But (I'm Aware I'm Anxious Overthinking) What If I Only Believe That I Know What They'd Like And In Reality I Completely Misunderstand Them - Blog Posts

rant text post hmmm 🤨 never even responded much like an arrogant douchebag?? hello? is anyone home up there??? I just suck at conversations tho my interests are so stupidly resticted and I feel like I'm awkwardness in person bc I'm trying too hard or maybe I'm just really cringe and weird the thing is that I really don't know whether someone doesn't feel the vibe but doesn't want to hurt me or if my brain is mean to me genuine concern bc I most likely can't read those social cues got that premium autism I came off SO distant which is not like me at all I was just OBLIVIOUS I'm absolutely terrified of starting DMs I spent my entire life letting people choose me never even really considered that I could do the same thing. when I see someone cool I COULD make random art for them and send them things in DMs and simply try to befriend them! just try! but (I'm aware I'm anxious overthinking) what if I only believe that I know what they'd like and in reality I completely misunderstand them and then I'm just annoying isn't that creepy too? they probably all already got enough established friends and have no space for someone new in Adult Life the risk and shame of failure I never had a real friend too (and in general last time when I was 14) so idk what friendship looks like. adult ones wouldn't even know if I'm doing it right why does socialization have to be so embarrassing. like that one post. “yes hello it's me again I wanna talk to you” pathetic