Im SOBBING

my parents have had a phone longer than i have why do i know more than they do😭😭😭😭 they dont know what theyre doing

yay me i FINALLY posted chapter two

"you need to listen to your brother talk about his interests and entertain him"

oh, but when i want to tell you guys about history or do flag trivia or show you something related to that suddenly im obnoxious about my interests and i never stop talking about them and no one wants to hear about it?

you know, have favoritism all you want, but at least pretend its not as bad. you get mad at me for having a discord server with people i dont know but at least when theyre not really sharing my interest THEY STILL GIVE A SHIT ABOUT WHAT I SAY.

me when i tried to play my story so i could hear how it sounds out loud and on the google doc i have warnings on it and a teacher walks by and basically hears some part of this

(Warning: This story depicts themes of child neglect, war, abuse, death, trauma, and injury. Viewer discretion is advised.)

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i hope they dont remember my face because yesterday i was listening to a serial killer podcast...

no way i posted my absolute freak out

im sure its fine im very normal about it...

no im not 😭

yeah idk what i am anymore

nevermind, my family is the walk on eggshells family. its just not all the time. either you have to constantly walk on eggshells the entire day or hours with my father and my mother does nothing about him, or its around both of them, or its around all three of my family members, so my parents and my brother, because my brother will get all touchy and the second i upset him even if its not even my fault i'm getting yelled at.

but like then i think about the kids who have worse off than i do and like...my problems aint that bad. yeah my dad told me im not allowed to say no to him when he wants a hug or anything like that, which is kind of weird but its not like he did anything. yeah, my dad threatens to beat the shit out of me (exact wording) but he only ever hits me when he snaps or when i was younger. yeah my mom told me it would be cheaper if i killed myself but i'm not sure she meant it.

i mean yeah, sometimes they do or say stuff that that really hurts (like today my dad treated me like an inconvenience because right now im on crutches and he even said no matter what i do i'll end up being one because he thought that would make me feel better) but like its not like...they're abusive??? i dont think so i mean yeah some stuff really really sucks and all but they dont hurt me physically

man im bouta make myself a sticker chart for doing homework cause my parents aint giving me any positive reinforcement

just kidding haahhahahahahahahhgjgsk

heres the question-

do we have prussia and russian empire do friend things but just treat it as 'you're a guest, and my ally' and that's it or they are pretty just standoffish and suddenly theyre skipping through flower fields (russian empire's garden /hj)

@mouse-rain YOU!!! decide for me pleaseeee :(

wife took too long we're going a wheel smh /lh

went to bed at two something and woke up at five and absolutely ready for the day :D