Narcissisticabuserecovery

star-struck-withantlers

1 year ago

Hear Me

A poem about being the scapegoat of a narcissistic mother

You say "I'll do better"

We say "I believe you"

You say "I'm trying my best"

We say "I believe you."

You say "I'm doing better this time."

We say "I believe you."

You say "I'm going through alot right now."

They say "we believe you."

I say "I know, me too."

You say "were a team"

We say "I believe you"

You say "it's not my fault."

They say "I believe you."

I say "it's not ours either."

You say "yous aren't making it any easier."

They say "I'm sorry"

I say "it's not any easier on us."

You say "You don't know what it's like."

They say "I'm sorry."

I say "but I do."

You say "Leave it, it makes me feel better."

They say "I'm sorry."

I say "I don't want to pick up the pieces again."

You say "I don't see you dad's helping us."

They say "We hate them."

I say "You taught us to lie to him, he doesn't know how bad its gotten."

You say "Everyone's against us."

They say "we hate them."

I say "for good reason.

Then we argue. We argue. And we argue again.

You say "If you hate it here so much, go live with your dads."

They say "no, we hate them."

I say "fine." I pack my bags.

We argue a last time...

You say "your being dramatic. Just come home."

I say "I'm done."

Now, we haven't spoken in a year.

You say "Your sister hates me."

They say "we hate her."

What I say doesn't matter, cause you don't let them hear me.