My old photos are such th!nspo wth
I forgot how high cal non-diet food is. Wdym i ate 1k today?? Need to get on track. No excuses this time.
UGH I HAD A THIGH GAP BEFORE 'Recovery' WHAT HAPPENED
I haven't used tumblr for so long and trying to get myself back into the swing of things after attempted recovery is so odd. Like what do I do?? What tf are communities?? Help😭🙏
Lol I may be back? Idk. 4 months tho! That's crazy. I'm not sure yet. But it's so weird being back! Missed yall😔 miss my old account where I had thousands of moots 💔 anyways hey! Idk what tags yall use anymore so I'm just using the ones recommended to me
The whole reason I wanted to recover in the first place was for my grades so I don't think I'll do too low a deficit (800-900cals a day) and because I was scared because my mom caught me lying about lunch at school so I was convinced she was stalking me oops
May be back. Idk yet.
I’ll probably be back in like a week lol. But I think I want to start recovery. So I may be gone for a while.
I’m not a hater. I’m JEALOUS of people with fast metabolisms, I don’t hate them. I don’t hate them, what I hate is the fact that some of them are stuck in a body they don’t want, being insecure about being skinny, when I ⭐️ve and put my body and mind through hell and still be double the size of them
I can’t live like this anymore.
I deleted tumblr for the week because my phone had no storage but I’m back now.
I’ve had the worst time. It’s bad enough I was demotivated after getting t-worded but im actually so done.
Two months. Two fucking months in a plateau.
I caved. I weighed in. I knew it wouldn’t be completely accurate because I haven’t pooped in days, I’ve eaten today and I had chippy the day before, so it’d be high in sodium, but to see the scale jump up FIVE LBS since the pre-October weigh in was horrible. Last time I hit a lw was the last week of August. This isn’t fair.
Why am I putting my body through hell when all I get is no fucking energy, being sad all the time, JUST TO GET FUCKING FATTER!?
I count every calorie, I stress over everything, I’ve lied to my family and done everything I can just to gain weight even though I’ve been in a deficit on average of 500 cals a day(I take metab days but my deficit on other days evens it out). I should have lost like 8lbs since August but I haven’t.
And to make it all worse my parents caught me skipping lunch during school. So now they’re like stalking me to make sure I eat lunch, making me eat higher calorie dinners, and banning zero calorie drinks from me. There’s nothing I can do anymore. What do I do?
Doing a 28hr fast because I’m having a kebab later. I’m exhausted though and I have school. Anyone got tips on getting energy during a fast? I used to be able to fast for 56hrs what happened to me😔 also I’m not tired because of fasting I’m just tired in general
I swear if I’m not at my ugw by new year
Seriously regretting not making a backup account before getting t-worded😭😭 nobody’s seeing my stuff anyway but I was dietcherrylvr🙏🙏
Gonna cry I can’t believe i got banned😭