Zeebby-night - Zee

scrolling twitter today and then coming over here is like walking out of a burning building and then walking into the calm remains of a building that burnt down 5 years ago and has been reclaimed by nature.

I'm autistic and I currently feel like shit checklist

Hi there. Are you autistic? Do you currently feel like shit and don't know why? Try this checklist to see if you can Fix The Problem!

When was the last time you used the bathroom? If you answered "I don't know" or "at least 3 hours ago", go now!

Do you need a drink? Go get one if you don't have one in front of you.

When was the last time you ate? If you haven't eaten yet today, consider eating A Meal, or perhaps A Snack. Something is better than nothing, eat whatever you feel able to!

Is there something in your immediate surroundings that is bothering you? If the light is too bright, turn it off. If there is an annoying sound, make the sound stop or reduce your ability to hear it (earplugs, headphones, etc.). If your clothes are bothering you, change them.

Is your space messy? Pick one area of your room and clean it up as best you can. Clean your whole room if you have the energy!

When was the last time you did An Activity? Scrolling on social media doesn't count. Try actively doing something fun! Play a game you like, read a book, make something, or go for a walk.

When was the last time you Spoke to a Person? Consider talking to a person you like if it has been a while.

How long has it been since you did something Special Interest related? Make some time to do that today. Infodump to a friend, have a nice long research session, look at related images or gifs, make art about it, whatever works best for you!

Try stimming actively! Put on some music and dance, spin in circles, go to the park and use the swings!

If you still feel like shit after trying all of these things, you might be tired or sick. Go to bed early and get some rest. Hopefully you will feel better tomorrow!

Hope that helps :)

Fantasy High: Sophomore Year

I finally watched and finished the second season of Fantasy High. I had watched the first season on youtube before I gotten the dropout subscription. So, I was quite excited to start it up early last week. I finished it up just the other day and my heart.

From the very start, I could not have guessed that the story was going to the places and ways that it ended up going. This image of the Unnamed Goddess being reborn into deity-hood. It was so moving and it really tied everything beautifully.

The various NPCs added or expanded upon were such wonderful bits of the story to be all added in. Adya became a fast favorite of mine. She was an amazing addition and I love how fast she was able to bond with Adaine and Fig.

All of the characters had such amazing moments throughout this entire campaign. Everyone got such cool and moving moments that delved into and developed their own individual backstories. I literally can't choose a favorite moment from this entire season.

Side note: I love that all of the fanmade Fig and the Cig Figs songs were uploaded on Spotify. They were made so well and really capture the feelings of the campaign.

riz and adaine are the brain: obviously. but also because they have both at some point been ruled by their neuroses, they live in their heads, have been told their entire lives that the thing they are good for is their intelligence. it is what they can give to other people.

fabian and fig are the body: in completely different ways. fabian thought he knew his body when he was just fighting with it but it failed him. he had to learn to trust it again - to trust his instincts as well as what he’d been told his entire life. his instincts told him to dance, and he weaved that in with his fighting skills for both more complete control over his body and trust in it when he isn’t in control. this leads us into fig - instincts. she’s never completely felt fused to her own body the way most people do. it’s hers to with what she wants, including making it other people completely. those other people are still her though. she never sits with one thing, but moves fluidly wherever her instincts tell her to whether it makes sense or not. one of the coolest things a body can do is called the flexor / withdrawal reflex. when you touch a hot stove and pull back your hand before you’ve even registered the pain. the only time (that i know of) that your sensory receptors tell your muscles to move instead of relaying information to the brain and letting it decide. you literally have no choice whether or not you pull your hand back. your body decides for you. this is fig’s entire life. people often think the strongest, healthiest bodies are the biggest, sturdiest ones. yet often it’s the annoying bitches that do the most yoga, strength in flexibility. something fig (and now also) fabian have in spades.

kristen is the soul: seemingly inconsistent and ever changing, the only way kristen changes is cosmetically. she struggles so hard to find a god that makes sense for her because she’s not just finding her god. she’s finding a god for all the bad kids. because at the core of her, she is trying to do what is right, what is kind, what is best for everyone else. she wants to help people, save people. even if she doesn’t go about it the right way (ie immediately trying to convert everyone to helio on her first day) she is just trying to help. no matter what god she has, or who she’s faced with - that’s never changed. the soul is forever, and despite all aesthetics, so is kristen.

gorgug is the heart. because of course he is. “it’s gorgug keep going.” bum bum “it’s gorgug. keep. going.” he keeps them there, all together, all in sync when their differences threaten to overrule their similarities. he pulls them back in with the gravity axe he made for love of his parents and the culture that raised him. with the courage he had to stand up and declare he would in fact do the impossible. bum bum.

“it’s gorgug keep going.”

As always, the Irish speak nothing but facts.

How many more innocent civilians have to be killed by Israel before you condemn that for it?

That is a genocide.

That this is a crime on all accounts.

And deserves to be punished to the full extent off the law.

There are so many cats at Mordred Manor. A few are friendly, will sit on your lap or nuzzle against you as you watch TV. Most aren't, but will permit you to live in their home as long as you keep feeding them. Almost every month it seems there's a new cat. They're all different, some missing an eye, one missing a leg, two that won't go anywhere without each other. They all need homes and, Aelwyn argued one time, Mordred Manor is home to people who need homes. Are they saying cats aren't people? The rest of the residents have grown accustomed to it. They don't notice when a solitary black cat joins the clowder. Why would they?

Some things that you should know about Grant O'Brien and Ally Beardsley's Kickstarted film The Disruptors:

Grant plays a rideshare driver who scams his clients, who ultimately sets his sights on scamming a billionaire into investing in a fake startup.

Ally plays an agoraphobic hacker.

Marc Evan Jackson plays the billionaire, in what is honestly a terrifying performance.

It's extraordinarily well-written and acted, and BEAUTIFULLY shot and edited, especially relative to the budget.

They were unable to find a distributor or get a festival to pick it up, but Dropout fans are legion! We can make this movie a sensation! Please reblog this.

You can buy or rent the whole movie here:

https://www.thedisruptorsmovie.com/?fbclid=IwAR08pC8JwpeYTs2KhI-lBeJXr08FWHMcoe4S52plPaCAbaLQQtnxx7u1GKA

Obviously Velma sucks but if we do ever make a more adult Scooby Doo I want a semi realistic period piece from the late 60s where the Scooby Gang are draft dodgers and hippies that just happen to stumble into the crime fighting business because there is just a fresh stream of con artists when you’re drifting town to town in a van.

Freddie and Daphne start it all. Instead of showing up at boot camp when drafted, Fred Jones got the van he bought with his summer job and ran off. Daphne, his girlfriend (who frankly has the least strong feelings about Vietnam but for gods sake are they not taking Freddie there) runs along to be supportive and to get away from her strict, stuffy family.

Velma catches wind of Fred and Daphne’s plan a few days before it happens. They invite her along but she has to consider it. A staunch feminist and the brightest girl in school, she has the most to lose if she leaves. However, she grows embittered by the fact she’s never gonna get into her dream college since it doesn’t admit women, and decides to go along. Besides, if Fred and Daphne leave without her, there won’t be anyone like minded in their hometown for Velma to be friends with.

Shaggy wasn’t originally part of the group, but they find him and Scooby hitchhiking and pick him up. The gang learn he has similar circumstances to Fred for running away from home, being a conscientious objector who ran off when they tried to put him in a non combative position instead. He opposed even this as it still meant he would be part of the war machine. He comes bearing plenty of 8 track tapes and some real good pot, so he’s welcomed along happily.

Along the way they become friends and use their combined skills to solve cases of supposed hauntings. Every single one is shown to be some kind of capitalist fraud.

The Wizard + The Witch + The Wild One

The Children's Campaign + Arc 1 + Arc 2 + Arc 3

This is something I need to get more into. During college and now after my mind is always thinking that any and all stories I read need to be in the mindset of possibly being published but sometimes you just need to write the mountain of the most plotless but chaotic amazingness that builds up.

i feel like all writers just need like....an oc story. and i dont mean like a story just with original characters. i mean like a piece of writing that simply makes your brain go wheeeeeeeeeee and its at the level of something your 13 year old self would write and post to deviantart. its liberating. its freeing. its comforting. my ocs are all gay and overpowered as fuck and there's really no plot to this but by god I'm having fun.