i don’t rewatch begins episodes, on principle, so this idea escaped me entirely until now. But thinking about the eddie begins montage with the context that this singular event is what made him put buck in his will is so…. nauseating. because at the time of airing there was always a small voice inside my head that said “buck is only in so many of these memories because he happens to be in the scenes, the focal point here is chris” but knowing what we know now, is a confirmation that eddie was thinking of his family unit, that when he thought of what makes him want to live he thought of his son and buck