Xozuri

the feminine urge to run around the woods wearing a nightgown

my reasons why

ok im making a list of all the reasons i want to be skinny to look back on when i want to binge/make bad decisions 

- to be comfortable and confident in my body

- to prove that I can do it to everyone who thinks I’m chasing some unattainable goal

- to wear whatever i want and not plan my outfit according to bloating

- to wear a swimsuit and be confident in it

- to not feel like a whale around my next bf/gf

- to not have thigh/back fat chafing when i run

- to not have my family/friends make comments whenever i eat anything

- to feel like i deserve to teach fitness classes and teach nutrition at uni

- to like what i see in the mirror

- to be able to eat what i want sometimes and not have it ruin the day 

- to enjoy moments and events without being hyperfocused on my body 

- to see my collarbones/ribs/spine/sternum/cheekbones/jawline

- to feel light and delicate

- to sit in people’s lap/have people pick me up and say how light i am

- to be thinner than my sister 

- to be thinner than my best friend

- to run without this extra weight jiggling and slowing me down

- to be desired and envied instead of pitied

- to wear other people’s clothes without worrying if it will fit

- to visit friends/family i haven’t seen in a while and them to notice my weight loss

if i think of more ill add them, this is just my list and not meant to trigger/offend anyone!! 

Dracula (Tod Browning, 1931)