I've swallowed my pride and spat my feelings out
Told you things no one cares to know about
You knocked down my walls and I stripped my armor
Opened the windows, welcomed you to my doors
We were happy, explored the rooms together
Built new ones, through the gardens we wander
Yet as I offer you a permanent place, you refuse
You're my story but I'm not your muse
Told me you were only having fun and passing through
A temporary shelter, until you find someplace better suited for you.
She's such a sweet rose
The bright spring, in a dark, cold winter
She's all I can remember
She has that angelic grace
That saved me from my demons and monsters
But maybe it'll be best to forget her
For all her smiles,
Her laugh, her voice that used to make me better
All faded away the day she chose her lover.
You're still stuck in the crevices of my mind
Still haunting all the places I can find
I've given you the key, offered my chains
Hoping for a shelter, yet you turned out to be rain
You promised freedom but you are chaos
You made certain I'll never recover from your loss
Yet still here I am, waiting for your forgiveness
Still believing you're my one shot at happiness
Will I ever be free from the angel in my memory?
Will a time come when I'll finally see?
That the pedestal I put you on has already been toppled
And the sand castle we've built have long since crumbled.
I hear the rain softly tapping on the window
As I slumber and continue to burrow
In my blankets, blocking the noise with my pillow
I can still hear your twinkling laugh, see you glow
And I can't open my eyes yet and go
For in these fragments of dreams, I can make you stay
Make myself believe that you never say
Goodbye, and forget that fateful day
Forget your broken promise, that you ever went away.
You smile and I feel myself melt
Are these the cards I was dealt?
For I'd certainly lose in the depth of your eyes
In that honey in your voice as it whisper lies
I should turn my back, I know better than this
But I'm dying to get a taste of your lips
So spin me around, play my strings
Make me dance, make me sing
I'm just another fool to dance right to your web
And I'll stay 'till your interests reach its lowest ebb.
Looking back, I thought you might have seen the good in me
And you tried to bring it out so I could also see
But that was only a flicker, something that flared your hopes up
And I knew that, so I asked you to stop
I'm broken that time and I couldn't trust anybody
Yet you insisted that it'll not be bad as I thought it would be
And for a bit of time, it seems okay
Until I can no more keep my demons in bay
I turned out to be a monster and you saw it
I punished you for the past I was burden with
I got you confused on with the truths and the lies
Having enough, you flee and bid me goodbye
And still, I wish I hadn't let you see,
That there's still good left in me
Maybe then, you wouldn't keep your hopes up
Saving us the time and pain, if you have stopped.