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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: Break in.  Y/N talks bout her abusive ex and violent things he did to her. Sad but something at the end will make you guys go crazy!! ;)

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I was going to wait a little bit more but couldn’t hold myself! Enjoy!! If you are in an abusive relationship please leave that person, trust me it doesn’t get better. Love you all!!! <333 :)))

Chapter 6

A week after the movie night she went to her therapist, Mrs. Smith was surprised when Y/N greeted her with a genuine smile.

‘‘You seem happy, what happened?’‘ Mrs. Smith asked, Y/N gave her the notebook and sat down. ‘‘Read it to find out.’‘ after five minutes of reading the therapist closed the notebook, and laid it on her table.

‘‘So you met someone?’‘ she asked, ‘‘Yes. And it is safe to say that we are... friends. Look, I have a friend, shocking right?’‘ Y/N laughed hysterically.

‘‘When I read the notebook your relationship whit him didn’t seem like a friendship Y/N.’‘  Mrs. Smith said while picking her pencil.

‘‘What do you mean?’‘ young girl asked but she already understood what Mrs. Smith was trying yo say, she was just trying to avoid or stall her.

‘‘Do you like him in a more than friends  way?’‘ That was the question that made Y/N afraid. The voices in her head kept asking that question whenever she was with Tom.

‘‘You wrote that you met his mother, this is a huge step for both of you.’‘ Mrs. Smith continued.

‘‘It wasn’t on purpose.’‘ Y/N replied shortly.

‘‘Y/N please, stop ignoring my question. What we do here is to guide you, and find answers to questions.’‘  she was taking notes while talking.

Y/N’s hands were on her lap, she was nervous and her therapist noticed.

‘‘I know that you swore you’ll never be in a relationship again. But we humans are social animals Y/N, we cannot hide from human connection,and intimacy and these things are a part of-’‘ Y/N had a sudden bravery,  ‘‘Yes, I like him.’‘ she finally said, feeling lighter with her confession.

Mrs. Smith smiled to see her progress, ‘’Good. We are getting somewhere. What do you like about him?’’ Just thinking about Tom made her blush, ‘’He is so thoughtful, I can see that he is trying to be more gentle when we are together. I haven’t told him about my... past  but he is smart.’’ 

‘‘Would you like to tell him some day?’‘

‘‘I want to but I don’t want to scare him off. We have a profound friendship, and I don’t want that to go away.’‘ she admitted sincerely.

‘‘What you feel is natural, and when the right moment comes I think you should tell him. Let’s come to my second important question, do you think he likes you? Because what I’ve read tells me that he is trying to be close to you, and like you said he is deliberately being gentle. So, what do you think?’‘

‘‘No.’‘ This time she didn’t wait or hesitate to answer. ‘‘You sound so sure. Why?’‘

She was trying to scratch the green paint off her fingers, ‘’Because he is being friendly close, friendly gentle. I am a friend to him and to be honest I doubt that he wants a problematic partner in his life.’’ she couldn’t look at Mrs. Smith in the eye. 

‘‘Y/N, you are not problematic. When I look at you I see a young, beautiful painter who is trying to survive like others.’‘ Y/N rolled her eyes, ‘‘Thank you but you haven’t seen how gorgeous he is. He should be with someone who is gorgeous like him, and that someone is not me.’‘ It hurt her to talk about her thoughts out loud but that’s what she felt.

After the session she had to throw herself outside to breath, and saw the colours of Christmas dancing harmoniously. Red, green, gold, white colours where everywhere, she had this sudden urge to finish her secret project.

Yes, she was secretly painting Tom. It was on a little canvas, well it wasn’t actually Tom, it was his misunderstood character Loki, and her plan was to give it to him when she was done and she was close to finishing.

She quickly went home to paint, and she got a text from Tom.

Tom: Hey Y/N! Can I call you? There is something that I want to ask you.

Her heart skipped a beat, did she do something wrong?

Y/N: Yes, I’m free. You can call.

She stared at the little canvas before her until her phone rang.

‘‘Hello darling.’‘ he sounded nervous.

‘‘Hi Tom.’‘ They talked about their day for few minutes and than Tom finally got to his point.

‘‘Y/N, tomorrow is Christmas, so do you have any plans?’‘ Y/N thought for a second, her plan was to call her parents, and eat alone on her couch, and she was planning to watch The Grinch.

‘‘No, I don’t have an actual plan. Why?’‘ 

‘‘Because, my mother insists that you should spend your Christmas with us. By us I meant mom, me, and my two sisters including their partners.’‘

Tom was on his couch, Bobby on his side, he was staring at the telly but his looks were empty. She didn’t answer at first, and that made him uneasy. Did he went too far?

‘‘I’m sorry, I know how you feel about crowded places. I shouldn’t have asked-’‘ he felt so embarrassed like a school boy.

‘‘I will come.’‘ she blurted out.

‘‘You will?’‘ He couldn’t help but sound desperat, he wanted to spend the Christmas with her so badly.

‘‘Yes. Don’t forget to send me the address.’‘ She felt like she couldn’t breath, what was she getting herself into?

‘‘I want to pick you up if that’s okey with you?’‘ he asked biting his lip, she could hear his uneven breathing.

‘‘That would be great. See you tomorrow.’‘ she had to hang up because she had an idea.

‘‘Yeah, bye.’‘

She planned to spend hours and finish the Loki painting, and give it to Tom when he comes to pick her up. She enthusiastically waggled her brushes and got to work.

Tom exhaled a dramatich sigh, he was so happy but nervous at the same time, and he felt like his heart was about to jump out of his rib cage. He placed the satin, black box on the table and smiled to himself.

She finished the painting at 5 in the morning, she gave it a last look before going to bed, Y/N was quite pleased with her work, and hoped that he would like it.

When she woke up she wrapped the present and went to her wardrobe.

 ‘’Why did you agree anyway?’’ the voices started again, ‘’Now you have to impress his family which is not an easy job.’’      Y/N brushed the thoughts away and picked her outfit. Black and dark red lace dress, black pumps, her dress had a nice V neckline.

She covered the sleep deprivation with a natural make up. She heard the knock on the door and it brought her to reality. ‘’You got this.’’ she whispered to herself and walked to the door.

Tom felt like he was lost for words, she was indeed beautiful,Y/N was shocked to see him with a nice black suit and dark red tie and a handkerchief. It was as if they agreed on the same colours.

‘‘May I come in?’‘ he cleared his throat and asked. ‘‘Yes, please come in.’‘ They walked to her living room. ‘‘You wait here, I’ll be getting my purse.’‘

Tom couldn’t help but stare at her leave. He sat on the couch. She got back with her purse, one hand behind her back. They both talked at the same time and then laughed, ‘’Ladies first.’’ Tom said. ‘’I have a present for you Tom.’’ her Y/E/C eyes were shining.

He gently opened his present, Y/N was on edge ‘’What if he doesn’t like it?’’

‘‘Y/N...’‘ he was staring at the splendid painting. She got close to him, ‘‘What do you think?’‘ their eyes met, ‘‘It’s an exquisite gift. I am lost for words. You are so thoughtful. Thank you, can’t wait to put this on my bedroom’s wall.’‘

Y/N smiled proudly, he gently put his present on the table and reached for his pocket. A black velvet box appeared, ‘’Would you mind turning your back?’’ he asked, they were so close and none of them realized that they were whispering, their breaths were dancing on each other’s faces. She turned her back, and heard him open the box.

He reached to lay the necklace on her neck, his arms brushed her shoulders. He noticed that she didn’t flinch, it was a good sign. She turned to him touching the necklace. It’s shape was heart diamond. ‘’Tom, I don’t know what to say. You shouldn’t have.’’ He was pleased to see the fascination on her Y/E/C eyes. ‘’Y/N, please. I want to do things for you. You are important to me.’’

He held her waist, ‘’Did you like it?’’ 

‘‘Yes, I really loved it’s shape.’‘ she blushed. ‘‘I have choosen it specifically.’‘ Yes he did choose it’s hape because he wanted her to sense how he feels but slowly. He didn’t want to scare her off.

‘‘Mr. Hiddleston, are you trying to give me your heart metaphorically?’‘ She joked but her smile faded away when she saw how serious he was. ‘‘Tom, is something wrong?’‘ She thought she said something bad. ‘‘You don’t know it, do you?’‘ he asked, getting closer to her, his hands were still on her soft waist his eyes begging for her to understand but all she saw was a wild ocean, uneasy with confusing thoughts.

‘‘Know what?’‘ She reached for to cup his cheek, he laid his head on her touch. If he or she reached a little more their lips would met but neither of them was sure to take this step. It was so easy for them to be lost in each other’s eyes.

Tom’s phone rang. She noticed how close they were so she took a step back, he answered his phone. ‘’It’s my mom, she asked what is taking us so long. Shall we leave?’’ he smiled like nothing happened. They left her house and got into his car.

Before entering Diana’s house she was so nervous but his family proved to her that there was nothing to be nervous about. They were all nice, funny people who welcomed her. Diana’s Christmas dinner was to die for and Y/N took few recepies. She helped her in the kitchen while others were in the living room.

‘‘So he finally decided to give you the necklace?’‘ Diana asked, Y/N was confused, ‘‘What do you mean by finally?’‘ Diana smiled at her, ‘‘He consulted me at first, asked me if it would be too much. I said nonsense buy the girl the necklace.’‘ They both giggled, ‘‘I just want you to know that you are really important to my boy, and to me as well. I’m glad I met you Y/N.’‘ her blue eyes were fixed on Y/N. ‘‘Thank you Diana. I am so glad I met you and your family.’‘

Throughout the night she became friends with every one which made Tom happy, the night went very well and they left quite late. During the car ride they talked about how much fun they had, Tom was pleased to hear that Y/N enjoyed herself.

When he parked close to her home he noticed something, he pointed at her apartment, ‘’I don’t remember you leaving the lights on. Do you?’’ he asked concerned. ‘’No, because I didn’t leave the lights on.’’ She felt the fire of panic in her. ‘’Let’s remain calm, I’ll go and look around. You stay here.’’ Said Tom, unbuckleing his safety belt but Y/N stopped him by touching his arm. ‘’I won’t let you go there alone.’’

‘‘But Y/N-’‘ she unbuckled, ‘‘Tom it’s my house. If something happened to it I would like to see.’‘ they left the car together. Her land lady was out of town for Christmas so Y/N mentally noted that she should call the old lady if it was a robbery.

Her door was wide open, lights were on, and everything was a mess. Chairs, tables were broken. Pillows were torn apart. She rushed to see her paintings and what she feared was before her eyes. Canvases were ripped, brushes broken. Tom followed her to see the devastating place.  She saw the little note on one of her paintings. It said; ‘’Found you.’’ 

She sinked to the ground, her legs were too tired to carry her and she screamed. Tom reached to hold her in his arms. She was shaking, crying heavily.

Tom noticed the note she was holding. ‘’Who could do something like this!?’’ she didn’t answer, ‘’I am going to call the police.’’

After a 20 minutes of crying she finally managed to stop, Tom put his jacket on her sunken shoulders and police arrived.  A police officer approached to Y/N and asked her some questions. Tom was also  being questioned.

‘‘We searched the whole flat, nothing is stolen so this must be a message.’‘ One of the officers pointed at the note. ‘‘Do you have enemies Ms. Y/L/N? Someone who wants to hurt you?’‘ 

Y/N’s eyes were fixed on the ground, Tom noticed how uncomfortable she was. ‘’Officer we are really tired, can Y/N come to the police station tomorrow?’’ he wanted them to leave. ‘’Mr. Hiddleston I know this is hard for both of you but we have to do our job.’’

‘‘I know who did this.’‘ Y/N spoke, her voice was shaking. ‘‘My ex fiance. He is the one who would do something like this.’‘

‘‘What’s his name?’‘ Officer asked while taking out his notebook. ‘‘James Prendick.’‘ She replied. Tom noticed how disturbed she was by only saying that person’s name. After at least 10 minutes of questioning officers left and the whole flat went silent.

‘‘Pack your things.’‘ Tom said, his tone was firm he didn’t want to sound angry or anything like that but the way she looked at him changed. ‘‘I am sorry Y/N, I just... I won’t let you stay here more than 5 seconds. If he was the one who did this that means he will try to harm you again.’‘ She could see how tired and concerned he was. 

‘‘I have nowhere to go.’‘ She replied coldy, he felt a heavy rock on his chest, she was indeed lonely and that needed to stop. ‘‘If it is okey with you, would you like to stay at my place? You saw my home it is enough for both of us.’‘ he suggested.

‘‘Tom, you are always too kind. I really don’t want to cause you any trouble.’‘ Their eyes met, just an hour ago she was laughing at his mother’s jokes and now he could see how broken she was. ‘’Y/N, you won’t cause any trouble. To be honest if you say no I’m planning on kidnapping you.’’He made her chuckle. ‘’Wait in the car, I will pack my things.’’

‘‘Home sweet home.’‘ said Tom looking at Bobby who greeted them at the door. She placed his jacket on the hanger, and walked inside. ‘‘Where should I put my things?’‘ She looked around like a lost puppy. ‘‘The guest room is upstairs... but there is another option.’‘ she could see the childish grin on his face. ‘‘Don’t even think about it Hiddleston!’‘ 

The guest room was better than her room, it had a king sized bed, two chairs, and a wardrobe but no shower only toilet. She felt like she needed a good shower and she called out from upstairs, ‘’Tom! Can I use your shower?’’ soon later she heared him from the living room ‘’Yes! No problem.’’

She walked into his bedroom, she could see the reflection of him everywhere, it was characteristic. Big bed with dark blue sheets, brown nightstands, a huge brown wardrobe. She walked into the bathroom, it was clean and shiny. She undressed and folded her clothes and laid on the bathtub which she filled with hot water. She laid her head on the cold tub, closed her eyes and tried hard to not cry but when the first sob left her shaking lips she let go. It’s been a while since she was scared like this.

‘‘Is he back?’‘ even thinking about the posibility made her shiver under the hot water, she was scratching her legs and her arms to stop the crying, and left nail marks. Tom took care of little things in the living room and climbed the stairs. He went to his room to check if it was presentable, and he heard her. He slowly approached to the bathroom door and listened, she was crying. He had this sudden urge to walk in and wrap his arms around her, and tell her that everything is going to be okey. He had to take a step back to stop himself from fulfilling his urge. He knocked on the door.

‘‘Yes?’‘ she was sniffing, ‘‘I was just checking if you were okey. I made tea, you can join me in the living room.’‘ he tried to sound joyful. ‘‘I’ll be out in a minute.’‘

She dried herself, celaned the tub and wore her over-sized shirt. The shirt was long enough to cover her bottom, and she was too tired to think if it was okey to walk around Tom like this. She went down stairs to find him with Bobby and sipping his tea. Even though she was bare foot he heard her light footsteps. 

‘‘Hi.’‘ He finally said after looking up and down on her form, he scooted over and gestured her to sit next to him. ‘‘I am sure you have a lot of questions.’‘ She said after petting Bobby for a while. ‘‘Yes.’‘ He replied. ‘‘But you are kind enough to stay silent.’‘ 

‘‘Y/N,’‘ he held her hands ‘‘You know a lot of things about me but when I think about you... I know just few things. I respect your choices but I wish I knew more, so that I could help you.’‘ he was honest, she could see it in his eyes. Y/N remembered what her therapist said, ‘‘When the right moment comes you should tell him.’‘ 

She slowly got up from her seat, turned off the lighst, and sat back. Tom was confused, it was really dark. ‘’I will tell you everything Tom.’’ She said. ‘’Why did you turn off the lights?’’ he asked, ‘’Because I don’t want you to see me cry when I tell you my tale.’’ 

She took a sip from her tea and started to talk; ‘’I was 18 and a Freshman in college, one day my roommate and her boyfriend told me that there was a party and we all went together. The house belonged to my ex abusive fiance who was a Senior and 22 years old. When it comes to Freshman and Senior relationship it generally isn’t the most innocent type.

Everyone loved James, he was an active person. When we started to see each other he was so nice, and my friends were jealous of me, because he always bought me things and took me to places. By the way he comes from a rich family, I wasn’t in it for the money, anyways I really liked him. First month in our relationship he slapped me because I wasn’t paying attention to him.’’

She had to take a breath, ‘’It was the first red flag, and I know I should’ve left him but I was a naive little girl who thought she could fix everyone. I stayed with him through college and we got engaged but he got worse.’’

She chuckled sadly to herself and continued, ‘’One time I didn’t agree with him on a minor subject and he kicked me out of the car, forced me to walk without my shoes and socks.’’  Y/N felt Tom reaching out and holding her hands, his gesture brought smile to her lips. 

‘‘The last straw was when he beat me with his belt, I couldn’t take it anymore and talked to my parents. They helped me leave him but it wasn’t enough so I left my town, changed my phone number. The last thing he said to me was ‘I will find you bitch.’ and now he found me.’‘

When she was done talking they sat in silence. Tom had to process, ‘’Well, you wanted to know, now you know.’’ she said, sadness dripping from her sweet tounge. Tom found her cheeks in the dark and whipped away the tears. ‘’You don’t have to feel sorry for me Tom.’’ He was gently brushing her wet cheeks, and he did something he thought he would never have the courage to do. ‘’Tom please, say something.’’ She begged, because Y/N didn’t want to lose him. Now their eyes got used to the darkness, Tom’s hands never left her cheeks and he kissed her.

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: Mama Hiddleston alert!!! She is so nice :)))

TAG LIST IS OPEN! 

Comments are welcomed ;)) Sorry for the delay I had to study because I have my exams next week :( Hope you guys like it :))

Chapter 5

Tom’s head rested on the cab’s window. He was watching the outside, snow was everywhere, and it made the streets calmer than usual and Christmas was close. 

‘‘She clearly wanted me to stay. God I’m so stupid.’‘ he thought to himself. 

He did want to stay, her little home was friendly and cozy and her company kept his mind at ease. It’s only been a few days but Tom felt like he finally found someone who he can spend good time with, someone to talk to, someone who can understand him. The only problem was that he could hurt her feelings with a single action without even realizing, because she was a sensetive girl who was recoviring from her past life, and it scared him. 

‘‘Who knows what horrible things she’s been through?!’‘

He realized that he could help her situation.

She was obviously suffering from lack of affection, she had no one to go to, so he decided he could be the one who she can go to, talk to.

The car stopped, ‘’Young man?’’ Tom was so deep in thought that the driver had to call out few times.

‘‘I’m so sorry sir. I was just-’‘ the old man cut his speech, ‘‘Thinking. I know. Lady problems I assume. Listen boy, if you do love her go for it and treat her nicely. I didn’t and my wife left me, now I hate myself for it.’‘ 

Was this love he was feeling?

‘‘I’m so sorry to hear that.’‘

When he got back home he took a long shower to feed his lust for her, it wasn’t just a simple teenage lust. He did want to gently hold her and tell her that she has someone now.

He felt sad because he had to leave her, all alone. He laid on his big bed, alone.

‘‘I should take Bobby from mom’s soon.’‘   Due to his work he had to leave his dog at his mom’s place sometimes.

Tom was a smart enough to know that having his dog back won’t be enough. He needed someone in his life, and that someone wasn’t ready to try it yet.

His phone buzzed, he smiled when he saw her text and photo.

Tom: I’m sorry darling. I won’t trouble you, I’ll get it as soon as I can. By the way don’t forget to read the book I gave you. =)

Tom never thought a simple text could bring him joy.

Y/N: Alright! Sleep well Tom.

Tom: Good night darling.

He definitely needed to see his mother and talk because his mind was about to explode.

Morning came with it’s glory. She felt well rested and spent hours on painting, as usual she forgot to have breakfast but she didn’t care. She had calls from her customers. She finished reading Great Gatsby and took some notes on her diary.

While reading she saw the sentences Tom underlined and it made her smile, there was a strange but warm sensation on her chest.

‘‘Let us learn to show our friendship for a man when he is alive and not after his death.’‘

‘‘You see I usually find myself among strangers because I drift here and there trying to forget the sad things that happened to me.’‘

‘‘Life starts all over again when it gets crisp in the fall.’‘

‘‘All I kept thinking about , over and over , was ‘You can’t live forever; you can’t live forever.’ ‘’

‘‘He looked at her the way all women want to be looked at by a man.’‘

She traced the last quotation with her fingertips, with a sudden decision she changed her clothes, and left her house. Her plan was to give him his watch and his book back, and see him as well. Earlier in the morning someone came to get his car, she saw it through the window so she thought that it would be a cute gesture to bring him his belongings.

‘‘That is a quite the story my dear.’‘ said Tom’s mother witha tea cup in her hand. Tom was petting his dog Bobby who laid on his lap and was wagging his tail in a friendly manner.

‘‘I really don’t know what to do mom.’‘ his face fell, she touched her son’s cheek, ‘‘It seemed to me that you made a very unique friend. It is sweet that you care about her well being but Tom you can’t fix everyone.’‘

‘‘I know but she has no one to help her.’‘ Diana’s blue eyes soften with motherly compassion, ‘‘You have no idea how I am so proud of you sweetheart.’‘

With the soft knock on the door she put the tea cup on the broen table, ‘’I’ll get it.’’ said Diana and got up from her chair.

‘‘Hello?’‘ the elderly woman asked curiously, but thanks to the description her son gave to her Diana quickly realized that the young girl before her was Y/N. She was surprised to see a little bit short girl, because her son’s last partner was tall, always had make-up on, and expensive clothes but this girl’s hair was let loose, she had a black coat and a mustard colour sweatshirt inside, which looked used but had characteristic vibe. She didn’t have high heels or a skirt. Diana was pleased to see a naturally beautiful girl, it was rare after all.

‘‘Hi, I- I’m Y/N Y/L/N.’‘ they shook hands, ‘‘I’m Tom’s mother Diana. Would you like to come in?’‘ she asked heartfelty. ‘‘I don’t want to impose, I just brought Tom’s watch, and his book. He left them in my place last night-’‘ and she blushed deep red, ‘‘I meant- I mean-’‘ she was playing with her fingers nervously. Diana touched her shoulder, ‘‘Darling it is cold outside, and we have tea. Please come in.’‘ Y/N couldn’t say no to this charming woman again so she reluctantly walked inside.

‘‘Mom who is it-’‘ Tom’s eyes lit up whe he saw her. ‘‘Oh, hi Y/N.’‘ he smiled, ‘‘You weren’t this pleased when I came here today.’‘ his mother said smiling. ‘‘Mother!’‘ Tom gave her a warning look but Diana didn’t care. ‘‘Hi Tom.’‘ Y/N said finally. ‘‘You settle in, I’ll bring you tea darling.’‘ said Diana and left them. 

There was silence between them, she settled on a comfortable chair, ‘’I’m sorry, I should’ve called before I-’’ she had no idea that today’s conversation was all about her.

‘‘I remember telling you that you are always welcome here. Thank you for bringing my watch and the book.’‘ She put the items on the table when she felt something furry touched her legs.

‘‘Who do we have here?’‘ she strated to give the dog belly rubs, ‘‘He likes you.’‘ said Tom. He never saw her smile like that before. ‘‘What’s his name?’‘   ‘‘Bobby.’‘  Diana entered with a cup of tea when they locked eyes. She cleared her throat, ‘’Your tea darling.’’  ‘’Thank you Mrs.-’’ Diana interrupted her, ‘’Oh please call me Diana. No need for formalities.’’ she chuckled. Tom rolled his eyes, ‘’My mother is always frank about her feelings.’’

After having a decent and long conversation Diana said that she had a business to attend and gave his son a wink before she left.

‘‘I should get going as well.’‘ said Y/N standing in the middle of the living room, uncertain of what to do.

Tom was infront of her, his hands in his pockets, ‘’If you are free today would you like to stay? We could discuss the book, and watch it’s movie version.’’ Y/N had to admit, he had the best puppy eyes and a reasonable excuse.

‘‘I’ve finished my paintings, I guess I’m free.’‘ she sat back, Y/N couldn’t see it but Tom made a fist bump.

Tom came inside with a huge, yellow bucket of popcorn and drinks. He played the movie, and sat close to her but little Bobby was between them.

During the movie Y/N didn’t realize that Tom put Bobby on the ground and got closer to her. Their hands lightly touched each other when they wanted to eat popcorn. ‘’Mr. Hiddleston you are quite handsy.’’ she giggled. With last nights image in his brain Tom being in the shower doing something which involved her... he couldn’t help but blush, she had no idea. ‘’What can I say, I have big hands.’’ 

‘‘It’s a good thing I think.’‘ she thought she said that silently but he heard her clearly. ‘‘Yes, I am good at grabbing things.’‘ they were at the stage of teasing, and he loved every second of it. It gave him hope.

They watched the movie, when it was finished Y/N took the book ‘’I loved the quotations you underlined.’’ she said, and again she traced the last quote.

‘‘Oh, which one is your favorite?’‘ he asked. 

‘‘He looked at her the way all women want to be looked at by a man.’‘ She didn’t even look at the book because somehow she memeorized it. 

Was she crazy or Tom’s pupils were getting bigger? He was looking at her like she was a delicate artifact from Ancient Greece, fragile yet holding secrets of everything gracefully. 

She tucked a strand of hair behind her ear.

‘‘Everyone deserves to be adored Y/N, to be loved.’‘ his lips were getting dry. The air surrounding them was getting thick.

Suddenly Bobby started to bark so they had to pull themselves together.

‘‘I’ve once read an artical about Great Gatsby.’‘ she wanted to change the subject, and continued ‘‘It is said that Gatsby is actually Fitzgerald, and Daisy is Zelda, his wife. He even used the same sentence his wife said after giving birth.’‘ 

Tom didn’t knew this, he thought how confident she looked when she was explaining something she loves.

‘‘It is sad actually. Because you know Gatsby dies and Daisy doesn’t even visits his grave.’‘ said Tom, he looked a little sad but his sparkling blue eyes shone with an icy blue radiance, she couldn’t help but stare at him. 

‘‘Daisy is an idiot.’‘ she blurted out which made Tom laugh. ‘‘Why?’‘ he asked, their knees were touching slightly. ‘‘Because if I loved someone I would choose him, consequences wouldn’t matter.’‘

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: None. 

TAG LIST IS OPEN! Guys thank you for the support :)) <33

Chapter 4

The Next Day

Y/N finally woke up from her sleep, suprisingly she slept like a baby, and she was energetic. She went out to get groceries because she had a man to impress with her cooking skills.

When she got back she cleaned the house and started to cook. It has been months since she cooked like this, she was busy with creamy chicken and gnocchi soup when she received a text.

Tom: Would you like me to bring wine, darling?

‘‘Why is he keep calling me darling?’‘ she never thought a simple text could make her smile but there she was grinning like a little girl.

Y/N: That would be great. :)

She panicked, it’s been a while since she served dinner so what if she makes a mess and blows it? 

‘‘Are you sure about this?’‘ the voices in her head appeared, ‘‘Does he even care bout your effort?’‘ she took a deep breath to calm herself, 

‘‘I am a big girl. I got this.’‘ When she was done with the soup she cooked lighter chicken parmesan, her mother thought her that recipe. The smell of the food brought back her childhood memories, she was looking outside of her kitchen window and watching the snow. Instead of going out and play she used to watch her mother cook. 

She took a warm shower, and picked a scarlet winter dress. It was showing a little bit of cleavage. She dressed up and texted Tom the directions and played a soft music from her old gramaphone. Her grandmother gave her the gramaphone before she passed away.

Y/N wandered inside her home to see if something was wrong, everything was perfect. She received another text.

Tom: I’ll be at your place in 10 min.

She quickly prepared the table in the living room, she heared a soft knock on herwhen she was done with the table. She looked at herself on the mirror before answering the door.

Tom was standing there like a mighty Greek god. He had a white sweater with black pants and his signature grey boots. He was holding a bottle of expensive wine and a boquet of red roses which matched her winter dress.

‘‘Welcome to my humble home Tom.’‘ he smiled at her sentence, it became their inside joke. She took the wine and the boquet ‘‘Thank you.’‘ she said shyly and put the roses in a vase in the living room.

‘‘Aren’t you giving me an apartment tour?’‘ he asked. All of a sudden she felt like she wasn’t enough, her home was too little and cheap compared to his. 

‘‘Y- yeah sure.’‘ she murmured and Tom understood that something was wrong, ‘‘Can I see your work room? I’m dying to see your paintings.’‘ it was true. He really wanted to see them but he also wanted to make her comfortable, even the mention of painting brought light to her Y/E/C eyes, and he was pleased to see it.

After walking the -not so long- hall she opened a door and hit the lights. ‘’This was the guest room but I have no guests to stay so I turned it into a work place.’’ she explained. Tom walked inside, the walls were covered with paintings, there was a stool in front of a canvas and there was a table which had paint tubes, brushes etc.

He slowly examined the paintings, his hands were in his pockets and he felt like he was at a museum of renaissance art. 

‘‘What do you think?’‘ she was curious to know the answer but also too afraid because her work was the only thing that kept her going no matter what.

He turned his ocean eyes to her, ‘’Stunning. Absolutely and unquestionably.’’ his eyes were fixed on her.

‘‘Is he talking about the paintings or... me?’‘ she thought. Her cheeks heated at his compliment, ‘’T- thank you.’’ Tom smiled sincerely, ‘’I mean it.’’ he said. She was looking at the ground, ‘’Can we go back to my living room before I die of shyness?!’’ they laughed and went inside.

He smelled the air, ‘’Delicious! Shall we eat?’’

Tom was pouring the wine and Y/N was serving the food when she noticed a band-aid on his thumb. ‘’What happened to your thumb?’’ she had a strong guess. ‘’Nothing. I’m fine.’’ she gently held his thumb and traced it with her finger, ‘’It happened beacuse of me, right?’’ she felt the guilt again.

‘‘Y/N-’‘ Tom held her hands, her hands were lost in his. ‘‘It wasn’t your fault. After you left I picked up the pieces and cut my thumb. It was an accident.’‘ he smiled kindly.

‘‘Why does he have to be perfect?’‘

They continued to eat, and talked about their day.

When they were done they settled on the couch, ‘’I want to play a game.’’ she said grinning. ‘’Oh no! You are smiling like a she devil.’’ he giggled.

‘‘Two thruths and a lie Hiddleston. The one who can’t find the lie will have to drink. Are you in?’‘ Tom thought carefully for a second, ‘‘I’m in. Bring it on darling.’‘

‘‘Well... I can play piano. I speak 3 languages and I can’t swim.’‘ she said innocently.

Tom put his long index finger to his thin lips. ‘’The lie is that you cannot swim.’’ he said finally. She pored wine to his cup, ‘’Drink up.’’ He was confused, ‘’What?’’ 

‘‘I can’t play piano Tom.’‘ he sighed exaggeratedly and took a huge sip. ‘‘Wait, what languages you speak?’’

‘‘Other than English I can speak Sindarin, Klingon, and German.’‘ she daid proudly, Tom started to laugh, ‘‘Oh my god! You have to teach me Sindarin. I have been fascinated by elves.’‘

‘‘ Be iest lin, Melethron nin.’‘ she said jokingly but Tom was surprised.

‘‘What does that mean?’‘ he asked. ‘‘As you wish my beloved.’‘ he had the instant red blush on his  porcelain cheeks.

‘‘It sounds notably sensual.’‘ this time Y/N blushed deep  red. ‘‘Yes it does, doesn’t it? Anyways, your turn.’‘ she quickly changed the subject.

‘‘I can play guitar. I can speak in Greek and I don’t have a Netflix account.’‘ 

Y/N was trying to read his well sculpted face.  His chiseled jaw made him look husky and she loved it. ‘’Don’t lie to me Hiddleston you do have a Netflic account.’’

‘‘Wow! Am I that obvious? Or are you good at reading people?’‘ 

She smiled proudly and watched him finish his cup. ‘’I’m good at reading people. I’m impressed that you can speak in Greek. Most people don’t understand the joy of knowing more than one language.’’ Tom’s thoughts were the exact same. 

This game continued untill they finished Y/N’s wine as well. ‘’Oh it’s pretty late.’’ said Tom looking at the clock in the living room. They were a little  tipsy.

‘‘Tom you shouldn’t drive. It’s late and as you can see-’‘ she pointed at the two empty bottles, ‘‘We’ve drank all of them.’‘

‘‘What are you suggesting?’‘ he asked, his speech was slow, his eyes focused on her Y/E/C and his pupils were blown wide. Their knees were brushing lightly when they move and this gave excitement to both of them.

‘‘You can stay here if you want. I don’t want you to drive, it’s too risky and I really don’t want to lose my companion of literature and fine wine.’‘ they giggled.

Tom was deep in thought, he wanted to accept her offer but as being a gentleman he was unsure.

‘‘You are too kind Y/N.’‘ he said looking really sad, ‘‘I mean it Tom, please stay here. Tonight.’‘ she shocked herself, when did she became this bold?

He sighed heavily and got up -almost falling down- he was afraid. Afraid that he wouldn’t be able to keep his hands to himself if he stayed. It was obvious that she was a fragile state in her life and he didn’t want to hurt her. 

‘‘I can’t do this. I don’t want to break the trust which is still bonding between us. She probably considers me as a friend anyway.’‘ He thought sadly.

He called a cab. ‘’Are you sure?’’ she asked, ‘’Yes. I don’t want to cause you any trouble.’’ he said without meeting her eyes.

They were at the doorstep, ‘’Thank you for the flowers and the wine.’’ she said smiling bright but he could see the shimmer of sadness. ‘’I should be the one to thank you darling, the dinner was fantastic.’’ Y/N was able to impress Tom by her cooking skills, she mentally high-fived herself.

The cab driver arrived, they looked at each other, both of them had milion things to say but for some reason they were holding everything inside. The coldness or the snow didn’t matter to them. Tom slowly leaned in, Y/N closed her eyes. He gently kissed her cheek, it all happened in five seconds but to Y/N it felt like eternity bliss. She felt his ginger blond beard brushing on her cheek and it tingled her sensetive skin. Tom definitely did that on purpose. His fingers traced the place where he kissed, ‘’Good night darling.’’ she had to swallow to speak clearly, ‘’Good night Tom.’’

She closed the door with a huge grin

After she did the dishes she went to the bathroom and smiled widely, it seemed that Tom forgot his watch while washing his hands. She texted him.

Y/N: Tom, you forgot your watch. *she sent a picture of her wearing the watch on her wrist and smiling*

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))  Slow burn!

Warnings: None. 

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Chapter 3

The car ride was silent but it was comfortable. 

‘‘Welcome to my humble home.’‘ they entered, she could smell his cologne everywhere. His home, furnitures were masculine.

‘‘Would you like to drink something?’‘ he asked, ‘‘Yes please.’‘ 

‘‘Wine?’‘ he asked again while walking to kitchen ‘‘Perfect choice.’‘ she settled on the cozy couch while he was at kitchen. 

‘‘Why is he so... familiar?’‘ she thought to herself. He appeared with two glasses and a wine bottle. ‘‘You have a lovely home Tom.’‘ he was pouring the wine, ‘‘Thank you darling.’‘

‘‘Darling? Well, it sounds nice.’‘      ‘’Do you want to see my little library?’‘ her eyes lit up ‘‘God yes!’‘ he extended his hand ‘‘Take my hand and I shall lead you to my kingdom.’‘ she giggled and took his hand. They went upstairs and he opened a door.

The room was filled with wall to wall books, and a study table. ‘’Wow Hiddleston!’’ they were still holding each others’ hand, ‘’I hope I impressed you.’’ he smiled like a little boy ‘’Yes, I am impressed.’’ she walked to the books ‘’This is my office and also my library.’’ papers on his brown table caught her attention, ‘’Wait, is that a script of a play?’’ he got nervous, ‘’Yes but I haven’t decided yet.’’ and something in her brain clicked. ‘’Oh my God! I knew it. You are that Loki dude.’’ he chuckled, ‘’So you know my job?’’ she was having hard time looking at him, ‘’I had this feeling like I somehow knew who you were but now I figured it out.’’

‘‘I hope it doesn’t make you uncomfortable.’‘ he was genuienly concerned, ‘‘No, not at all.’‘ he smiled, ‘‘Well, this Loki dude will be giving you a book.’‘ she giggled. He got close to her and grabbed a book from her left side, they were so close she felt like she couldn’t breath.

‘‘Did he do that on purpose?’‘     ‘’Here. Have you read this before?’‘

‘‘Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald’’

‘‘Yes but it’s been years.’‘ she was holding the book on her chest, ‘‘Alright then, read it in a week and we will discuss it... together.’‘ they were still close and her back was pressed to the book shelf. If she moved close to him just for few inches their lips could touch and the idea of it sent shivers down her spine.

‘‘How can I inform you when I’m finished?’‘ he had this handsome grin on his face, ‘‘Miss Y/L/N, are you trying to get my number?’‘ she blushed deep red. ‘‘I can’t be smooth as you Hiddleston!’‘ Y/N playfully hit his shoulder. 

After exchanging numbers they went back to the living room. They kept drinking and talking, Y/N learned about Tom’s family but when it came to her family she gave minimum information and changed the sunject. Tom wasn’t stupid, he knew something was wrong but aslo didn’t want to push her. 

‘‘So why are you single? I’m pretty sure a young beautiful lady such as yourself has a lot of men at her doorstep, waiting to be the one.’‘ he finally asked, she blushed again. 

Y/N paused for a second, ‘’I had someone in my life but our relationship got... dark and I had to leave. I don’t want anything like that happen again. That’s why I deny the gentlemen at my doorstep.’’ 

‘‘I revealed too much. God why did I do that?!’‘

‘‘He hurt you, didn’t he?’‘ Tom’s expression was serious but his voice was so soft. ‘‘Yes, can we talk something else please?’‘

They talked about his job and Y/N’s job as well. He seemed amazed by her talent and complimented her many times. ‘’I would love to see your work.’’ he finally said, ‘’Maybe one day I will invite you to my place Tom.’’ she winked childishly and they laughed together. ‘’But now I have to go. I have projects to start.’’ Tom was having so much fun talking to her and he didn’t want her to leave bu he said nothing. She could see the disappointment in his beautiful eyes, ‘’Don’t worry love, I will be back if you allow me.’’ he smiled, ‘’You are always welcome.’’ she helped him with glasses but something happened.

She accidentlayy dropped one of the wine glasses, ‘’I’m so sorry Tom.’’ she sinked to her knees to pick the pieces and Tom came to help her but her memories were triggered again.

‘‘I’m so sorry please don’t hurt me.’‘ and with that they locked eyes. Tom was in shock, he knew that he had to be careful so he swallowed and spoke calmly; ‘‘Y/N, I would never hurt you.’‘ he tried to touch her shoulder but unfortunately she flinched, her hands were shaking.

‘‘Y/N, I don’t know what happened to you but I have some opinions. I can assure you that in my presence no one can hurt you.’‘ he slowly extended his palm and she touched it like bruised child learning to trust again. He held her hand gently and placed a warm kiss. ‘‘I have to go.’‘ Was all she could say and she quickly left his place.

When she got back to her home she cried for an hour. She knew that Tom would never hurt her but she didn’t know how to trust someone after what happened.

‘‘I better work.’‘

While painting, her mind was crazy, thinking about Tom and how she left. She had to apologies, Y/N picked up her phone and texted him.

Y/N: Hi Tom it’s Y/N. I just wanted to apologies I shouldn’t have run away like that. I’m so sorry for breaking the glass. Please don’t be mad at me.

After minutes of hesitation she finally hit the send button and she kept herself busy with painting.

Tom was reading the script when his phone vibrated. After Y/N left he cleaned the floor and cut his finger but other than that he was fine. He didn’t mind a little bit of blood, all he was interested in was to show her that it is okey to have flaws. He couldn’t stop thinking about her and when his phone vibrated he realized that he was reading the same page for an hour.

Tom: Hi Y/N. Please don’t be sorry about the glass, it was nothing. I break things all the time at my house. I am NOT mad at you, I can never be mad at a lovely, innocent woman.

She was painting a cat when she received the text, she couldn’t help but smile.

‘‘A lovely, innocent woman...’‘

Y/N: Thank you for everything Tom.

she soon received another text.

Tom: If you fell sorry maybe you can make it up to my by cooking dinner. *wink*

She blushed, there was no harm of showing her cooking skills off.

Y/N: Tomorrow at 8. Don’t be late. I will send you the address. *smile*

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance. There will be smut in the future ;))

Warnings: Panick but sweet at the end ;)

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Chapter 2

Young girl shut sher door, she was out of breath because she was angry and decided to walk to her home. Y/N rested her forehead on the door, after few seconds and deep breaths she managed to calm herself.

She sat on her chair, she was tired. Well, even the slightest interaction drained her energy these days. She walked to her little kitchen and prepared a sandwich she needed to start a new project so she put the plate on the tray and walked to her office a.k.a guest room that she turned into an office. She sat on the stool and looked at the empty canvas. A client wanted her to paint a landscape full of flowers so she grabbed her brushes and started to paint.

She realized it was morning when the light shades of orange entered her office, she worked all night and finally finished the painting. She will be paid generously because her client was a rich woman. As usual she noticed that she forget to eat, whenever Y/N was painting she became immune to the outside world. She took an apple from the fridge and walked to her living room. She remembered the notebook and decided to write, the problem was the notebook wasn’t in her bag, she panicked. ‘’Where is it?!’’ she looked everywhere but it was nowhere to be found, she remembered the Café. It was too early to go there so decided to wait, ‘’I will go there and ask the waitress, I’m pretty sure they took it to keep it safe.’’ she talked to herself. 

The deamons in her head started to talk; ‘’What if it was lost?’’

‘‘What if the man you argued took it?’‘

‘‘If it’s the man that means he read what was written, he will think that you are troubled, crazy girl.’‘

She remembered the man, especially his eyes. Eyes like blue stars burning...

She took a hot shower to calm her nerves. Throughout the day she did many things to not deal with the deamons in her head. When the time came she got dressed and went out.

The same feelings surrounded her when she entered the Café. Wamth, sincerity, she felt safe. The same seat was unoccupied so Y/N sat there.

‘‘Ready to order?’‘ the same lovely waitress smiled at her. ‘‘Hi, I... I lost my notebook. I think I left it here.. yesterday. Have you found something like that?’‘     ‘‘No, but I will ask my boss for you.’‘ Y/N ordered a nice tea and a cake.

After few minutes waitress came back, ‘’I’m so sorry Madam but no one found a notebook here.’’ her face fell, ‘’Thank you.’’ she started to panick again, ‘’No! No! This cannot be happening.’’ 

She did that breathing technique to calm down. Y/N took a huge sip from her tea, and watching the snow falling on the street brought smile to her face. She had a pencil so she started to draw something on a napkin, she busy with drawing that’s why she didn’t realize who entered the Café.

‘‘May I sit?’‘ the same British accent filled her ears, Y/N looked up to meet his blue eyes, it was him. ‘‘O- of course.’‘ 

‘‘It is nice to see you here because... I-’‘ he was having trouble speaking, like a child who did something bad and he couldn’t bring himself to look at her, ‘‘Do you have my notebook?’‘ she asked frankly.

‘‘Y- yes. But please don’t get me wrong. I noticed that you left it on the table so I took it to give you back. I, for some reason knew that you would be here... again.’‘ Y/N’S cheeks were heated out of embarrassment ‘‘Can I have it back?’‘

It was on his black coat’s pocket, ‘’Here.’’ she looked at it for a few seconds, scared to open. ‘’Did you read it?’’ and this time his cheeks turned into a light shade of pink, the same colour when she mix red and white paint together.

She smiled like she didn’t care, ‘’It’s okay. I didn’t even write more than three pages.’’  he exhaled the breath he was holding. ‘’Who is Mrs.Smith?’’ and a cold silence fell on the table.

‘‘She is my... psychologist, therapist call it whatever you want. She gave me this to write because I’m not very talkative person.’‘ 

‘‘Oh, I’m so sorry if I overstepped boundaries.’‘ she rolled her eyes, ‘‘Mister, you waltzed on my boundaries yesterday.’‘ he looked like hurt but also amused, ‘’But it’s okay. May I have your name strange man?’’ she could see the shining stars in his blue eyes. ‘’Where are my manners, my name is Tom. Tom Hiddleston.’’      he extended his big hand, ‘’May I have the name of the woman that I waltzed on her boundaries?’’ she couldn’t help but giggle, his name did sound familiar.

‘’My name is Y/N Y/L/N. Nice to meet you Tom.’’ they geld each other’s hands more than few seconds, the waitress came so they had to pull back.

‘’Y/N, Y/N, Y/N a lovely name for a lovely lady. Can I bold and ask you something?’’  she was playing with her cake, ‘’Yes?’’

‘‘As you know I’ve read your journal, so why did you think that I would hate you?’‘ Tom at first didn’t want to read the journal but than curiosity got the best of him and he found himself on his couch, sipping his tea and reading it. He felt really bad for reading it but the darkness which the words carried distracted him. His first question was; ‘‘Why does she hate herself so much?’‘ but he couldn’t ask that, it would be rude.

She kept playing with the cake, Y/N wasn’t a skinny girl but she realized that she was losing weight on a unhealthy way so she tried to finish her cake but failed.

‘‘Well... sometimes I can be hard to deal with.’‘ she tried to avoid his gaze but his aura was too strong. 

For a split second he thought he saw the broken girl in her Y/E/C eyes but she knew how to act happy and fine so she smiled, ‘’Tom, your face tells me that you have more than one question so ask away.’’ her tea got cold but she didn’t mind.

He was surprised, ‘’You don’t have to answer my questions if you don’t want to. I would feel terrible if I hurt you.’’ 

Hurt. Many people hurt her throughout the years but she didn’t say a word, she wasn’t a fighter. The only, reasonable thing she did was to move away and never see them again.

‘‘You can consider this as our first date Tom. Go on, ask.’‘

‘’Date? What the fuck am I talking about?!’’ she sometimes had this habit of not filtering her words. 

‘‘Ehehehe.’‘ the sound of his laughter made her smile sincerely. He noticed the drawing of a snowflake, ‘‘Wow! Did you draw this?’‘ his childish excitement made her chuckle, ‘‘Yes, I’m a painter. It’s my profession.’‘

Tom looked like he was impressed, he fixed his curly hair. He had a straight jaw  line that could cut someone’s finger if touched. 

‘’He is gorgeous.’’     

‘‘I must apologies for my behaviour yesterday. I didn’t want to scare you away, in fact I quite enjoyed our conversation about Stefan Zweig.’‘ his voice was soothing, ‘‘You really don’t have to apologies, I shouldn’t have ran away like that. I also did enjoyed our talk. It isn’t every day that I can talk about books with a man.’‘ he smiled, she could see the little wrinkles around his eyes, it was cute.

‘‘Pardon me but I have to ask, you said it is our ‘’first date’‘ so that means you are... single?’‘ 

‘‘Yes. Do I look like a girl whou would cheat on her man?’‘ she said jokingly. ‘‘No, the opposite, you look loyal... maybe too loyal.’‘ and with that her memories were triggerd. Her eyes were focused on his blue eyes but it was like she wasn’t there. Tom was gone and replaced by her ex abusive fiance, shouting at her and blaming her. ‘‘Y/N? Y/N?’‘ she came to her senses.

‘‘She is hiding her true feelings, but why?’‘ thought Tom. 

The hours went by without even realizing, they shared funny stories, talked about everything and for once in a long time Y/N felt comfortable.

Tom came up with an idea, ‘’We obviously love reading, let’s share our favorite books to each other. After reading them we can share our thoughts. How does that sound?’’  Y/N hesitated for a second, ‘’Mr.Hiddleston, are you trying to invite me to your house?’’ Tom became shy, ‘’Am I that obvious?’’ she laughed. ‘’No, I’m just smart.’’ she thought about his kind and creative offer, ‘’You know what, let’s go!’’

Tom first couldn’t believe it, ‘’R- really?’’ his ocean eyes lit up. ‘’Yes, shall we leave before I lose my interest?’’ 

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Reborn From Ashes

Summary; Two lost souls find each other. Will they become the cure that they were looking for? Will they help each other or walk away?

Pairing: Tom Hiddleston X Reader

Genre: Romance

Warnings: Mental problems. A bit dark. Reader has a temper girll calm down :D

Tag list is open!

Chapter 1 

‘‘And how does that make you feel?’‘ Mrs. Smith, Y/N’s psychologist asked her a question but at the moment she was interested in the plants Mrs. Smith had in her office. ‘‘You should water your plants more often Mrs. Smith.’‘ the woman sighed, ‘‘Y/N, we have been having these sessions for weeks now. If you cannot open yourself up to me than I can’t help you.’‘ Y/N was playing with her fingers, they were cold because London was cold. It was December after all, ‘‘Nothing.’‘ she murmured.

‘‘Sorry?’‘ she finally looked at Mrs. Smith, ‘‘As you can tell I can’t feel anything anymore.’‘ and the alarm was heared. 

‘‘Once again we have come to an end, before you leave take these.’‘ Mrs.Smith put a notebook and a pencil on her table, ‘‘Why?’‘ Y/N was confused. ‘‘Since you can’t open up I thought you should write your feelings or anything you do daily. And your first task is to go to a public place and socialize.’‘ she took the iteams, ‘’I trust you Y/N. Have a good day.’’

It has been a week and Y/N was too tired to go out. She was a painter so she spent nights to finish her projects. She used to paint for the passion of art but now she was painting to pay her rent and bills. She was living a modest life, her house was little but it was enough for her and landlady was kind to Y/N. She moved there two years ago, after escaping from her abusive fiance. 

It was cold outside, and snowy so she had long, black boots and black pants. Her dark green sweater was comfy, she put on her white scarf and white beanie. She packed her things and left her house reluctantly.

Y/N travelled for a little bit but the snow was unbearable so she tahnkfully found a nice Café.

She was welcomed by the warmth and the smell of coffee, even though she didn’t drink coffee too much she always enjoyed the smell. She found a seat next to the big window which was facing outside.

‘‘What can I get for you?’‘ a lovely waitress smiled, ‘‘Can I have chamomile tea and chocolate chip cookie, thak you.’‘ waitress left and she settled down, started to take notes; 

‘’Mrs.Smith, a week ago you gave me a task and I’m trying to complete it. I’m at a nice Café. I’m watching people laugh, smile and hold their loved ones close. The truth is no one needs me here, aren’t we all just insignificant beings who think that the world is built for them? This makes me disgusted.’’

She was enjoying her tea when that lovely waitress approached to her table, she had that apologetic smile on her bright face. ‘’So sorry to interrupt you Madam but as you can see we are packed and our regular customer is here. If it is okey for you can he sit here with you, but of course if you want to be left alone-’’

Y/N was a waitress once and she knew how stressful it can be, ‘’It’s okey.’’ Y/N cut her off, ‘’He can sit with me.’’ and she took few notes; 

‘‘Well Mrs.Smith, someone has to sit with me. Poor lad. He doesn’t know what he is doing, he is going to hate me.’‘

A tall man with black glasses and a serious expression came to her table, ‘’May I sit?’’ his husky voice was filled with the famous British accent. ‘’Of course, please.’’ she made a hand gesture for him to sit. She kept writing when the waitress took his order.

‘‘Is that a journal?’‘ the man smiled and she could see his white theet. ‘‘Yes.’‘ Y/N didn’t want to talk so she cut it short and turned her gaze outside, she really wasn’t in the mood of engaging a conversation but she also didn’t want to be rude. She put her Y/H/C strand of hair behind her ear, thanks to the curiousty in humans’ nature she was looking at him every five seconds. He was reading ‘‘Brief einer Unbekannten by Stefan Zweig.’‘  Y/N read that book before, when she stopped looking at the book’s cover they locked eyes. His blue eyes were captivating, ‘’I assume you read it before?’’ she dropped her pencil on the table, ‘’Yes, I’ve read it before.’’ even though she was giving him cold and short answers he was smiling politely. ‘’You liked it?’’ she got nervous it’s been a while since she talked to men so she started to play with the pencil. ‘’Yes but the idea of a woman falling deeply in love with a man who she didn’t even spend enough time with is bizarre. Of course it’s fiction so anything is possible.’’ 

Probably because of the Café’s warm environment she had this strange feeling, like she could open up to this man before her and talk for hours.

‘‘So you don’t support the idea of someone falling deeply in love?’‘ 

‘‘It’s nonlogical to me. I don’t know if you read Zweig’s other books but he always deals with profound human emotians and it is too much for me.’‘ 

The man infront of her ruffled with his curly, blonde-ish ginger hair and beard, ‘’Miss, people can fall in love deeply and they can love someone with profound feelings. How is this nonlogical? Love is something that you can’t find in logic.’’ he cleared his throat kindly,  ‘’ My bounty is as boundless as the sea, my love as deep; the more I give to thee, the more I have, for both are infinite.’’ she rolled her eyes, ‘’Shakespeare’s Romeo and Juliet.’’ his blue eyes shined with excitement. 

Y/N crossed her arms and leaned back on her chair, the man also did the same, he was watching her every move with his icy blue eyes. He had those famous european faces that would distract any woman. She could feel the tension between them.

‘‘I don’t have to explain myself to you Sir!’‘ she immediately grabbed her things and thrown them into her bag, in the meanwhile the blue eyed man was apologising and trying to explain her that he made a mistake but Y/N wasn’t listening. She left the Café without looking back, if she looked back she could’ve realized that she left the notebook that Mrs.Smith gave her a week ago.