Jiraiblogging - Blog Posts
(your last post)
the people that matter shouldn't care, but you should care about why you want to change. Is it that u don't want to be that anymore because that's not who you really are, or do you want people to see you differently so then they like you?
don't try to be quieter/act differently just to have a different image if that's not what's true to you. If it's more about how that's how you would prefer to be because it makes u more comfortable, then be it.
remember that it shouldn't be a decision really on how you want to be, just try to be who you are naturally if that makes sense
Either way, however you are shouldn't make the people you care about stop liking you (if it does then they aren't worth it).
Don't worry and just be yourself. I know that's an overused phrase that doesn't seem to mean anything when u hear it over and over again but actually think about it. Be yourself. don’t be afraid of change
(im basing some of this on how you said "in public" bcs that sounds like changing wouldn't be for yourself. and coming from someone who used to be more open about who they were, you don't want to be stuck not being able to be yourself. I could be wrong since I'm just assuming from what you wrote so js ignore if it's the other way and yeah if changing would be closer to who u are then do it!!)
im definitely repeating myself a lot and I don’t know how to phrase things so I’ll shut up now, but hope this helps at least a little or helps you think about it
have a good day/night :3
thank u :3
i’m normally super happy and upbeat and loud, but i just don’t wanna be that anymore. will ppl still like me if im mostly quiet and introverted?(in public)
i love u silly :p
i feel nauseous and numb at the same time fuck what’s wrong with me?
my silly’s stupid parents are mean to him :c
da one time we both free and we finally can watch bocchi the rock, go to barnes and nobles togethers, and go to the gas station∩^ω^∩- HIS STUPID PARENTS GROUND HIM
he’s my angel and he doesn’t deserve da mistreatment (● ˃̶͈̀ロ˂̶͈́)੭ꠥ⁾⁾
BLEH school sucks :c
i hope a tornado comes to js damage the school tn so we don’t have school for weeks ∩^ω^∩
my most amazing awesome friend never ever sees how great he really is, 🍬🍥
i don’t think he knows how much he means to me 🍡
i mean i can actually talk to him and watch things with him and i don’t have to worry about him judging me or anything. ♡and i never ever get annoyed by him. everyone except for maybe 3 ppl i get annoyed with so easily, it’s nothing against them but ppl are so insufferable. (not you my angels)
and i don’t know how to tell him but i want to hang out with him more but he has his job and he likes his job so it’s okays hehe. and i want to watch so many anime’s with him /srs ∩^ω^∩
i hope he knows that i’ll never leave him and that no matter what happens i’ll always love him. no matter what (*^o^*)
(๑>◡<๑)
SILLY NEW PINS FROM MY PIN MAKER HEHEHEHE
fuck why am i like this?
goodnight angels :^ safe space to vent in da comments
my pillows smell like her :3
my friend so amazings ∩^ω^∩ i love him he’s a silly billy. i wannas watch so much with him-all the sigma shoujo magical girl anime’s 🍡
RAHHH I GOT A PIN MAKER :3
WE LOVE HATSUNE MIKU ♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡ I pray to her every night frfr
YESYES I CONCUR I LOVE MIKUUUU
(*≧∀≦*)
i do, you don’t make me worse. i love you
Give me attention give me attention cry
nothing is wrong with you. we feel emotions and they are valid and okays. i love you and i know it hurts right now but i promise we’ll get through this together ^ ^🍡
i’m so scared i see my dad getting sicker and sicker hes the only family i have
i love love love love love saving my lovelies! they matter so much to me even when they’re mad or sad or pushing me aways ∩^ω^∩ they deserve love and support
so fucking real
I hate the kids in my school. They're disgusting.
Other than my friends ofc.
i’ll never leave you. but when i’m left alone for others at moments, i want someone to fill the void
you can have so many people, but i have one and im the bad person? you want me back and are upset that things change when you are the one to push me away? i want you back but sometimes it’s tiring to chase and chase. it has always been you. you have so many. i want to be one of them. but is it wrong for me to want another person too? ∩^ω^∩
hi my angels
i’m gonna vent okays hehe
i see them hugging eachother so much. i’m supposed to be your person. i’m supposed to be your friend. is it wrong of me to think such things. i want them to be happy. but i listen and help and make sure to support them yet all i get in return is my begging for affection. no hugs for me. you are tired when i want to talk but not for them. you are fawning over their art but not mine. i’m i selfish for wanting such things? what am i to you? im the one you get mad at. i’m the one you wave to while they’re the one you run and hug. why?
how it feels when they always cancel on you and ignore you ^ ^
fuck you fuck you fuck you i fucking hate you
hi my angels
i don’t know what i’m doing wrong
i don’t know how i can help
what good am i if i can’t do the one thing im good at
i say i can talk and help but i feel im no use. im sorry im sorry i dont have the answers. i dont know what to do.
new art anyways do u ever feel like you don’t have any impact on anyone? like even if you do it’s def not positive and shouldn’t have been done to begin with? ☆*:.｡. o(≧▽≦)o .｡.:*☆
Tw:blood, fresh cuts Ai generated, SFX practice (SUPER REALISTIC)
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Last chance..
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Apologies for my janky ass camera😭😭
update
i relapsed and its AMAZING it was stupid to quite in the first place