Self Induced Liposuction Or Self Induced Lobotomy

A guy at work gave me an ice cream pop and I felt bad because he went all the way across the kitchen to give one to me so I ate it and now I'm at my maintenance☹️ (major fatty alert)

my life goals are to be disgustingly overeducated and extremely underweight

Just saw a tiktok about a doll than panned from the legs up and thought "OMG GOALS"...then realised it was a skeleton

I've been playing it safe wirh my deficit and eating around 900-1100 a day to try and keep my period but if I lose that mf I'm never eating again

Ik a lot of people spread awareness about @na coaches that are just pedos, but if anyone was a victim of one and needs someone to talk to can dm me any time

Chat I've lost interest in all my hobbies again does this mean its working?????

Ended up losing my period again anyway...gonna restrict so fucking hard after exams. I'll keep at ~1k until then. But after that I'm proper ⭐️ving

I’ll be living off of Monster and fruit.

I can’t live like this anymore.

I deleted tumblr for the week because my phone had no storage but I’m back now.

I’ve had the worst time. It’s bad enough I was demotivated after getting t-worded but im actually so done.

Two months. Two fucking months in a plateau.

I caved. I weighed in. I knew it wouldn’t be completely accurate because I haven’t pooped in days, I’ve eaten today and I had chippy the day before, so it’d be high in sodium, but to see the scale jump up FIVE LBS since the pre-October weigh in was horrible. Last time I hit a lw was the last week of August. This isn’t fair.

Why am I putting my body through hell when all I get is no fucking energy, being sad all the time, JUST TO GET FUCKING FATTER!?

I count every calorie, I stress over everything, I’ve lied to my family and done everything I can just to gain weight even though I’ve been in a deficit on average of 500 cals a day(I take metab days but my deficit on other days evens it out). I should have lost like 8lbs since August but I haven’t.

And to make it all worse my parents caught me skipping lunch during school. So now they’re like stalking me to make sure I eat lunch, making me eat higher calorie dinners, and banning zero calorie drinks from me. There’s nothing I can do anymore. What do I do?

Why cant I lose w8 instead of my will to live