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Oh gosh, has it really been a year already? This has been a journey, for sure, and thank you to everyone who follows me! Your support means I get to keep doing what I love, which is making cute, cuddly amigurumi babies. Here's a look back at some of the things I've made!
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this is what half of the cutscenes in crisis core look like
that one furry image
wanted to bahamut'fy the bahamut cloud skin cuz yay dragon
Cid Highwind from Final Fantasy VII ! I love this guy :3
Finally, a worthy opponent
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God the wild idea to draw Sephiroth as a frog in Clip Studio Paint I also used the paint brush to do the background
Was bored at work so I doodled Cloud in pen on a scrap piece of paper
one hundred layers and one month later, here it is
this was really fun and I want to do the other entries as well, but I'll probably post them later on
Shannanroth! đ
That kinda sounds like someone in a porno with one of the guys from rammstein...
Hello! May I request Shannan with Sephiroth's colour Palette please?
(Mod Toto) Oh hell yeah!!Â
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This particoular tassellation, alternating squares and octagons, present in many parts of the Remake, appeared also in other previous parts of the compilation.
After the victories at the Colosseum and in the Shinra combat simulator, the characters perform their OG victory poses.
If the player finds Corneoâs secret stashes they can fins three tiaras (Ruby, Emerald and Diamond tiaras) inspired to the OG Ruby, Emerald and Diamond Weapons.
While in Trace of Two Pasts is stated that Elmyraâs house was full of flowers and plants even before the arrival of Aerith, it surely isnât a coincidence that the sector she lives in, contrary to the rest of Midgar, is full of nature. Moreover the orphanage near her house is called âLeaf Houseâ and the name of the teacher is Mrs Folia (âleafâ in Latin).Â
The place where Tifa lives in Sector 7, and where she suggests Cloud to live too, is a wooden building called Stargazer Heights, which is a reference to the water tower where they shared the promise. Iâd say also that the presence in the same building of a black caped man isnât a coincidence, considering that the first time these beings bould be spotted in the OG was indeed Nibelheim.Â
Tifa: Be sure to pick an outfit that goes with mine, okay?
Cloud: Will do.
Nailed it.Â
Jokes aside thereâs a subtle clever mechanism behind the choice of the Wall Market dresses.Â
- If the player prefers Tifa, theyâll probably choose the refined dress and will have a good chance to get Chocobo Samâs odd jobs (giving answers a bit more pro Tifa), so both Cloud and Tifa will wear the blue outfits.
- If the player prefers Aerith, theyâll maybe choose the sporty dress and will have a good chance to get Madam Mâs odd jobs (giving answers a bit more pro Aerith), so both Cloud and Tifa will wear the satin outfits.
Iâm not totally sure here if this was intentional, but when I saw Barretâs death I couldnât help but think that during the first drafts of the OG he was the one who had to die instead of Aerith.
We donât know yet if thereâs any connection between the Whispers and the Black caped men, but itâs hard not to notice the visual similarity of their designs.Â
In Aerithâs childhood room in Shinra HQ thereâs a book about the Lifestream written by Gast Farmeis, Aerithâs father.
In the same room thereâs also a book about Stamp mentioning his fan club, which is an element that comes from Crisis CoreÂ
There are some signs in Sector 8 - more a music disk - about Costa del Sol.
In one of the ads inside the trains thereâs a FFVI quote from an author called âGabbianiâ - Setzerâs last name.Â
In Shinraâs museum thereâs a picture with a FFX-2 character, Shinra.
The save points of the original FFVII consisted in an angled C (âcheck pointâ) floating on a crystal base. In the REmake there are no more save points but the same symbols appear on the healing benches. Â
In the OG the player could use the PHS tool in the world map or at the save points to switch the party members. In the Remake there are PHS terminals in Shinra HQ that the group use to communicate and switch between two parties in Chapter 17.Â
During her childhood Tifa had a piano in her bedroom. Among the many posters of the REmake there are some with the image of a keyboard, one of them indeed hung in Tifaâs bedroom. Â
We know from the original game that Avalanche was originally founded in Cosmo Canyon. This is also the name of one of the drinks served at Seventh Heaven, Avalancheâs hideout.Â
OG: Cosmo Canyon... This is where AVALANCHE was born...
Remake: Our house special: the Cosmo Canyon.Â
When Sephiroth, Zack and Cloud arrived at Nibelheim years before, Tifa escorted them to the reactor, saying she was the best guide of the town. In the Remake too she proposes to be Cloudâs guide in the Sector 7 slums (reference more clear in the Jp version).
OG: Iâm the number one guide in this town.
Remake: I know these streets better than anyone. (Jp version: Iâm the best guide of the slums).
In the OG Cloud and the others parachuted themselves on Midgar from the Highwind, in order to prevent Hojo to use the Sister Ray to help Sephiroth. In the Remake Cloud, Jessie, Biggs and Wedge parachute back in Sector 7 after the mission in Chapter 4.
At Gold Saucer, Dio had a personal museum with a big picture of himself. Moreover, he had also a massive gold statue at the top of the amusement park. In the Remake, the 60th floor of the Shinra building hosts a museum where thereâs also a big golden statue of the President.Â
Bugenhagen has a 3D holographic symulator in the Cosmo Canyon observatory, necessary for his planetology studies (Shinra machinary he received from Professor Gast). âCosmos theatreâ is a 3D virtual reality symulator where visitors can learn about the Ancients and the Promised Land.Â
During Intermission Yuffie uses to eat âDa-chao beansâ. Da-Chao an important water deity of Wutai and its massive statue is sculpted in the mountain overlooking village.Â
In the original FFVII, the Honeybee Inn was a brothel, while in the Remake itâs a night club. Anyway, the hand massages at Madam Mâs parlor are kind of allusive, especially the Luxory Course.
The Battle Square (or Battle Arena or Colosseum) was an area of the Gold Saucer, where Cloud could entertain Dio with a match in exchange of the Keystone. In the Remake, also Corneo has a Colosseum at Wall Market.
In the OG, depending on the playerâs choices, Cloud could spend a date at the Gold Saucer with Aerith, Tifa, Yuffie or Barret. A similar system exists also in the Remake and it affects a cutscene at the beginning of Chapter 14.Â
During the date at the Gold Saucer, Cloud and the girl (NB: not Barret) had to take part to a stage show where they played the parts of the knight and the princess. In the Remake, in order to obtain the dress-up to infiltrate Corneoâs Mansion, he has to take part to a dance show at the Honey Bee Inn.Â
Princess Rosa was one of the protagonists of the Gold Saucer show, played by Aerith, Tifa or Yuffie during the date. In the Remake Cloud can read a letter in the room of Jessieâs father, where Jessie announced to her parents that she obtained the part of the princess in a show at Gold Saucer.Â
Jessie Raspberry as...the Princess?
There were fireworks creating a romantic atmosphere during the ride on the gondola at Gold Saucer. In the Remake, if Aerith is wearing the red dress, her appearance is accompanied by fireworks and red carpet.Â
The LTD has split the fandom for ages, but the only two girls who have ever been shown kissing Cloud are Yuffie (during her GS date) and Jessie (if the player manages to end the bike minigame in Chapter 4 with HP above 80%).
In the OG Aerith appeared in Cloudâs dream just before getting to the City of the Ancients, the place where Sephiroth killed her. In the Remake this dream is hinted in two scenes:
1) The way Aerith appeared at Cloud at the beginning of Chapter 9 recalls the way she appeared in his dream (which triggers in Cloud a vision of her death).Â
2) She appears in his dreams again during her resolution scene, using gestures and words that hint at her death.Â
Aftyer Meteor was summoned in the OG, Cloud and the others could hear the scream of the Planet from the Highwind. In the Remake, when the group faced Sephiroth at the end of the highway, the Whispers start screaming in pain and Aerith said those were the voices of the Planet. Â
OG:Â RedXIII: Did you...hear something? - Tifa: The Planetâs scream...or Meteor? Is it this Planet? - Cloud: Hey, how do we know that this is really the Planetâs scream? - Tifa: Did you forget? Bugenhagen told us.
Remake: What you heard just now were the voices of the planet. Those born into this world. Who lived and who died. Who returned. They're howling in pain. (...) They... Their words...they don't reach him. All these moments and memories, precious and fleeting...they're like rain rolling off his back... And when they're gone, he won't cry...or shout...or anything.
In the original FFVII, after the defeat of SaferâSephiroth, Cloud and Sephiroth had a final mental duel. At the end of the Remake Sephiroth mentally drags Cloud to the âEdge of Creationâ with a symilar dynamic. Â
This character didnât show up until the group reached the Gold Saucer. In the Remake he witnesses the plate fall.
In the OG Yuffie could only be recruited after visiting the Mythril Mines and nothing hints she had ever been in Midgar before. Now she is the protagonist of Intermission, spending a whole day in Midgar, getting to see Barretâs cell and infiltrating in Shinra HQ thanks to Avalanche. Some main points of this character have already been shown like the rivalry between her and her father, some details of the Wutai war and even her motion sickness.
In the OG Rude confessed Reno that he liked Tifa. In the Remake, when he spotted her on the Sector 7 pillar, he deviated the chopper to prevent Reno from killing her.
Reno: Dammit! You wanna explain yourself, partner?
Rude: Uh... Hand slipped.
In the original, at Cidâs house, Palmer asked for some tea with âsugar, honey and lardâ. In the Remake he walks in the corridor of Shinra HQ with a cup of tea, complaining that he ran out of butter (though in Japanese itâs still âlardâ).
Oh dear, oh dear... A man of my refined tastes running out of butter! Shorn of its proper accompainment, this tea...might as well be boiled pond water!
In the original there was just one clone in Midgar, in Sector 5, and he wasnât wearing the black cape yet, while in the Remake they can be met also in Midgar.Â
The Remake also confirms that also some former SOLDIERs can turn into caped men, something that the OG revealed only in an optional scene in Junon.
OG: I used to be in SOLDIER. Lately Iâve felt like dressing up like this...
Remake: My dad told me that that man, he used to be a SOLDIER when he was younger. I heard he came back because he got sick or something. Isn't that kinda weird? Can SOLDIERs even get sick?
This concept is further - more openly - reiterated also in Intermission:
Nayo: Mako poisoning. That's what happens if you don't make the grade as a SOLDIER...or when the military's done using you.
When Cloud attacks Marco believing heâs Sephiroth he has a vision of the Reunion at Whirlwind Maze.
In the Remake Barret mentions the day he survived from the destruction of his home town, while in the original this happened one the group arrived in Corel.
Wouldn't be the first time I spit in destiny's eye. Whether you can see the seams or you can't...doesn't change that she's always trying to have it her way.
In the original game the first fight against Jenova took place on the Cargo ship, while in the Remake the group fights it in Chapter 17.Â
Note: the first form of Jenova in the original was called JenovaâBIRTH (followed later by JenovaâLIFE, JenovaâDEATH and JenovaâSYNTHESIS). In Remake it is called Dreamweaver, referring to its ability to project illusions, while the Japanese sticks to the original calling it Jenova Beat, hinting to the prenatal heartbeat of fetuses.Â
During the presentation at Cosmo theatre (an allusion itself to Cosmo Canyion)Â the group can see a depiction of the Lifestream flowing throughout the Planet. In the original this only happened at the very end when Aerith summoned it.Â
During the aforementioned presentation it was explained how the Ancients were able to create Materia with condensed Lifestream, while in the original it was explained during the flashback in Kalm.
7R:Â In the distant past, our planet was home to a people we call the Ancients. Many millennia before we discovered mako, these precursors were already pioneering its use. Somehow they learned of the great reservoir of energy pulsing beneath their feet. And once they had...the Ancients developed the means to harness this bountiful energy and bend it to their will. The fruits of their labors have survived to this very day in the form of certain kinds of materia.
OG: Materia. When you condense Mako energy, materia is produced. Itâs very rare to be able to see materia in its natural state. (...)...the knowledge and wisdom of the Ancients is held in the Materia.
During intermission Yuffie can see the Proud Clod still under construction stored in Shinra underground. Moreover, the Pride and Joy Prototype (in Japanese: Proud Clad Unit Zero) is a boss that can be fought in Shinra battle simulator.
During the second bombing mission Tifa jokingly asks Cloud if he could read her mind. This is a hint to Jenovaâs ability to read minds.
7R:Â I swear, your timing was perfect. It's almost like...you could read my mind. SOLDIERs can't do that, can they?
OG: Inside of you, Jenova has merged with Tifaâs memories, creating you.
In the Remake Cloud "remembersâ two episodes of his childhood in Nibelheim, scenes that originally were included in the Lifestream sequence in Mideel.
During the first vision of Sephiroth in Chapter 2, Cloud re-experiences the distruction of NIbelheim. This info wasnât revealed in the OG until the flashback in Kalm.
When Cloud, Barret and Tifa discover the secret underground lab with specimen detained in mako tanks, Cloud starts remembering his captivity in the basement of Shinra Mansion. This was originally revealed only in the optional cutscene in the basement of the Mansion, after the Lifestream sequence.
Mako poisoning is an element that in the OG was explained just in Mideel, while in the Remake Jessieâs father suffers of the same condition. A sector 7 NPC also witnesses one of Cloudâs Jenova headaches and suggests he may be Mako poisonesd (before the whispers intervene).
7R: [Chapter 3] What theâYou okay, buddy? Mako junkie, huh? Figures...
[Chapter 4]Â Jessie's got a theory about it. Thinks her dad's spirit is stuck nowâbetween his body and the heart of the planet.
OG: He probably has no idea who or where he is now... Poor fellow, his voice doesnât even work. He is literally miles away from us. Some place far away where no oneâs ever been... All alone...
Discovering that in reality Cloud never made it in SLDIER was a pivotal plot twist of the OG. In the Remake thatâs hinted more than once, until Hojo openly reveals it.Â
No, not quite. Oh, now I recall. My memory was mistaken. My boy, you weren't a SOLDIER...
In Chapter 2 Cloud remembers he killed Sephiroth. This is surprising as in the OG, during Kalm flashback, he told the group that he didnât know what happened to Sephiroth after Nibelheim incident, even pointing out that, in terms of strength, he couldnât have killed him.
Cloud has some visions of Aerithâs death: after falling in her church in Chapter 8 (pics 2 and 3) and at the beginning of Chapter 9 (pics 1 and 4). Moreover he and the rest of the group have a blurred vision of her death in Chapter 18, Aerithâs refers to death in her resolution scene and Sephiroth tells him heâs unable to protect people in Chapter 2 (while seeing Aerith for the first time) and in Chapter 13 (after sheâs been kidnapped).Â
Cloud, and the others have visions of Meteor and the storm that destroyed Midgar at the end of the OG in Chapters 16 and 18.Â
This is kind of meant to serve as a companion piece to my three-part series on Cloud's psychology in Final Fantasy VII. I haven't addressed Advent Children Cloud yet, who arguably has an entirely different set of psychological problems to deal with. While OG Cloud was certainly driven by trauma, trauma was not his primary demon. Yet I often hear people say that AC Cloud definitely has PTSD or disorder XYZ. So, I thought I'd use my clinical background to break down what happened in Cloud's head during AC. I will not be discussing disorders here, since I'm saving those for another post.
I know I literally just said trauma wasn't OG Cloud's primary demon, but that's why I specified OG Cloud. AC Cloud is in an entirely new context with a new set of problems, part of which involves how trauma affects his life after the main conflict is over. So to start, let's first answer the question of "Why does trauma stay with a person even after the cause of the trauma is no longer there?"
Think of the traumatized brain as a brain stuck in survival mode. It learned from a past traumatic experience that you can't afford to turn off this survival mentality, that you need to constantly be on alert. This is part of the primitive fight, flight, or freeze response that humans have, and for someone who is in a traumatizing situation, that response is absolutely necessary for coping with it. But, when you are finally safe and no longer in a dangerous situation, the traumatized brain may not know how to turn survival mode off. Therefore, it continues to provide a trauma response even in the absence of danger. This kind of mentality exhausts you and is why traumatized people still struggle even after they've been removed from their traumatizing situation. It's not that they don't realize they're safe now, but it's that their brains are stuck in this pattern of survival.
Although I wouldn't necessarily describe Cloud this way, this is still a great framework to explain what happened to him. During the events of FFVII, Cloud was in a perpetual state of survival. Once the planet was saved and Cloud could finally settle down in a place to call home, he was no longer in a state where he needed to constantly fend for his life. Cloud might still travel the planet for his delivery job and defend himself from monsters on the road, but the difference post-Meteorfall is that he now has a safe and secure home to return to in Edge. On the Way to a Smile: Case of Tifa even clarifies that Cloud was hopeful for the future right after the OG ended, that he had optimism towards the prospect of starting his newly peaceful life. Yet, he becomes unsettled by this peace partly because he was too used to surviving for so long. His trauma mindset couldn't turn off properly even when he wanted to relax and enjoy the peace he's earned, setting Cloud down a path of cognitive distress.
Oftentimes, when someone who has experienced trauma finally has the opportunity to process it, he is prone to something called rumination. In clinical terms, rumination can be described as a maladaptive perseverative cognition, or in simpler terms, a repetitive focus on distress. It's typically connected to catastrophic thinking (pondering about the worst possible outcomes/scenarios) and a fixation on loss. The American Psychological Association describes it as "obsessional thinking involving excessive, repetitive thoughts or themes that interfere with other forms of mental activity." Another working definition of it from the National Center for Biotechnology Information describes it as "a detrimental psychological process characterized by perseverative thinking around negative content that generates emotional discomfort" (Sansone & Sansone, 2012). The key to rumination is that though it can be self-reflective, it more often resembles brooding. Rumination is a feature of many different disorders, but most commonly associated with anxiety and depressive disorders.
Part of what sent Cloud spiraling was a pattern of ruminative thoughts in the absence of immediate external threats. He's living a peaceful life, but his survival mentality can't shut down easily. He has the time to ruminate on his past failures to the point of interfering with his ability to enjoy his life. If Cloud had used this rumination to put more effort into his job and his family, then he would've been using self-reflection. However, what he's fixated on is his own regrets, which created a pattern of brooding and pessimism. This type of regretful thinking surrounding death even has its own term.
Survivor guilt used to be a diagnosable disorder in the DSM-III, but the DSM-IV reconceptualized it as a symptom of PTSD and the DSM-5 removed it as a symptom entirely (Murray, Pethania, & Medin, 2021). I believe it's because survivor guilt isn't a well-defined or well-researched phenomenon, currently putting it in an undefined territory between a disorder and a symptom. Once there's more empirical research in the field exploring survivor guilt, it may be reintroduced into the DSM, but otherwise it's an open avenue of continuous exploration. Regardless, this doesn't make survivor guilt any less significant or valid in the field of mental health, especially since it is often a part of complex trauma and grief.
Despite the grayness surrounding survivor guilt as a term, I can't think of a better one to describe what Cloud went through. Definition debates aside, survivor guilt generally applies to people who "survived" a traumatic event when others did not. Even though guilt is already a common symptom of PTSD, people with survivor guilt usually feel responsible for another person's death or injury, even when they never really had any power or influence over the situation. Cloud ruminates over Zack and Aerith's deaths due to survivor guilt, and he explicitly states his survivor guilt over Aerith's death in AC. Though neither death was directly his fault, he feels responsible for them in different ways.
For Zack, he felt helpless about how his mako poisoning left him completely dependent on Zack. Zack didn't have to save Cloud. He didn't have to carry him across the world for a year, only to die when they nearly reached their destination. Cloud's guilt surrounding Zack's death is very much in the thought of "it should've been me." Cloud should've been the one to perish, or if Zack simply abandoned Cloud, perhaps he would've made it to Midgar alive.
For Aerith, Cloud feels a greater sense of responsibility for her wellbeing. Their dynamic was established with the notion of Cloud being her bodyguard, as someone whose job is to protect her. Yet, he hurt her at the Temple of the Ancients, and he almost struck her when the party finally reunites with her at the Forgotten City. He was doing the exact opposite of what he was supposed to do. To cap it off, Sephiroth impales Aerith right before Cloud's eyes. Was Jenova preventing him from moving forward to try and save her? Or was Cloud just too paralyzed in the moment to act? Cloud would probably never truly know the answer.
Even when Tifa urges him to think of the present, Cloud feels weighed down by the past. He also asks Vincent if sins can be forgiven, showing that he feels deeply responsible for the deaths he could not prevent. We know that neither Zack's nor Aerith's deaths were Cloud's responsibility, yet he shoulders them anyway as though the blood was on his own hands. Survivor guilt is tough because it always concerns something that happened in the past that can't be changed. It's a product of rumination, of thought patterns stuck on the what-ifs and should-haves.
The reality is, Cloud will very likely continue to struggle with this guilt throughout his life. He will never be able to answer the what-ifs, and never know what the should-haves could've done to change the course of history. If Cloud's going through a particularly tough emotional patch, he might fall back a bit into his old pattern of rumination. The dual process model of grief, depicted above, portrays how healing from grief is not a linear, one-way process. Rather, it can be a lifelong process where Cloud must grow around his grief, rather than letting it become a fixture in his life.
So, how do we know that Cloud is truly on the way to healing at the end of the day? At the very end of AC, after all the credits have rolled, we hear one final exchange between Cloud and Denzel.
Denzel: Is this somebodyâs grave? Cloud: No. This is where a hero began his journey.
If I'm not mistaken, this may be the first and only time we've seen Cloud truly acknowledge himself as a hero. While this line can also refer to Zack ("Would you say I [finally] became a hero?"), this also clearly refers to the moment that Cloud took on Zack's legacy, therefore his hero's journey by extension. This is a far cry from "I'm not fit to help anyone."
The other beautiful aspect of this final scene is that it visually shows up how Cloud dealt with his guilt and grief. Look at Zack's final resting place at the start of AC compared to after. Before, Zack's grave was more or less neglected. The buster sword was left to rust and the ground is completely barren. The wolf, meant to represent Cloud's guilt and regret, is present there. Afterwards, when Cloud took the buster sword away, flowers bloomed in its place. The wolf is also no longer present. I like to think of this as a representation of how Cloud made the transition from guilt over Zack's death to celebrating Zack's life. Celebrating the life of a loved one who passed is one of the key ways to work through grief over loss in a healthy way. Rather than fixating on the what-ifs and regrets, grief work focuses on how to honor the loved one and keep their memory close.
The final shot then, with the buster sword placed in the tranquil Sector 5 church, is nothing less than a memorial to Zack and Aerith. The buster sword is clean again and free of rust, now in a sheltered place surrounded by Aerith's healing rain. It is now surrounded by life, in the place where Cloud was welcomed back by his loved ones and resolved to move forward. He can now think of the beautiful parts of Zack and Aerith's lives and cherish their memories, rather than ruminate on them. I can't say that Cloud's journey is a pinnacle example of healing from guilt and grief, but it certainly has a beautifully symbolic depiction of what healing looks like.
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Happy 25th anniversary Final Fantasy VII â¤ď¸
This is absolutely the BEST GS date analysis I've ever seen, thank you for this great post!
Players love the dates for many reasons: itâs the culmination of their hard work with the affection mechanic, a silly interlude after hours of tension, an opportunity to bond with their character of choice. A sweet moment in time isolated from the heavier themes of the game.
But what if I told you that Tifa and Aerithâs dates are not just cute little flashes of fan service? That both dates are part of a broader arc highlighting how the girls recognize, confront, and decide to react to the reality of Cloudâs mental issues?Â
And what if I told you that âInterrupted by Fireworksâ is not just the pretty Big Date song? That âInterrupted by Fireworksâ serves as an important tool in threading this arc together and setting our romantic expectations stupidly high so they can be cruelly subverted later?
Well wonder no more, as thatâs what weâll be discussing today! Cut for an image-heavy, script-heavy post.
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