I feel like I should be mildly concerned that I seem to have a newfound aversion to seeing myself in the mirror while in headspace because, so far, gender-related things happening in headspace presage those same things happening out of headspace. Kinda feels like my history of not having dysphoria might be coming to an end, and I’m mostly wondering if it’s bc I finally started social transition…
"irreversible side effects of HRT" all of life is irreversible. i cannot go back a single second in time
I must ask: what do you think of Sunburst MLP?
i havent actually gotten to the dude but they manufactured this guy in the trans horse factory
(also i fucking love his design so much its like top 5 for me. i love whenever the show uses more realistic horse patterns it makes my brain go wild for some reason)
It was never quite 'I wish I was a girl' but I vividly remember 'this [closet-watching mlp and wishing I could join the girls in my class in talking about it] would be so much easier if I were a girl.’
To the 4th-grader thinking that, who I think would fill the kindergartener's slot in this comic, I have so much I wish I could say to you, on this and other topics.
I avoided mlp for years, was always told to never touch it, I watched and instantly hit with inability to refute "I wish I was a girl."
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In my experience so far, She/Her/Hers had it right when they wrote that,
I will probably harbor some doubts, but mostly I feel fine. // Fuck that, I feel fantastic! I am living with enthusiasm, reckless abandon.
Like, there’s some fear and discomfort wrt whether this is the right choice but that’s bc everything I’m questioning is stuff I’ve never tested. Crossdressing? Hair stuff? It’s all stuff my “1.5in hair and cargo shorts for the last decade” ass has never experimented with.
And if the fact that my brain still lights up most times someone calls me Theo despite having had that happen constantly for a month, and the fact that I’m really liking some of the experiments I’m already doing with my hair (bangs), and the recession of longstanding confidence issues timed coincidentally with getting to college and flipping to testing this out almost-completely-publicly is any indication, then crossdressing and real hair experimentation is going to be euphoric.
(Also finding out SHH released another version of that song last year almost made me tear up bc holy shit the contrast w/ the lead having started (finished?) voice feminization)
transness is about shaping yourself in ways that make you fall in love with yourself, it is not defined by dysphoria or discomfort- you don't have to carry misery around with you forever.
I love that folks are being more accepting of autism, but I don't love that autism is being sanitized into a quirk.
There's a cute and acceptable form of autism on social media, and I don't see any indication that folks are remotely ready for discussing the rest of it, which contains all the uncomfortable things that impede a person's everyday life, require support, and make acceptance almost impossible—where the hygiene struggles, inappropriate social behaviors, involuntary movements and outbursts, meltdowns, and emotional dependence issues live. And the cuter and more sanitized the "good" autism gets, the more unacceptable the "bad" autism becomes.