Rambling - Blog Posts
A friend of mine is holding me at gunpoint, threatening me that I can't read their fanfics till I watch Murder Drones to get the full context. So uh, cheers to them lmao bc I binge watched it in an entire night. Cyn and N are my favorites, Uzi fuckin' rocks yo. (I forgot her name but that sassy popular robo-girl was literally the vibe XD)
I love my pooks, very relatable person to be with and similar music taste, who also has a very very horrible sleep schedule fnrfjriiejewiofo what if they were me but in a different timeline. it's impossible to relate to someone so hard, they must be an au of me or I'm an au of them
Heyy uhh... I have a theory.
Yk, I've always wondered why Jason and Thalia, though sons of Zeus and Jupiter, weren't as powerful as Percy- a son of Poseidon, that, while still one of the Big Three, is in a lower rank.
And, like, I get it, he's the protagonist, maybe it's the genetics, it's a once-in-a-century-thing, blah blah.
Still, that doesn't explain how some demigods are way stronger than their own siblings. Why is it that Leo has abilities that none of his siblings have? Or like, why is Clarisse stronger than all fellow Ares kids? How come Luke is the only one that had pick locking abilities?
That made me wonder, what if there was something else into it? What makes a demigod be born with such powerful abilities while others either don't or are weaker?
And what if... It had something to do with the relationship their parents had?
I mean, we know that the gods in some way kind of "lend" a bit of their powers to their children in an unconsciousness level, as we also know they consider giving their children-cough Athena, cough- to the mortal parents as some sort of "gift".
What if the power that the demigods have is kind of a consequence of how much the gods loved their mortal parents when conceiving said demigods?
Like, we know that Hades loved a lot Ms. Di Angelo, and that Bianca and Nico, even if the first one didn't get to show her power, were both a neon sign of "come and eat me!" for monsters, which, yeah, it might be because they're Hades's, but Hazel wasn't persecuted by every monster in a five kilometer radius, so I like to think my point still stands.
Although, it might be because of Gaia.
...Anyways-
Another case is my beloved Meg. She's a child of Demeter, and we were told prior to this saga that both Aphrodite's and Demeter's were the safest demigods to roam outside of camp, hence them being quite "weak", most of them with barely any powers (Katie and Drew might be exceptions, considering the plant powers and charmspeak).
Yet, we have Meg. A ten(?) year old that can summon cereal demons, grow plants outta nowhere and (kinda) communicate with trees.
This girl is insanely powerful, and even Lester admits it.
Let's not forget Demeter really loved Meg's real dad, who had a nature sanctuary where many driads lived, and truly believed nature was beautiful. They both appreciated each other a lot, and for what I can remember, even after Meg they kept in a somewhat from of contact until you-know-who ruined everything.
I think Demeter was truly in love with him.
Let's go back with Thalia, Jason and Percy for a second.
When I say that these two arent as powerful as Seaweed, I don't mean to say that Zeus didn't love their mom. In fact, I believe he did a lot, specially considering he fell for her in both his Greek AND Roman form.
What I do believe is that she didn't love him the same way. I think she loved more the idea of being with a god rather than the god itself. They both are highly egoistical people as far as I've seen, so my guess is that, while they felt attracted to each other, they liked themselves more, which is what drove them apart in the first place.
There's also Percy himself, who is my last point to concrete my theory. Him, the son of the sea god, who thought Sally was the Queen of Ninphs. Poseidon, who said Percy's mom was the most beautiful woman in the world. The Earthshaker, who admitted to have never loved someone as much as he did with Sally.
He, who said he'd never forget her.
What I'm trying to say is, I think demigods strength and godly abilities are heavily caused by the love their parents felt for each other.
After all, Love is one of the most powerful feelings to exist, being even older than gods themselves (Aphrodite is technically a Titaness when it comes to mythology accuracy).
So to believe that love is the source of power of the children of two creatures that, godly or not, are motivated by their primal emotions and feelings, it doesn't surprise me to think their power comes from the strongest of said emotions.
Omgh!
YOUR GONNA GIVE ME A BABY FEVER 😭.
Hes so adorable mashallah 💕😭.
He is very adorable 🥹 he looks like his dad tho… it’s unfair I carried him for 9 months and he comes out looking like his dad 😮💨 but I love my lil Noah bean and so does his dad 🥹🫶🏻
He has his own heating blanket and he loves it everyone keeps gifting him things with either very cute dinos or bears so he is very loved by my family and my boyfriends. I swear Noah is my whole pride and joy 🥹💕🫶🏻
So I kinda need a huge cuddle pile with nice food and Disney movies so I can sob my heart out 🥹💕
@kai-lee08 IF YOU WONT GIVE ME KISSES I WILL HAUNT UR ASS 😤 and @gimmeurtmi can show me all her photo cards hehe 🥹 and @smuttystraykidsthoughts can just bring her sweet self😙
I think it speaks to something innate about humanity and the societies that exist in BSD, honestly. (And by extension our own world kind of.)
The ultimate goal is power, no matter its cost. Even if that means ruining and ending lives. Even if that means destroying a person’s chance at ever getting to know peace. Even if it comes at the expense of the world itself.
Those that have something that can be used shall be used. Their human attributes and personality just needs to be thrown away first.
But that’s the thing about ability users in BSD, you can never fully separate their humanity from them. No matter what is done, they prove their humanity time and time again, even if they themselves don’t realize it.
Those in power will always fail to use you if you keep sight of your humanity. That’s what separates you from them.
Something something, Mori's immortal army plan and all the trauma it created, being a way for him to prove ability users are useful and worth keeping around.
The hunting dog's being turned into killing machines and routinely undergoing surgeries just to survive it. They are heroes but it's at the cost of their freedom and peace.
The only creations made by ability users that history deems worthy being weapons like Amenogozen and the One Order.
Child ability users like Chuuya, Kyouka and Teruko being stolen away from their family and treated as less than human because they would make a better weapon.
Children like Atsushi and Yumeno being abused and made to hate themselves all because they have an ability.
Ability users bodies being turned into weapons even after death, like the Holy Sword, the Old Boss, Shibusawa and Fukuchi.
Ability users like Sigma, Bram and Mushitaro being used like tools by organizations because of their abilities.
Combative abilities like Demon Snow being passed down the bloodline forcing children to grow into weapons.
Something about ability users being dehumanized and used by non-ability users for years and years, yet they are the ones villainized for being what they were forced to be, every time.
Something about Fyodor having lived to witness all of this and all that came before. Internalizing that resentment towards ability users, perhaps having been the victim of it at least once, and deciding that the only way the evil will stop is if ability users didn't exist.
Genuinely, it’s so easy to see Sigma being tired of such big behind the scenes roles, even if it’s for the Agency.
Especially because the Agency seems to already have their fill of administration and support members. (The structure of that place is kind of a mess but it works very effectively.)
It would be nice to see Sigma go through the journey of trying to put himself into a place like that, only to realize that’s not he wants, and it’s not where he fits.
Being a part of a family doesn’t mean you have to be a member of their group or organization. The best families are the ones who let you choose the path that is best for you.
So then he ends up at the cafe, and is able to build his own life and identity in that space for the first time ever.
I don't want Sigma to become a detective, purely because I don't think that's what he wants either.
He wants the love, trust and care of the Agency, he wants the same bond Dazai has with the others. He's craving a home, a family, and the Agency is the first place he's seen have that.
But he's also highly strung and nervous, he doesn't seem to like being in combative and dangerous situations. Which being a detective would place him in. He does however seem to genuinely enjoy interacting with people and providing services for people.
He loved the sky casino and whilst the sheer size of his customer base overwhelmed him, he genuinely cared about that place and making people happy.
I think, if he does join the Agency, he should join it on the administrative side. He'd get to show off his organizational skills and he'd be helping people whilst staying out of action. He has great memory so going through case files and doing the behind the scenes research to aid the detectives out on the field would suit him well. He could also attend meetings with Fukuzawa, who hates having to talk business and help with the Agency's connections.
Alternatively, if he doesn't join the Agency, I think it would be fun if he also got a job at the cafe.
Again, I think he just enjoys customer service type roles and the owner has already adopted one stray in Lucy, why not another? Sigma and Lucy would be such a fun combo, I'd love to see them interacting with the Agency whenever they're in the cafe.
"Dazai is the easily flustered one" "No, Chuuya is"
You fools, its both! They are only ever confident in romantic gestures when they're the one who initiated it!
Everything is a competition with them, they know how to get under each other's skin and that not just for annoying each other. They definitely have a corner in their brains dedicated to things they've said/done that has got the other one flustered!
If you think they don't have a tally chart at home for keeping track of the amount of times they've made each other go beet red in public, you're wrong.
Y’all are not ready for the type of absolutely tomfoolish fuckery I am gonna drop on y’all
I hate disassociating when I’m trying to do things that require active consciousness/control because my brain wants to check out and I’m like “No we have Tasks” and so to be a brat my brain says “fine but you’ll have to think about every little thing you want your body to do”
So I’ve got my favourite chapter (Acid Splash) upcoming and it SHOULD be done but the thing is… it introduces my favourite character so I’m being perfectionists and hyper focusing on that
I’M NOT DEAD GUYS TRUST ME
I’ve got cover art for it and several documents explaining to myself how to do the character progression
I’m excited about my comfort character help
WHY DO I KNOW SO MANY PEOPLE GETTING GFS WHILE IM OUT HERE PINING OVER SHIT THAT'S NEVER GONNA HAPPEN???
im so close to catching up on the warrior cats books after restarting them. im on the last hope right now, so i think maybe 1 or 2 more sets until caught up in the main series?
not including the novellas and super editions, ill read those when i get to them