Cycle - Blog Posts
Missed a day but we keep going!! Now, uh... Coconut doggy?
Just a Vampire doing some errands
How everyday is unique, feel it, transcend it, die every night, get reborn everyday. #life #live #love #nature #cycle #circle #wisdom #poetry #healing #subconscious #mind #create #experience #sun #moon #day #night #light (at Roggow) https://www.instagram.com/p/B3rE-QUI0b8/?igshid=15sh3fnm7n8nr
Breakfast Bread - Kolaches From the Bread Machine A favorite among the family made simple. It takes less time to prepare the dough in a bread machine than it does to knead it by hand. When we would visit, my grandmother used to make these. I can now prepare them for her.
DJA - La Ocho Velodrome, CMWC 2010 Panajachel, Guatemala
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Broken from the sart
"Tonight honey, I'm gonna break your heart, mine was broken from the start" sings Jon Foreman. I've always been wondering what it really means. The most obvious and seemingly most at-hand answer was something about love and break-ups. I thought I had nothing to do with it because I live in a very merry relationship and I have no reason to actbroken.
This simple line, however, uncovers something I am born into. But not only me, I'm convinced it's the same with almost all of us. What I'm talking about here is a mere detection of a common state of life. In fact I've heard of this so much, that I've even grown accustomed to it. It's the cycle. The cycle of what my heritage is...
Recently I created a huge deficit to my family, unconsciously and unintended. To be able to pay for this, my father had to give up few of his plans for the summer. I understood, that he was mad at me, this is alright after the monetary loss. But you know, what he kept saying was somewhat misled and unjust. He said I'm not grown-up, I'm a child, I can't make good decisions and I need supervision. Well, I am an adult in every aspect, though I moved back in with my parents because they live close to the university I'm in... Anyway, I tried to reason with him and be generous, so I offered to pay it all back and then came thebest: he said I cannot give him money I didn't get from him and I won't have a salary at least in the coming five years. (Momentarily I don't have a paying job, that's true, but I put up my pricey bow for sale, for which I worked very ardently a couple of years ago) I told my dad (with the hint of sarcasm, I admit), that it's improbable, that I wouldn't get a job soon. Then he started shouting and I lost interest...
First thought: this man's a fool, it was a wrong decision to move in with them, when I get paid for my book, I'll leave. But you know, this is it. I know my father had a very narcistic and controlling father. I know he tries very hard to be a good parent, though he never had a grown-up son. He might've simply reacted so strangely because of his anger and pain, I don't know. And really, this whole thing, this fighting and hurting penetrates through my family-line. I am predestined to be broken. I am predestined by my father, and his father and his father and so on. I heard countless family stories, how the fathers hurt and betrayed their sons. All differently. My father tries to do good but it comes out all wrong because he was broken from the start, and he didn't even know it... But I do. I now know and understand it. The question is, whether I break the cycle, or simply try hard, like my dad does...
And then, isn't it somewhat universal? Aren't we all coming up with secret burdens? Why do we see faulted and wounded people everywhere? And ultimately: what does it mean to break this cycle? I'm not giving you answers because this is not an open argument, it's just a pile of questions...
Randomness rules!
it's like a cycle right?? Twitter posts get posted on tumblr and tiktok and Pinterest, tiktok screenshots get posted on Pinterest and tumblr and Twitter, and tumblr screenshots are the origin of it all
Life & Death: MARCUS AURELIUS' WISDOM | STOIC QUOTES
Saturday evening bike crawl through #EastSac They said they had started at Southside Park. #Sacramento #cycling #SacramentoCa #cycle #bicycle #bicycling #bikeride #whattodoinsacramento (at Starbucks)
