Power Of Friendship - Blog Posts
Petition to the universe to make the white guy next to me in my astronomy class a magical girl
Just watched the Thunderbolts* and I kind of feel better for myself.
The themes of finding your purpose and supporting each other from your own depressions hit me as recently I’ve been feeling useless about everything and not getting better.
No matter what I did, it wasn’t enough, and I feel like nothing was going to change, and this movie helped me feel better about it.
When Bob started punching the Void, it made me feel like I should do the same to the criticizing voice in my head, but what I really need is support to find my own way out like how the rest of the Thunderbolts did to save the day.
I’m probably going to struggle to find the people to help be free me from this useless feeling even more so because I tend to bottle things up, but this movie did put the thought in my head to start the way to feeling better, even if the road there is going to be long and difficult.
A rant about being aromantic as well as asexual while being a teen
It sucks dude. I feel behind and a part of me doesn’t care, but another part of me is going, “WHY ME?!”. And some of it, at least for me, is in part due to trauma, and also lack of attraction. Sometimes I just wish I could feel something, you know. I also don’t want to be in a qpr with anyone, but I just want friends. The problem is due to trust issues I’m scared to hug them and stuff, so that causes me to get a bit touch starved, even though I could just ask. Everything is just scary. I do love my friends in the most platonic way and that’s it. They are truly wonderful people, but I wish I could...well fit in more sometimes. I know that it’s sappy and honestly not the best outlook to want to fit in, but I just wonder what it feels like to fit in, or perhaps everyone is just faking it regardless. I’m a bit sad and scared my friends will leave me for their partner(s), though I don’t think they would, as one of them is dating some peeps and they’re really chill and equally care and I guess I’m scared that I’m just not loved by my friends. I think they do love me and I have this tendency to give to much and never relax because I’m just a people pleaser. So overall, I’m just a lil’ lonely and sad and I wanted to rant on here because people seem pretty chill.