God I Hate This Show

It's time to say goodbye.

Goodbye, dear friend

May we meet again.

I haven't believed at this moment until it finally came. Today was the last breath of a wonderful adventure through the darkest places full of magic. This journey came to its final destination, all chapters have been closed and all tears have been used up.

Today I don’t want to complain about seasons 4 and 5, no. I just want to take a moment and say thank you to all characters that have taught us a lot of things and to all members of the cast for portraying such a wonderful fucked up heroes.

Especially I want to say a big thank you to Lev Grossman, the person who created this world and gift us a lot of different emotions.

Thank you, Quentin Coldwater

 For teaching us that even in the darkest time you can always fight. For teaching us that even if you don’t the “hero” of the story, you’re still important and incredibly valid. For teaching us that not places are making you happy, but people. For teaching us being brave and honest to yourself, that there’s nothing wrong to be “different”. Thank you.

 Thank you, Julia Wicker

For teaching us finding a light in the darkest times. For teaching us that even human are strong enough to make bigger things. For teaching us that you have to stand up even if youʼve fallen too many times. For teaching us being courageous and passionate, and always being kind to each other. Thank you.

 Thank you, Eliot Waugh

 For teaching us that even with the shittiest past you can always rebuild yourself and rise from the ashes. For teaching us that sometimes you need to meet face to face with your deepest fears just for seeing the light at the end. For teaching us that even if we’re afraid, we can always do brave things. For teaching us being strong and spectacular, that it’s okay to make mistakes. Thank you.

Thank you, Margo Hanson

For teaching us that you can always be a King, even if youʼve lost your Kingdom. For teaching us that women are feeling anger and fierce too. For teaching us that friendship can be stronger than anything else. For teaching us being fearless and fierce, fighting for things you believe in and don't be afraid to be emotional. Thank you.

Thank you, Alice Quinn

For teaching us that you can always try to change things. For teaching us that knowledge is the biggest power. For teaching us that sometimes the most “right” decisions aren't the good ones. For teaching us being smart and thoughtful and always try to do good things. Thank you.

Thank you, Penny Adiyodi

For teaching us that the most amazing powers sometimes become the worst nightmare. For teaching us that the grumpiest people are the kindest ones. For teaching us that between right thing and kind thing you have to choose kind. For teaching us being loyal and kind and helpful. Thank you.

Thank you, Kady Orloff-Diaz

For teaching us that you can always make changes and start a revolution, even if there's no one listen to your words. For teaching us that you have to stand up for your rights and don't be afraid to fight. For teaching us that sometimes even the greatest warriors can be scared. For teaching us that everyone can change. Thank you.

Thank you, Fen

For teaching us that you can be kind enough to feel sorry for your greatest enemy. For teaching us that you can always choose your own way. For teaching us that you have to always prioritize yourself and know your worth. Thank you.

Always remember that all your feelings are valid and worthy, so no one dare to underestimate them. If you feel too bad — don't hesitate to ask for help and please take care of yourself

With love,

burned-peach.

i am afraid of love,

of hurting people, of breaking their hearts and leaving them. it feels like i’m not capable of loving someone for a long time and i can’t do anything about it — i just have to wake up every morning, knowing that my feelings are slowly fading, until one day i open my tired eyes and understang — all i feel is an eternal emptiness in my chest. 

‘i don’t love you anymore,’ i say quietly into the darkness.

‘please, stay. we can still make it work. we are a perfect couple. i love you.’

‘no,’ i reply with a cold voice. it hurts, and i can’t handle it. i am sorry. i am sorry. i am so fucking sorry.

i can’t afford to love someone anymore — it would be incredibly cruel to them.

when you first moved in with me, you got a new vase. i’ll buy you flowers and we’ll put them there, – you said. for two years it remained empty on the windowsill, covered with a coat of dust.

when you moved out, you left some things behind. the empty vase, a little toy your late mother bought for you when you were a kid, a mug i gifted you for your birthday. things of no importance.

i can see everything a little bit clearer now. you never cared for little things – not really.

i think i’m going to buy some flowers for myself.

noah's face when charlotte says that he is not her father?? i'm gonna fucking die

ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏᴠᴇ ʏᴏᴜ ɪ ʟᴏ- 　

me after watching season 2 and learning about this whole noah × elizabeth thing: – um... this relationship is kinda weird so no thank you.

me after watching season 3: – um... so they are my children now and i will literally kill for them to be happy.

my favorite love language is trying, actually

Honestly? They didn’t just fuck over Q, they fucked over pretty much all of them.

They fucked over Margo. Margo who had the whole arc about her inner strength, who gave up her fucking crown, who picked black sand for days on end. Margo who would kill and die for her best friend, her soul mate. They had her watch a fish. When everything was going down she was stuck watching a goddamn fish. Fish who was Josh, who was artificially forced into a relationship with her. Want to know a harsh truth? Margo would let him die if it meant keeping El safe.

They fucked over Alice. Alice who spent the first part of the season trying to figure out herself. Who went out of her mother’s shadow, who tried so hard to do good with her magic. Who needed to forgive herself. But she wasn’t allowed to figure out who she is outside of her relationship with Q. They were messily forced together even if it didn’t make sense for them anymore. Just to create more angst.

They fucked over Kady. Kady who was supposed to be a leader, who was so determined to save hedges from the library. Kady who could be so much more. And yet they’ve decided to drop that plot completely. They’ve decided that all she’s ever wanted was to be Penny’s girlfriend.

They fucked over Fen. Fen who finally got more growth, who got to be more than El’s wife. Who had prophetic visions, who could have been an excellent high king. But no, she was overthrown off scene.

They fucked over Julia. Julia who already went through so much shit. Who was a goddess, who sacrificed herself to bring magic back. Julia whose arc was supposed to be about choice. They took away that, they made her into an overglorified shield. In the end her choice was made by a man.

I don’t even want to talk about how much they fucked over Eliot, we all know that.

when worlds collide