them but I still do hear them to this day.
I'm 23 years old I still hear my voices which are positive and from the particular shows I used to watch during periods of trauma, but maybe that's why they've stuck with me.
I love talking to the voices inside of my own head they often sound to me as if I have my own commentary always set on or something because they often only comment on my every move and thought and emotion or what have you
All I'm saying is you don't have to have 100% bad, scary or frightening hallucinations to be schizophrenic or psychotic you can also experience good and positive and even comforting hallucinations and or symptoms of psychosis for sure...
When someone compares me to my mother i feel something crawl up my throat. I feel sick.
quick question: how the fuck do I get through the rest of my life like this