The Apothecary Diaries Season 2 - Episode 18

I know "What happened to Mean Gills?" was an oorp joke not even made in the Life Series but I'm incorporating it into my character analysis anyways because it is so indicative of one of the most fascinating character traits of Martyn to me.

That being, Martyn always wants people to be simultaneously stable and disposable in his life.

"What happened to Mean Gills?" you happened to Mean Gills, Martyn. You poured a bucket of lava on Scott and stabbed him in the back. You killed him, before what was meant to be a fair fight, and then in victory you proclaimed to the world that allegiances don't matter. That's what happened to Mean Gills.

Martyn often talks about people like they're disposable, he claims to have no issue with using and betraying people, with lying to them, because his survival and victory is all that matters. And to a point this is how he treats people. Martyn will lie to the people who trust him, Martyn will stab them in the back, Martyn will do what it takes to survive, because Martyn is a survivor.

But Martyn is a lot more attached to people than he likes to admit- His King, His Mean Gill, His Big Dog, His, His, His, Martyn is deeply attached to his people, both possessively and protectively, more dependent on them than he likes to admit. There's a reason he keeps lingering, keeps getting drawn back to the same people, he cares about them, whether he'll often admit it outright or not.

I have a lot of sympathy for Martyn being someone who I think is torn between the very human desire for survival and independence and the equally human desire for connection and stability. I have a lot of sympathy for the way Martyn breaks his own heart over and over just to feel like he's free and capable enough to do so even though he loses so much in the process.

But this is a behavior pattern that impacts other people too, and a person is fundamentally not an object to pick up and drop as is comfortable. Martyn cannot have his cake and eat it too, he cannot betray and lie to people over and over and still expect them to be His Person, a fact Martyn often struggles to internalize. His own connection draws him back to people he's hurt in the past and it's hard for him when they have walls up now even though he did this.

(interestingly, i think mean gills might be an exception to the "you can't have your cake and eat it too" rule to an extent- scott isn't naive enough to trust martyn, but he's often very okay with being treated like an asset by people he loves. scott has a very special brand of self dehumanization where he'll spend seasons carving off pieces of himself to give to his partners, calculating how much to give until it's more economic to just die for them. so like. martyn could honestly probably just grab onto scott again and they'd be back like martyn never stabbed him in the back. but despite the fact that i think scott specifically would probably be remarkably tolerant of martyn's more destructive relationship habits, i still think "what happened to mean gills?" is a good showcase of martyn's view on things)

Anyways yeah I just think Martyn is fascinating he is so destructive to himself and others and it makes me so sad.

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Okay so I've been seeing a lot of takes on the Life series winners version of Epic!God games and now I want to make an animatic (but I'm lazy and have exams so idk if i can do it or not). I do not have a very well-defined idea of the full plot for an epic!au so I only focused on the order of the characters and events in god games.

So basically the synopsis is that Gem would go to the winners to convince them to let Joel join the winners lobby with his car. As simple as that (●'◡'●)

Athena-Gem : She just passes the vibe check. Also Joel 's family so she has to present all the reasons as to why Joel is a good candidate. Zeus-Grian : Cause he is the first winner and I think he would like to make it a game just for funsies(watcher instincts) Apollo-Cleo : Originally Apollo was supposed to be Grian because of his celestial symbol but then I changed it to Cleo because she would be the most unbothered about Joel becoming a winner Hephaestus-Pearl : Pearl has trust issues through double life and being soulmates with Scott. (similar to how Aphrodite and Hephaestus were in an arranged marriage) At the same time, she would not put up much fight and can be easily reasoned with cause Gem is here (Shiny duo!!!) Aphrodite-Scott : Just like Gem he passes the vibe check. He is the one who cares a lot about allies and relationships and would be the one who is most against Joel joining the winners thingy. (also he could have angst with Pearl and Martyn) Ares-Martyn : I don't think I need to explain this, it is very obvious because of how he won and his celestial symbol. Also Aphrodite and Ares are lovers and Scott and Martyn can be mean gills together. Hera-Scar : He is very flashy and dramatic and also would respect anyone who doesn't cheat on their partners (looking at you Grian) Oddyseus-Joel : again he passes the vibe check and can be very bloodthirsty and reckless but also loves his wife a lot (Lizzie is Penelope obv but idk about Telemachus maybe hermes)

P.S. : I just wanted to put this out there cause I spent hours thinking about this and I need someone to see my vision. On second note the voices would sound so wrong /pos