Tw Sui - Blog Posts
this is exactly why we hate the system community
good job ruining it
telling a harmless group to die is disgusting behavior
daily reminder to tumblr themselves endos and tulpas should all hang themselves for being ableist!! created plurality is not a thing.
sometimes i forget cvtting urself n sui thoughts arent just silly goofy things
i wish i could dissapear, remove myself from reality, become one with death.
do those feeling ever go away? will i always be like this? will i break one day and give in? should i even care about my future if i don't know how long i'll last?
sorry if this is too much i just feel like i'm so close to giving up.
(changed cuz i honestly hate my original response)
ermmm idk how to comfort ppl n all so im not rlly gonna talk about it... n im the worst person to get advice or anything whatsoever from... but ty for expressing ur thoughts to me through this ask of urs!! just know i appreciate u for still being here :3
(sorry idk im not positive myself so i cant give advice without it going "yeah u should do it")
It makes me feel a bit better that you like me. Don't know why though. Maybe because I ask questions people never really bother to ask or maybe I'm just that weird to ask them. But nonetheless. You giving me that small hope you can actually like me does something to my brain. Nothing perverted of course. Just that maybe we could be friends... maybe I could have you as my only friend, just mine and I am yours. But then it kinda hurted when you said you wanted to die. To make friends with someone like that again. Not saying you aren't a wonderful person because you could so be a wonderful person, just hurts to hear a potential friend wants to die and I don't know if I'll be ready to add another person to my list to save even though I need as much as saving as them.
Just, I hope you treat yourself well no matter how you die. Hope you give yourself a treat in any shape or form because I think you deserve at least one treat even if you can't fathom giving yourself one or don't want to. We only live once so even if you only get one kind thing in this world, whether it gets ripped out of your hands later in life, I hope you just enjoy the moment whatever treat you give yourself.
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im rlly glad i could even be ever so slightly impactful to how u feel tbh :] but sorry for making u feel hurt in any way. idk im prob a bit too insensitive regarding how ppl feel n tend to throw a bunch of gloom all over their face without a second thought about howd theyd react. so so sorry genuinely!! dont feel pressured to be a "savior" or that one therapist friend to others like me just because theyre struggling themselves. you deserve as much help, but dont deserve to carry burdens of others just because it feels like the right thing. its not your job or an obligation to comfort others and all. just being there like giving asks like these are enough and already so much, which itself is still not a requirement. so dont feel responsible for such a thing. u dont need to prove anything or whatever negative thought that may pop up! ^^ tytytyty sm for ur words!! stuff like this touches the heart i never knew i had n is something i cherish sm. it just gives that warm feel good feeling in ur brain uve talked abt urself earlier..! like this message also applies to u cuz obv u deserve things in life that arent just pain n crap, so i really REALLY appreciate u a lot, for this, for u urself, n more. ty > <
things i drew at a public library after a suicidal break from reality
Sighsss...i should probably sleep soon unfortunately
Maybe the thoughts will be gone in the morning
A Basil from OMORI inspired poem (Neutral ending, Basil's suicide)
The flowers are stuck in my head, and I can't take them off.
Now there's none, and I don't need to wear them anymore.
I remember I catched the eye of something right beside me.
It talked to me, but I couldn't understand it.
Maybe it tried to tell me out of it, but I couldn't hear.
Maybe it was encouraging me, and so I did.
Now I am laying in my bedroom wall, Sheers in hand.
I can't smile, but that's ok. At least they won't ever know the truth.
I think of my grandmother, and how sad she would probably feel.
I can't help but feel calm, as the hole in me continues to bleed my life away.
"It's fine now, everything is ok. They won't know the truth, so your safe now, Sunny."
