A Little Rant - Blog Posts

this was interesting and a little conviction to me because I think I (along with what i would assume to be a lot of people on this site) tend to be guilty of what I would call a sort of apathetic perfectionism, where in spite of a lack of actual effort to make positive changes and impact, I still claim that I hold myself to high standards and want to make the world a better place.

this doesn't even have to apply to morality or anything, even with school and work I find myself paralyzed at the thought of getting the wrong answer, instead of actively trying to find the right one. I never let myself progress or heal or learn or grow, just because I'm so terrified of making another wrong turn after a failure. I tell myself to wait, think, be responsible, don't chase after that yet, make sure you understand the whole thing before going in. and all the time I grow more irresponsible, foolish, and lazy.

we must pursue not the absence of death, but the furthering of life. we must chase the sun even as it reflects off the moon, and not wait until it's already noon.