Ive Been In Such A Good Mood All Day, Like My Mouth Hurts From Smiling This Much :P

Happy Birthday!!!

thank you!!! :D :D :D also woah ive never gotten an ask before, i can answer this privately? thats cool! i guess ill post it though bc i can... what is the tumblr etiquette?? lol

ty again tho!! im 15 now! and its really weird.. im so old D:

ohh this looks fun and im bored so sure! this is just my general music playlist on yt so some of these songs i havent listened to in awhile :P they’re still good though!

1. Fight - Icon For Hire

2. What’s This? - The Nightmare Before Christmas

3. Delicate - Taylor Swift (8d audio version, ooh)

4. If You Want Love/Lower Your Expectations - Bo Burnham (a cover of it by Jimmy Noonan!)

5. When You’re Evil - Voltaire

6. Goin’ Viral - Cut song from DEH sung by Will Roland

7. Alone - Nico Collins

8. Mind Brand - mashup of english covers of the song (mashup by Yin Yang-p)

9. Let Me Go - Hailee Steinfeld

10. F*ckin’ Perfect - Pink

i was tagged by the wonderful @renison, thank you!!

rules: you can usually tell a lot about a person by the type of music they listen to. put your favourite playlist on shuffle and list the first ten songs, then tag ten people. no skipping!

the 1, taylor swift // popular, wicked // sunset boulevard, sunset boulevard // her voice, the little mermaid // it’s quiet uptown, hamilton // i’m not that girl, wicked // audition (the fools who dream), la la land // some enchanted evening, south pacific // in my dreams, anastasia // stay with me, into the woods

tagging: @cauchemares @crepuscular-shoelace @itss-sunrise @yourelost-itsokay @andrewneils and anyone else who’d like to!!

the tragedy of !badboyhalo, (why his nature is good, not evil)

Okay I'm going to rant abt !bbh (tr!bad and q!bad) cuz i have so many thoughts. normally I put them on twitter but that's too short of a wordcount LOL (based on the little short animatic I did on the "what do you want to be when you grow up?" "kind" audio)

So, beginning with a recap of lore relevant to my post in case some people don't know, starting with bad's home being heaven. We know he was there for a time unquantifiable by human standards, as he was "outside of time" before being booted from heaven onto earth. We also know from recent lore that bad's job has something to do with destruction, killing and possibly bringing about the end of the world. He started this when he made all the dinosaurs extinct, but apparently, he was too early, and heaven(?) locked him away under the Euphrates River in a void-like pit for about a thousand years. Then bad either escaped or was let free, and has roamed the earth for roughly 15,000 years until now, where it seems that his role of destruction is finally ready to be played. Or at least, that's why he's building the cathedral, to get a message from heaven to see if its time to proceed. We also know his kids are waiting for him in heaven, and he probably can't return to them until he completes this mission.

NOW. onto my headcanons and theories. I like to think that bad wasn't always meant for this role, or there was a period of time where he was unaware he'd have to do this. Then, either as a punishment for something he did, or simply because heaven unluckily chose him, bad was turned into an angel of death/fallen angel/angel of the apocalypse. (hence my design changes of him looking like a basic angel and then changing)

I find this so interesting because, despite the selfishness, talk of killing and being insane, and this being his default nature, I disagree completely. His nature isn't to kill, or at least it wasn't something he chose himself. I think that was a result of when he was given his mission and over the period of time under the Euphrates and his 15,000 years of losing people he loves over and over and over and over. Because that sort of thing ruins even the best people, and the fact that bad still has some good in him even after all of this shows just how much "evil" ISN'T his true nature. If it were, then he wouldn't still make attachments, he wouldn't get sad when people die, he wouldn't drink himself into oblivion to cope with the pain of losing people.

If killing were his true nature, he wouldn't care what happens to people around him. But he DOES. Even after everything that's happened to him, he still cares, and that is heartbreakingly beautiful. He knows and says all the time how every mortal he cares about will die, maybe even by his own hand, but he loves anyway. He just can't help it.

His job, his purpose that is forced on him, is to kill and destroy, but deep down, he doesn't even seem to really want to!! Sure, he likes chaos, or the occasional kill, but only when it's not permanent. He doesn't find joy in taking life permanently. You can even look at the pranks he does; he never is truly destructive, only wanting to cause chaos in a way that won't genuinely hurt the other person.

He would never admit it either, to everyone else, he keeps up the perception of someone who kills for fun and doesn't give a shit about any living creature other than himself. Tr!water is right about the way bad lies, because when he says those things, he's lying to himself as well. Trying to convince himself that he doesn't care and he's not like that, because what the hell is he supposed to do? How could he physically cope with the fact that he's always going to love people and he's going to lose them every single time for all of eternity? That's the kind of thing he'll only admit when he's five bottles deep in Mike's lemonade.

That is the tragedy of !badboyhalo. If he were inately evil, his life would be a whole lot easier, wouldn't it? But he isn't, and he's going to keep loving and caring forever because if he hasn't lost that part of him yet, I don't think he ever will, and that is the most upsetting part of his character to me. Born to care, but created to destroy.

...i just chipped the back of my tooth

thankfully its a baby tooth (yes im almost 15 and i still have baby teeth, shush) so im not worried, but... i was eating corn puffs

heres something that mildly bothers me

i really hate the feeling of fabric on my forearm. idk why, i just do. so when i wear long sleeve shirts, i always roll up my sleeves, defeating the purpose of covering the arms for warmth during the cold seasons

so you’d think “okay, so why don’t you just get short sleeve shirts then and not waste your money on clothing that makes you uncomfortable? i mean, unless you like the design on the shirt, it isn’t worth it to keep buying them”

but here’s my dilemma: if u wear short sleeves during fall and winter everyone thinks your weird and they’re all like “woah it’s the middle of December why is that person wearing short sleeves their probably freezing lmao, thats so weird” yes i am freezing but having fabric on my forearm makes me feel like a million bugs are crawling up my arm and down my spine, stop judging me you absolute prick

so.. yeah. also none of my friends use quotev anymore and nobody reads my endless rambling posts that i make so instead im gonna use ~tumblr~! ...and eventually all of my friends will stop using this as well and then ill start using another platform 

I GOT AN 85% ON MY MATH QUIZ WOOOOOO

Made some .gifs for the new Asides episode!

They’re not perfect but I tried lol, spoilers under the cut:

“Stop ignoring me!”

right im tired so ill head off for the night but this was fun! i followed both people and im totally gonna watch next time they stream

i know nobody probably is lol, but if anyone wants to check them out i can give u their links (and plz say yes, theyre both rlly cool)

like that one woman? she was playing guitar and harmonica at the SAME TIME, with the harmonica on this thing around her neck. get on her level

so i was just browsing yt and i came across a video by jacksepticeye where he donated to small twitch streamers, and i though “huh… i mean im kinda poor but maybe i can go to streamers who have like no viewers and leave some nice chat messages or something” and GUYS

You get such a dopamine rush by seeing these people smile and say thanks for following or whatever, it’s so nice seeing these people so happy and content in their small community 

like i found this nice older woman in the music category who is like streaming on twitch and another streaming service on 1 viewer and after she finished singing her song she said “thank you, a girlwhowrites… 6, which is what you call yourself, ahah, for the follow. :)” and i hirweorew i think ive found a new hobby, i highly recommend doing this

no need to come by my inbox if you dont have time!! 

fav: roman

janus

logan

virgil

least favs (still love them though): remus and patton

reblog this with a ranking of your favorite sanders sides characters and i’ll drop by your inbox to dissect your personality