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I LOVE SAFEWORD USE IN NONSEXUAL SITUATIONS I LOVE THAT KANT HAD A WAY OF TELLING BISON THAT HE WAS CLOSE TO CROSSING A LINE I LOVE THAT THE SAFEWORD WAS ACTUALLY USED IN THE STORY I LOVE THAT BISON SAW THE SINCERITY OF KANT'S PLEA AND LEFT I LOVE THAT KANT WAS HONEST ENOUGH TO COMMUNICATE THAT BISON COULD DO A LOT OF SHIT TO HIM BUT THERE WAS STILL A LIMIT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT I LOVE IT

Kant using his safeword to signal he is scared and wants Bison to stop was sooo unexpected. Mind-blowing honestly.

There’s nothing I love more than stellar analysis 💜💜💜

Hello!! First, I just want to say how much I love all of your THK posts and breakdowns! Your perspectives on Kant/Bison have been really refreshing to see/read ♥️

On to me question/questions: if Kant/Bison were ever comfortable enough to breach the topic of BDSM again, what ways could you see that playing out? Even disregarding the massive elephant in the room (The Betrayal ™️), Bison’s inexperience/hesitance and Kant’s trust issues/control issues/reluctance is such and interesting dynamic, and I’m honestly disappointed at how underutilized it is within the plot. I could talk for hours about my opinions on Kant’s willingness to d/s.

I think, under different and healthier circumstances, Kant might have been more open to such arrangements. Given his trauma, early Parentification, and the lack of control he has with regard to Captain, it’s rife for interesting ways his dynamic could be explored (given proper care and comfort).

Apologies for the long ask/rant! I’m practically foaming at the mouth for someone to talk to this about 🤣

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awww thank you! i'm v happy to hear that 🥰 and don't at all apologize for the long ask, i love getting asks like this!!

the bdsm dynamic is fascinating to me for a number of reasons. i haven't written much on it in terms of analysis because i feel like we haven't gotten enough in canon for me to chew on, but it's sooo very interesting to me for all sorts of reasons. which, while i do wish we had more scenes to work with when it comes to looking at the dynamic, i think the fact that we're only really given episode three and only hints at it other than that is very intentional. because like you said, the circumstances are not super healthy and while again, we've had hints at it, i don't think they've actually explored that dynamic a whole lot post-drugging incident. they've slept together since then clearly, but they also haven't been back to bison's place together, and while it's possible they've used other things, it also makes sense if after that last nightmare incident, if bison is hesitant to use anything but the proper tools/setting for it, yknow? cause even though we haven't gotten to see them talk about it, i'm willing to bet that bison does feel guilty for being an unsafe dom in that instance, if how attentive and caring he was in the tattoo parlor is anything to go by.

i did already say this in my tags on this poll but to reiterate, i do believe we'll absolutely be returning to the bdsm dynamic - it just won't be until POST-clearing the air, which will presumably be happening next episode if the bison making kant a servant to him and crying on the beach tells us anything. which, i do figure we will get a sex scene next episode, but again, i figure it'll be post-all of that as well and probably a lovely little love-making/forgiveness situation alla sandray ep9. yknow the one.

soo, with that in mind, that gives eps 9-12 bdsm potential, and like. obviously there will be drama and plot to deal with as well but i'm sure those kinky freaks will figure it out, i'm not worried about. (though i will say. if my babe dying theory holds true, specifically that it's keen that kills babe while kant and bison are away figuring their shit out, i think we'll find that out either end of ep8 or beginning of ep9. so bdsm might take a backseat for a bit. but nevertheless we will get back at the very least by ep11 or 12! i AM certain of that)

BUT finally getting to what you actually asked me in terms of how i see it playing out, i do hope that they have another discussion about it like they did in ep3. i think now with the air cleared, they'll have to. not just so kant can admit he IS actually into the idea and it wasn't a total lie, but so they can set firmer boundaries now that kant does trust bison. because i think while kant was hesitant of it at first, i again think he was into it to a certain extent - it was just the fact that he didn't trust bison and he wasn't actually able to practice it in a safe way either time they tried. plus, they're both, in reality, very new to the dynamic. kant, who didn't even realize he was into that kind of thing until bison introduced him, and bison, who has done all this research but never actually gotten to dom properly. so, i think they will definitely need to take it a lot slower (which, to be fair, bison seemed far more apt to do that before he was drunk and drugged! i don't doubt his ability to be a good dom and take things slow. i think he was not at all in the right headspace or mindset to be doing anything like that, so obviously he was just acting on his deepest desires. hell, he literally told kant that he hopes he doesn't use his safe word! i do not think a sober and clear headed bison would have even thought to say something like that.)

so, with that in mind, i don't think any other bdsm scenes we get will be quite as intense as that first one from the end of ep3 - unless the much needed conversation happens as soon as ep9 and we get more after that and/or we get a time skip. which, i wouldn't be surprised if we do tbh, at least in like ep12. time skips to show the happy ending is such a common trope, i almost expect we will have one tbh.

but regardless of intensity, i do think the dynamic will be very interesting. i've said it quite a few times, but kant is a character that not only has severe control issues, but also has always NEEDED to be in control. he has had very little actual say in his life, but he has also always had to make a lot of big decisions and be in charge, so in a lot of ways he doesn't actually know how to hand over that control. i think it'll be difficult for him to actually do it, but i think in the end, it is ultimately something he wants and would be good for him. whereas bison is someone that has had very little control in his life and is desperate for it. so, i think it'll be such a good dynamic for them once they are able to talk it out and establish it healthily. it'll be good for kant to be able to get go of his control in a safe environment, with someone he loves and trusts, and it'll be good for bison to be able to have that control he wants so desperately and be able to exercise his clear interest in sadism without truly hurting someone. wins all around!

also currently losing it over MDL listing Shakespeare as the creator of THK ksldjnf 😭

It takes Kant less than five seconds, between a groggy Bison pushing him back down onto the bed and his skull nearly smacking against the headboard, for him to realize that he’s well and truly fucked. In a horrifying instant, all of his bravado, what little there was, is gone, leaving nothing behind but the hollow cavern in his chest where terror can take root. --- Or, a different take on the Kant/Bison scene from the end of episode three, sans the drugging, featuring: introspection, more angst than you can imagine, a sprinkle of trauma and (mostly) responsible, caring Bison.

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A fic for this lovely fandom! Please, come indulge my traumatized Kant brain worms :)

tfw your dom passes out halfway through your scene cuz you got him drunk and drugged him, leaving you tied up and blindfolded in bed

and it’s like. oh you can see how badly bison wants to make sure kant is fully on board with this dynamic. kant has to beg multiple times for bison to actually slap him hard, bison is the one that suggests the safe word, he tells kant to tell him if the clamps start to hurt too much. he’s checking in and checking in and checking in and then they get to his house and he’s drunk and he’s drugged and he pulls out ropes and a blindfold and a whip and kant is visibly terrified but bison can’t SEE that and kant won’t say the safe word because he has to keep bison’s trust and bison tells him “i hope you don’t say it” because he doesn’t have the filter to realize the way that will sound. and it’s kant’s fault yeah cause he kept pushing and he drugged him, but i keep thinking about how embarrassed bison looked when he realized he’d bit kant and hurt him and that kant seemed shocked. he’s gonna be so fucking upset when he realizes what he did and eventually that maybe kant was not as into it as he claimed

All Fadel has wanted for so long is to have a person he trusts as his side and after having his heart broken by someone ghosting him he gave up. He stopped believing it could happen to him, stopped believing he had a chance at a love story or a real escape from what he did for Mother.

And then Style came.

Infuriating Style, frustrating Style, the man who pursued the pursuer and didn't let up no matter how hard or how cold or how hard Fadel pushed him. Nothing got rid of him. Nothing moved him. Nothing got rid of him.

And then love came back.

Fadel fell again, trusted again, saw another future possible and a man next to him that he could have that future with. Despite all his doubts and despite all his fears... he had a chance. And he took that chance. He opened his heart again.

And then the betrayal.

He opened his heart and he opened himself and then he found out that it wasn't real. It was a lie, a manipulation, something his brother had done to him to try to get his own boyfriend who turned out to be an informant and suddenly it was all the same heartbreak all over again and Fadel put his walls back up to try and cover the smoke he was choking on from the pain and loss.

And then they were together.

Despite it all, Style professed his love again and again, never stopped saying they were in a relationship, even with a gun to his head he never said he hated Fadel and never left his side even with every chance to run. He wept beside him. He drove the car. He kept saying he loved him, he cared about him. Style never truly followed, kept taking the lead and Fadel found himself letting him because his traitorous heart never stopped yearning.

And then Style got shot.

It was a graze, just a graze, but it shook every part of Fadel straight down to his heart, send reverberations all the way down. He tried to hold onto his walls but he couldn't, not even with Bison, not even alone. There was no way he could kill Style, not even a way he could hurt him and that meant he couldn't hurt Kant, meant he couldn't keep his walls up even as he tried to rebuild them again and again.

And then Style walked into the ocean.

Despite everything, Fadel kept trying to protect himself... until Style put himself in danger and that was it. That was the end of him protecting himself, of his walls and his coldness. Because Style choosing his own danger, Style choosing to act on how Fadel was acting shattered his attempts to protect himself because that wasn't the protection he wanted.

And then he was Style's.

Because this was Fadel's dream all along. To be loved. To be chosen. To be seen. And all of that is what Style does. Style loves him, Style sees him, Style holds him and comforts him and chooses him again and again and again even against his own common sense and again his own safety.

And he was Style's.

She was covered in flowers, blooms of every scent and hue. Yet, she was so alone— the kind of loneliness that could kill. Imagine tombstones, not of the forgotten, but of the murdered, adorned with flowers of all sorts. People had spoiled her with flowers.

Meaning of words.

You said then

that

my love murders

you in a beautiful

way

and that you don't

think of an

existence without

it

so in that i

thought you

would go extinct

upon our failure.

But as time grows

all i have seen is a you

blooming.

Was it a lie ?

and my love

was totally a nothing

to you ?

please

please  tell

me

and tell

the one

murdering you

now

not to highly think

of things for

all of it is

just a jumble of

words.