oh wait i thought of something to post
ddlc spoilers if anyone like cares
ddlc was my first real awakening for my knife/sh kinks cause i had a crush on yuri (like... i don't normally have crushes on fictional characters so that's how you know i was down BAD) and i didn't even realize it till now
and i thought she was even cooler and prettier when it was revealed she carried around a pocket knife and had a collection (especially cause i had a knife collection at the time). when it's revealed that she actually uses it to cvt herself my like tweenage boy mind exploded. i thought it was kinda gross and sad at first but yeah i def found it hot. i didn't realize that i thought it was really hot until like this exact moment
did i almost cry during her death scene? yes. did i also think it was hot? probs.
also i just love when she goes all crazy!! i want someone to be obsessed with me like that, even if it was all monika's fault. like her stealing your pen just to touch herself with it!!!
anyways ddlc awakened a lot of things in me and i didn't realize it until now.
like older girls :3