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this morning
manager: I know it's slow and stuff but just make sure you try to look busy...
coworker: *begins gently rubbing the scale
me:...
manager: You know, just clean the scales or empty the trash...
coworker: *continues pretending to clean until manager leaves
me: mood
Zuko Crosshair Alone
Spoiler Warning: TBB season 2 episode 3
Content Warning: discussion of depression
Im not going to lie, Crosshair sitting by himself was a bit too real for me. Like, I'll be in a lecture and no one wants to sit with me (to be fair though, everyone avoids everyone).
I also just wanted to say that, regardless of whether or not you like him, you have to feel for Crosshair because he is so alone. Sure, you can say that these are the consequences of his actions and yes, I agree. But it doesn't negate the fact that it is a very sad state to see someone be in. He is turning out to be quite the tragic character and it reminds me of a few other characters from other series; specifically Zuko from Avatar: The Last Airbender, Sasuke from Naruto, and Red Hood from DC Comics. Moreover, this episode (at least to me) really embodied what depression can look like. He's a shell of who he once was, he doesn't know what he wants, what/who he cares about or what to do with himself. The days seem to blur together and most importantly, he's completely and utterly alone. No one to rely on, no one to fall back onto. And that really just spoke to me on a personal level.
I go into a lot more detail about this episode and how I personally think it's a masterpiece so if you're interested, go check that out. It's divided into two parts:
Part 1
Part 2
So anyways, yeah. Me too bro, me too.
My names Hinata And when eets tyme To pley some boll I alweys shiyne
I luv my teem And they luv me I even luv My enemees
Wen you feel sad Then you cain coll And com joyne me To pley some boll
"When I think of what life is, and how seldom love is answered by love; it is one of the moments for which the world was made."
-E.M.Forster, A Room With a View
Me conning my little sister into eating healthy stuff via Transformers (the applesauce packets have Optimus Prime and Bumblebee on them), doesn't have the exact vibe as me finally getting her to understand football by explaining it using Spider-Man but...they're definitely similar and I'm starting to see a pattern.
Lately, I've been wanting someone to compliment me.
I have so much self hatred in myself these days that I can't look at the camera or the mirror without my smile fading.
I want someone to tell me that I'm worthy, that I'm not as bad as I think i am and that it will get better.
Have you ever wanted to pet fire?I'm not even joking,the thought "Hey,I should pet fire?" ever occur to you? Just Me,ok