Level Up Journey - Blog Posts

Yes! It's not that easy.

Sometimes, it's really hard for me to express myself into words. Maybe, that's because I need to know myself more and more. But it is becoming easier with you now. You might be thinking there are so many things inside my head and I bring out only a bit of it. I don't know if I have the strength to hold onto myself but, I know one thing, I am able to hold onto you as tightly as possible because I don't want to let you go. You can call me selfish and yes I am, because it's you. When I do anything wrong to you, I really feel that guilt, that ache of not being able to apologize whereas my heart actually wants to, very badly. It isn’t right ! But I always believe in showing my flaws to you because I know it's only you who will value them wholeheartedly. I do several bad things out of anger, take wrong decisions but I realize it too with utter grievances towards myself. I start hating myself for not being able to apologize to you for every mistake. I am afraid I will lose you. At times, I don't want you to be anybody else's company except mine knowing that is selfish enough. I am sorry. You have that freedom. When I feel dull and sad not talking to you, I want you to feel the same too. I hope you understand. I don't force you to do anything because it will become a habit. I will constantly force you to do things and in the process I may lose the grip. But I want to have all the rights on you.

That night when you said I must show my right on you, I was so happy, indeed happy to see you are holding me with your all. I want to take care of you. I am a messy person but I would still keep you organized, learn and cook your favorite dish with all my love. I want to stay awake lying beside you when you are sick and caressing you to sleep would be my utmost priority. I take bad decisions to keep us aloof, to keep us safe and not to hurt us. Forgive me for that. I want to dress up according to your choices of attire, to read your kind of books and embrace the new changes in me, to sing your favorite songs, to travel to your favorite places. I want to talk to you about the silly white lies being told to make things work good. These things would make me happier. I guess this is an in-built part of me which I could never express.

"We grow through hard times. Growth is change. And when everything is easy, we have no reason to change. The most painful moments in life expand us. And when the pain leaves, space remains. Space we can fill with life itself."

HIGH VALUE WOMAN

In order to become HVW we need to understand what that term stands for. I have noticed that it’s very fluid concept and every single woman defined it for herself and adopted it to her own lifestyle. So what does it mean to me to be high value woman?

She is a woman that defines herself and lives her life on her own terms. She represent some type of value which is defined by her value system, standards and vision of preferred lifestyle. There are some common standards for this type of woman like:

Respect

Effort

Class

 Ethic

Self confidence

But the set of her own values is defined only by her. There are woman who choose to be stay at home mothers and career oriented females who want to become the CEO of international corporation, woman who wants hypergamous relationship and the ones that prefer 50/50 dynamic between them and their partner – and all of them can be High Value Woman.

So HVW is a woman who chooses her own values, creates vision of her lifestyle and commits to it. She has goals and ambitions and fiercely executes them by planning and strategizing. She is a woman that is aware of what she wants and knows that she deserves it. She knows that she can have it all. She does not settle for less. She masters the balance between feminine and masculine energies. She provides high quality for people in her life and expects the same level of quality in return.

INTRODUCTION

My name is Aida and I wanted to welcome you on my blog. I’m 22 years old student from Europe. In 2020 I have graduated with bachelor degree from Finance and Investment program. Now I’m starting last year of masters degree on Management program. Outside of University I also work in corporation [finances] since 2019. The content of this blog will revolve around:

Being High Value Woman

Level up journey

Creating desired lifestyle

Self branding

Balancing masculine and feminine energies  

My background.

Since I was a little girl I was surrounded by ambitious individuals with their minds set on specific goals. People with sharp focus, discipline and high standards. Watching them made me feel so inspired to achieve everything that I have ever dreamed about. The older I got the more I have noticed that the amount of this type of people is radically decreasing – young people were loosing the sight of their extraordinary goals and plans for their future becoming content with bare minimum and mediocrity. When I have started my first job in corporation I was shocked by the amount of colleagues in their 30s or 40s being completely unhappy and bitter about their life. It was the moment that I have made a decision to do everything I can in order not to end up this way. I want to create the most extraordinary lifestyle for myself and people that I value in my life. This blog will be the space for me to share my experience and knowledge and it also will be a journal  for my level up / high value woman journey. I can not envision a better platform for this type of content since here on Tumblr we have an amazing community of young woman striving for similar things in life as I do.

The blogs that inspired me to create my own platform:

@2pretty​

@misshyperglam

@babyphat05​

If I had to name the era I’m in, it’d be the “Love Yours” era.