Darling In The FranXX - Episode 11

Hey im a weeb and balling my eyes out at that last episode of tada never falls in love and i have not learned my lesson of trusting romantic comedies to stay comedic and not kill me

my dad–also a writer–came to visit, and i mentioned that the best thing to come out of the layoff is that i’m writing again. he asked what i was writing about, and i said what i always do: “oh, just fanfic,” which is code for “let’s not look at this too deeply because i’m basically just making action figures kiss in text form” and “this awkward follow-up question is exactly why i don’t call myself a writer in public.”

he said, “you have to stop doing that.”

“i know, i know,” because it’s even more embarrassing to be embarrassed about writing fanfic, considering how many posts i’ve reblogged in its defense.

but i misunderstood his original question: “fanfic is just the genre. i asked what you’re writing about.” 

i did the conversational equivalent of a spinning wheel cursor for at least a minute. i started peeling back the setting and the characters, the fic challenge and the specific episode the story jumps off from, and it was one of those slow-dawning light bulb moments. “i’m writing about loneliness, and who we are in the absence of purpose.”

as, i imagine, are a lot of people right now, who probably also don’t realize they’re writing an existential diary in the guise of getting television characters to fuck. 

“that’s what you’re writing. the rest is just how you get there, and how you get it out into the world. was richard iii really about richard the third? would shakespeare have gotten as many people to see it if it wasn’t a story they knew?”

so, my friends: what are you writing about?

I’ve been shipping Mutsurie for less than a day and I’ve already run out of fanarts and fanfictions This might be a problem

My common sense: Noooo! You can't just keep reblogging tower of god stuff instead of actually finishing the episode!

Me: Haha ponytail khun go fwoosh

(am I doing this meme correctly)

Not to be greedy but I want

Kuro: Good times are ahead.

Kuro: Or behind.

Kuro: Because they sure aren't here.

something that people really dont understand about ADHD is that we dont “jump from one idea to the next”

we have very fast, very associative minds that connect ideas. we have a train of thought, it just goes WAY faster than yours!

example: im thinking about dogs. that makes me think of pitbulls, which makes me think of an animal planet show i enjoy. the show connects to tv in general, which makes me think of my favorite cartoon. i associate my favorite cartoon with art and animation, and i wind up thinking about shading techniques.

TL;DR: having ADHD is kinda like playing a lifelong game of 7 Degrees of Kevin Bacon

Codes

Mitsuru (326) + Kokoro (556) = 882, which can be read as “hahani” (become a parent)

angsty prompts

empty bedroom once was full and lively

messy bedroom, op never came back, it was left as it is, as if op will be back soon. but op will never come back

cut out calendar, where op knows its his/her time already, so he/she cut the calendar to leave it only until the last date

unfinished paintings

op wanting/wishing to meet a deceased loved ones (unknowingly op wished to die, they want it so bad)

the place that op use to seat is empty (in class, cafeteria, etc)

empty and undecorated bedroom bcs op is not here to stay

:)

who made this, im wheezing😂

Fuck yeah this is the shit