Kind Of - Blog Posts

Why do I feel like I am a square in world of circles?

But when everyone is suddenly a square, I think,

Does anyone fit in at all?

Why does it feel like everyone knows what you are thinking?

But when no one works like me, I think,

Does anyone ever think at all?

Why do things never work the way they're supposed to?

But when they do work, I think,

Does the work mean anything at all?

Why do we use words to separate?

Because when our blood runs the same colour, I think,

Does a label really matter at all?

Gwaine being Gwaine, who has travelled all of Albion and seen plenty of homosexual relationships in his time (if not experimented himself), takes it upon himself to voice a slew of the raunchiest, filthiest jokes known to man, because he doesn't understand why loving someone of the same gender is so shameful.

Arthur is conflicted, at first, because he worries about Leon's standing in court and his status amongst the nobility. But Leon was his very first friend, so he finally decides that his first Knight deserves to be happy and anyone who disagrees has a one-way ticket to getting Banished and stripped of all lands and titles. The rumours settle down real fast after he makes good on his threat to one of the Lords.

Gwen has known since the very beginning, of course, she was there when Leon tripped in the pond and accidentally kissed Elyan for the first time, so she takes every opportunity to tease her brother about his new beau.

Percival and Lancelot haven't known Leon or Elyan for long, but they're both supportive and gossipy anyway, like proud mama bears on the sidelines.

Leon is awkward. Like, really awkward. He turns into a stuttering candyfloss anytime people even acknowledge him for something other than work, so this all turns him into a incomprehensible tomato. It's adorable, honestly.

Elyan flirts. It's an automatic reflex to cover up his embarrassment, like going along with a joke when you're at the butt of it, but he secretly lives for the way Leon gets all shy and blushy when they meet eyes. Besides, he's got nothing to lose anyway, especially after he all but got Arthur's permission.

And Merlin, bless his little heart, gets a break from saving Camelot and watches the drama from the sidelines.

(He totally helps Elyan pick flowers for Leon and teaches him how to court a noble, he's got the experience after all of Arthur's dates with Elena and Mithian, even if they were a bit disastrous.)

Elyan and Leon would totally have that stableboy/son of a lord kind of relationship where Elyan would leave a flower he picked in the meadow at Leon's bedside because he knows he's a romantic and Leon would tie up all of Elyan's letters in a silk ribbon because he's done thst with their notes when he was younger and it's habit by now.

They keep at it when they both become knights, and then Gwaine finds out.

And...and...and then?? How dare you stop there! 😆

Elyan would be a sweetheart (just don't let Gwen know that because he'd never hear the end of it), and Leon is totally a romantic:

Oh my god.

I just remembered I never posted this.

A girl yay

14.03.2025 (fri)

Woke up at 12 PM today and got hit with a killer headache that just kept getting worse 😭. The only reason I survived was because there were just a couple of hours till iftar. Took a painkiller, but it didn’t do much. Still managed to squeeze in some studying—not a lot, but hey, it’s something. Started strong but ended procrastinating towards the end 😭

Things I did today ~

Revised Lec 1 stuff from yesterday

Watched Lec 2 and made notes

Started Lec 3

The good part? I actually understood things pretty easily today, so I’m breathing a little easier. Still a long way to go, but small wins are still wins !!

Anyways,

BYEEEE

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“Being Alive Is A Performance, Darling!”

@mechtober-2024 day 17! today i bring you our dramatic darling soldier, playing the part of a puppet as it always does since someone else is always pulling the strings

(click for better quality!)

Bringing this over from twitter

My wife everybody

i genuinely forgot that was today whoops,

hii! no hate, just question, i keep seeing one of your fic in the “#mcyt x reader” recents tag. more specifically the “Distance (Wilbur Soot x M!Reader)” and saw you reposting the same at least twice a your acc, just wondering why because if its too gain more reach, i think you just need to post it once w/o doing it more than once, anyways, thanks!! (sorry if this sounded aggressive!! ;v;)

(suggestion, if its an announcement that you made a new chapter, i suggest you make it a masterlist which your followers can just like and whenever you make a new chapter, you could just edit it! :>)

Hi! Don't worry this very much isn't aggressive!

Now I post updates (with the tags) both for reach and for just general announcements.

The reason I make separate posts + not one singular masterlist is because of 1) the way Tumblr reach works and 2) not everyone wants to do that much work (even if it may not seem like a lot)

Now Tumblr reach means that unless your post gets enough traction to qualify as a Top Post in the tag, it will inevitably be lost to more recent posts. And even if it does become a Top Post, it will also inevitably be switched with a new post one day. And as someone who doesn't go through tags everyday to check, older-new posts tend to be lost to me unless I take time to backlog to where I had been the last time I checked (which doesn't happen often).

This is also due halfway to me not bothering to follow many people (partly my social anxiety for existing), which means I don't get follower post notifications.

And it is also a sort of way to update for every chapter going out. This is for a multitude of reasons, one being that some people may not have a wattpad account to get update notifs which means unless they remember to check, they'll miss posts.

I have struggled over whether it's okay for me to keep posting the same stuff in the same tags for a while, especially since some tags are slow to update/lacking in content. I've thought of simply keeping it to Wattpad and/or possibly making untagged update posts on my alt but again, I'm unsure if it'd reach the same amount of people (especially since I have less followers on my alt compared to my main)

Though I'm not against deleting my update posts here if it's an issue, I would like more opinions on this if possible!

Sorry for the rant, have a great day/night anon!

[L0v3, k1ng]

I got to the part in The Martian where he does all the rover modifications and the mental image of it just bewitched me to the point I had to draw it.

this took me like 5 minutes or less btw so for a quick doodle i think its pretty good

Twitter has decided that the cats name is Skyla/Rodent Annihilator/Rat Eater 2000

Dexter changes its name a lot, and uses literally every pronoun on the cat.

No one knows if he's talking about a different cat or not or even what the cats sex is.

rainfall 🌧🌧

maizulee + maiko post canon <3

(This is not comics compliant) not seeing enough Mai/Azula or even Mai/Azula/Ty Lee stuff today so take my interpretation of how it would work post canon:

im horrible at getting together stories but ANYWAYS I think mai would be with zuko and she’d also have feelings for Azula so for a while she’d be torn between the two and then she’s like why not both :/ to herself one day so she tells zuko and he’s like you want to date my sister too??? And Mai says something along the lines of ’i have a type’ (i think I’m hilarious)

anyways tyzula would already be established at this point and I think Mai would not confess her feelings, I actually see Azula being the one more likely to confess (or ty Lee ‘accidentally’ lets it slip to Mai lol) but yeah I don’t really have an actual getting together moment planned.

so I headcanon zuko as transmasc nonbinary and personally love adopted!izumi so that happens <3 Azula and ty Lee still like being called her aunts rather than moms but they raise them together. ty lee would teach her chi blocking bc she’s a late bloomer in terms of bending. Mai would teach her to throw knives and izumi thinks its hilarious that she’ll see her mom look super Powerful and Threatening™️ one minute and then the next her mom will just be laying on the couch cuddling her girlfriends and writing a love letter to her husband who’s on a diplomacy trip. azula and zuko teach her fire bending ofc. Sometimes Azula has to take breaks because it triggers memories of her intense training when she was a child, but her family is always there to calm her down 💘

anyways if you have anything to add pls comment or reblog!!! Not enough maizulee content tbh :( I’ll be posting more of them soon.

I'm not actually going to do anything with this idea, but it's been slightly infecting my brain.

My favourite one of the more mainstream gravity falls aus is Drifting Stars. So, combine that with my Washed Away au. Ford and Nimirylov are on their nice date when suddenly a portal opens up, and a human girl about their daughters age falls out. She's clearly not fine, passed out, and neither of them could even imagine just leaving her like that...

Mabel wakes up in a strange cottage. All she can remember is the flash of white after letting go of the button. Then walks in a weird aquatic man followed by someone who she mistakes for Stan at first.

Guess who's back posting again... This guy!!🥳🥳🎉🎉 Hooray!!!

...well uh I don't have much yet so take these for now

Full intro coming... eventually👍

I hope you've been good this year.

Happy New Year!

Feverish

author:

rutu14

summary:

Dazai always gets a little too worked up when he sees Chuuya fight.

He just can't help himself.

Better Late Than Never

author:

rutu14

summary:

Dazai had never thought that Chuuya would come to him with a proposal for sex. The way cash keeps showing up in his wallet is a little odd, though.

Chuuya has essentially become Dazai's Sugar Daddy, not that Dazai knows that.

Pi is Transcendental

author: Dangit

summary: Tumblr Prompt: I'm actually really good at math but the tutor is really hot so I'm pretending to be dumb.

kai sketches wooooo!!!!!!

A Different Kind of Sacrifice

author: ProbsACryptid

summary: Riddle's chosen by his village as a human sacrifice--to be fed to one of the servants of their Gods. But, the creature seems to have other plans for him.

debating which person in yubas would be cigarettes and which one would be the matches for a fic i'm writing

you could argue that yun is self-destructed right now. but how is elias contributing to that? in the fic this is after their breakup and it like reallyy fucks yun up.

but ALSO we could argue it's them during the relationship. elias collapsing in on himself because of yun. how elias wants to help him, but he refuses help. yun is obsessive, incredibly unstable. (i mean tbf so is elias...)

this doesn't need to be about self-destruction either. it could also be about recreation, appearances, someone being "the spark." i don't know anymore why am i debating this it's one line about which colors the boxes are.

Rarijack one-shot!

Spider Web Lies Of A Thousand Mirror Eyes

Winding corridors of dust covered shelves, missing the little hatchling who wandered the halls. Wispy smoke reaches out, a frail finger tipping a half finished book into waiting hands. The ink has long dried, but the memories have not, so they take up a brush. Swirling the fine bristles into the ink, staining the pages with shadow and tar. Another name, another chapter, one more world to add to the archives. They set the brush down, dabbing away the ink with a damp cloth as they gather stardust into their arms, weaving it into the image of a spider's web. Engraving it into the leather covers with sunglow pins, the name shimmers in the faint light of the lanterns. A moment of hesitation before they turn, the doors silently closing behind them. Distant, ephemeral stories await their arrival, and a vast archive trapped in time can always wait just a little bit longer.

ah…. Yes. it’s time to post my weskennedy playlist….. heh… my elite music taste..,.

Sing For Me (Your Fatal Flaw Is Your Gilded Hubris)

A small piece inspired by @chocoenvy's playing god series but also their writing in general. I got an error when I attempted to send it in through an ask so I don't know if it got sent through or not so here it is in post form.

Pretty little songbird

With broken wings

A melody that shatters

A voice that no longer sings

Silenced by cruelty

A delusion of lies

Fracturing mirrors

Of spiderweb scars

It is not the light that shelters

Not the winds that follows 

Or the earth that steadies

Nor the storms that soothes

It is the dark that hides

The ice that guards 

Steadfast and strong

The wolves of winter prowl

Fervently devoted

Even steeped in madness

They are not blind

They see and they hear

They answer the call

With little hesitation

Ruin the foolish idols

Bring the heretics to their knees

No mercy left for the merciless

An eye for an eye

You have sown this sin

So you must reap your punishment 

Atone for the crime that can not be forgiven

Monstrous Devotion (It Will Devour You Whole)

Another piece for @m1d-45. It was meant to be short but as you can tell, got out of hand.

Desperation 

You remember it well

How it sparked your blood

And got it to run

How it tasted of bitter and tang

Much like the sting of blood

You remember how it kept you alive

Made your nerves so sensitive 

It prickled with every breeze

Every slight disturbance

How it kept your sleep light

And your dreams even lighter

Even now as you watch

The archons who adorn your body

With the most precious of gems

And the rarest of treasures 

They who once tried to shed your blood

To water their blade

You see the warriors of each nation

Who tried to rend your soul from your body

Attend your every need 

Degrading themselves as objects

As lesser than human

To try and exalt you higher

You feel more than you hear

As you watch once beloved characters

Stain themselves with sin

Desperation of their own

Rising to the surface

Their desperation is monstrous 

Predator to prey

Your own desperation has not waned

It has only grown

Writhing under your skin

Fueled by fine jewelry 

Silken clothes

And bloodstained manic smiles

Your forgiveness is not sincere

It is learned

Through a lifetime of pain

Of a death so vivid

You're desperate to stay alive

You are willing to do anything

But what once kept you safe

Will now be the one to deal a fatal blow

You already know this

Alarm bells ringing

With every minute move

But it's far too late

You're stuck in puppet motions

That are to never cease

Until the life drains from your eyes

Desperation made you learn to survive

And now that very same lesson shall be the one to end you

Beloved One, Where Has Your Humanity Gone? (Exalted One, Your Monstrosity Is All That You Need.)

I've sat upon this throne

For a century it feels

But I know

Not a decade has passed

It is velvet plush 

And silken smooth

Crafted of sunbeam golds

And starshine silvers 

The jewels that adorn it

Are precious and lovely

From the deepest blues

That remind me of oceans 

And the empty gaze 

Of a devout follower

Stained by ink and blood

The shine of peacock teal

The glimmer of amethyst violet

The spark of sunset topaz

Devotion and adoration

Swirl and coil in irises glazed

A whirlpool of desire 

That drags me under

Drowning me in their affection 

They've crowned me honor

Exalted me above all

Their touches are butterfly light

Their words dripping with honeydew

Their bodies for me to use

Their souls for me to savor

A title

A crown 

So light upon my head

A responsibility 

Utter trust and loyalty

Heavy upon my heart

"Absolute power corrupts absolutely"

I've heard it said a dozen times before

But here in this world

Paradisiacal as it is

I can't seem to care

I am their God

It's only right I take my due

The Price Of Crossing A Bridge Long Since Burned (Your Memories Shall Do Just Fine)

A bit of a longer piece inspired by @flokali

In the quiet abyss of slumber

Stolen away from an empty home

Only to wake to familiar world

Not yours

Not quite

But close enough

You've been here before

Not as yourself 

But as a traveler seeking their twin

Searching for their other half

They shouldn't know you

In fact 

They shouldn't be alive

They should be codes and pixels

A world just imaginary 

Just fantastical and nothing more

Yet here you were

In a bedroom not your own

Surrounded by people you've seen

You've played with 

But by all means shouldn't be

You did not belong 

No matter what they claim

And yet here you are

The world will change 

Just as you already have

After all

Are you sure you've seen these people before?

Are you sure you do not belong here?

Do you remember your past?

Of your empty home filled with memories?

Memories you can't remember?

You don't recognize their names

And certainly not their faces

So how are you so sure you've met them before?

How are you sure you've been taken?

You're here aren't you?

They all seem so worried

And they know you so well

Hm?

Oh dear

Maybe you've been dreaming too long

You're starting to get everything mixed up

Don't worry

They'll take care of everything

And they'll take care of you

You shouldn't worry so much

I'm sure it's a little confusing

And I can sense your panic from here

Everything will be just fine

Besides

This life isn't so bad

I'm sure you'll grow to like it

It's all that you have now after all

The shatter of mirror fractals

Like the chiming of bells 

A fog settles and sinks

Muddling memory and thought alike

A drop in an ocean 

The ripples become waves 

And the waves rise into tsunamis 

As one life ends 

Another begins 

Stolen from a mundane world

To be exalted above all 

And chained to a throne

Meant for a righteous God

Is this a blessing?

Or perhaps it is a curse

Either way

It's far too late 

The die has cast 

And it's already begun 

No time for regrets

Not that you would remember any

Let's make the best of this

Okay?