Day To Day - Blog Posts
Im not dead. There’s too much to do for the last year of art high school. Like Invalsi tests, final exams, and the driving license. HELP
Someone: Thank you!
Me: Of course!
(Not ‘you’re welcome’, not ‘no problem’, nope, I say ‘of course’. I can’t figure out if it sounds weird to people or not....)
From pretty in pink to queen of the damned ･ﾟ
“Yağmur bile bizi durduramayacak”
If I were to tell you our anecdotes when we go out, many of them happen on rainy days, as if we were living a scene out of a romantic movie. It's funny because we almost never plan it, we just go out under a cloudy sky and suddenly it starts to rain. Jaja, it's part of our charm guys!
But, truth be told, there's nothing I enjoy more than those moments by his side. I love going out with him, going to the sports center, having some mates, laughing about anything and just being together on the grass, as if the world was ours. I don't care about anything else, I just want to see him every day I can, fill him with kisses and hugs.
As he always says “you were missing my hug dose” and he is absolutely right. Ahhhh, my little bear, my hibernation bear that I fall more and more in love with every day.
I can't help it, it's such a love! (っ´Ι`)っ💞
“Just because life gives you good things doesn't mean you have to distrust it” phrase to which I was inspired to know that I'm fine and shouldn't be sensitive about good things.
When I'm with my sweetie, who is also a rugby player, I feel completely protected. His strength is not only in his physique, but also in the sweet words he always says to me, full of affection and tenderness.
It's incredible how the way he talks to me, along with his imposing presence, envelops me in a feeling of tranquility and happiness.
Knowing that I can count on your support at all times, whether with a gesture, a hug or those beautiful words, makes me feel that nothing can go wrong.
men....
MENNNNN MAKOTO IS SO GOOD AND BEAUTIFULLLLL
There are moments when he surprises me so much that he leaves me speechless. Every little gesture of his, every detail, reminds me why i feel so lucky to have him in my life. From the very first day, when our gazes met and our words flowed so naturally, i felt something in me ignite again. It was as if, without even trying, he had found the key to bring back my smile, a genuine smile that i thought i had lost long ago.
The funny thing is, even though we are only 20 minutes apart, i feel like we are connected in a much deeper way. It's not just the physical closeness, but the emotional connection we share. I love how his charisma shines through in every conversation, how he is able to make me laugh with the greatest of ease. And best of all, we share so many common interests that our talks never run out of topics. We can spend hours talking about anything from our passions to the little details of everyday life, and i always find in him an understanding that makes me feel truly heard.
The most beautiful thing of all is the affection that is transmitted between us. It's not just words or gestures, it's a constant feeling of affection and mutual support that is felt from the first second we start talking. It is as if, from the first instant, we knew we had something special, something you don't find every day. And every day, with every message and every conversation, that bond grows stronger.
And somehow, without realizing it, little by little something began to change inside me. In every talk, in every smile he gave me, I felt something different growing. At first, i thought it was just admiration, perhaps a unique connection that i wouldn't easily find in another person. But, without noticing it, my thoughts began to turn to him more often. I would catch myself smiling to myself as i remembered some of our conversations or imagining what it would be like to be by his side in those moments when we were only 20 minutes apart.
Every little gesture, every detail of his, was slowly breaking down the barriers i didn't even know i had built. His good morning messages, his laughter when we talked about anything silly, his way of worrying about me, even in the distance, were weaving a feeling that at first i didn't recognize. I was reluctant to call it love, because it seemed to come so naturally, without my seeking it or planning it.
But, one day, i stopped to think about everything that had happened, about how he had become such an important part of my life, and it was in that instant that i understood: without wanting it, without planning it, without even realizing it, i fell in love. It wasn't something i planned or something i wanted to avoid, it just happened, as if it had been inevitable from the beginning.
And now, when i think about it, i smile when i remember how everything was so unexpected, so organic, so beautiful. Because, without realizing it, and without being able to avoid it…i accidentally fell in love.
Literal us
Nikto, in her desire to learn more about the musical tastes of her future boyfriend, Einar, and connect with him on a deeper level, decided to learn more about the Argentine culture and explore the music they have. It was then that she stumbled upon “Deseo Perder” by Milo J., a song that, although she didn't fully understand because she didn't master Spanish perfectly, she felt it conveyed emotions that she managed to understand and share with her heart. Without hesitation, Nikto dedicated the song to Einar to confess his feelings, creating a significant moment in their relationship. For Einar, this song became a symbol of Nikto's sincere and loving gesture. Every day he listens to “Deseo Perder” with a mixture of nostalgia and affection, as it not only represents his connection to Nikto, but also the first musical detail he dedicated to him. In everyday moments, as Einar sings the song, he often reminds Nikto of that precious instant when he first dedicated the song to him.
In this excerpt, Einar asks Nikto if he remembers that special day, and although Nikto responds with “if I remember”, the emotion in their expressions reveals that they both keep that memory alive and full of meaning. Einar not only listens to the song, but also relives it with every word, enjoying the shared moments and making it clear how much that song means to him. Through this exchange, the unique connection between them is reinforced, where words and memories are more powerful than any language barrier.
Translated with the Fragments i used from the song:
Einar: You are able to guide my energy, if it goes down Einar: You are the Sun...that came...to shine Einar: Do you remember? Nikto: If i remember Einar: It's the song you dedicated to me Einar: That day you declared yourself Nikto: You are making this mess beautiful Nikto: I envy the mirror for looking at you Einar: Jaja my god sweetie
Seeing myself in dreams with long hair gives me the feeling of being confident or self-assured when he speaks
Narrator:
Imagine someone who has never known how to be alone, who has always sought the company of others to fill an unshakable void. That desperation to not be alone drove him to consume the lives of those who crossed his path. This is exactly what this dead soul did. The fear of loneliness consumed him, and in his desperation, he clung to Death in the hope of soothing his eternal loneliness. However, try as he might, there was something curious: he could not consume Death's life, as he had done with others. Realizing this, his only option was to return to the person he had clung to before his death, using dreams as a means to maintain their connection. You could say that person had become a capsule, a refuge, for this restless soul.
Death: “Not to be cruel, but it infuriates me to see how that soul seeks to redeem itself by invading the dreams of that boy. Don't you think it's pathetic that he would resort to something so low?”
Life: “Maybe she has her reasons. Fear of loneliness can make souls make desperate decisions.”
Death: “Vida, the boy hates him for what he did to her. He doesn't seek or need his forgiveness, even in his dreams. He's clearly trying to assuage his guilt, but it's not fair for him to do so at the expense of someone who has already suffered so much.”
Death: “And there's something else… Haven't you noticed that this dead soul shows a double face? It's trying to appear remorseful, but in reality, it's just looking for a refuge, something to cling to in order not to face its own loneliness.”
Life: “It's a complicated problem. Maybe it's time to get Mnemosine involved.”
Death: “Mnemosine? And what do you think he might do? Erase the memories of this dead soul? You know as well as I do that's not possible, his memories are ingrained deep down.”
Life: “No, silly. It is not for the dead soul… it is for the human. If Mnemosine erases the boy's memories, I could free him from this nightmare.”
Death: “So, you want us to free him from his memories with the water from the Lethe River?”
Life: “You're crazy! Because if you do that, not only will you forget these dreams, Death, but you will lose everything. You will forget your own name, your identity, even the reason for your existence.”
Death: “I know it's a huge risk, but we must consider all options. This soul has made the boy its prisoner, keeping him trapped in a cycle of nightmares.”
Life: “However, erasing his memory with the Lethe is an extreme solution. What we need is a way to free the boy from this torment without stripping him of his essence.”
Death: “I understand. But if we allow these memories to persist, the boy will remain vulnerable to that soul's attacks.”
Life: “First we must find a balance, a way to protect him without destroying who he is. Perhaps there is a middle way, something that will allow the boy to heal and, at the same time, close this connection to the dead soul for good. But it will be a difficult task. We need to think carefully and make a decision that will not bring more suffering.”
Death: “I agree. We must be cautious. We can't allow the dead soul to continue to wreak havoc, but we also can't risk destroying the boy's life. Let's find an alternative that will end this cycle of pain without sacrificing his humanity.”
Life: “Yes, we will find a way. Because deep down, they both deserve peace, even if that peace is elusive. We must act with wisdom and compassion.”
Death: “Then let's get to work. The stakes are high, and we cannot allow this cycle of suffering to continue. The solution is there, we just have to find it.”
Life: “It would be best if no one mentioned to Dagda what is going on…. If he finds out about this, he will surely punish you for not handling the situation the right way. He is not known for his patience, and we know his judgments can be harsh when something is not done as it should be.”
Death: “I know he is one of the most powerful and respected deities. He is a being with such vast influence that his judgment can alter the fate of everything he touches…”
"The flowers are fresh and their faces wet"
On an ordinary day at the hospital, in the midst of an occasional discussion with people who did not understand her nature, Death noticed something unusual. A dead soul, what humans call a “ghost,” had begun to follow her. Usually, once Death catches these souls they must take a direct path to Sheol, where they are judged and undergo a process of rebirth, adopting different life forms according to the karma they accumulated in their previous existences. However, this situation was different. Death noticed that this soul, which had recently passed away and which she immediately recognized, had returned to Jorden (Earth) instead of continuing its course to the afterlife. The curious thing was that the soul showed no intention of attacking her; it simply followed her around the hospital with a silent persistence. The climax occurred when Death crossed paths with Life, who also became aware of the presence of the dead soul accompanying Death. Vida, like Death, found it strange that the soul remained on that plane. After reflection, Death came to a conclusion: this spirit had made a conscious decision to remain by his side, and seemed to show a peculiar interest in Vida. This decision to stay by Death's side, and the curiosity he showed towards Life, added a new layer of mystery to the situation, making them both wonder what the true purpose of this soul's return was.
"The flowers are fresh and their faces wet"
On an ordinary day at the hospital, in the midst of an occasional discussion with people who did not understand her nature, Death noticed something unusual. A dead soul, what humans call a “ghost,” had begun to follow her. Usually, once Death catches these souls they must take a direct path to Sheol, where they are judged and undergo a process of rebirth, adopting different life forms according to the karma they accumulated in their previous existences. However, this situation was different. Death noticed that this soul, which had recently passed away and which she immediately recognized, had returned to Jorden (Earth) instead of continuing its course to the afterlife. The curious thing was that the soul showed no intention of attacking her; it simply followed her around the hospital with a silent persistence. The climax occurred when Death crossed paths with Life, who also became aware of the presence of the dead soul accompanying Death. Vida, like Death, found it strange that the soul remained on that plane. After reflection, Death came to a conclusion: this spirit had made a conscious decision to remain by his side, and seemed to show a peculiar interest in Vida. This decision to stay by Death's side, and the curiosity he showed towards Life, added a new layer of mystery to the situation, making them both wonder what the true purpose of this soul's return was.
"Not even God saves us from perdition"
Skaperen, one of the most important gods for the creation of the Menneskelig, gave life to Andy who is his frustrated memory of a love he did not wish to lose. He usually shows his Menneskelig form in front of his creations to coexist with them and watch their development of the story, so much so that he can change them if something goes wrong. His necklace indicates when he misses the person he really loved, so it is annoying for Andy to hear that irritating sound. Of course, all his creations knew what it meant and the loud sound was not normal, there must have been something important, longed for, significant, special, something that influenced its creator…
Lpm: In Argentina "lpm" means "the fucking mother".
||February 21st and 22nd||
Today it started to rain and this song just came out on my DJ playlist that i loved a lot
"Do they want to bring me down? Let them try, i go down and up when i want, like the current. Sometimes i miss the years when i felt guilty for being innocent. A kiss to mama, i opened the room, i left the neighborhood before turning twenty." Fragment that i liked while i was in the rain
Sorry, i loveeeee listening to music and even more now when i go to the gym with my friend (❁´◡`❁)
Sometimes I go out talking in a serious and mature way with my friends, in fact, they are quite surprised (they understand that I literally had my canonical event).
On the other hand, I have a job that when I walk in the first thing I feel is that I need to see my coworker, (he always comes in after me) I don't talk to him much but he makes me laugh with other coworkers and makes me feel like I can change that selfish thinking I have with me. But it is not yet the time...
Soon I will have another job and there will be two, so I will probably be busy and will not post frequently or every other day as it is now, maybe every week. I don't know yet.