THIS HURTS MORE THAN I IMAGINED IT WOULD

so has anybody’s dad ever actually apologized to them, or is that just an urban legend

i feel too much or nothing at all // from my journal

sketches for out of lust, out of love (2018)

bevin macutay

i was trying to better understand my fear of men, and then i realized it’s like

when you touch a stove your brain remembers it’s hot and so you are afraid of touching stoves

but my brain messed up somewhere along the way, and im afraid of the whole damn kitchen.

make it stop

Your pain is real.

*seductively slips into existential melancholy*