Unrequited Feelings - Blog Posts

Relatable post that I dont want to relate to.

me giving affection: oh man i really hope im not like overstepping my boundaries here. what if i make them uncomfortable? do they feel obligated to say thank you? am i going too far and scaring them? what if i’m annoying?

me receiving affection: AAAAAAAAA!!!!! AAAAAAA!A!!!!!!!AAAAAAAAAAAA

And so I will stay.

sometimes I wonder how we all survive and then I look at my best friends and I go “oh, I survive because I don’t want to leave you yet” and it makes sense. life is so hard a lot of the time, but I want one more bowl of pasta with you.

She isn't On tumbler

i wanna date someone and live with them in a shitty apartment but be happy about it because we are happy together and we can decorate it with stupid dorky posters of shit we like and figurines and art and we can cook weird recipes we found on the internet and eat them and watch cartoons even if the food is gross because we made it and we’re perfect

When I was young

Alone in my time of need

An angel came to me

He offered to be my shield

If I could show him selfless beauty

So I became an artist

When I got a bit older

In my time of need

I called for the Monster

He offered to keep me sane

if I could help those in need

as an exchange

So I became a listener

When I was at my breaking point

The devil spoke to me

He offered me his silver tongue

In exchange of letting him feel loved

So I became a refuge for all

Then I met you

And i saw tears in your eyes

Came a voice

A feeling blooming

I couldn't deny

If you are to be the moon in the sky

I'd be the darkness by your side

Always in sight but never in reach

So I became a beast

A wolf longing for you for all time

The other three turned to you too

As the world lost meaning

And now you are gone

And we hate everything

It's my 3 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

Happy birthday to us I would like the opportunity to warn everyone. I am getting worse.

Introducing

Der Monster, The one who helps, the narcissist.

Seb, The silver tongued devil, the bard.

Arty, the Wordserker, the friendly neighborhood nice guy.

Wolf, we don't talk about this.

NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT GOOD ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUG NOT STRONG ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUGH NOT STRONG ENOUGH ...............................RAGE

Tell me pretty lies

Look me in the face

Tell me that you love me

Even if it's fake

Cause' I don't fucking care

At

All

I am not afraid of death, nor am I afraid of an unlived life.

But I am afraid of growing old, without you by my side.

I never try to leave because I worry that if I try to leave, you won't even try to stop me.

I am the disease that inflicts this world.

She is the one that keeps me at bay.

If she is taken from this world.

The world will die a slow agonizing death.

I am here and I am not going anywhere

In life, and in death,

In this life, and the next,

I will stay by your side,

Till the end.

I have heard that self love is survival. But for me it's my love for you that keeps me going.

Even as my hate for the world and self pushes me to end it all.

I wonder what it will take for you to love me back.

What it would take you to choose me.

But at the end of the day, This isn't something that is in my hand.

Is it love that you are only one I have ever longed for?

Is it love that you are the core of all my happy memories?

If yes,

Then whatever you do,

Whether you choose me or not,

I only ask that you let me love you

Wholeheartedly.

How do you tell someone that the reason  

       you are happy is because they texted.

It's so embarrassing how even small words from you make me happy.

I feel so helpless.

I'll drink to that. (drinks water)

I'm going to bed.

I don't want to be awake anymore.

I rather NOT think of her and miss her.

So bed it is.

You ask me If I'm okay

The answer is always no,

So long as you are away.

I second this. I see no point in staying where I am not needed. If it's always me running after you. It feels like I want you while you simply tolerate me out of politeness.

I cannot be the only one to initiate everything in my relationships anymore I’m going to go insane I need to be needed

I understand this and I understand why people would subscribe to this school of thought but I don't agree.

This, feels disingenuous. Like something we know we should do but we can't because it feels like a lie. Maybe it's just me and I need to grow up. But progress in my life doesn't really mean that I am letting go. They are Always will be my priority.

If I miss someone I will go. I have no honor in face of them. No shame. And it's true that it's important to create value through absence. But I can't create my absence because at the end of the day just want them to be happy and I can't stay away. So no hope either.

Me: Doc, I miss her too much. Not sure what to do.

Doc (also Me): Murther when feeling sappy / shy. Destiel when feeling numb / sad. Hannigram when feeling helpless / hopeless.

My longing for you makes all my close     

       friends angry. I don't blame em.

If only I could sleep forever. 🙃

I write for you because I can't kiss you. So I hope my words would.

I wish I could let you go. I say as I get

       comfy in bed, hoping to dream of you again.

It's not like I love you. I just keep fantasizing

       but our futurr life  together these past weeks.

Thank God I dreamt of her again.

When I prayed I didn't think God would listen. Now she is taken from My dreams. Damn. Where do I call to rectify this?

I dream of you every night.

Every morning I lose you.

Everyday I pray to God—Either stop her from invading my dreams or don't wake me up.

Tumbler needs a separate button for call-out posts.

characters who view themselves as tools/weapons first and people second... characters who martyr themselves for a cause because they think that's the only way they can be worth something... characters who push themselves past their breaking point again and again and again... characters for whom devotion and masochism are inseparable... characters whose self-sacrifice becomes self-annihilation...... what was my point again? i had a point. anyway.

🥺

gimme that both doing our own thing in the same space, comfortable and listening to music but we occasionally kiss and joke around kinda love

101 ways to say I love you.

Let's do nothing together

I started that novel series you really like

I took a nap in the afternoon so we can talk late night 

When you were gone I took care of your plants

Call me when you get home

I made your favorite dish today since you're sad

I came home early and washed the dishes beforehand.

Sleep in today, I will make breakfast

Put your seatbelt on

I haven't watched any new episodes, I will watch with you 

I made these notes for you to help study

You drool in your sleep

You are a dumbass

I'm silly when I am with you

We share a whole brain cell between us

I saved you the last bite

Try this, it's delicious.

I saved you a seat

You're My only idiot

See this funny thing I found

No one else gets to make your life hell.

Never had this much fun before.

You are my blorbo

Never change

I wish you were here

Stay

Come here

Get in here

I got you

Whenever I get a notification I hope it's you.

You are my favorite person

I'd come with you.

I miss you too much 

Come back quick

Hold me.

Give me your hand.

Let me help.

Show me where it hurts.

I'm here.

I wish you were here.

I wish we had met sooner.

It's so peaceful beside you

I will watch over you.

Sleep well, I'm here.

No one should look so cute eating ice-cream.

I love your eyes 

Have this weird nickname.

No one is worthy of your tears.

You are crazy but you are my crazy.

Your name always puts a smile on my face.

Take your time, I'm here.

I am proud of you 

You inspire me

I'd rather have you, good and bad.

You say lovinging you is a mistake, Not to me not if it's you 

Don't go where I can't follow 

I need you

I want to be inconvenienced by you 

I'd be here if you need me 

I'm not going anywhere

If you are happy so am I 

You say you have to go, When do we leave?

I see you

I want you

Stay safe 

Your smile Is infectious

I miss the sound of your voice.

You can stay as long as you want

Let's travel the world together

Even when the world turns against you I'd be beside you

I'd stay by your side

I'd kill anything that scares you

I'm with you till the end

I prayed for you

Please stop hurting yourself.

Mine

I want you to be happy with me or without me

I don't want to be happy without you

We should stay together, with pets.

till the last Breath 

As you wish

You deserve the world

Let's rule together

I will give up everything in a heartbeat.

You're the only thing in this world that I don't hate.

Where you go I will follow.

As long as it's you

There is no me if there is no you

I wish to dream of you tonight.

Be mine.

My kind side is for you only.

You're my home.

You will always have a home beside me.

You changed me

You are worth it.

Let me hold you.

Hush, I'm here now.

My peace.

The world is irrelevant.

I won't ever let go.

I'd burn the world to keep you warm.

100 ways to say I love you. — Coming soon.