Always Avoiding My Issues

quick question: how the fuck do I get through the rest of my life like this

have you ever felt like you really want to talk about your feelings but at the same time it’s like “nah no thank you, i’m okay” 

i deserve all kinds of pain.

Writing by Allen Mae (@notebookfairy)

pretty sure everyone in the world is a little disgusted by me

There’s differences between schizophrenia and schizoaffective order, and lots of people get confused when they hear “schizo” and they think it’s the same thing.

Schizoaffective disorder is kind of a blend between the symptoms of schizophrenia and bipolar disorder. You have mood swings that go back and forth between mania and depression which stem from bipolar disorder, and usually have psychotic symptoms similar to schizophrenia for at least two weeks at a time. In that time you may experience hallucinations, delusions, confused speech of thinking, unusual body movements, lack of emotions or lack of empathy, withdrawal from social activities and social anxiety.

It’s common that people get misdiagnosed (schizophrenia, bipolar, bpd, etc) when they have schizoaffective disorder, because a lot of the symptoms are also symptoms that other mental illnesses and disorders have. Take into consideration if you have a close blood relative who may also have schizophrenia, schitzoaffective disorder, or bipolar, because your risk of developing will be higher. As well as stressful or traumatic events that may have happened to you. These are both things that can cause symptoms to arise. The main difference is the mood disorder that comes with schizoaffective disorder.

There’s 2 types of schizoaffective disorder (depressive type and bipolar type) whereas there are about 8 different types of schizophrenia (paranoid, hebephrenic, catatonic, undifferentiated, residual, simple, cenethopathic, and unspecified schizophrenia).

Doctors treat schizophrenia with antipsychotics and schizoaffective disorder with antipsychotics as well as possibly prescribing a mood stabilizer. These have been considered effective and

Know that you’re not alone, there’s more people out here in this world with the same disorder, even if it is rare. We are here. We are listening. We understand. I was scared shitless and hopeless when I found out about it. Especially because it’s not curable, just treatable. But you can’t let it stop you from living life a full life and neither will I

no i dont make sense so stop asking

*spends all of my time alone* perfect! but why am i crazy

no i will never actually talk about my feelings like a normal person, i have tried that and no it didn’t work out so i will just act like everything’s fine until i explode and make some vent post on the internet because i am incapable of taking up emotional real estate without feeling like a Burden