That's It, I Want A Me For Me.

Let the medium take its own chance.

Time is unraveling and it's terrifying.

For now, it's the sort of winter that freezes the tip of your nose but does nothing to your bones.

For now, I am content.

i think ive realized that true understanding settles into you. like when you truly understand, and not just say that you do, but when you truly understand, it comes with that oh moment. when what would've previously lingered, won't weigh on you anymore. and this feeling, it is as beautiful as it is rare.

You're not selfish for protecting your own heart.

You're not cold for honoring your limits.

You're not unloving for needing space to breathe.

You’re healing.

And every time you choose yourself, even through guilt, you teach your brain a new language:

Love doesn’t mean abandoning myself.

Love can include me.

And my love includes me.

Just because an animal has scales doesn't mean you get to trample on it.

Calm dear heart, calm.

You've weathered storms before.

You'll weather this one too.

Calm dear heart, calm.

Thoughtful and gentle and sweet. Wild and reckless and loud. Emotions and words and actions.

btw, it's called the soldierhood of love.