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why am i so stressed out euhrowerhwirw usually im stressed out all of the time but its been so much worse the past like 12 hours

there isn’t anything to be stressed about, like this week is going to be very chill and fun and everything, why is my brain doing this to me D:

Happy Halloween!!!!!! I’m gonna eat so much candy today and then feel really sick afterwards

like okay you dont understand how happy i am about this, like you dont know how many times ive jumped because of sudden noises or have wanted to block stressful noise out like people talking or thunder

my anxiety has always been really bad so im so happy i might (she said she wants to, so her might not necessarily get me them, but i’ll keep my hopes up!) have another way to get my anxiety down

and plus i love music so much, like it’s in my top five things that make me happy. like just thinking about songs that i love makes me smile

AHHHH I CANT BELIEVE MY BIRTHDAY IS ONE WEEK FROM NOW!!!! like even if i dont have high expectations (like last year when we had no plans for anything to do that day) i still wake up feeling a type of happiness i only get on my birthday. like the sudden realization of “what day is it..? ...oh, it’s November 5th!” is like the best feeling... ever

sorry ill stop rambling huhrowier

my mom told me that she wants to get me noise cancelling headphones for my birthday!!!! AHHHHH IM SO EXCITED

my only concern though is that i dont want my mom spending a lot of money on me bc i know they can be pretty expensive.. i looked online and there are some that are like 60 dollars which is pretty good, but y’know, i would feel guilty if it was any more than that

my mom told me that she wants to get me noise cancelling headphones for my birthday!!!! AHHHHH IM SO EXCITED

my only concern though is that i dont want my mom spending a lot of money on me bc i know they can be pretty expensive.. i looked online and there are some that are like 60 dollars which is pretty good, but y’know, i would feel guilty if it was any more than that

finished my math quiz like 20 minutes ago, and im so happy bc ive been stressing about it for like a week and a half lol

tomorrow should hopefully be a more chill day, and then HALLOWEENNNN, YAY (and also my first virtual meeting with my new psychiatrist.. slightly less enthusiastic ‘yay’)

also i just want to ask, but like does anybody else need sympathy and for people to care about you so badly that you do things that are kind of stupid to get it? like i just sent about emails to my teachers about why some of my assignments are unfinished (bc of stress) and I was really digging deep into the whole “im sick and stressed and i couldnt do the homework ): ): D: D:” thing

like one already got back to me and literally the single line “sorry to hear that you’re feeling unwell” fills me with concerning amounts of dopamine

im doing this thing called ~taking a mental health day~ ooooo

also im like slightly sick, but its mostly because im too stressed out to function

im doing this thing called ~taking a mental health day~ ooooo

also im like slightly sick, but its mostly because im too stressed out to function

my birthday is coming up soon and normally i dont like telling other ppl about it, i always feel like im being too self-centered and egotistical, but ive been so deprived of attention and affection this year that if everyone ignores my birthday again like they did last year im gonna have a freaking breakdown man lmao

maybe ill text all of my friends about it (which is like 3 people lol)

I... think I’m almost done! I got all of the main questions done, I just have the 3 questions where I have to draw and explain some models. tho i’ll wait until after dinner to do them (or maybe even tomorrow, i need to also do my English hw and the sci project is due at 11:59 tomorrow) bc rn i have such a huge headache lol

okay, im gonna force myself to finish my science project thats due tomorrow

ill reblog this a couple of times to make updates to try and encourage myself :P

I’ve got the majority left to do, but it should be too bad… i hope

did another, pogchamp

still four left + drawing 3 models, but im getting close! hopefully ill be done before dinner at 6, but honestly it’s taken me two hours to get this far so idk

im doing okay though!

okay, im gonna force myself to finish my science project thats due tomorrow

ill reblog this a couple of times to make updates to try and encourage myself :P

I’ve got the majority left to do, but it should be too bad… i hope

Okay another one done! I’m making slow progress, but it’s progress

okay, im gonna force myself to finish my science project thats due tomorrow

ill reblog this a couple of times to make updates to try and encourage myself :P

I’ve got the majority left to do, but it should be too bad… i hope

WOO I finished one question!!!!!!!!

...40 minutes later

.........okay look at least i did something

okay, im gonna force myself to finish my science project thats due tomorrow

ill reblog this a couple of times to make updates to try and encourage myself :P

I’ve got the majority left to do, but it should be too bad… i hope

okay, im gonna force myself to finish my science project thats due tomorrow

ill reblog this a couple of times to make updates to try and encourage myself :P

I’ve got the majority left to do, but it should be too bad... i hope

i took a really short personality quiz bc i was bored and wtf it’s so accurate

like literally every line describes me 

“Your temperament is melancholic. The melancholic temperament is fundamentally introverted and thoughtful. Melancholic people often were perceived as very (or overly) pondering and considerate, getting rather worried when they could not be on time for events. Melancholics can be highly creative in activities such as poetry and art - and can become preoccupied with the tragedy and cruelty in the world. Often they are perfectionists. They are self-reliant and independent; one negative part of being a melancholic is that they can get so involved in what they are doing they forget to think of others.“

hi so i thought we were celebrating stuff for my step-mom tomorrow but WE’RE ACTUALLY DOING IT TODAY FUCK IM NOT READY FOR SOCIAL INTERACTION 

can i say that i need to do homework?? is that an excuse to hide in my room??? please??????

i want to write stuff but my fingers say no

heres something that mildly bothers me

i really hate the feeling of fabric on my forearm. idk why, i just do. so when i wear long sleeve shirts, i always roll up my sleeves, defeating the purpose of covering the arms for warmth during the cold seasons

so you’d think “okay, so why don’t you just get short sleeve shirts then and not waste your money on clothing that makes you uncomfortable? i mean, unless you like the design on the shirt, it isn’t worth it to keep buying them”

but here’s my dilemma: if u wear short sleeves during fall and winter everyone thinks your weird and they’re all like “woah it’s the middle of December why is that person wearing short sleeves their probably freezing lmao, thats so weird” yes i am freezing but having fabric on my forearm makes me feel like a million bugs are crawling up my arm and down my spine, stop judging me you absolute prick

so.. yeah. also none of my friends use quotev anymore and nobody reads my endless rambling posts that i make so instead im gonna use ~tumblr~! ...and eventually all of my friends will stop using this as well and then ill start using another platform 

Me: I.. I just feel like I'm not good enough sometimes, y'know?

Roman, dramatically sobbing: me too

Imagine your icon being your therapist

it went well :D he rlly liked it and im excited to show my step mom

though i am slightly worried bc i was only preforming for one person, but on her birthday im going to do it for four people (dad, step-mom, older sister, older sister’s boyfriend) so x4 the stress! yay!

so i think (hopefully I will, I might chicken out lol) im going to sing and play a song the piano for the step-moms birthday on monday and in a bit im going to show my dad to see what he thinks and im SCARED AHHHH

so i think (hopefully I will, I might chicken out lol) im going to sing and play a song the piano for the step-moms birthday on monday and in a bit im going to show my dad to see what he thinks and im SCARED AHHHH

I GOT AN 85% ON MY MATH QUIZ WOOOOOO

okay i think i figured it out

so i checked in the mirror and like part of the adult tooth growing in was pressing up against the very back of the baby tooth, so i think thats what caused it to break

so good news, my teeth are in decent health and aren’t spontaneously breaking, but bad news is that it was the very front of the adult tooth that was pressing into the back of the baby one, so the adult tooth is growing in WAYY further back then it should be

ffs

…i just chipped the back of my tooth

thankfully its a baby tooth (yes im almost 15 and i still have baby teeth, shush) so im not worried, but… i was eating corn puffs

...i just chipped the back of my tooth

thankfully its a baby tooth (yes im almost 15 and i still have baby teeth, shush) so im not worried, but... i was eating corn puffs

surprises are so underrated, like getting a gift unprompted or somebody getting food for you but being hush-hush about what it is are like the best things ever

right im tired so ill head off for the night but this was fun! i followed both people and im totally gonna watch next time they stream

i know nobody probably is lol, but if anyone wants to check them out i can give u their links (and plz say yes, theyre both rlly cool)

like that one woman? she was playing guitar and harmonica at the SAME TIME, with the harmonica on this thing around her neck. get on her level

so i was just browsing yt and i came across a video by jacksepticeye where he donated to small twitch streamers, and i though “huh… i mean im kinda poor but maybe i can go to streamers who have like no viewers and leave some nice chat messages or something” and GUYS

You get such a dopamine rush by seeing these people smile and say thanks for following or whatever, it’s so nice seeing these people so happy and content in their small community 

like i found this nice older woman in the music category who is like streaming on twitch and another streaming service on 1 viewer and after she finished singing her song she said “thank you, a girlwhowrites… 6, which is what you call yourself, ahah, for the follow. :)” and i hirweorew i think ive found a new hobby, i highly recommend doing this

OH GOD HE THINKS IM A BOT FUCK

so i was just browsing yt and i came across a video by jacksepticeye where he donated to small twitch streamers, and i though “huh… i mean im kinda poor but maybe i can go to streamers who have like no viewers and leave some nice chat messages or something” and GUYS

You get such a dopamine rush by seeing these people smile and say thanks for following or whatever, it’s so nice seeing these people so happy and content in their small community 

like i found this nice older woman in the music category who is like streaming on twitch and another streaming service on 1 viewer and after she finished singing her song she said “thank you, a girlwhowrites… 6, which is what you call yourself, ahah, for the follow. :)” and i hirweorew i think ive found a new hobby, i highly recommend doing this

okay i built up the courage and i said what he’s doing is rlly cool in the chat! he doesnt have a mic but he said ty in the chat. rn he’s trying to figure out how to make a loop sound good, i mean i think it already sounds great but i have no f/cking clue what is good and what isnt bc i dont know much about the intricacies of music

so i was just browsing yt and i came across a video by jacksepticeye where he donated to small twitch streamers, and i though “huh… i mean im kinda poor but maybe i can go to streamers who have like no viewers and leave some nice chat messages or something” and GUYS

You get such a dopamine rush by seeing these people smile and say thanks for following or whatever, it’s so nice seeing these people so happy and content in their small community 

like i found this nice older woman in the music category who is like streaming on twitch and another streaming service on 1 viewer and after she finished singing her song she said “thank you, a girlwhowrites… 6, which is what you call yourself, ahah, for the follow. :)” and i hirweorew i think ive found a new hobby, i highly recommend doing this

now im listening to this cool guy make some music in this fancy looking music program, i feel too awkward to say hi bc unlike the last person, he’s only streaming on twitch so there isn’t anybody else there to make things feel less awkward :P

maybe ill say something though if i build up the courage lol

so i was just browsing yt and i came across a video by jacksepticeye where he donated to small twitch streamers, and i though “huh… i mean im kinda poor but maybe i can go to streamers who have like no viewers and leave some nice chat messages or something” and GUYS

You get such a dopamine rush by seeing these people smile and say thanks for following or whatever, it’s so nice seeing these people so happy and content in their small community 

like i found this nice older woman in the music category who is like streaming on twitch and another streaming service on 1 viewer and after she finished singing her song she said “thank you, a girlwhowrites… 6, which is what you call yourself, ahah, for the follow. :)” and i hirweorew i think ive found a new hobby, i highly recommend doing this

so i was just browsing yt and i came across a video by jacksepticeye where he donated to small twitch streamers, and i though “huh... i mean im kinda poor but maybe i can go to streamers who have like no viewers and leave some nice chat messages or something” and GUYS

You get such a dopamine rush by seeing these people smile and say thanks for following or whatever, it’s so nice seeing these people so happy and content in their small community 

like i found this nice older woman in the music category who is like streaming on twitch and another streaming service on 1 viewer and after she finished singing her song she said “thank you, a girlwhowrites... 6, which is what you call yourself, ahah, for the follow. :)” and i hirweorew i think ive found a new hobby, i highly recommend doing this

ive been in such a good mood all day, like my mouth hurts from smiling this much :P

but like at the same time, even though everything has gone well today (new asides episode, ritas (icecream), playing among us with my older sister and her friends), i still feel like i should be happier. like obviously im happy, but im still so stressed out and it’s hard to focus on my good mood when ive got butterflies in my stomach bc of stress :(

i’ll try to focus on my happiness though!