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I feel pretty bad abt only coming back to this hellsite to request commissions but please, PLEASE just commission me because now I've looked at Twig and fuck yes she's got the scale rotz!!!! Right when she's about to shed, so, if you have some spare money I'll draw literally anything, I just need the money for the vet and her new enclosure stuff :(
When my keyboard teacher threw a surprise test, he made us play in front of everyone, one by one. i never practised ( i only play the keyboard because i already have for two years and i cant let go of things easily). I ended up laughing when i had to go back to the biginer book, and i ran out after my hands were shaking so hard i couldnt play the first. fucking. exercise. By this point
( because my anxiety response is trying to please the crowd) I was gigling and laughing like a maniac. Then I broke down and started crying. This is made worse by the fact that my brain went through every chain of effect, reason, response, fuck yourself by the time I had cycled home. Well.... what the fuck do I do now.
Uncomfortable
I'm stuck in a 2 star hotel that's been repeatedly reported for nasty rooms, nasty drug heads, homeless people trying to sneak through the windows, rude staff...I'm here for two nights.
It stinks here. I'm omw to my housekeeping job and it definitely goes to show that, I KNOW I can do better than this. Dirty towels, empty toilet paper rolls, used water bottles sitting in the fridge...and I want to cry. I've peaked outof the peep hole 4 times, I've checked the windows 5 times. And I'm not even paying for it...my guy friend is, so I can't complain. And I literally have no money to my name to change any of this.
Wednesday I'll be out of here. But until then I'm stuck. In this nasty hole and smelly room. The only good thing is that Jurassic Park is playing and I still have snacks he bought me.
“you’re never more alive than when you’re almost dead”
tim o’brien
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I am not asking for a lot of money, I only need 70 euros to buy a medicine called Kabira to treat muscle spasms for my son Adam.💔🙏
https://www.gofundme.com/f/emergency-appeal-help-save-my-childrens
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You know how you want to draw something but ended up staring on your tablet or paper-?
Hey so… I want to update with my reactions but I’m new to this app so idk how it works… is there a way to do like a twitter thread here? Or I have to post individual posts every time?? Please help me out!! I have seen people that link together posts about the same stuff but I don’t know how to do it
The last two books of aftg just arrived!! Im dying to read them 🙂↕️🙂↕️🙂↕️ I’ll be updating my reactions
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Thank you from my heart for what you are doing for the people of Gaza who are in bad need in this tough and dire time. 💔💚🖤🤍
You are examples for kindness, generosity and nobility. You have been standing with for long and showing how brave one should be in time of need. 🍉🍉🍉🍉
You helped me greatly to make progress in my campaign, but I am still in need of your kind support to reach my goal.✌️✌️
As noticed, the campaign is very slow😪😪 now and needs strong move and this can be carried out through your contribution and cooperation. 😯😯
Please don't leave us alone during this dire time. I am still in the first quarter of my campaign. ❣️❣️
https://gofund.me/0dc0aa34
Unfortunately, I am not in the position to help, but if you can help, please donate!
The link: https://gofund.me/0dc0aa34
Tryin to help as well
Fuck it
Poll between everything I might actually be interested in
Also @ Americans note that literally all of this is free so I'm not really thinking abt career choices moreso just something to occupy my time with
pls RB if you see this I genuinely don't know what to do LMAO
My mom makes me feel like I’m a disgrace to this world. Like I can’t do nothing to better myself in this life. I’m trying my best. I keep getting pushed back. Her filthy words are bringing me down. I don’t even feel alive anymore. Just dead.
I'm trying to write a Naruto Self insert/isakai fanfiction but I'm a beginner author.
The problem I'm having is making a scene or plot points when I don't have a actual plot.
Any tips or tricks to stay motivated?
Some Cyrusk (+ a surprise and a confession 👀)
1. CYRUSK IN THAT ONE DRESS RAGAHHAHAHAHA 👹!! This is an extra detailed one. I suck at shading 😭. This one is free to draw in your style (as well as any other of my artworks), as long as you credit me, don't trace and don't feed it to AI (I will feed you to the vicious man-eating wolves with rabies if you feed any of my art to AI. Seriously, when I see you, it is ON SIGHT). You can trace my art as long as you don't post it anywhere. Only trace my art for learning purposes.
2. But I'm a Cheerleader. I've never seen this movie before 😭. I first saw the original poster for the movie when I saw a promotion thingy for the YouTuber Evasive's (I watch some of their videos, one of their videos gave me the unfortunate introduction to Sia's autism movie 😭😭😭) movie night thingy. This was the movie they were watching and I got inspired 😭. My handwriting sucks so it says "But I'm a Hitman". From what fanart I've seen of the original movie, there's lesbians and I'm a lesbian (actually I'm bi but I prefer women).
Here's the confession now... I'M SO DOWN BAD FOR MAJELL!! The most beautiful woman in Aleph Null istg. Like bark bark or whatever
Here's the surprise now: I made another webcomic... Let me explain!!
This time, the webcomic is actually in the Aleph Null universe (very close to it). It's about my lil self-insert OC that's Cyrusk Belgor's moirail. Cyrusk basically leaves for the job of the main plot I guess 😭. Obviously without telling my lil shit OC cause she's a heavy sleeper and stuff. So she spends the whole webcomic trying to find Cyrusk while participating in a national poker championship thingy. Cybele is gonna be in it kinda as a minor supporting role that'll only be there for a few moments. Cyrusk will be there in flashbacks and at the very end. And Sauron's gonna have a cameo at the very end and Helstm will probably be mentioned. Falmea will be mentioned as well cause she's the main character's ex-kismesis (they forgot about each other. The OC X Canon lore is getting juicy.). The rest of the characters are my characters. Also we got purple evil Cyrusk girl as a shitty manipulative placeholder moirail yay. It only has 11 pages so far and it's labeled as shitpost but it'll get good I promise!! Also it isn't canon to the canon of Aleph Null. Here it is:
Another confession: HELP I DON'T UNDERSTAND CYRUSK'S CHARACTER AT ALL (prolly cause he's not my character). I have a deathly fear of mischaracterizing that guy or any character I don't understand (accidentally) 😭. I should understand his character but I really don't 😭😭😭... I just need help with dialogue and mannerisms for me tho.
Anyways, sorry for the long post 😭 Well earned and deserved credit for Cyrusk's existence goes to @clockworkreapers (seriously, how do I write Cyrusk correctly 😭😭😭 It's like asking a substitute teacher for help)
lotion is a substance that exists to make your skin not feel gross and dry by making your skin feel gross and wet <3
Bro I'm going fucking crazy rn im resorting to my old ways.
Does anyone know where i can reread my favorite fanfiction ever (A lullaby for the gods by inkteacup), it was literally a work of art and i read it over 10 times and i was so sad when it was taken off but i had a whole dream about this fanfiction and i’m literally salivating to read it again but i can’t find it on the wayback machine or anywhere else :(
GIYS I'M ROLLING IN THIS EVENT, DID JACK JUST PULL THE CHAD FACE???? I CAN'T 😭😭
ok im kinda freaking out rn. idk if this is a dumb question but i need an answer pls 😭
my coworker lent me a game of hers to play but asked that i didnt delete her saved play (which i wouldnt want to anyway) but i just now loaded the game and started playing and after going back to the main menu the only saved play is mine and i dont see hers at all
i started to play it before the network update was downloaded tho so im wondering if i like somehow deleted her saved play bc of that ??
(its a disc btw)
pls tell me i didnt and its just bc its on a diff ps4 than hers pls pls pls 😭😭
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can tumblr fix their video thing mine keeps glitching out i can NOT do this anymore
EMERGENCY
Ignore my username its for my april fools joke, my usual username is cupidcalling.
I need $500 for my brother immediately. He's stuck in a small town in texas and his landlord refuses to renew his lease and is kicking him out. He needs this money to rent a car and get back to Kansas with my other brother to stay there for a while and get back on his feet. My brother is in a very precarious state mental health wise and he has nowhere to stay when they officially evict him. He has a friend that is trying to get him the money but it won't be until the weekend and he has nowhere to stay until then, and then we don't know if there will be cars to rent after the weekend. Again, small town in texas. Very Precarious state mentally (as in, suicidal and alone. In texas)
He would be driving from a small town in Texas to Kansas, anything over $500 would be to his gas bill.
It's going through my pp@l to his because I'm not comfortable giving out his information on my blog (personal reasons, you can ask thru dms)
d0nate here! Ask for other options (I have them, but they have my wifes legal name on them) dm me if you want more information, I am willing to give it.
Please reblog if you can't donate, this specific brother of mine is my closest sibling
Rant about aesthetics ig
ok pls tell me i'm not the only one who love aesthetics that are either a: pretty much any aesthetic that's like:
like how do i explain this? it's like a bad message + ★·.·´¯`·.·★ 𝑰'𝒎 𝒂 𝒑𝒓𝒆𝒕𝒕𝒚 𝒑𝒊𝒏𝒌 𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒏𝒄𝒆𝒔𝒔 ★·.·´¯`·.·★ like:
idk how to explain this just. look at this. it's weirdly pleasing to look at, b: Gissy, pommi or the old green bathroom in ur dreams, okay so if you don't know what i mean by "gissy" or "pommi", gissy=GIS=girl interrupted syndrome so any aesthetic like
pommi is any aesthetic w/ pomegranates and using cannibalism as a metaphor for love, like if ur one pinterest like me you've prolly seen quotes like "i would've bled out if you told me you liked the colour red" or "i would've grown flowers in my lungs if you told me you like daisies" y'know like this:
i know, it's weird, but it's cool
anyways the last one kinda explains itself, like y'know that weird fever dream-ish aesthetic where it's kinda like:
y'know those dreams you have that are kinda like lucid dreams where you're aware this is a dream but can't wake up (or don't want to) they kinda look like those images above and it has it's normal dream elements like things being in places they don't belong or one second ur in ur bedroom the next ur at a beach, things of that nature
those dreams that feel so incredibility real but when you wake up you can hardly remember anything, normally just key moments or one moments and it's details, a example of this could be like a dream i recently had where i don't remember much but in order this is what i could scoundrel together
1: this weird moment where i'm in my school hallway and i'm running from something and the whole thing looks exactly like my school except this dead-end where there's this mid-size gap in the roof that's goes up into complete darkness and i (somehow because that goddamn hallway is like 10ft wide) get up into the gap and climb for like a minutes before i just fall up like (spoilers if ur just getting into stranger things) the upsidedown in stranger things where one characters finds this black hole in the ground (not a literal blackhole like a hole with black gunk around it) and the character goes in and falls into this other version of where they found this hole, anyways kinda like that but i fall into *smug laugh* my house
2: idk when tf this happened in the dream but i'm stuck in this gas station bathroom, like greenish lighting, slurs are written on the walls, the toilet itself looks like if you touched it you'd contract 7 different new viruses, y'know, a gas station bathroom, and i KNOW this shit was a dream because my dumbass was just calmly sitting there like i'm not trapped in one of the nastiest places in the northern hemisphere, also rap was just blasting one the radio, it sound like some teenagers came in the gas station w/ one of those hand-held speakers turned to full volume on 103.7 kiss FM (some1 plsss help me because i can't get the ♪one 'o three point seven *insert music here* kiss FM♪ beat outta my head it's burned into my mind helpppppp)
3: i was in a classroom (my 7th grade one even tho im in 8th) and my teacher turned on the news to the political debate and what showed up was a video of joe bidan questioning the country and it's root, how "great" america is and said ᵖᵃᵖᵉʳ before a shit ton of post-it-notes started crashing through own windows, like a tornado of pink, yellow and green post-it-notes (individually not the pack).
anyways, dreams where you can only remember a few details and thats it
and finally c: hear me out, 2014 tumblr, now im like 95% sure that the moment ya'll read "hear me out" you thought i was gonna say something dirty, well ur not entirely wrong about thinking that >:), like any aesthetic that came about or rose in popularity during 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓰𝓸𝓵𝓭𝓮𝓷 𝓪𝓰𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓮 𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓷𝓮𝓽 y'know the "it's 2014, ur 6 y/o again and a happy tree friends video caught your eye the age of the internet full of cat videos and shitty adult parodies of beloved kids shows/movies, when you were like 8 and found a creepypasta iceberg video and had a shot full of dopamine shoot through you prepubescence body, ur 7 y/o again with way too much freedom on the internet and you find a lil niche site call bestgore.com", ok but on a real note i know the shit i saw in the era probably warrants therapy but i 'd take runthegauntlet.org & racist mario (if ykyk) anyday over skibidi toilet or fvcking max design pro, anyways aesthetics like emo, scene/scenecore, furries, etc, i find cool, now this may just be the desperate little 6 y/o in me clinging onto anything that looks remotely similar to what i grew up on talking, but things like bronies and ___ meets ___ series never fail to give me a weird sense of fucked up nostalgia, ok yea that's definitely the traumatized 6 y/o in me talking for sure but still they look cool, also i am LIVING for the resurgence in early 2000s/2010s style of animation it is BEAUTIFUL even if it looks kinda shitty
anyways thanks for reading my rant
Might delete this later might not.
I’m trying to remember the narrative issue where someone keeps raising the stakes till there’s nowhere else to go within fiction except to undo character progress. I’m not super certain what I’m thinking of but I’m trying to look up how to avoid raising the stakes so high that there’s then no where to go from there story wise. Idk if there’s a word for this lemme know if y’all have any input.
Hey do you guys have any ideas for some world-building history cause I’m working on my worlds history and I’m trying to come up with events to sprinkle in so I can build a realistic world unfortunately I’m coming up blank so do you guys have any ideas?
Also please ask questions about the so I can work out any holes I have or just come up with things I haven’t thought of have fun!
Someone said happiness will come to me but when? Am i the only one who believes that good things must come into my life in a stipulated time, otherwise it’s like trying to feed someone who’s already full?
And my ptsd driven brain just reaffirms this idea, a timely positive prescence is more important than anything else
mom was right, it's that damn phone
Has this already been done?
Oh well, here it is
(If you can't read it here)
What is that?
Is that your fucking moss-ona?
That's cringe!
YOU'RE CRINGE!!
....
*Sad Sanji noises*
"Comme si, Comme Ça…" I LOVE HIMMMMMM
he is like… the best ever genuinely 🥹🫶🏽
★I'm pure, I'm pure, I'm pure as a lamb...★
:3 LUV BABY BUGS MUSIC!!