hi!!! ik u have ur list up rnnn but i kinda really NEED to hear ur takes/ hc on casual dominance with neteyam đ please please please
*kisses forehead to incentivize u* đ <33
is this life with neteyam too much to ask for??? i donât think it is. thanks for the request!!
pairing ; neteyam x fem!reader
synopsis ; casual dominance headcannons with neteyam <33
themes ; fluff, fluff & fluff
⢠Neteyam wraps his tail around you without even thinking.
⢠Around your waist while walking, around your leg while sitting, or gently curling around your wrist during ceremonies.
⢠Itâs instinctual â not possessive, just his way of keeping you grounded, connected, close.
⢠Especially in crowds.
⢠Even though youâre capable, sometimes your stride is just a little shorter, your steps a bit slower â and he notices.
⢠So when youâre lagging or tired, he scoops you up and carries you like itâs his right.
⢠His arms around your shoulders, your legs looped around his waist.
⢠âNo point in making you tire yourself, let me take care of you.â
⢠Whether itâs fruit from the trees or meat cooked over flame, Neteyam feeds you.
⢠Hand to your lips, thumb brushing against your bottom lip after.
⢠He watches you eat like itâs a ritual â like youâre a goddess who deserves to be worshipped every day.
⢠(You are.)
⢠Neteyam loves to make you things.
⢠Beaded chestpieces woven with your favorite colors, necklaces with meaning in every shell and tooth, arm cuffs that match his.
L When you wear something he made, itâs not just a gift â itâs a claim.
⢠âYou look good in my work,â he says with a grin, pressing his forehead to yours. âYou look good with me.â
⢠Youâre strong, youâre skilled, but he still hates when you put yourself in danger.
⢠If thereâs a scouting mission, a risky hunt â he insists on going instead, or at least going with you.
⢠âI know you can handle it, but Iâd never forgive myself if something happened to you.â
⢠No one else hears the songs Neteyam writes about you â but you do.
⢠Theyâre softly whispered in your ear under the trees, or hummed while you lay curled in his lap.
⢠Some are full of longing â others, fierce devotion.
⢠Even when youâre mad at each other, Neteyam never lets you walk away without a kiss, a forehead press, or at least a soft âbe safe.â
⢠âNo going to bed angry, weâre stronger than that.â
⢠He likes the way you fit against him when youâre both riding.
⢠His arms around you, your braid tucked safely against his shoulder, his voice low in your ear giving directions or simply whispering your name.
⢠Itâs not just about flight â itâs about trust.
⢠Fingers brushing your side as you walk, a hand resting on the small of your back, his tail curling possessively around your thigh at rest, a hand tilting your chin up before a kiss.
⢠His touch says, I see you. I choose you. Youâre mine.
⢠When Neteyam says âcome here,â your body moves before your mind catches up.
⢠Not because heâs demanding â but because his voice makes you feel safe.
⢠You know heâll never lead you wrong.
⢠He stands back and watches you spar, but his eyes never leave you.
⢠He offers quiet critiques, soft praise.
⢠âYour stance was perfect.â
⢠âAlmost got me that time.â
⢠And when you impress him? That smirk, that pride in his voice, it lights you up.
⢠When another hunter gets too close, he doesnât argue.
⢠He just steps in, loops an arm around your waist, kisses your temple slowly â eyes locked on the other guy the whole time.
⢠âIâll meet you at the river, yawne (beloved),â he says, deliberately. âDonât be late.â
⢠âYouâre so easy to love.â
⢠âI see the whole world when I look at you.â
⢠âYou follow so well â you trust me.â
⢠His voice is reverent. His words, sacred.
⢠His dominance isnât about control â itâs about honoring your surrender.
⢠He doesnât stop you from doing things, he just makes sure you never have to.
⢠Heâll carry it, heâll fix it, heâll take the lead when youâre tired.
⢠âYouâve done enough,â he tells you softly. âLet me take it from here.â
⢠He weaves tiny, shared details into your hair â small beads, threads, symbols only you two recognize.
⢠When others ask, you both just smile.
⢠Itâs private. Sacred.
⢠A quiet way of saying, we are one.
⢠Even across the clan fire, Neteyam finds your gaze.
⢠He doesnât say anything â he just looks.
⢠That lingering stare, the slight tilt of his head, the little smirk.
⢠Itâs not a warning, itâs a promise â and it makes your knees weak every time.
âď¸đ¤ i guess my contribution to this trend, well its not my best I tried
SENDING THE JJK MEN A NUDE
cw. crack, fluff, suggestive
Gojo, Geto, Nanami, Toji, Takuma, Shiu
AHHH THIS IS MY FIRST ATTEMPT AT A SMAU
I really hope u babes enjoy im so nervous i really hope i captured each personality perfectly đ if u cuties wanna see more let me know! â¤ď¸
ANUBIS
cwâś yandere Gojo, he is a creep in the shadows, established relationship, they semi break up for a bit, reader with mental health problems, pining on either side if you think about it, fem reader, p in v sex, rough sex, feels like hate sex, but really make up sex, Gojo is lowkey obsessive af, oral sex (f! receiving), biting, spit stuff, cum play, breeding kink, borderline dub-con, but ykw that opens up a new gate for them, they are freaks and they are into that shit, never getting of this cock-roach.
<<PART ONE
a/n: again, sorry for late upload, but also not. but big thankies for 1k+ followers<3 have funnnn also oof. that's allllll~
Imagine kissing your girlfriend as you both cum together. And after you clean yourself and your girlfriend, you two cuddle and drift off to sleep, while whispering sweet nothings and imagining a future together. How picture perfect.
Or so it would seem to everyone.Â
While Gojo Satoru is too busy buying a ring, getting the perfect plot to build a houseânay, homeâwith you, and imagining about adopting more cats and a dog maybe, making children with you, who must look like you; you were still trying to run from him. Â
But Gojo Satoru is nothing, if not confident, not just in himself but also in his love for you. And if he has kept you tied to him for two whole years, a lifetime together will be plausible as well. Even if it means taking some difficult measures, despite his poor heart. Because he would never do anything to hurt you! How could he? It was as if his own source of life laid in your hands, and harming that vessel would be a foolish attack on himself.Â
But when the time came that you stopped your meandering tactics of trying to get rid of himâscheming poorly staged fights could only get you too farâand just told him upfront, âI want to break up.â He almost lost it.Â
You did expect at the very least few tears, and at most groveling; holding onto your legs and getting dragged on the floor, while tears and snot ran down his orificesâthat type of begging. Yet, all he did was take off his apron, which he always wears while cooking for you, that says âhusband materialâ, and silently walked out of the main door. As the soup on the stove boiled down to nothing and the rice became stale in the rice cookerâSatoru did not return.
And day by day his absence was chipping away at your sanity. Maybe it was the lack of delicious and nutritious meals he cooked you; toast and peanut butter with instant coffee for breakfast and take out for dinner, was not the way to keep yourself alive. And the lack of him was more apparent with the creases on your clothes, pile of laundry, the missing coats that went to be dry cleaned. Somehow dishes for one person were piling up in the sink like a huge mountain. And your cat was getting just as anxious as youâall the rivalry he had with Satoru was gone in an instant when he could not see the white fluff of hair being shoved in his belly.Â
On top of all that it was as if everyone was out to piss you off. Your parentsâ calls to just nag you were getting more annoying than ever, when Satoru was not around to swoop in at just the right time before a fight broke out, and took the phone from you to entertain your parents with his charm. Even they were starting to question the lack of Satoru from miles of distance. And your friend was asking about Satoruâs chocolate cake recipe. So the wisest thing you could do in this situation? Isolate of course.
Maybe the last straw was your colleague commenting on your sunken and dark eye bags. Or maybe it was the overgrown and chipped off nails, on your hand, and the dirt accumulated in the nails of your feet. Or just maybe it was the lack of his sweet whispers and head pats at night, while he held you close to his chest. The sound of his heartbeats always drowned out any worries that dared to come to your mind when you were in his arms. Or maybe it was the absence of how cold he felt to touch compared to your burning hands.Â
And now it was just the air conditioner blasting excessively cold air all night long, with no one to turn it off for you when you started to curl up into yourself. All you can do is, just wrap yourself up in the blankets you last used with him, and bury your face in his pillow. Sniffing every last drop of his fading smell, and soaking up the said pillow with your tears.
âItâs ok, sweets. I am right here. Never going anywhere.â
Liar.
You did make sure to not contact him these past few days, and now it was already Saturday. It has been a whole week since you actually broke up with your boyfriend. And on the eighth day, you got drunk enough to black out, not before sending him illegible voice mails of slurred words and aggressive crying. And a wall of equally illegible texts, with occasional voice notes of, more crying.Â
It was pathetic. Were you not the one trying to drive him away? And now you're just doing these things to make things harder for not just yourself, but also him. It was the last thing you wanted.
But it is not your fault the thought or him won't leave you alone. Yet he also left you behind.Â
He might have already found someone better. Maybe he found someone since you started this whole charade, that is why he walked out so easily without a word. In a year you might receive a mocking invitation to their wedding, and postcards of their kids in Christmas pajamas with their pets. And thinking about all that first thing in the morning after drinking like a fish, was more nauseating than days old milk.Â
Rotten and expired.
Maybe that's how he sees you now. Exactly with those disappointed eyes, just as the stares he is giving out to you while sitting on the couch with his legs spread and his hands holding each other. Great. Now you're hallucinating him. Time to actually see a therapist instead of making excuses.
âDid you drink last night?âÂ
Mirage Satoruâs low and demanding voice sure felt like real Satoru huh? But not really. Since you've never heard him speak to you in that tone. Satoru has maintained the most soft and affectionate voice with you since you've met. One time you got close to hearing the real Satoru speak in that tone, you caught him on the phone with someone from his office. And upon your arrival he quickly hung up for some reason and changed back to the sweet Satoru you know.
âI asked you something. Didn't I?â
Your mind sure does work wonders. First at making you feel like the worst living being alive, then making mirage Satoru follow you to the bathroom in the most perfectly matched cadence as real Satoru. You never really knew how much attention you paid to his every little move until now. That saying about only realizing something's worth when it's actually gone, sure hits home.
âAre you still drunk?â Oh shit.Â
This was definitely the real Satoru, standing beside you, in front of the sink. Because you have been here before, with a hangover, trying to splash water in your face to somehow alleviate the headache. And Satoru always stood beside you like this, with a smile on his face and asked you the same thing. Difference is that his hands were always on you, instead of in his pockets, like right now.Â
âWhat- why are you-â âI think we have plenty of time to find such unimportant answers. Hmm?â This was very much the real Satoru, but the condescending tone he used to cut off your, granted confused, ramblingâthat was not your Satoru.
But maybe this is alright. Because you are not sure if you can call him yours anymore.
âDid you think you got rid of me?â He leaned down to come face to face with you, and some more, making you effectively lean away from him and backing down towards the sink. Not a great idea, because it leaves you no option but to be trapped in between both of his arms on either side of you, holding himself to lean into you with a tight grip on the marble, turning his knuckles white. And his eyes were not as usual, but somehow a darker shade of blue, and much out of character, with no shine in them. There was a smirk on his lips, more patronizing than his words, but it did not not reach his eyes.
âDid you think we actually broke up?â you respond with nothing at first, but something about his aura told you it was better to answer him than not, so you quickly nodded a weak yes.
âRight. I did leave you alone for a week. Since that is what you have been trying right? For me to leave you alone.â He finished the sentence by lifting one of his hands off the edge of the sink counter to only squeeze your face and pulled you closer to him by your jaw. âYou really tried hard huh? Well. sorry to tell you that it did not work.â
Whether or not you guys are over or not, was not your concern currently. He knew. He knew this entire time.
âHow long?â you managed to muffle out, with the inside of your cheeks pushed in, not letting your tongue move freely.Â
âSince you started this dumb charade. From your very obvious hints to complaining to your friends.â So he knew all along. Maybe he knew about this longer than you.
âWhy?â You asked weakly, already thinking about a thousand ways this could go wrong. âBecause I know how you get in your own head. Doesnât take much huh.â You involuntarily shake your head from side to side. And something about your face squeezed in his hands, and your hand holding onto his wrist, while you shook your head, was too cute for him to hold back a giggle. It was precious, the way he bent down his head, to have his hair cover the crinkles of his eyes, and the stretch of smile across his face. But he could only hide so much.Â
âSo. Did you like your little single life for a week?â The answer was an instant âno.â
But Satoru really did not have to even ask to know that. After all, even when he was away from you, he was still there. Watching you come in and out of the apartment, the horrible state of the kitchen, watching you struggle with your cat to quiet down his meows, coming back from work and just lying face down on the couch and crying until you fell asleep. Or when your parents pestered you about him, and you got in another fight with them, to ignoring their calls from then on; he heard all of that. He also heard you tip toe around your friends whenever he came up in the conversation, until you finally told your friend and cried in her arms that whole night, and how she struggled to put you to bed. He also saw her take your cat with her for a few days until you got your shit together.Â
He was always watching. From the shadows or from the couch in his penthouse, he saw you struggling with even brushing your teeth, ignoring your basic hygiene some days. Afterall he was the one always when things got this bad. But now he was not there.Â
He also saw you crying in the shower, or when you squirmed under your blankets trying to find some sort of distraction and pleasure, to maybe forget the situation at hand for some time. He fisted his own cock at you struggling to please yourself like he did, then came to you crying miserably on your pillows. On more than one occasion.
He was tempted at times to come into the apartment while you slept with dried up tears on your face, and cleaned up as much as he could while leaving everything the same as it was to the naked eye. But he never left before sitting somewhere close to you and just watching you sleep. He knew how much of a light sleeper you were, so he could not risk anything, except for a few kisses and cleaning your face with a wet towel.
He was actually watching you while you got shitfaced last night and sent him all those voicemails and texts.Â
But maybe these were things best left unknown by you.
âStill want to be single?â He offered as if it was even an option. âNo.âÂ
âGood girl.â Maybe because he has never used such a term with you, or maybe it was the smile on his face that he did not hide away and reached his eyes. Or maybe because the smile felt more threatening than a knife being held to your neck. But it stirred up a storm in your stomach. And just as you thought those waves in your stomach could not get more intense, he lifted you off the floor, on his shoulder, and walked over to your bed with ease.
âA punishment is still due, sweets.âÂ
Honestly it was hard to tell what exactly had your pussy twitch in your pantiesâthe fact that he was calling you sweets when you thought you would never hear that again, or that this was a completely new side to the Satoru you know and love, or just the sheer force with which he slammed you down on the bed. Either way it was all too fast and all too new for your brain to register anything at an acceptable pace.
âLetâs treat you how you want to be treated.â His body was basically pinning you down to the mattress, holding himself up with the support of his left hand beside your face, while the right hand hiked up your thighs, all the way up to your hips and pinning them further into the mattress. While working hard to not leave a single nook on your neck left unmarked. He has always been so gentle in bed, but this felt like somehow he was more comfortable not trying to treat you like some fine china.
He is kissing you, shoving his tongue in your mouth exploring everything that he has never touched. The next moment you are stripped down to your panties and flipped over to straddle his face. âSATORU!â
âWhat?â he asked so nonchalantly like he was not in a struggle with your thighs to sit you down on his face. Especially when he is not giving a second to process anything, but too lost into cranking his neck up to kiss you through your panties one moment and just tearing the panties off you, also pocketing them for some unknown reason.
âDID YOU JUST-I cannot!â âNot asking you to do anything sweets. I will be doing everything.â The smile with which he said those words, should be illegal. Because how dare it make you so weak in the knees and more, that you topple down and fall right where he wanted you. âThank you for the meal.â
It is not that you have never imagined this, in fact quite often you have caught yourself thinking that his face is quite ârideableâ. If you previously thought that he is a good eater, time to reevaluate his skills. His teeth pulled your lips open, to lick a long and anguished strip down, from your clit to your now twitching hole. After a week away from you, one would expect Gojo Satory to dive in like he is dehydrated, he might as well be, but the sheer will to torment you as a payback was all that was holding him back.Â
Even when your thighs were engulfing his entire face, and the weight of you was heavy on him, he was still in control. His tongue, oh so skilled and flexible, laid flat and heavy pressed against your cunt as if it did not know what to do with all that. Even with all the whining and attempts at grinding on his face, maybe getting his nose to press on your clit or having the rough texture of his tongue drive you just where you needed to beâit was all fruitless, in front of his strength holding you still, leaving you to only clutch the headboard for your dear sanity. Â
âPlease- please, please Satoru, I am so-so s- sorry. Please.â
Maybe it was the apology or just that his self control withering away, but he finally started to work on your folds. Each drag of his tongue was agonizingly visceral, and just the feeling of his tongue pushing into your hole and hardening was enough, to make you consider maybe the slow pace was better than him giving it his all like a depraved man. It was all sloppy licks and plush lips sucking on your clit. The noises were deafening, not just from your sopping cunt, but also the whines and grunts being muffled by your skin. But really he has always been deprived and hungry for you, it is just that he decided to shield you away from that side of him, for your sake really. He could inhale you entirely and keep wanting more, you were worse than sugar to him.
Everything was a mess, no words of warning could leave you before you came squirting all over his face. He kept holding you down on him, twitching and quivering from the sheer intensity in the air. And he did not shy away from licking away at every drop of saccharine juice dripping off you. When he pulled away to push back the hair in his face, it was wet, not just with sweat but with everything that you squirted all over him. And you could not decide if that was the most embarrassing thing or was it the string of spit still connecting your pussy to his mouth, or maybe the all natural glow he got on his face covered in your juices.
Your boyfriend sure values his time, because he spends no time flipping you back on the mattress, takes off his soaked shirt and situates himself right between your legs. And you would think, this is it. But no, instead he is moving up to forcibly open your mouth with his fingers, and pulling your tongue out to hold it down with his thumb.Â
âAhhhh.â And he is spitting out everything in his mouth on your tongue. His other hand moves up to your throat to squeeze the side and prevent you from swallowing anything that he gives you oh so graciously. All while the hardness of his cock, rubs your overstimulated pussy through the rough denim.
âSpit.â He instructs you as he opens his own mouth and moves his tongue forward for you to give him back what he lent, to take it all back and more with your own saliva mixed into the substance. So you do as asked, pulling yourself slightly off the bed to reach his tongue and roping them together.Â
Satoru does all that to only spit it all out of his mouth. But that was the plan from the beginning, to drench your cunt with everything you and him. And that pushes you into some weird space where it feels like you might suffocate or come. It was the second one, you came from the hot liquid flowing down your slit and accumulating around your hole, and dripping further down to your ass. And his fingers spread it all over. Threading them carefully to give just enough but also nothing.Â
While you throbbed in white ecstasy, Satoru got to work with the rest of clothes on his body. He gives you no time to flip you back over, and presses you down. This was new, you cannot remember when you were ever fucked by him in any other position than missionary. But you are not granted the time to relax and get used to this, because Satoru is already shoving himself inside you. Not easing into anything, just forcing the length of his cock inside you with no will to get you used to anything.
And with a few stops, because even when he has no intention for you to feel comfortable, he wants you on the edge and overstimulated, but the anger is nothing to your tight walls and warmth. So he staggers a bit, but gets all of him inside you, right up to the base of his cock. Then usually he gives you all the sweet time to get used to the stretch before he starts fucking you. But truly you have taken his nicety for granted, when he spends no time to give you a mean thrust, followed by more, each thrust getting more and more vigorous and sloppy with passing time.
âYeah, you are taking it all huh. Do you love it? Now that i am fucking you like some slut? Is this what you wanted?â He rapidly slurs all that out, his mind more focused on the view of your ass recoiling with the force of his thrust, and his dick disappearing inside you. âThis is what you deserve right? Come one, answer me.âÂ
âYES. y-yess.â
You are gripping onto the same pillows you cried on last night, and similarly to the past seven days, they were soaked in your tears. Just this time around it was from the amount of pleasure you felt in the pain. For the first time in your life, pain felt sweet, addictive.Â
Satoruâs right hand was holding you by the waist, probably leaving an imprint of his callouses from the grip, trying to keep you still from hitting your head on the headboard. His hips however did not stop for a second, they quivers, and staggered, but they never stopped. It was the built up desires he locked away to make you feel like a doll, but since that is not what you wanted, he can surely take you out of the glass display from time to time to play with you.Â
Satoru leaned down on your back, to push his chest to your back, and nuzzled in the side of your face. His lips found your ear, biting them to have you turn your head and look at him, to only collide his lips to yours. It was messy and raw, just tongue and teeth, spit dripping to your chin, like you have never been kissed before and he has never kissed before. And more than enough to make you cum again.
âIâm going to fill yaâ up. Fill yaâ full with my cum, until you are too filled to take any more. And Iâll just shove it all back into you. Plug you up.â His thrusts were starting to shatter more and more. âYouâll like that right? Hmm?â Nothing about you makes him think rationally, in fact you quite literally challenge his sanity. But he cannot help but love you, want you, need you even.Â
âIâm gonna fill you up with my kids. Breed yaâ full, so you can never run away from me.â
You did not hate that idea. When his breaths are getting heavier with every second, and his nails are digging into your waist, and his face is pushing itself in your hair; you are actually hoping he keeps his word.Â
And he does, you can feel every rope of cum he shoots up your walls, how his cock twitches inside you, making you clench around him in returnâhe is cumming inside you. Filling you up with his seed, shoving his cock further up your tubes, hitting your cervix one too many times to leave you capable of walking tomorrow. And it was all slimy and sloppy, you have never felt this wet, and you liked the feeling and idea of Satoruâs cum gushing inside you, creeping up to your womb and tying you down to him, forever.
While you are too busy hitting a fourth orgasm, and getting lost in the feeling of Satoruâs cum filling up your wallsâSatoruâs left hand creeps up to your left hand, and slips the coveted ring that he kept safe with him, on your ring finger. He plops down on you, still connected to you by your cunt, and brings your left hand to his lips and kisses it, before moving to your face and kissing you.Â
âFinally.â He wishepers, more to himself than for your ears to pick it up.
âI am not taking a no. I will tie you up if necessary.â
"I love you a lot you know?"
Maybe you have finally gone insane. Because honestly, you would not have it any other way. You might try to run again just to have Satoru chase you down and corner you, and lock you up. Maybe it was the thrill, or just the sheer need to piss him off to the point he shatters into nothing but the most authentic image of himselfâbut either way you had no plans of leaving your boyfriend. You need Gojo Satoru, you need him more than you need oxygen to breathe. Â
"I love you too."
He is essential for your survival, and you are integral to his existence.
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me with gojo satoru and satoru gojo
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PAIRING â nanami x f!reader x gojo
SYNOPSIS â after traveling hours to see your long distance boyfriend, you end up feeling more like a burden than his girlfriend. so when two strangers you meet in the hotel lobby offer you a distraction, you can't say no. based off of this song.
WC â (13k)
CONTENT â infidelity, smoking, drinking, threesome kinda i guess, oral (f! and m! receiving), restraint, multiple orgasms, fingering, sub!gojo if you squint, consent is clearly given but all parties are (slightly) drunk, praise, slight hair pulling, nanami is yearning, mentions of masturbation, big dick, edging?, dirty talk, gagging, p in v, mentions of porn
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You take a deep breath, wrapping your arms around yourself, letting the cool air settle on your skin. Itâs quiet out here, peaceful in a way that makes you feel alone, but not lonely.
The sound of a door creaking open breaks the silence.
You glance over as a man steps out of the hotel, flicking a lighter open with one hand and slipping a cigarette between his lips with the other. He looks about your age, maybe a little older, with dark, tired eyes and a suit jacket slung lazily over his arm like he had just come from something important but didnât care enough to keep up the appearance.
He catches you staring, exhaling a slow stream of smoke before offering a small, knowing nod.
âCouldnât sleep?â he asks.
You let out a soft, humorless laugh, shifting your weight from one foot to the other. âSomething like that.â
interact (comment) to be added
more puppy!satoru here
warnings: NSFWđ, knotting, guided breeding, hybrid puppy satoru and reader (ears, tail, and knot), owner suguru, cucking?, slight dub con (you and satoru donât know what sex is), threesome elements
when puppy!satoruâs owner, suguru, introduces him to you, heâs ecstatic, tail wagging and thumping on the floor, ears twitching with excitement, the whole works. he lowers himself as to convey that heâs not a threat while he leans in to sniff at your fluffy ear, but before he can even get a proper sniff, your ears pin down, along with your body and you cry out as you hide behind suguruâs legs.
his ears droop into his fluffy hair, heâs so sad that youâre scared of him, likely because heâs much bigger than you. he moves his gleaming puppy dog eyes to look at suguru for guidance or comfort or something but all he gets is a pat on the head and a âjust give her time, sheâs scared.â
satoru isnât the most patient pup, and when it comes to you, itâs certainly no different. he wants to do everything with youâplay, eat, nap, cuddle while basking in the sun, groom you, and claim your friendship. but no matter how much he tries, you always dart away the moment he steps into the room, tucking yourself safely behind suguru like heâs your personal shield from the big bad wolf.
what frustrates satoru most isnât just the hidingâitâs watching you melt under suguruâs touch. heâs seen it! youâll nuzzle into suguruâs lap, tail wagging like youâve found the most comfortable spot in the world, letting him pet you for what feels like hours.
itâs not fair. heâs a puppy just like you are, maybe a bit older than you but still, why wonât you give him the time of day? every time you lean into suguruâs hand, a pang of jealousy flares in his chest and he pouts all day. heâs determined to win you over, though.
you were adopted for satoru in the first place, a companion to keep him company during the long hours at home while suguru works. but now, satoruâs never felt more lonely. while he spends his days trying to fill the silence, youâve claimed suguruâs room as your sanctuary, staying there for hours on end until suguru comes home and brings you out.
satoru canât help but feel bitter when heâs told not to disturb you, that âsheâll come out when sheâs ready.â itâs not like he doesnât understand, but it doesnât stop the pout from creeping onto his face every time suguru casually reminds him to wait.
but satoru isnât always a good puppy. he obeyed suguruâs comand at first, but after days of growing frustration, he pushes suguruâs command to the side.
he opens the door to suguruâs room gently, popping his fluffy head in to see you curled up in the middle of the bed, sleeping soundly. a ray of sun is shining on your furry ears as your nose twitches due to whatever dream youâre having. satoruâs will isnât strong enough to resist a good sunbathing spot, and heâs definitely unable to resist creeping in to get a closer look at you.
youâre a fluffy little thing and youâre much smaller than he is since male hybrid puppies are usually taller and larger than the type you are. he can tell youâre likely younger than he is too, satoru is barely considered a puppy anymore, even if he pouts like one. suguru says that youâre only a few years younger than he is, the perfect fit for him.
satoru understands why youâre so timidâit must be terrifying to be taken from the shelter, placed into a strange home with an unfamiliar human, and to top it off, thereâs another hybrid puppy here, one much bigger and taller than you. he canât imagine how overwhelming all of that must be. but despite your hesitance, satoru can barely contain his excitement. just watching you sleep right now makes his tail wag so fast it practically spins as his ears stand at attention.
slowly and gently, he crawls onto the bed, pausing each time you whimper in your sleep, until heâs lying on his side beside you, facing you. just as he starts to relax, closing his eyes to bask in the warmth of the sun, a soft cry comes from your lips, and he feels the bed tremble beneath him. you must have woken up.
when he opens his eyes, he sees you still in the same spot, but now youâre trembling, your small body shaking with a primal fear. soft whines escape your throat, each one laced with distress, as your wide, panicked eyes lock onto his, like youâre trying to gauge whether heâs a threat. your scent shifts, sharper nowâraw and unsettled.
his face shifts into an expression of defeated sadness, his ears drooping low, but even that small movement makes you flinch. he hadnât even touched youâhe was simply lying beside you. he thought youâd understand that if he were truly a threat, he wouldâve already sunk his teeth into your neck while you slept, the most vulnerable state you could be in. but he hasnât hurt you. so why are you still so terrified?
as he watches your trembling, frozen curled up form, his tail canât help but betray him. despite the sadness in his eyes and the ache in his heart from seeing you so scared, it wags uncontrollably, thumping softly against the bed. heâs doing his best to stay still, to not move in a way that might frighten you further, but his body is overwhelmed with excitement just being so close to you. no matter how much he tries to hold it back, his tail keeps wagging, a clear sign of how desperately he wants to be near you, even if youâre terrified.
you seem to catch sight of the movement of his tail, your eyes flickering toward it with a flash of puppy-like curiosity, but that curiosity quickly fades, buried under the fear that still holds you. but that flicker makes satoruâs own curiosity perk up. he lowers his head even deeper to the bed, pressing the side of his face into the soft surface, his neck exposed in a silent gesture of submission. heâs hoping that by getting as low as he can, he might spark that same puppy-like curiosity in you once more, inviting you to see that he means no harm. he watches you closely, hoping youâll notice, waiting to see if you recognize the vulnerability heâs offering as a sign of trust.
you do notice his gesture, but the fear still holds you tightly. your hands are clenched into fists against your chest as you remain frozen in the same position on your side, too scared to move or respond. even if you were able to, having been alone in a shelter your entire life, you arenât sure what heâs wanting from you.
minutes stretch on in the heavy silence, but satoru doesnât pull back. he stays there, determined to let you get used to his presence, showing you that he means no harm.
slowly, your trembling begins to subside, and seeing the shift, his tail starts wagging faster, a sign of his infatuation. but the movement startles you, and you flinch, letting out a soft cry of fear, growing exhausted with the constant fight or flight in your body. desperate to soothe you, satoru tries with all his might to stop the wagging, his face scrunching up in concentration as he desperately wills his body to stay still.
the moment he hears a giggle, everything changes. his eyes snap open, wide with surprise and curiosity, drawn to the sound like itâs the most wonderful thing heâs ever heard. you seem to think his scrunched up face is funny. it fills him with a rush of happiness so intense that his tail canât contain itselfâit begins to wag wildly, too fast to control. surprisingly, you donât seem bothered by it at all. in fact, he notices your gaze locked on his tail, as if youâre completely mesmerized by its movement.
one of your hands makes a small, hesitant move toward the direction of his tail behind him, but you flinch, your eyes darting to his face before quickly pulling your hand back to your chest. satoru has to fight every instinct not to whine, desperate for you to touch it if thatâs what you want. when you finally realize he wonât make any potentially scary, fast moves if you do, you slowly sit up to sit on your heels and reach your hand toward his tail again, the tentative movement full of careful curiosity.
his tail only thumps harder as your hand moves closer, the anticipation building. your fingertips brush against the soft, furry white hair, almost as if youâre admiring it, and he canât help but blush. seeing you grow more comfortable with the touch, you cautiously wrap your hand around his tail, giggling again when it tries its hardest to wag within your hold.
after a gentle moment of you softly playing with his tail, as if exploring it, it unexpectedly wraps kindly around your forearm. the sudden movement makes your eyes widen and your face flush sheepishly. you gently release his tail, lying back down on your side, but this time, you donât seem scared. instead, you blink at him, watching curiously as you take him in without the distortion of fear clouding your eyes.
as much as a blissfully eager satoru wants to stay awake and savor the moment of you observe him, the sunâs gentle warmth spreads over his body, pulling him into a haze of comfort. the soft bed beneath him feels too inviting, and before he knows it, his eyelids grow heavy, surrendering to the peaceful embrace of sleep.
when he wakes, he feels your nose gently sniffing at his neck, soft and hesitant, as if youâre trying not to disturb his sleep but canât help being curious about him. heâs relieved you donât notice when he subtly shifts, offering his neck to you just a little more, a silent invitation. you seem to respond to this, your hybrid instincts recognizing the submission, and your nose brushes against his warm skin as you inhale deeply, exploring every inch of his soft neck to capture the full range of his scent. after taking in his neck, you lean down to sniff his clothed chest, only to return to his neck again as if to double check.
if satoru were a cat, heâd be purring contentedly. he finds himself enjoying the sensation of you exploring him, the attention soothing him in a way he hadnât expected. he melts into the feeling, his eyes closing gently in relaxation, letting himself fully absorb the moment.
when he feels the tentative swipe of your small, wet tongue against his jugular, satoru canât suppress the soft, happy whine that slips from him, his lower body responding with a twitch of excitement. itâs clear youâre a curious pup, eager to smell and taste him as if trying to understand the full scope of him better, and the gesture fills him with an unexpected sense of being cherished.
you seem to have interpreted his whine as a signal to stop, even though youâre certain you didnât hurt him with the soft lick. still, you assume he didnât enjoy it, so you pull away, lowering your chin again, hoping he wonât be upset with you. when satoru opens his eyes and sees you cowering, guilt floods him. he moves toward you, ignoring the flinch you give him, and slowly, carefully, he leans into your space.
you immediately begin to whine under your breath, expose your neck to him, eyes squeezed shut, and a pout on your face. itâs clear youâre interpreting his approach into your space as a sign of dominance since heâs such a big wild looking hybrid, bracing yourself for what you think might come next.
but he doesnât bite you. instead, he takes a deep sniff of your neck before running his long, wet tongue in a slow, deliberate stripe from your collarbone to your ear. the sensation makes you shudder, your brows furrowing into a pout as one of your hands brushes against his chest thatâs leaning into you.
he leans back slightly, watching your reaction closely, trying to gauge your expression to make sure you understand his unspoken messageâthat youâre allowed, even encouraged, to lick, touch, or sniff him as much as you want, and he wonât hurt you.
you wear a flustered, surprised expression, and he chuckles softly, playfully nudging your jaw with his nose. he knows you might see him as a potential leader of the âpack,â but that doesnât matter to himâheâs not interested in asserting dominance. all he wants is for you to feel safe around him so you can spend time together.
you nudge him back very softly with a small smile before you give his jawline a gentle lick in acknowledgement.
he smiles in utter appreciation, accepting your lick with pride. your eyes take in his face, confirming for the last time that heâs harmless before suddenlyâ without warning, you push him down onto his back, basically jumping on top of him with your face shoved into his neck. the sudden shift catches him off guard, and he lets out a surprised grunt when his back hits the bed, stunned by your sudden playfulness.
youâre straddling him, your nose buried in his neck, ears, hair, shoulders, and chest, as if you canât get enoughâwhining in poorly contained excitement thatâs impossible to hold back. he feels your tail curl around his upper thigh, your hands placed on either side of his body, pressing into the bed. heâs in pure bliss, loving every second of it as you switch between sniffing and licking, both of you with your eyes closed in contentment, as if youâre grooming him or simply showering him with affection.
you seem to lose yourself in his taste, licking every inch of his neck, some strokes gentle, others a bit more intense. then, you move to his jawline, then the side of his face. his eyes flutter open when you simply kitten lick over his lips just briefly with the tip of your tongue before retreating to his collarbones for the more thorough licks, a hint of shyness creeping in when it comes to his lips.
his shirt is in the way, preventing you from getting to his bare chest, but your impatience and affection drive you to move back up, eagerly retracing the spots youâd already wetted. you even add a few playful nibbles, and he canât help but hum with amusement, tilting his neck toward you in silent encouragement, urging you to continue.
eventually, you begin to slow down, likely growing tired, and in response, he starts to lick you back, offering his own gesture of thanks.
you groom one another for what feels like hours, until your scents are combined completely and you both fall asleep cuddling in the sun with a newfound sense of companionship.
~
now, you wonât leave him alone, but heâs not complaining. wherever he goes, youâre right behind him, or directly in front of him. if he sits, you plop yourself right into his lap, curling up against him. when he lies down, youâre right there on top of him, taking up every inch of his space. even when he wakes from a nap, you stretch dramatically in a downward dog, purposely pushing into him and knocking him over before taking the opportunity to collapse right back onto him, drifting off to sleep once more. mealtime doesnât escape you either; youâre always right by his side, mirroring his every move. and when heâs bathing, youâre there too, splashing around, your puppy instincts kicking in as you even use your tongue to âhelpâ him clean, despite the soap and water in the mix making you stick out your tongue in disgust.
playing together is easily one of your favorite times of the day. you both often wrestle, chase each other in a playful mock predator-prey game, tackle little puzzles suguru sets up before he leaves, and do so much more, always finding new ways to have fun.
just like every other day, like routine, youâre now wrestling on the living room floor after a long nap together. satoru always takes it easy on you since youâre a younger pup and much smaller, he wouldnât be able to forgive himself if he accidentally hurt you. but satoru likes to play rough, itâs not his fault, itâs instinct, he just wishes you didnât perceive it as a real threat.
but as heâs got you pinned down, one of his play bites causes you to whine in fear, triggering your prey like instinct, and you immediately squirm out of his hold to roll onto your back and expose your belly. you pull your shirt up to your ribs and tilt your neck, wearing a tightly close eyed expression. seeing this, he grows a bit frustrated realizing itâs not apart of playtimeâ youâre offering submission once again.
he growls lowly under his breath as he leans into your exposed tummy, his growls continuing as his tongue gently licks at your soft skin. itâs his way of expressing frustration with your constant need to show him youâre submissive, a non-threat to his dominance, all while still trying to convey his affection.
he wants you to see him as your equalâyouâre friends. friends who can wrestle, play, and play bite each other without the fear of one being seen as a looming, dangerous wolf. even if he might seem that way next to you, he wishes you could see past the size difference and realize that, at heart, heâs just another playful pup like you.
you whine and whine, your tummy twitching as he licks at it, but when your legs shift open mid-lick, his head tilts in slight confusion. he pauses, sitting up to observe the movement and make sense of it. youâre lying on your back with your legs open, your underwear exposed, since you usually only wear one of suguruâs large shirts with his scent on it and a pair of underwearâafter all, you never really leave the house anyway.
he sniffs the air, curiosity piqued when he notices the sudden change in the aroma of the room, and follows the scent with his nose leading him, down to your underwear, where a damp patch catches his attention. his confusion deepens when you whine softly, your body reacting to the sensation of his nose brushing against it. itâs an intense scent, one that smells like the purest form of you, and it stirs his instincts to want for a taste.
so, he listens to his desire, lapping at it without much thought since heâs already groomed nearly every inch of you during your sunlit cuddles. as soon as he does though, you gasp, whining louder, instinctively pushing your hips closer to his face, urging him to continue. but you donât need to askâsatoru is more than eager to taste this new part of you, to indulge in your scent and flavor until he gets full on it.
he grows quickly unsatisfied with his position beside you, leaning down with his face in between your legs. he maneuvers himself until heâs lying on his tummy and his face is stuffed into your undies instead, all while never allowing your clothed folds to be without his constant tonguing for one second.
any thought of why he even started licking your tummy in the first place is gone just as quickly as his instincts kick in and his unneutered cock twitches to life.
heâs slathering at the, now translucent, gusset of your panties in every way he can, soft and slow, long and hard, quick and shortâ and you seem to love it. youâre whimpering and crying out in a way heâs never heard from you before, your hands gently pawing at his hair and ears, massaging them as if youâre expressing your gratitude for what heâs doing.
your legs begin to shake, and even though heâs thoroughly lost in you, he grows a bit concerned and he pulls his head away, only to grow surprised when you whine out loudly in protest and push his head back into the in between of your legs to continue. his dominant wolf instincts makes him growl when forced into any position by a puppy like you, no matter how much he likes you. you whine a bit in frustration before slowly sitting up and leaning down to eagerly nuzzle and lick his face, as if to tell him, âiâm sorry, it just feels so good, i canât help myself.â
he accepts your unspoken apology with closed eyes, enjoying the feel of your tongue on his face before returning to your needy pussy, his actions driven purely by instinct, as if itâs his duty to fulfill what his submissive puppy desires from him while simultaneously indulging his own yearning for the taste of you.
when your panties became so thoroughly soaked from his slobber that they grow loose, his tongue incidentally nudges it to the side, and that first slide of his tongue on your bare, sticky, throbbing labia makes you both moan loudly.
your grip on his ears almost hurts as he explores your folds with his mouth and very wide, curious eyes. he looks like a kitten tasting milk for the first time.
his tail is flicking and thumping energetically behind him, like a drumbeat of pure joy, as he feasts. his hands instinctively move to push your thighs painfully apart as to gain as much access as he can. heâs whimpering against you, caught between delight and pain because his cock is throbbing agonizingly but he doesnât understand why.
satoru just wonât let up, not needing any kind of break with such a strong stamina that something akin to fireworks erupt within you. you release the loudest, messiest cries heâs ever heard, a slick, gooey pool leaks out of you while your pussy twitches. neither of you realize yet that youâve just experienced an orgasm.
heâs never licked something up so fast in his life, ignoring the sounds of overstimulation coming from you. when you tug harshly at his hair, trying to pull him away, he growls fiercely, latching his mouth fully onto your entire labia and suckling it as if to claim ownership, making it clear you have no control in the matter. even heâs shocked by the intensity of his desire to assert his dominance.
he shoves his tongue deep into your body with his mouth still attached. he surprises himself when he breaches your hole because he didnât even know you had one apart from your lower hole. he simply followed the source of the yummy slick and pushed past your entrance with one big push.
he grows addicted to the feeling of your bumpy walls against his long muscle quickly. heâs suckling on your labia and clit with his entire mouth as his tongue writhes around inside of your hole, all while his eyes roll back into his skull. he doesnât even mind the way youâre squirming under him because nothing could unlatch the hold his jaw has on you now.
you feel completely claimed in every part of your physical being. youâre unable to decide if you fucking love feeling owned by the larger dominant wolf or if you want him to stop and give you mercy because of how sensitive you are. your legs are twitching and so limp that youâre unable to hold them up even if satoruâs hands werenât holding them down.
eventually, he starts to feel guilty seeing the clear exhaustion on your face, so he releases his grip, slithering his tongue out of your hole and exposing the indents of his teeth. as he sits up, your legs snap shut hard. when he tries to lean in, nuzzling the side of your head in an attempt to show affection and regret for going too far, you push him away with a soft whine, causing him to pout in response.
eventually, after he whines and paws at your back enough, you allow him to lie behind you, curling into your back and holding you close. he doesnât fully understand what just happened or what it means, but he feels an unshakable bond with you and an even stronger urge to protect you. the only downside is the throbbing, painfully persistent hard-on heâs left withâ an irritating feeling until it finally subsides.
~
after that life altering moment where satoru unknowingly ate your pussy to completion and then more, he seemed to have unlocked your heat.
satoruâs ear flops as his head tilts in confusion, his curious, bright eyes fixed on you as you move strangely in front of himâstretching deliberately and even pressing your ass into his space a few times. youâre just as baffled as he is, unsure why you feel so hot and needy or why youâre desperate for satoru to be as close to you as possible.
you let out a frustrated whine when satoru continues to ignore your attempts at whatever it is youâre trying to convey, because he genuinely has no idea what you want. it starts to grate on him, until he finally lets out a low growl to make you stop, even if it leaves you looking a little dejected. feeling a twinge of guilt, he gives your leg a quick lick as a quiet apology before laying back down.
itâs only when suguru comes home and finds you on all foursâback arched and an unmistakable look of painful need on your faceâthat satoru perks up, finally paying closer attention now that suguru is here to notice your strange behavior and potentially give him context clues.
suguru rubs at your ears as he kneels in front of you and you keen into his palm happily as he tuts at you, âsomeoneâs finally ready to mate.â satoru has no idea what that means, but it seems to be a good thing because your owner has a happy look on his face.
before satoru fully processes whatâs happening, suguru is guiding both of you into your room and toward your shared bed. he gently lifts your standing form into a bridal hold, like youâre extra fragile right now and lays you down before encouraging you to settle into that same doggy position. he huffs in amusement and coos when you nuzzle into his touch, like youâre showing him appreciation for taking care of you, even though you donât even know how heâs planning to alleviate that irritating heat within you.
with care, suguru pushes up your oversized shirt until itâs pooling on your mid section and slides your panties down your legs, revealing the area satoru had devoured just the day before. the sight and your scent growing ever stronger makes his cock jump at the memory.
suguru glances at satoru with an expectant look, lightly tapping your ass cheek a few times. satoru blinks in confusion, unsure of whatâs being asked of him. after a few more encouraging taps and a gentle âcome on, boy, come here,â satoru hesitantly moves closer to your behind, nosing at suguruâs hand as it taps your ass, as if to ask for clarification. he gives a few tentative licks to it with eyes on suguru, waiting for a telling gesture or command. he explores down to the familiar space between your legs, drawing on his experience from the other day to try and interpret suguruâs command. when your whine fills the room at the sensation and suguru praises him with a warm âgood boy,â his tail wags enthusiastically, and his ears twitch in delight.
âwaitâup, up!â suguru commands encouragingly before satoru can lean back in to lick it again. satoruâs confused but he still attempts to obey. he shifts to hover over your body, his hands planted firmly on the bed beside yours as his chest presses against your back.
âyes! good boy!â suguru praises the second satoru gets on top of you, âmake her feel better, satoru. you can do it, smart boy.â suguru gently pulls satoruâs sweatpants down before sitting back and watching expectantly.
satoru turns back to you, nuzzling the side of your head before using one hand to gently pull your hair aside, wanting to see your face from the side heâs leaning on. he studies your expression, trying to gauge how youâre feeling about all of this confusing stuff, and when you turn to look at him, the pout on your face makes him give you a sympathetic whine. he softly licks your cheek, sensing your discomfort which in turn, brings him discomfort.
he nuzzles his face against yours to comfort you, and you rub back sweetly. but then, you start to rub your behind against his bare cock hanging between his legs and his ears perk up at the feeling.
âthaaats it satoru,â suguru praises, making satoruâs tail wag, âyou know what to do.â
his hips begin to grind against you, sloppily rubbing his cock onto your thigh, ass, and sometimes brushing against your labia. he quickly becomes aware of how mildly pleasant the sensation is, and he can tell youâre enjoying it as well, especially when he rubs at the wet soft place between your legs. he tries his best to aim at that spot, hoping he can help you feel better somehow like suguru is encouraging him to do so.
satoruâs gyrating hips start to grow harsh as he lets out hums into your ear. yearning for more, his escalation makes you whimper, bracing your hands against the sheets to keep yourself up and steady.
thatâs when satoru feels suguruâs hand around his semi hard cock, aiming his tip until its just barely nudged into your folds and saying little words of encouragement to start âmatingâ with you, whatever that means. but it seems satoru doesnât need to know the definition for his dick to penetrate your hole, because you and suguru do it for himâ suguru uses one hand to push satoruâs ass towards you and you back up harshly until satoruâs fully mounted within your warm embrace.
satoruâs eyes roll back as your tongue lolls out and you both begin to pant in euphoria, feeling completely connected and relaxed. satoruâs cock starts to grow larger, slowly and steadily with every pulse of your pussy around it. neither of you notice as suguru coos and places satoruâs large hands directly on top of your small ones as if to connect you even more.
after that initial overwhelming wave of connection, satoru looks at suguru with a mix of confusion and a hint of panic, unsettled by the unfamiliar feeling and afraid of the unknown. meanwhile, youâre consumed by the heat of your cycle, focused only on the horny itch burning within. suguru chuckles, pats his head a few times, and reassures him that heâs okay, easing most of satoruâs worry.
despite satoruâs confusion, you donât remain locked unmoving for long. his instincts take over as his anxiety passes and his body responds on its own, his tail curling around you in a protective, possessive way as his hips take a mind of their own.
every hump quickly accelerates the pace of his cock hardening and lengthening within you, as if your suctioning walls are so tight that theyâre pulling his foreskin back and forcing the sensitive inches within to be exposed. after two strokes, heâs fully erect and stretching your little hole deliciously.
he ruts into you like a starved animal, like his dna is suddenly overtaken by his wolf genes as you go back and forth from moaning loudly in satisfaction, to turning your face to lick at his face in appreciation. you take his hammering into you like a champ, even when his weight crashes down on you and you fall flat. he humps you the whole way down until heâs crushing you underneath him and snaking his arms around your lower midsection as to push you up into him to meet his thrusts even deeper, if possible.
now in a prone bone position, youâre drooling out a continuous stream of spit down your face as he bares his teeth and growls. his own drool drips out of his mouth and down onto your face to join yours on the sheets. his entire cock is barely even exiting your warm embrace, only a few sticky inches are meeting the cool air of the room before pummeling back into you, over and over.
after only a few minutes, satoruâs teeth take a deep bite into your neck, unable to cope for much longer with your pleasure hole strangling his dick, causing you to cry out and tremble in utter submission. your hands fist the sheets, your toes curl, and you groan loudly as you feel something begin to stretch your entrance even wider, as if the base of his cock is growing inside of you. satoru begins to growl and whine louder at this, growing frustrated when his knot grows so large inside that itâs catching on your vacuuming walls and prohibiting him from exiting you.
his bite penetrates a bit deeper into your fleshy neck and suguru has to tap his nose with a stern reprimand to âbe careful with her,â making satoru growl but still obey and give the mark a quick, soothing lick before sinking his teeth back into youâ but this time, to your shoulder. heâs trying desperately to pull out so he can push back in again but it hurts the both of you to do so, so he simply does what he can. he ruts into you without disengaging; his tip is just smudging against your cervix like a sloppy kiss.
since his knot began to grow, the feeling of foreboding pleasure grew with it, and it seems youâre synced with him because one of your hands is fisting his hair and ears that are fully pinned to his head while the other is digging your nails into his hip as it clenches and relaxes with every hump. his tail that was wrapped around your body moves to wrap around your arm and your own tail rubs at the inside of his thigh.
the sharp latch he has on your shoulder is tight, and when he shoots that first load of cum from the tip of his cock, bullseye right into your welcoming uterus, he pushes into you as deep as he can go and freezes as he groans loudly into your shoulder. you let out a breathy, whiny, drawn out âahh!â everytime you feel a hard spurt of hot cum being inserted inside of your tummy. your own orgasm crashes over you in tandem with your new mate, making your body shake violently, the only thing keeping you still being satoruâs very strong grip on your midsection and his weight pushing you down.
âgood girl~â suguru praises you as he rubs behind your ears that twitch with every load of puppies satoru breeds into you, âmilking your mate so good, doing such a good job. i bet that feels good, huh? satoruâs making you feel allll better~â
suguru simply laughs when satoru gives him a mean warning growl when he keeps rubbing at your ears for longer than he prefers him to. suguru knows he wonât bite him; satoruâs feeling a burst of affection for you due to being within the midst of his first orgasm, making him even more protective than he usually is.
the breeding part of this drags out for much longer than the actual fucking part of it did, satoruâs releasing so much cum every few seconds that you can feel it sloshing around inside of you at the very end of your tunnel, only kept inside by the plug of his knot. your pussy is starting to ache, being stretched so wide for so long. your whines and hands beginning to push at his hips expose your growing discomfort, making satoruâs instinct to protect you kick in and attempt at pulling out.
you both hiss in pain when he tries, his knot is still much too large to pull out of you just yet since heâs still letting out the last drops of his final load. even suguru cringes in pity, uttering a, âoof that must hurt.â
satoru sympathetically rubs and kneads at your lower belly as he continues to hold you still against him for your own sake. he unlatches his teeth from you just so he can lick long comforting swipes along your neck, shoulder, and face as to hopefully distract you from the pain youâre obviously in, due to his knot.
you start to weakly lick at him back with exhaustion in every atom of your body and it escalates into you just tonguing eachothers tongues and licking into one anotherâs mouths with relaxed closed eyes, basking in the connection of one another and the afterglow. the accidental making out takes your mind off of the agony of his swollen knot within you enough so you can breathe and neither of you can even hear suguru cooing at your kissing, calling you guys âjust adorable!â
after minutes of sweet, slow, sloppy kisses, satoruâs knot deflates enough to pull himself out of you with only a wince, making his slobbery cock flop down to swing softly and heavily between his legs.
satoru is tired, but youâre utterly spent, pussy pulsing rhythmically as if to start the process of cooking up his little white haired, blue eyed puppies. despite your exhaustion, all you feel is reliefâ relief that satoru managed to scratch that horny agonizing itch. for now.
satoruâs primal need to clean you up after mating with you kicks in as he knees open your legs and leans down before shoving his face been your legs. your toes curl as you gasp and squeak, fisting the sheets harshly to cope with his long tongue lathering up and down your labia to scoop up the goo thatâs escaping.
suguru snickers to himself in amusement, âwhat a gentleman.â
but when you reach over and grab at suguruâs arm, giving him big puppy eyes, silently pleading with him, he coos at you with a kiss to your cheek before pulling satoru away from your legs, âthaatâs enough. no more licking, satoru.â
satoru pouts as heâs pulled away but due to his fatigue, he allows it this time, and collapses onto your side ready for a long nap with his new companion.
suguru huffs with a smile as you pull at his hand in attempt to make him lie with you. he shouldnât, because laying in your puppiesâ bed is not good for training but, how could he say no to his new puppy? he gives in with a long hum and sits with his back to the bedâs headboard and rubs at your head in his lap before moving down to your shoulders, even down to your lower tummy to rub sweet circles on it.
when suguruâs hands begin to slide his oversized shirt up your body until it settles at your collarbone, you arch up into his touch as you give his arm a lick in affection. his hands glide over to caress your bare tits and he hums approvingly, âthese are gonna feed your puppies, baby. gonna get alll swollen. are you excited to have satoruâs pups?â
lost in the euphoria of his huge, lanky hands enveloping and fondling your fleshy chest, you whine and nod in his lap as your hands skim over his cold ones, agreeing despite the fact that youâre not completely sure what heâs talking about.
âof course you are,â suguru smiles down at you before picking you up from under your arms just enough so he can maneuver himself to lie on the side of your body opposite of a sleeping satoru.
your ears flick happily when your owner lies beside you, his elbow propping him up with his head leaning on his hand so he can look down at you. satoru is curled onto your other side, sweatpants halfway down his thighs and snoring softly into your neck with arms loosely around your hips.
âsheâs your mate now, satoru~â suguru whispers at an unconscious satoru as he uses his free hand to briefly rub at his ear, âsheâs making your puppies in her belly right this very second. what a goood puppy, hm?â
suguru admires the sight for a beat before he leans down and pecks your lips. youâre completely surprised, and a flutter of delight bursts inside of you. heâs never done this before, you had just shared your first âkissâ with satoru a moment ago, and the feeling of your owner that you love so much showing you affection in this way makes you so happy.
you begin to mock his peck, giving him more kisses back with sweet hums. youâre so distracted with it, that you donât notice suguru guiding sleepy satoru with his free hand to latch onto your nipple until you feel his entire mouth envelop it with a rhythmic suction.
you gasp against suguruâs lips at the feeling and your legs twitch along with one of your ears. suguru shushes you soothingly and pulls back from your lips, watching you sharply as you blink down at satoru. his eyes are closed blissfully, and heâs sucking on it like itâs in his nature to do so.
itâs oddly comforting, despite the occasional graze of his sharp canines, and you find yourself humming softly and letting your head rest back on the bed to bask in the feeling.
âaww, you like that?â suguru coos, using his free hand to reach and move some of your hair away from your face before reaching down and rubbing a few fingertips along the edges of your other breast. goosebumps race down your body and you whimper, back arching into his touch and making satoru whine in protest of the movement. satoru grasps harder onto your hips to steady you in his sleep so he can suck your tit easier.
suguru leans down and presses a soft kiss beside your nipple and his eyes stay locked on yours as he does it. then, he starts to pepper kisses all around your breast and chest. it feels like an appreciation ritual, like heâs worshipping you.
his hand that was holding his head up before snakes between the bed and your mid back to rub at it and encourage you to arch as his kisses turn into wet, open mouthed ones that involve a lot of tongue. your breathing grows deeper and faster as his tongue leads to your free nipple.
but just when you think heâs going to latch on like satoru is, he moves away and kisses towards the other direction, making you whine in protest as your hand instinctively and softly paws at the back of his warm neck.
âwant me to suck on it?â he questions you in mock curiosity, his hand thatâs not under you moving to rub up and down the inside of your inner thigh.
you nod hastily, a prominent pout on your face thatâs tainted heavily by the undeniable m euphoria youâre feeling from satoruâs relentless suckling.
suguru leans up to your face and moves his nose against yours in a eskimo kiss before rasping, âanything for my puppy.â
you sigh deeply in relief and your head falls back against the bed when he leans down and closes his eyes as his lips finally latch on. your abdomen twitches and your pussy pulses at the constant, wet suction theyâre using on your sensitive nipples.
your hands move to tangle gently into the backs of each boys hair, massaging them sweetly as they each nurse on you, despite the lack of milk.
it doesnât take long for you to fall asleep to the sound of constant âchu!â filling the room and the comforting sensation that comes with it.
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..yeah..ima see myself out
summary: raised in a village on the kingdomâs outskirts, youâve always dreamed of seeing the annual lantern festival in the capital. when you unwittingly help a thief on the runâgojo satoruâhe agrees to take you there as repayment. what starts off as a simple deal soon pulls you into a conspiracy that ties back to the crownâand to satoruâs past.
⢠pairing: thief/flynn rider!gojo satoru x fem!reader ⢠contains: romance, angst, smut (oral sex, unprotected sex, loss of virginity), slowburn, action, tangled au, debatable attempts at comedy, profanity, inaccurate depictions of horse-riding, mentions of poison and murder, violence that comes with daggers/swords/frying pansâplease let me know if iâve missed anything! ⢠word count: 31k ⢠playlist: âyou broke my smolderâ ⢠art credit: _3aem | read on ao3 here.
It turns out that blackmailing a wanted criminal is much harder than it seems.
For one, he does not take you seriously. Not even a little.
âOh no,â Satoru says, eyes wide with feigned horror. âYouâre going to turn me in? Me? The helpless victim in all of this?â He clutches his chest, staggering back as if heâs been struck. âWhat a cruel, coldhearted thing to do to the man whose life you just heroically saved.â
âYouâre only saying that because you know I have the upper hand,â you deadpan.
âDetails, details,â he says, waving a hand. âBut letâs be real here, sweetheart. If you were really going to call the guardsâafter you rescued me from the aforementioned guardsâyouâd have done it by now.â
You stiffen. He grins, slow and knowing. âAh,â he says, tapping his temple. âSee, thatâs the problem, isnât it? Youâre bluffing.â
âI am not bluffing,â you insist, even as your grip tightens around your satchel.
Satoruâs grin only grows. He takes a step closer, like a cat toying with its prey. âOh?â
You plant your feet firmly, refusing to back down. âOh, indeed.â
Thenâso fast you almost donât register itâhe lunges. With a startled yelp, you whirl away, narrowly dodging his grasp as he reaches for the satchel. Satoru lets out a low whistle. âNot bad,â he muses. âYouâve got quick reflexes.â
You clutch the satchel to your chest. âYouâre just predictable.â
Satoru places a hand over his chest and gasps. âPredictable? Me?â He scoffs. âSweetheart, I am many thingsâcharming, intelligent, devastatingly handsomeâbut predictable is not one of them.â
âFine.â You roll your eyes. âIf you want the crown back so badly, then take it,â you say, and before he can react, you pivot on your heel and sprint.Â
âWhoa, heyââ
You dart through the trees, leaping over gnarly roots and weaving through the underbrush, legs burning as you push forward. The satchel bounces against your side. The village is closeâif you can just make it past the ridge, maybe you canâ
A hand catches your wrist. Youâre being spun; the world tilts, and your back slams into something solid. Your breath is knocked out of your lungs with a sharp gasp.
Gojo Satoruâthe most wanted man in the entire kingdomâlooms over you. His palm is pressed flat against the trunk of the tree behind your head, trapping you in place. Heâs not even out of breath. His hair is a mess of white strands, a few falling over his forehead, and his eyesâthose ridiculous, celestial blue eyesâare twinkling with delight.
âWell,â he drawls, âthat was fun.â
You glare up at him. âLet go.â
âMm.â Satoru taps his chin, considering. âNah.â
âGojo.â
âSay please.â
You shove at his chest, but he doesnât budge. At all. Heâs all lean muscle beneath his clothes, far sturdier than his lanky frame would suggest. You grit your teeth. âYou are the worst.â
âAnd you,â he says, patting the tip of your nose, âare terrible at making threats.â
You open your mouth to retort, only to clamp it shut immediately after. Hoofbeats. Both of you freeze. Theyâre distant at first, then grow louder, thundering against the dirt path. Your stomach twists. The guards are back.
Satoru doesnât hesitate. One second heâs in front of you; the next, heâs sweeping you into his arms like you weigh nothing and hauling you away from the side of the path, diving into the thick of the trees.
âWhatâ? Put meââ
âShhh.â He claps a hand over your mouth, pressing you against the trunk of an enormous oak, both of you half-hidden behind the tree. Your heart pounds. You can see the riders now, their armour glinting under the early morning sun. Their voices carry over the rustling of the leaves, and you hold your breath.
Satoru does too, though you doubt itâs out of fear. No, he looks entirely at ease, a smirk tugging on his lips as he watches the guards ride past, none the wiser. Just as quickly as they arrived, theyâre gone. The silence stretches.
Finally, Satoru leans in, his breath warm against your ear. âYouâre welcome.â
You bite his hand.
âYowza!â He jerks back, cradling his hand like youâve just inflicted a mortal wound upon the limb. âDid you justââ
âYes,â you say primly, straightening out your tunic. âAnd Iâll do it again if I must.â
Satoru gapes at you, then lets out a laugh, wild and unrestrained. âOh,â he breathes, shaking his head. âOh, I like you.â
âGreat,â you say. âSo youâll take me to the capital?â
His laughter dies. You smile sweetly at him.Â
Satoru groans, dragging a hand through his hair. âUnbelievable,â he mutters, mostly to himself. His head tips back against the tree, and for a moment, he just stands there with his eyes closed, as though heâs bargaining with the gods to give him the virtue of patience which he so clearly lacks. âI just saved your life.â
âI saved yours first.â
He pinches the bridge of his nose. âYou are so lucky youâre cute.â
âIââ Your cheeks burn despite yourself.
âNot that lucky, though,â he interrupts, dropping his hand and fixing you with an almost pitying look. âBecause if you think Iâm actually going to drag you with me all the way to the capital just because you swiped a little trinket from me, youâre out of your mind.â
Your momentary victory screeches to a halt. âWhat?â
âYou heard me.â He straightens, stretching his arms above his head. âIâm not taking you anywhere.â
âBut you just saidââ
âI just humoured you. Big difference.â
Your mouth opens, then shuts, then opens again. You ball your hands into fists at your sides. âYou promised.â
âI lied.â
âGojo!â
He grins, wholly unrepentant, and takes a step back. âCâmon, sweetheart. You didnât actually think that was going to work, did you?â He tuts, shaking his head. âCute and naĂŻve. What a dangerous combination.â
Frustration coils in your chest. You take a deep breath. âAlright,â you say, almost calm. âThen Iâll just go to the guards right now, andââ
âNo, you wonât,â Satoru says, raising a single finger.
Your nostrils flare. âAnd why wonât I?â
âBecause I just saved your life,â he says, enunciating each word as though youâre a particularly slow barn animal. âWhich means, at the very least, I deserve some gratitude.â
Your jaw drops. âGratitude?â
âThatâs right.â
âWeâre even!â you sputter. âI saved you first!â
âSemantics. Point is, I was heroic, you were impressed, and now you can return my crown to me and we can go our separate ways.â He winks. âSounds good?âÂ
âThatââ You stare at him, incredulous. âThat is the exact opposite of good.â
âHm. Sounds like a you problem.â
Your grip on the satchel tightens. âFine,â you say through gritted teeth. âThen Iâllââ
Before you can finish, heâs already moving. Fastâtoo fast. You barely register the blur of motion before his hand is dipping into the satchel, fingers brushing against the cool metal of the crown. Panic flares. You react without thinking.
Your hands snap out, grabbing his wrist before he can pull away. He pauses, blinking down at you, startledâbecause somehow, despite his speed, despite the way he shouldâve been able to snatch the crown before you noticed and vanish into the treesâhe hadnât accounted for you actually stopping him.Â
Both of you freeze. Then, in an utterly ridiculous, ungraceful tangle of limbs you both go crashing to the ground. The satchel slips from your grasp, tumbling into the dirt. The crown spills out, gleaming in the morning light. Itâs a glittering band of gold inlaid with the sort of precious stones and gems youâve only ever heard about. A string of words, written in a curling handwriting, are etched into the inside of the crownâs band. You blink against the glare. Satoru lands half on top of you, his weight pressing you into the earth.
Satoru is heavy. Not overwhelmingly so, but enough that youâre acutely aware of every point of contact; the solid warmth of his torso against yours, the way his arm is braced beside your head, keeping his weight from crushing you fully.
And, unfortunately, he seems just as aware. A slow, amused smile curls at the edges of his lips as he props himself up on his elbows, peering down at you with those ocean-bright eyes. âMy, oh, my,â he muses, low and amused. âHow terribly forward of you.â
Your face heats up. âGet. Off.â
He doesnât. Instead, his gaze flickers to the crown lying in the dirt beside you, just out of reach. His smile widens. You see the moment he decides to go for it. Unfortunately for him, youâve already decided first.
With a grunt, you knee him in the stomach. Satoru wheezes. You wriggle out from beneath him just as he recoils, scrambling for the crown. Your fingers barely skim against the metalâbut before you can grab it, the thief lunges forward and tackles you again. There is no grace to it this time. You wrestle in the dirt like two absolute idiots, rolling, kicking, twisting in a desperate scramble for control. Heâs stronger, but youâre determined, and maybe just a little feral at this point.Â
âWould you quit it?â Satoru grunts, narrowly dodging an elbow to the ribs.Â
âNot until you help me!â
âI told youââ
You shove your palm against his face. Satoru lets out an indignant noise, muffled by your hand. You take advantage of his momentary distraction and reach outâonly for Satoru to grab your wrist and twist, sending you both tumbling again, untilâ
Somehowâsomehowâhe ends up pinned beneath you, and this time, you have the crown.
Your fingers tighten around it as you scramble off him and glare down at Satoru. Heâs sprawled in the dirt, a mess of leaves clinging to his wind-ruffled hair, and a streak of dirt is smeared across his chin. Youâre certain youâre in no better shape; you pull a stray twig out of your hair, and rub away the mud on your cheeks with the back of your hand. He props himself up on his elbows, surveying you.
âTragic,â he sighs. âI almost had it.â
You twirl the crown between your fingers, letting the jewels catch the light, and let your lips turn upwards in a saccharine smile. âItâs called a hustle, sweetheart.â
The marketplace is settling into a quieter rhythm at this time of the day, the golden light of mid-afternoon casting long shadows upon the cobbled streets. Satoru trudges beside you, his usual confidence replaced with something closer to reluctant resignation.Â
He looks utterly put upon, hands stuffed deep in his pockets, lips set in a pout. Every few steps, he kicks at loose pebbles on the road, sending them skittering ahead of him. Youâd almost feel bad for himâalmost. But then, you remember that this is a man who stole a crown, got caught, and is now bitter because someone played him at his own game.Â
The smell of freshly baked bread drifts through the air, warm and inviting, mingling with the sharp scent of spices from a nearby stall. You stop in front of a small bakery, the wooden sign above it swaying slightly in the breeze. Through the open windows, trays of steaming loaves sit behind the counter, their crusts golden brown and crisp.
Satoru watches as you peer through the display, an unimpressed look on his face. âWonderful,â he says. âI get blackmailed into helping you, and now we have to go grocery shopping. Truly, this is my lucky day.â
âWe need supplies if weâre going to travel.â You glance at him, and roll your eyes. âOr do you plan on surviving on pure arrogance alone?â
He sighs dramatically, tossing his head back. âIâve survived on worse. Once, I survived an entire week on nothing but stolen fruit and the will to be a menace to the commander of the Royal Guard.â
âThat explains so much.â Ignoring his indignant huff, you step forward and exchange a few coins for a loaf of bread, still warm from the oven. The baker, a kindly old woman, gives you a small smile as she wraps it in cloth. You thank her and tuck the bundle into your bag.Â
Satoru watches this process with the dismay of a man being forced to endure unimaginable hardship. Then, as if suddenly remembering something important, he straightens. âSpeaking of which,â he says, tilting his head towards you, âwhere exactly is my crown?â
âSafe.â
âWhere?â
âHidden,â you say, and flash him a too-sweet smile.
Satoru groans, dragging a hand down his face. âYouâre crazy. First, you rob me. Then, you blackmail me. And now, youâve hidden my prized possession like some kind ofââ He gestures vaguely at you, searching for the right words. âSome kind of tiny, feral leprechaun.â
You scoff, crossing your arms. âThink of it as collateral.â
âOh, sure,â he mutters dryly. âBecause trusting the person who stole from me is such a fantastic idea.â
âYou stole it first.â
âSo youâve said. The point is, I need that crown.â
âWhy?â you ask, raising a brow.
He hesitates, just for a fraction of a second, before flashing you his usual grinâteasing and entirely insincere. âBecause itâs mine?â
You snort. âTry again.â
Satoru leans in slightly, lowering his voice as if sharing some grand secret. âWhat if I told you it holds great sentimental value?â
âIâd tell you to stop lying to my face.â
âWow,â he says, and then says your name, dragging out the last syllable. âSo distrustful.â
You shake your head, adjusting the strap of your satchel. âIf you do what you promised, Iâll give it back.â
He studies you, gaze flickering briefly to your satchel, as if heâs considering whether he could swipe it and make a run for it. (Not that it would be of any use, anyway, since youâve hidden it underneath your mattress in your tiny little cottage.) Instead, he sighs, slouching forward like the weight of the world rests upon his shoulders, and mutters, âThis is cruel and unusual punishment.â
âNot my fault you lost,â you sing-song.
âI almost had it,â he whines, but his lips twitch.
âBut you didnât.â
âWhat do you want to go to the capital for so badly, anyway?â He squints at you. âYouâre dragging me halfway across the kingdom, blackmailing me with my own stolen goods, and for what? What could possibly be so important that youâd go through all this trouble?â
You hesitate. Itâs not that youâre unwilling to tell himâitâs more that you know exactly how heâll react. Still, you suppose thereâs no avoiding it now. You clear your throat, keeping your gaze ahead as you walk. âI want to see the lantern festival.â
A beat, and then, Satoru stops dead in his tracks. âIâm sorry. What?â
âYou heard me,â you grit out, already regretting having said anything.
The thief blinks at you, disbelieving, then throws his head back and laughs. Itâs far too loud and obnoxious for your liking.
You whirl on him, scowling. âStop that!â
âOh, this is rich.â He wipes at his eye theatrically. âYou mean to tell me that all thisââ he gestures between the two of youâ âwas because you want to see some floating lights.â
âTheyâre not just floating lights,â you snap, folding your arms. âTheyâre magical.â
Satoru snickers. âSure they are.â
âThey do it in honour of the late queen. And not just anywhereâonly in the capital. People travel from all over to see them.â
âYes, and most people would travel from all over to avoid me, but here you are. Seriously, sweetheart, I thought you were on some grand, noble quest. Some life-or-death mission. But no. You just want to watch some fancy fireworks.â
âForget it,â you huff, pushing past him. âI donât need to justify myself to you.â
Satoru falls easily into step with you, still chortling to himself. âNo, no, I think this is fantastic. Here I was, thinking you had some deep, tragic backstoryâmaybe an old lover waiting for you, a family secret, a kingdom to reclaimâbut no. You just want to see a festival.â
âI happen to like beautiful things,â you tell him.
He hums. âSo you do.â
Thereâs something in the way he says it that makes your steps falter, but when you glance back at him, his expression is unreadable. You quickly recover, jabbing a finger into his chest. âAnd donât act like this is entirely my fault. Youâre the one who stole the crown. If you werenât a criminal, you wouldnât be in this mess.â
âThatâs a very unfair accusation. I am an entrepreneur.â
âYouâre a thief.â
âA businessman.â
âAn annoyance.â
He grins. âA charming gentleman.â
You groan, picking up your pace. âI canât believe Iâm stuck with you.â
âOh, please.â He slings an arm around your shoulders, ignoring the way you stiffen. âWeâre partners now, arenât we? Off to see the lanterns, hand in hand, like something out of a fairy taleââ
You shrug him off and march forward, squaring your shoulders. Gojo Satoru is unbearable, but if heâs your only ticket out of this boring, provincial life, then you have no choice but to grit your teeth and stick it out. The cost will be worth the reward.Â
The road stretches long and unbroken before you, a dirt path winding between fields and sparse woodland. Youâve seen this road beforeâwhen traders arrived at the village, when hunters returned from the mountainsâbut youâve never set foot beyond it.Â
Now, after years of watching others leave, you are the one walking away. You should feel relieved. Excited, even.Â
Instead, you feel like an imposter. Like youâre wearing someone elseâs skin.
Even your clothes donât feel like your own. Youâre used to sturdy village garmentsâworn tunics and skirts, softened by years of washing, familiar and comfortable. But now, youâre dressed for travel, and it feels unfamiliar. A dark green cloak, belted at the waist, drapes over your shoulders, its hem brushing against your ankles. Beneath it, youâve chosen a linen shirt and brown trousers instead of a skirtâmore practical, but strange. The boots on your feet are a size too big, borrowed from the village blacksmith, and though well-worn, they still rub uncomfortably against your heels.
Beside you, Satoru moves as if he owns the world, his long strides lazy. His clothes, though practical, have the distinct look of someone who wants to be looked atâworn leather boots, dark pants, a white tunic half-buttoned beneath a navy vest cinched at the waist. The coat hanging off his shoulders is long, lined with faded embroidery at the edges, the kind of detail that once belonged to something expensive before time and travel wore it down.
Unlike you, he looks completely at ease. As if heâs done this a thousand times beforeâwhich, of course, he has.
âI was expecting a little more enthusiasm,â Satoru comments. âMost people would kill for a trip to the capital with someone like me.â
You adjust the strap of your bag. âMost people would just kill you.â
âOuch. That one actually hurt.â
âIf only,â you mutter.
He chuckles, undeterred, and kicks a stray pebble along the path. Youâve been walking for over an hour, and he hasnât stopped talking the entire time. Itâs mostly been nonsenseâcomplaints about the lack of decent taverns in your village, dramatic sighs about the state of his boots, and a running commentary on the tragedy of being forced to travel with someone so determinedly unfriendly.
âWhat exactly is your plan once we get there?â he asks. âBecause I hate to break it to you, sweetheart, but the capital isnât as great as they make it sound.â
âI donât need a plan,â you mumble. Truthfully, you have no idea, but youâre certain the answer will come to you. Somehow.
âRight, because winging it always works out well,â he says, looking at you like heâs waiting for you to react. He gets no such satisfactionâyour eyes are fixed firmly on the roadâand so, he ploughs on, âYou know, itâs adorable how much faith you have in your ability to not get robbed, lost, or, I donât know, arrested for trespassing.â
You let out a slow breath. âIf I do get arrested, Iâll make sure to tell them where to find you.â
âAh, but that would require you to know where I am. And I am a famously difficult person to pin down.â
You make a noise of irritation in the back of your throat, adjusting the strap of your bag. At this rate, youâre starting to think that letting him get caught might have been the better option.
By the time the sun has dipped below the horizon, the two of you reach the edge of the woods. The thick canopy overhead swallows the last of the daylight, leaving only streaks of violet and deepening blue through the gaps in the leaves. The path ahead is narrow and winding, the scent of damp earth and pine filling the air. Somewhere in the distance, a bird calls.
âThis is it,â Satoru announces, dropping his bag on the ground. âOur humble abode for the night.â
âWe could walk a little further,â you say, frowning.
âAnd risk running into something with fangs?â He plops onto the ground, resting back on his elbows. âNo thanks.â
You sigh but donât argue further, shrugging off your pack and kneeling down to clear a space for the fire. If you wait for Gojo Satoru to be useful, youâll be waiting until your bones turn to dust. To your surprise, he doesnât interfere. He simply sprawls out on the grass, watching as you gather dry leaves and kindling.Â
âWatching you work feels kind of nice,â Satoru says, tapping a finger against his knee. âItâs like having a personal servant.â
You shoot him a glare. âDo you want to get stabbed?â
âWouldnât be the first time,â he says, and guffaws to himself.
Rolling your eyes, you focus on the fire, striking flint against steel until sparks catch in the dry grass. Slowly, the flames flicker to life, casting an amber glow over the clearing. Shadows stretch long and uneven, the trees shifting in the fireâs light.Â
The thief sits up, brushing stray grass from his vest. âAlright. Time to find some food.â
âWe have food,â you point out, nodding at your pack.
He makes a face. âWe have bread. I, for one, refuse to live like a peasant.â
âYou are a peasant,â you say, raising your eyebrows.
âWrong,â he corrects. âI am a distinguished criminal.â
âGo starve in the woods, then.â
âFine,â he huffs, standing up and dusting himself off, âbut if I donât come back, you have to live with the guilt.â
âI think Iâll manage.â
He mumbles something under his breath, but disappears into the trees anyway. You take the opportunity to sit back against your pack, stretching your sore legs and letting the warmth of the fire seep into your bones. Five minutes later, Satoru returnsâonly, heâs not alone. He sprints back into the clearing like a man being personally hunted by death itself, arms flailing as a blur of fur and claws barrels after him.
âWhat theââ You barely have time to sit up before Satoru dives behind you, using you as a human shield.
âGet it away from me,â he hisses, gripping your shoulders like his life depends on it.
Your eyes whip back to the so-called menace: A small, scruffy-looking cat with patchy grey fur, green eyes, and one torn ear. It stands by the edge of the firelight with its tail puffed up like a bottlebrush.
You blink. âDid⌠Did you just get chased by a cat?â
Satoru glares at you, panting. âThat thing is deranged.â
The cat lets out a shrill mrrow and lunges. Satoru yelps, scrambling further behind you, but the little creature stops just short of pouncing and instead sits daintily by the fire, licking its paw like nothing happened. You stare at it. Then back at Satoru. Then back at the cat.
âWow,â you say slowly, turning around to face the grown man cowering behind you. âYou, the great Gojo Satoru, feared thief and most wanted man in the entire kingdom, are afraid of a stray cat?â
He scoffs, straightening up as though he hadnât just used you to hide from a cat. âAfraid? As if. I just didnât expect it to be so⌠fast.â
âUh-huh.â
âIt ambushed me.â
You glance at the cat, which is now lying on its side and stretching out luxuriously. It is, unarguably, the most harmless thing youâve ever seen. You smirk. âI think Iâll keep him.â
Satoru gapes at you. âWhat? No! That thing has a personal vendetta against me.â
The cat looks up, makes direct eye contact with him, and flicks its tail in a deliberate motion. âYeah,â you say, grinning, âI like him.â
Your companion groans, rubbing his face. âWhat are you going to name him?â
You tilt your head, considering. The cat gives an unimpressed meow and swipes a paw at your ankle, before it pads over to you, climbs onto your lap and turns around in a circle. It kneads your thigh before settling down.Â
âMegumi,â you decide.
âOh, come on.â Satoru lets out a strangled noise. âThat thing is definitely not a blessing.â
Ignoring him, you scratch behind Megumiâs ears absentmindedly, reaching behind with your free hand and grabbing your pack. You undo the drawstring and pull out the loaf of bread; tearing out a chunk, you pop it into your mouth. The cat purrs in satisfaction, settling deeper into your lap.
Satoru watches this betrayal unfold with a deeply wounded expression. âI canât believe this,â he mutters. âTwo minutes ago, it was out for blood. Now itâs purring like it pays rent.â
You snort, tossing him a piece of bread. He catches it with ease but doesnât eat it right away, instead tearing at the crust in distracted motions. The fire crackles between you, throwing warm golden light over his features, softening the sharp angles of his face.
You hesitate for only a moment before speaking. âTell me a story.â
Satoru quirks a brow. âWhat, like a bedtime story?â
âNo, idiot.â You roll your eyes. âTell me about the capital. Iâve never been past my village.â
â...The capital, hm?â He shifts slightly, leaning back on his hands, and tilts his head skywards. For a moment, heâs quiet. The fire pops, and its glow dances over his cheekbones. Somewhere in the trees above you, an owl hoots. Then, he starts speaking.
âThe capital is loud,â he says, âbut not in a bad way. Itâs the kind of noise that reminds you that youâre alive. The streets smell like roasted chestnuts, chocolate, and something sweet that Iâve never been able to place. No matter where you go, youâll always be able to hear somethingâsomeone haggling in the market, children playing hopscotch, lovers whispering sweet nothings under balconies.â
His voice lowers, almost like heâs letting you in on a secret. âThereâs this place, just past the main square. A bookshop, tucked between an apothecary and a tailor. You wouldnât even notice if you werenât looking. Itâs smallâcramped, reallyâbut it smells like ink and old paper, and the owner never minds if you stay too long. When I was younger, I used to sit there for hours, reading about places Iâd never been. Iâd tell myself Iâd see them all someday.â
âAnd then thereâs the bridge,â he continues. âIt stretches over the whole river, wide enough for carriages to pass, but if you go at the right time, just before dawn, itâs empty. You can stand in the middle and watch the whole city wake upâlamps flickering out, shutters creaking open, the sky turning from grey to pink to gold. It makes you feel like youâre the only person in the world, just for a little while.â
Satoru exhales, and thereâs something wistful about the sound. When he looks at you again, thereâs a lopsided smile playing on his lips. âNot bad for a bedtime story, huh?â
You blink, caught between the warmth of the fire and the warmth in his voice. â...Tell me more.â
He laughs, bright and careless. âYouâre greedy.â
âMaybe.â You shrug, suppressing a smile.
âYouâll have to wait until tomorrow,â he says, leaning back fully and folding his hands behind his head. âIf I tell you too much, you might decide you donât need to see the capital for yourself, and Iâd never get my crown back.â
You glance down at Megumi, still nestled comfortably in your lap, tail flicking lazily. Perhaps itâs the way the thief spoke about it, or maybe itâs the way youâve always yearned for this, but the thought comes quietly, unbidden: I already want to see it more than ever.
Morning creeps up on you slowly, quietly, peacefully. The fire has burned down to embers, the air is crisp, and the forest hums with the comings-and-goings of woodland creatures. You are warm, bundled in your cloak, Megumi purring against your chest, and for once, Gojo Satoru is quiet.
Itâs perfect. Until something snorts directly at your face.
Your eyes snap open just in time to see a giant, pinkish nose inches from your own. Thenâ Snort. A blast of hot air right into your face. You yelp, scrambling back, only to trip over Satoruâs arm and land hard on your side. The movement startles Megumi, who lets out an indignant yowl and bolts straight onto Satoruâs face, claws out.
âWhat the Hellââ The man jerks upright with a strangled sound, flailing as Megumi uses him as a launchpad and disappears into the trees. His vest is askew, his hair is sticking up at odd angles, and he looks utterly lost. âWhatâwhereâwhy does my face hurtâ Who is attacking me?â
âThat!â You point wildly at the culprit.
Standing at the edge of your makeshift campsite, staring you both down like a disappointed parent, is a massive white horse. At first, youâre confusedâhorses donât live in the woods, youâre pretty sure. Then you see the crest of the royal family hanging off of its neck, and you grimace. His reins are hanging off the sides of his saddle; he seems like a runaway royal horse. He paws at the dirt, ears pinned back, looking every bit a soldier preparing to arrest a pair of criminals.Â
Satoru blinks at him. Then at you. Then back at the horse. âOh, youâve got to be kidding me.â
The horse huffs like he canât believe he has to deal with this nonsense. Then, before either of you can react, he lunges straight for the thief.
âSUKUNA, NO!â
You barely manage to scramble out of the way as Satoru lets out an undignified squawk and rolls out of the way, narrowly avoiding being stomped. He barely has time to get to his feet before Sukuna lunges again, snapping at his cloak.
âWhat is your problem?!â Satoru screeches, holding his arms up defensively. âI didnât even do anythingâoh, my GodâStopââ
Sukuna does not stop. Instead, he clamps his teeth onto Satoruâs sleeve and drags him sideways.
âHeâs arresting me!â Satoru howls, flailing as his feet skid in the dirt. âIâm being detained! Help!â
You double over in laughter. âIâthinkâhe recognises youââ
âOh, what gave it away? The way heâs dragging me to my demise?â
Sukuna whinnies like heâs insulted by the accusation. As if to prove a point, he yanks even harderâripping Satoru clean off his feet. He lands on his back with a thud, groaning. Sukuna looms over him, nostrils flaring, clearly debating his next move.Â
âOkay, okay. I surrender,â Satoru wheezes. âI hereby admit to all my crimesâpast, present, and future. Just let me live.â
Sukuna snorts. Satisfied, he steps on Satoruâs stomach for good measure before backing off. You wipe tears from your eyes, your own stomach hurting from laughing too hard. âI think he hates you.â
Satoru groans, draping an arm over his face. âI think I have internal bleeding.â
Megumi, now safely perched atop a tree branch, lets out an approving meow. Sukuna steps back, looking incredibly pleased with himself. His ears flick forward, and he turns to you, huffing expectantly.
You tilt your head. âOh. I think he likes me.â
âOh, great,â Satoru says, lifting his head weakly from the ground. âBetrayed by my own travel companion.â
You ignore him, cautiously stepping forward and holding out a hand. Sukuna eyes you warily but doesnât move away. âYou just donât like him, do you?â you murmur, glancing down at Satoru, whoâs still groaning in the dirt.
Sukuna snorts. Satoru lifts a finger from where heâs lying. âThat was unnecessary.â
âI think it was perfectly necessary,â you reply sweetly before turning back to Sukuna. Heâs still watching you closely, but he doesnât seem hostile. If anything, his tail flicks once, like heâs waiting for something. Slowly, carefully, you raise a hand to his nose. âYouâre not so bad, are you?â
Sukuna leans in, taking a few experimental sniffs beforeâmuch to your delightânudging your palm with his nose. Satoru lifts his head again, gaping at the scene unfolding in front of him. âWhat the Hell,â he says flatly. âI used to feed you when I was in the palace, you ungrateful beast.â
The horse flicks an ear, unimpressed. Then, as if to drive the point home, he lifts a hoof and kicks dirt in his direction.Â
You barely stifle a laugh. âI donât think he remembers you very fondly.â
Satoru groans. âThis is what I get for trying to be a good person.â
âYouâre a thief.â
âDetails.â
You scratch gently at Sukunaâs muzzle, feeling the warm puff of his breath against your fingers. He allows the touch, nuzzling further into your palm. The royal crest on his bridleâthe golden emblem of a sun against a dark blue background, the visage of light always conquering darknessâglints in the morning sun. It feels like a reminder of where exactly heâs from.
A warhorse. Loyal to the palace. Loyal toâ
You glance at Satoru. Heâs watching Sukuna with an expression you canât quite place. Something distant. Something nostalgic.
âYouâre from the palace, then?â you ask softly.
His usual bravado doesnât come immediately. He props himself up on his elbows, staring at Sukuna like the horse is a relic from a past lifeâone he hadnât expected to come face to face with again. âYeah, âcourse,â he says. âWouldnât lie about that.â
Sukuna snorts, stepping closer to you. Heâs massive, all muscle and barely-contained energy, and yet he stands still beneath your touch.Â
âDid you ride him?â
âHe wouldnât let me.â Satoru scowls. âLittle bastard always tried to bite me when I got near him.â
The horse huffs, as if to confirm this. You stroke his mane absently, and say, âHe seems different now.â
âYes, wellââ Satoru finally gets to his feet, dusting himself off with a wince. âGuess we both are.â
Thereâs something about the way he says it that makes you think heâs not telling you the whole truth. You decide not to push him further, curious though you may be. You let the silence settle between you both, the rustling of leaves filling the space where conversation might have been.
Finally, Satoru sighs. âSince heâs so smitten with you, does this mean we get a free ride to civilisation?â
âMaybe.â You glance at Sukuna.
âWonderful!â Satoru says, clapping his hands. âBecause I refuse to walk another ten miles while my organs are busy rearranging themselves from being trampled.â
âLetâs see if heâll let us.â You pat Sukunaâs side reassuringly before turning towards the remnants of your campsite.Â
The fire has long since dwindled into ash and embers, and your packs are haphazardly strewn aboutâlikely due to your frantic wake-up earlier. Your bag is slumped against the base of a tree, close to where youâd left it. Satoruâs bag is nearby, though considerably messier. One of the straps is half-ripped, and the flap is barely secured. You pick it up, brushing off dirt and leaves.
âYou live like this?â you ask, tossing it to him.
âBeggars canât be choosers,â Satoru says. He fumbles but manages to catch it, just barely.
âYou were cribbing about bread last night,â you remind him, slinging your own pack over your shoulder.
âI wasnât begging. I was demanding my basic human right to a proper meal.â
Megumi, who had disappeared into the trees during Sukunaâs rampage, reappears, gracefully leaping down from a low-hanging branch. He lands neatly on the ground, flicks his tail, and gives you both what can only be described as the feline equivalent of the stink eye.
Satoru looks at him warily. âAre you sure he isnât plotting revenge on us?â
âHe likes me,â you say, crouching to scratch behind Megumiâs ears. The cat lets out a quiet purr, rubbing his head against your hand in approval.
âOf course, he does.â
âDonât be jealous.â
Satoru mutters something under his breath that you couldnât be bothered to listen to properly. You gently pick up Megumi and settle him into the crook of your arm. He doesnât resist, curling up as if heâd rather not exert the effort to protest. Sukuna, who has been watching this entire exchange with the unimpressed air of a soldier waiting for incompetent recruits to finish fumbling, lets out a sharp huff and stomps his hoof.
You turn to him. âOkay, okay. Iâm ready.â
âYou know how to ride a horse, right?â Satoru asks, raising an eyebrow.
You pause. â...How hard can it be?â
âThatâs not an answerââ
Satoruâs warning goes unheeded; youâre already marching towards Sukuna with the kind of confidence only possessed by someone who has no idea what theyâre doing. You place a careful hand on the saddle and hoist yourself up. Or, well, you try to. Your foot barely catches on the stirrup before you wobble, losing balance. The next thing you know, youâre slipping straight off the other side.Â
Satoru catches you before you can hit the ground, his hands firm around your waist. âYeah, thatâs what I thought.â
You scowl, pushing yourself upright, but he doesnât let go right away. Youâre close enough to see the way the morning light catches in his eyes, the sharp blue softened by gold. His hands are warm where they steady you. You swallow thickly, suddenly aware of the heat creeping up the back of your neck.
Megumi, disgruntled from the movement, lets out a miffed meow. The spell breaks.
âAlright,â Satoru says. âLetâs try something else before you end up with a concussion.â
You glare at him, dusting off your sleeves as he turns to grab your packs. He ties them securely to the saddle, double-checking the knots before giving Sukuna an approving pat on the neck. The horse swishes his tail but remains otherwise still. Satisfied, Satoru turns back to you, hands on his hips. âOkay, up you go.â
Begrudgingly, you step closer, adjusting your hold on Megumi before reaching for the saddle. Satoru moves before you can think to protest, hands steady around your waist once more as he lifts you effortlessly onto the seat. You let out a startled breath, barely managing to swing your leg over the saddle before scrambling to adjust yourself. Your fingers grip the front of the saddle so tightly, the hard leather digs into your palms. Megumi, situated against your chest and in between your arms, flicks his tail against your face.
Sukuna shifts beneath you, muscles rippling underneath his sleek coat. You inhale deeply, trying to steady your nerves. Youâve never ridden a horse before.
The thought doesnât sink in until youâre actually up here, perched atop a beast far larger and stronger than you, with only a few flimsy leather straps keeping you from falling to the ground. For all the bravado youâve shown so far, you have to admit that youâre terrified.
âSee?â Satoru drawls, stepping back. âMuch better. Was that so scary?â
âNo,â you lie.
The thief studies you for a moment, and then comments, âYouâre a terrible liar.â
You give him a withering look, but heâs already movingâgrabbing the front of the saddle and swinging himself up behind you in one smooth motion.Â
âSatoruâ!â
Your protest is cut short when he settles in, his chest pressing flush against your back. Heâs warmâtoo warm (or is that you?)âand suddenly, all your attention is split between the solid, sturdy weight of him behind you, and the hands that reach around you, easily taking the reins.Â
âRelax,â he says, voice lower than usual. âIâll steer.â
Your heart is hammering in your chest, and you donât think it has anything to do with the horse anymore. âI wasnât scared,â you mutter, but there is no conviction in your voice, even to your own ears.Â
Satoru leans in just slightly, breath ghosting against the side of your face. He chuckles, the sound reverberating against your back, and says, âIâm sure you werenât.â
You donât trust yourself to speak, so you stay quiet, focusing on the rhythmic rise and fall of Sukunaâs steps once he starts movingâand despite your determination to remain oblivious to Gojo Satoru and his presence, you canât ignore the way his arms remain loosely draped around you, or the way he shifts ever so slightly when the horse moves, keeping you steady without saying a word. Itâs natural, the way he adjusts to you, like heâs done it a thousand times before. Like he doesnât even need to think about it.
The woods stretch ahead, quiet and endless, but all you can focus on is the sound of your own heartbeat, loud in your ears.
âTell me more about the palace.â
The rhythmic sway of Sukuna beneath you is oddly soothing, each hoofbeat settling into a steady, lulling cadence. You tilt your head back slightly, feeling the warmth of Satoruâs chest where he sits behind you. His arms are still lightly caged around you, as he guides the reins like itâs second nature to him. Megumi, no longer content with being curled up against your chest, perches himself on the base of the horseâs neck, swiping lazily at Sukunaâs mane every now and then. The horse flicks his ears in annoyance but does not stop him.
Satoru hums, considering your request. âWhat do you want to know?â
âI donât know,â you admit, eyes drifting upwards, towards the slivers of blue sky beneath the trees. âWhat was it like?â
âWell, itâs exactly what youâd expect,â he says. âTall, grand, and filled with old men who love to hear themselves talk.â
You huff out a silent laugh. âSounds charming.â
âOh, itâs a real dream. The walls are lined with marble, the kind that catches the light just right in the mornings, almost as if the whole place is glowing. The halls stretch wider than some villages, with paintings hanging on the walls that tell stories older than anyone can remember. And the ceilingsââ He shakes his head, his chin brushing against the back of yours. âSo high it feels like you could reach the sky if you just climbed a little higher.â
Thereâs something distant in his voice, something wistful and melancholic and fond. âYou make it sound very beautiful,â you say quietly.
âBecause it is. Itâs meant to be. A symbol of powerâof control. A kingdom that shines so brightly, no one knows about the shadows it casts.â
You glance at him over your shoulder, but his expression is stony. That easy drawl of his is still there, but beneath it, something festersâand it makes you hesitate before you press further.
âAnd you?â you ask. âWhere did you belong in all of that?â
Satoru exhales through his nose, a slow, measured sound. âWherever they needed me.â
Itâs not an answer, but it tells you enough. You let the silence stretch, waiting to see if he will offer more. He does.
âThe training grounds were always my favourite.â His voice drops slightly, thoughtful. âThey were tucked away behind the east wing, away from all the silk and the gold. You could hear the clash of swords from sunrise to sundown.â He pauses, then adds, almost to himself, âYou never forget the sound.â
A soldier, you think. Or something close to it. It makes senseâthe way he carries himself; the way he moves, like heâs always aware of every possible escape route; the way he knows so much about the kingdom and the capital.
You donât say it out loud, though. Instead, you ask, âDid you like it?â
âI liked knowing what was expected of me.â A beat of silence, and then, âBut I was never very good at following orders.â
A soft breeze cuts through the trees, rustling the leaves and cooling the warmth of the sun against your skin. âIs that why you left?â you ask carefully.
Satoru chuckles, but thereâs no real humour to the sound. âOh, I didnât leave.â His fingers tighten around the reins, just a little. âI was sent away.â
The words are heavy. You donât push. Sukuna continues forward, steady and unbothered, the sound of his hooves filling the silence that follows. You focus on the road ahead, on the sunlight filtering through the trees, on Satoruâs warmth behind you.
When he finally speaks again, voice lighter, teasing, you let him steer the conversation away. Somehow, you get the sense that when heâs ready, heâll tell you the rest.
The afternoon sun begins to dip, casting long shadows through the trees. The road ahead winds towards the hills, where a small village is nestled between the slopes. Youâll have to pass through it to get to the capital, according to Satoru. Smoke rises lazily from the chimneys, the scent of burning wood and roasting meat carrying faintly on the breeze.
Satoru shifts slightly. âLooks like weâve made it before sundown.â
Megumi meows, flicking his tail before settling back down; you reach forward and scratch in between his ears, absent-mindedly. The thought of a warm meal and a real bed makes your shoulders sag with relief. The past few nights have been spent beneath open skies, wrapped up in your cloak that barely keeps the chill away.
âYou think weâll find an inn?â you ask, glancing behind.
âUnless itâs run by a hermit who hates money, yeah,â Satoru says. âThough I wouldnât count on a royal welcome.â
That much is obvious. Travellers are rare in villages like theseâstrangers even more so. Your presence will not go unnoticed.
As you pass the first row of wooden houses, heads begin to turn. A blacksmith, hammer paused mid-swing, watches you warily from his forge. A woman gathering water casts a cautious glance before whispering something to the child at her side. Even the baker, hands dusted in flour, spares you a lingering look.
Satoru doesnât seem fazed. âFriendly place.â
âMaybe theyâd be friendlier if you werenât grinning like you had a bounty on your head,â you mutter.
âI think we both know they wouldnât be wrong about that.â
That sends a sharp prickle down your spine. You donât respond.
The village square is small, paved with uneven stone and lined with merchant stalls. Most are already closed for the day, wooden shutters drawn and lanterns lit. Near the far edge, tucked between a tailorâs shop and a grain store, stands an inn. The wooden beams are weathered with age, but the sign above the entrance is freshly paintedâThe Fuzzy Duckling, it reads, complete with a crude drawing of a yellow duck underneath. The scent of stew and ale wafts through the open doorway.
Satoru nudges Sukuna to the stable. âWeâll rest here.â
You dismount first, stretching your legs as Satoru swings down beside you. Megumi jumps off the horseâs back and lands gracefully on the thiefâs shoulder.Â
The inn is dimly lit, the glow of lanterns casting flickering silhouettes. The scent of firewood, damp earth, and something vaguely sweet lingers in the air. Itâs fairly empty, though you suspect thatâs just because of the early hour. Wooden tables and stools lay barren, with empty tin jugs placed on each table. Behind the counter, a man leans lazily against the wall, watching you both with sharp, hooded eyes. His dark hair is slicked back, and thereâs a faint scar on his jawline. He doesnât say anything as he steps forward.
âHey, hey, look who it is!â Satoru grins, though, by now, youâve spent enough time with him to know itâs fake. âIf it isnât my favourite innkeeper, Shiu. Didâya finally get rid of all the mould growing in your wine cellar? I donât know if it was the mould or the age, but it sure tasted weird the last time I was here.â
Shiu smirks. âBeen wonderinâ when youâd show up again, Gojo.â
You look between them, sensing familiarity, though not necessarily the friendly kind. âWe need a room,â Satoru says, leaning an elbow on the counter. âThink you can manage that, old man?â
âCall me that again,â Shiu says, âand Iâll leave you to sleep outside with the horse. The lady will get a room for free, of course.â
You tense at his words, not enjoying the way the manâs gaze rakes over your body before settling back to Satoru. You get the feeling the thief notices too, because he moves closer to you, shoulder brushing against yours. âAh, well,â he says. âIâm afraid thatâs not negotiable.â
âRelax,â the innkeeper says. âIâm not a skirt-chaser. You can keep your woman with you. Roomâs at the end of the hall. Payment upfront.â
Satoru flicks a coin onto the counter. Shiu catches it easily, giving it a quick once-over before pocketing it. As Satoru turns towards the stairs, something catches your eye near the entranceâsheets of parchment tacked to a wooden board. Your eyes snag on one in particular.Â
A wanted poster.
The ink is bold despite the crumpled paper. The sketch is rough but unmistakableâwild white hair, sharp features, a grin that barely conceals its arrogance.
WANTEDâDEAD OR ALIVEREWARD: 100 GOLD COINS
Your stomach twists. Satoru follows your gaze and sighs. âDamn. They just canât get my nose right.â
âThis isnât funny,â you whisper.
âItâs a little funny.â Satoruâs grin widens, but you donât miss the tautness in his shoulders. He nudges you gently towards the stairs. âCome on, letâs get some rest.â
Shiu watches you both go, smiling, but his gaze follows too long for comfort. Your chest constricts. The room at the end of the hall is small but serviceableâone bed, a rickety wooden chair, and a window with a view of the village square outside. The floor creaks under your boots as you step inside. Megumi jumps onto the bed immediately, curling up near the pillows, flicking his tail once before settling.
Satoru stretches with a groan, rolling his shoulders. âCozy.â
You sigh, pressing your forehead against the cool windowpane. The village outside is quiet, bathed in early moonlight, but the unease gnawing at your stomach refuses to fade. âI donât like this,â you murmur. âThe way Shiu looked at youââ
âHe always looks at me like that,â the thief says, sounding far too chipper than he probably should.
âSatoru.â
âYeah, yeah, I know.â He exhales, rubbing the back of his neck. âWe wonât stay long. You can take the bed. Iâll use the chair.â
The exhaustion from days on the road pulls at your limbs. You donât bother arguing; sleep finds you much faster than expected.
You wake to the sound of boots in the hallway. Your breath catches. This isnât the usual creak of old wood settlingâthis is deliberate. Heavy. Purposeful.
Your eyes dart to Satoru. Heâs already awake, sitting rigid on the chair, blue eyes alert even in the darkness. His hand moves instinctively to his belt, where heâd shown you his dagger rests a day back, hidden.
A knock echoes against the door.
âRoom service,â Shiuâs oily voice drawls from the other side.
Your blood runs cold. Satoru doesnât answer. He tilts his head, listening. You strain your ears too, heart hammeringâthereâs a faint shift of fabric. The sound of leather gloves flexing. Someone adjusting their grip on a sheathed blade.
Satoru curses under his breath. âSon of aââ
The crash comes a second later.
The door splinters inward, sending shards of wood flying. You barely manage to roll off the bed before a knife thuds into the headboard where you had just been lying. A figure stands in the ruined doorway: Tall, broad, dressed in black. A jagged scar cuts across the side of his mouth.
You donât recognise him, but Satoru does. His entire posture shiftsâhis usual cocky, easygoing stance sharpens, muscles tensing. A slow, tight exhale leaves him as he pushes himself to his feet.
The man in the doorway tilts his head, a smirk curling at the edges of his lips. You can just make out a jagged scar cutting across his mouth. âBeen a while, Gojo,â he says.
Satoruâs lips press together in a thin line. âNot long enough.â
You glance between them, a creeping unease settling in your bones. Whoever this man is, Satoru knows himâand he doesnât like him. The stranger takes a lazy step forward, boots crunching over the splintered wood. His eyes, dark and unreadable, flick to you for a moment before settling back on Satoru. âDidnât think youâd be dumb enough to walk back in here, with a beautiful lady by your side and a bounty on your head, too. Guess you really wanted to see me again.â
âTrust me, Fushiguroââ Satoruâs jaw ticksâ âIâd rather be anywhere but here.â
Fushiguro. The name means nothing to you, but the way Satoru spits it out like a curse sends a prickle of warning down your spine. The man clicks his tongue, his smirk widening. He twirls another dagger in his fingers, casual, lazy. âDid I wake you? Sorry to have disturbed your evening, butââ
Satoru moves faster than breath, grabbing your wrist and yanking you back towards the window just as another blade whizzes past his ear, missing him by an inch. Megumi hisses, darting into your arms and scrabbling onto your shoulder. You donât even feel the pain where his claws dig into your skin.
Fushiguro lets out a low, amused chuckle. âRunning already? Câmon now, Gojo. Youâre making this too easy.â
Satoru kicks the window open. âHold onto me.â
âWhatââ
And then he jumps.
The wind rushes past as the two of you and the cat drop down, the world blurring around you. You barely register the impactâSatoru lands with a practiced roll, keeping you close, his arms tight around you as he shifts the force of the landing onto himself. Your pulse is roaring in your ears.
Above, Fushiguro leans lazily out of the open window, tilting his head condescendingly. âYouâre just making this more fun.â
Satoru doesnât wait. He grabs your wrist and runs. The streets are quiet, the village mostly asleep, but your footfalls pound against the dirt. Behind you, you hear the faint creak of woodâFushiguro dropping down from the second story without a sound, graceful as a damn cat.
The thief yanks you towards the stables. âGet Sukuna. Now.â
You donât argue. The stable doors slam open as you shove inside. Sukuna snorts, stomping his hooves in agitation. You fumble for the reins. âWhat aboutââ
Satoru turns just as Fushiguro appears in the doorway. Everything slows.
The light from the lanterns flickers against his dark silhouette. Heâs alone, not a single other mercenary in sight. But somehow, that makes it worse. In the darkness, it feels like heâs pressing down on the space, filling every corner, every shadow.
âYou didnât bring backup?â Satoru taunts. âIâm insulted.â
âDidnât need any,â the bounty hunter grunts.
He movesâa flash of steelâand Satoru shoves you back. The blade slices through the air where his throat had been a second before. He ducks low, twisting away, and kicks. His foot slams against Fushiguroâs side, sending him skidding back a stepâbut Fushiguro barely reacts, barely blinks, like he had been expecting it.
He strikes again. You barely see the knife coming before Satoru dodges, his movements sharp and fluid. The stable door splinters as the blade embeds itself in the wood.
Satoru grits his teeth. âGo!â
But youâcurse your damn cowardiceâhesitate. Fushiguro notices. His foot pivotsâhe lunges for you. A flash of fear tightens in your chestâ
But Satoru is there. He grabs Fushiguroâs wrist mid-strike, twisting it brutally. Fushiguro growls as Satoru hurls him backwards, sending him crashing into a pile of hay bales.
âGet on the damn horse,â Satoru orders, breathless. He swings himself onto Sukunaâs back, pulling you up after him, Megumi leaping onto the horse in time with you.Â
You barely have time to wrap your arms around his waist before he kicks off. Sukuna surges forward, hooves pounding against the dirt road as you tear through the village, leaving the innâand the very pissed-off bounty hunterâbehind.
Behind you, thereâs a soundâsomething sharp, fastâwhistling through the air. Satoru jerks the reins, pulling sharply to the side. A blade embeds itself into the wooden post just ahead of you, still quivering from the force of impact.
âShit,â the thief breathes. âHeâs not giving up.â
You donât look back. You donât dare to. The village gate is just ahead. If you can get past it, you might have a chance of losing him. Megumi wails, digging his claws into your cloak, ears flat against his head.
Satoru leans forward. âCome on, come onââ
Sukuna bursts out of the gates. Fushiguro curses loudly behind you, but it sounds far away, swallowed down by the horseâs thunderous galloping. You tighten your grasp around Satoru and squeeze your eyes shut. (You might be imagining it, but you swear you feel one of his hands cover your own, a gentle brush of his palm against the back of yours.)
The fire crackles weakly, providing warmth against the cold night air. Sukuna, exhausted from his earlier run, tucks his legs underneath himself and settles down near it. Megumi curls up next to him and begins washing himself. The stream nearby gurgles and bubbles merrily.
The fight is over, the adrenaline long faded, but still, the stress of it all loiters like a phantom pressing against your ribs. Your shoulder throbs now, where the cat had dug his claws into the skin, but thankfully, it isnât bleeding. Your hands are shaking. You dig your fingers into the earth, trying to steady yourself.Â
Satoru stands a few feet away, pacing, his boots crushing twigs and dried leaves. His breath comes fast and hard, back rigid with frustration. His coat is torn at the shoulder, and thereâs a thin line of blood trailing down his forearm.
You should say something. Thank him, maybe. Apologise. But the words stay stuck in your throat.
âWhat the fuck what that?â
You flinch, but his voice keeps coming, sharp and cutting.
âYou frozeâI told you to move, and you just stood there.â His hands come up, then drop to his sides. âYou couldâve died.â
You bite your lip, shame curling hot beneath your skin, but his anger makes something inside you snap. âI was caught off-guardââ
âNo shit!â he bites out. âYou donât get to be caught off-guard, not in the middle of a fight!â
âI didnât ask to be in a fight!â you snap. âIâm notââ You exhale sharply, hands curling into fists. âIâm not like you, Gojo. Iâm not a fucking thief whoâs used to running for my life every other night.â
His jaw tightens. âSo itâs my fault now?â
âIsnât it?â You throw your arms out. âIf you werenât on the face of every damn wanted poster from here to the mountains, we wouldnât be in this mess!â
Satoru lets out a bitter, humourless laugh. âRight. Because Iâm the one who dragged us into this.â
âYou areââ
âNo,â he cuts in, eyes flashing. âIf it wasnât for your stupid, fucking dream, we wouldnât be here in the first place.â
The words slam into you like a fist to the gut. A cold wind rustles through the leaves, stirring the dying fire. Sukuna neighs lowly from where heâs sat near the flames, but you barely hear him over the ringing in your ears. Â
Your stupid, fucking dream. The dream youâd held onto for years, the one that had kept you going, had pushed you forward through every hardship. Your throat tightens. âThatâs not fair.â
âOh, itâs not fair? You had no idea what you were asking for when you dragged me along on this little adventure of yours. Now, weâre running for our lives in the middle of nowhere, because you had to see some damn lanterns.â
The way he says itâlike your dream is nothing more than a childish whimâmakes something ugly twist inside you. âYou know what, Gojo?â Your voice shakes, but not from fear. âAt least I have a dream.â
His expression darkens.
âAt least I want something, something that isnât just running and stealing and barely surviving,â you press on, chest heaving. âBut you? What do you want, Satoru? Huh?â You step closer, jabbing a finger at his chest. âDo you even have an answer, or are you just going to keep laughing everything off like you always do?â
His lips part, but no words come out. For the first time since youâve met him, Gojo Satoru is speechless. But it only lasts a second. His gaze flickers, something unreadable flashing through his eyes before his mask slams back into place. He lets out a sharp breath, his expression twisting into something cruel.
âYou think youâre better than me?â He steps forward now, and you donât back away. âYou think just because youâve got some dream, youâre any different?â His voice lowers, turning razor-sharp. âLet me tell you something, sweetheartâdreams donât mean shit when youâre dead.â
Your breath hitches.
âOut here, itâs about surviving. Thatâs it.â He gestures between you. âAnd the only reason youâre still breathing is because Iâve been watching your back.â
You hate that heâs right. You hate that you froze. You hate that, for all your fighting words, you hadnât been able to do anything when it mattered most. Perhaps worst of all, you hate that he saw.
Satoru exhales, shaking his head. âForget it,â he says. âIâm going to get food.â
He turns and stalks off into the woods. You donât call after him, because you donât trust your voice not to break. The moment Satoru disappears into the trees, the night feels oppressive, like the darkness is closing in on you.Â
You stand there for a long time, fists clenched at your sides, staring at the spot where he walked off. Sukuna shifts in his sleep. Megumiâs breathing is slow and even. You should rest. You should scrounge through whatever leftover supplies you have from your village and find something to eat.
But your chest feels tight, like thereâs a rope around your ribs, pulling, pullingâ With a shuddering inhale, you turn and walk towards the stream.
The water is cold when you dip your fingers in, crouching beside it. The icy surface reflects the moonâs pale light. You stare at your own reflection, at the way your lips tremble, at the redness creeping into your eyes. You squeeze them shut. Itâs fine. Youâre fine.
You press the heels of your palms against your eyes, willing the burning away. But the second you take a shaky breath, it hits you all at onceâthe fear, the frustration, the exhaustion weighing on your bones. A choked sound leaves your throat before you can stop it.
You shouldnât be crying. You donât want to cry, but the argument replays in your mind over and overâSatoruâs voice laced with anger, the way he threw your dream back in your face like it was nothing.Â
He doesnât understand, you think. But is he right?
What were you thinking? That you could drag a thief to the capital and expect everything to go smoothly? That the world would just let you chase your dream, no consequences, no danger? Maybe your dream really is foolish. Maybe you are naĂŻve for believing that you could just waltz into the capital and see the lantern festival without any repercussions. Maybeâjust maybeâGojo Satoru regrets ever having met you.
The thought makes something inside you crack, the pressure behind your eyes spilling over. A broken sob escapes, and then another, your shoulders shaking as you press a hand against your mouth, desperate to smother the sounds.
A hand lands on your shoulder. You suck in a sharp breath, jerking away, heart racingâ
âItâs just me.â The voice is quiet but unmistakable.
Your breath stutters. Satoru crouches beside you. His presence is warm despite the chill in the air, and you realise now how cold youâve gotten, how your legs have gone numb from sitting in the same position for too long.
You quickly wipe at your eyes, turning away. âGo away, Satoru.â
He doesnât. Instead, he sighs heavily and shifts so heâs sitting right next to you, close enough that his knee bumps against yours. âIâm sorry,â he says, finally. âI was a dick.â
You blink.
âI mean, Iâm usually a dick,â he continues, gazing at the water, resting his elbows on his knees. âBut that was⌠excessive. I didnât meanââ He stops. Tries again. âYour dream isnât stupid.â
Your voice is small when you ask, âThen why did you say that?â
âI just⌠When you froze back thereââ His voice is quieter now, almost hoarse. âI thought you were gonna die.â
You swallow hard. He murmurs, âIâve seen people freeze like that before. And they didnât walk away from it.â
âI did walk away,â you whisper, not sure if itâs the right thing to say.
âYeah.â He turns his head, meeting your eyes properly for the first time since the fight. âYou did.â
Thereâs something about the way heâs looking at youâlike heâs seeing you for the first time. Or, maybe, like heâs seeing too much. You donât know who moves first, but his hand is covering yours, warm and solid. His grip is hesitant at first, but when you donât pull away, his fingers tighten around yours. You squeeze his hand back. Neither of you speak.
The fire crackles behind you. The water rushes softly. The moon watches from above.
Gojo Satoru, you think, is an enigma wrapped in glib promises and endless grins. You wonder if itâs his coping mechanism. Heâs intelligent, quick-witted and silver-tongued. Heâs good at fighting. You want to ask him why they sent him away from the palace, but you donât think you have the right to. He always seems torn about it, when heâs spoken to you about it beforeâlike itâs a bittersweet part of his life that heâs not very keen on revisiting.
He must have been something before turning to thievery. You stare at him like heâs a particularly intriguing puzzle, walking next to him. He guides Sukuna loosely by the reins; only Megumi is perched on his back, you and Satoru having favoured your own two feet instead of the back aches and leaden legs that come with extended periods of horseback riding.
âIf you wanted to stare at my face so badly, I couldâve nicked the wanted poster back at Shiuâs inn,â Satoru says, not bothering to look at you.
Your cheeks prickle with heat. âI wasnât staring,â you mumble.
The night air is cool against your skin; the wind carries the scent of damp earth and distant firewood, the kind of smell that reminds you of homeâthough, truthfully, youâre not sure what home even is to you anymore. Maybe itâs the road beneath your feet, the anticipation and uncertainty that comes with weeks of travel. Maybe itâs this: Walking beside a thief who used to be something more, who still is something more, no matter how hard he tries to convince himself otherwise.
Satoru doesnât say anything for a long time, but his arm brushes against the side of yours, familiar in a way thatâs almost comforting. The dirt path winds through the trees. The occasional torch flickers in the distance, marking the outskirts of the city. Sukuna snorts softly, and Megumiâs ears twitch as he scans the darkness ahead.
Eventually, Satoru speaks again. âItâs rude to stare and not share your thoughts.â
âI was just thinking,â you huff.
âDangerous pastime.â
You kick a loose pebble from the path. âI was thinking about you.â
He makes a low, amused sound in his throat. âHow nice of you. I knew you liked me, but I didnât think I occupied your thoughts so thoroughly.â
You donât rise to the bait this time. âI was thinking,â you say, âabout what you were before this. You told me once you were from the palace, but you never really told me why they sent you away.â
Satoru is quiet for a moment. The leaves rustle around you, and you tug your cloak tighter around your shoulders.
âThey trained me to be a soldier,â he says, finally, softly. âMe andââ He stops, swallowing the words like they taste bitter.
âAndâŚ?â You prompt. Your steps slow.
His grip tightens around the reins. âAnd someone else,â he finishes. âMy best friend.â
The way he says it makes your chest ache. Satoru clears his throat and continues, âThey trained us young. Said we had a gift for it. A gift for war, for strategy and battle.â He laughs, but thereâs no humour in it. âBut a soldier only has value if he follows orders. And I wasnât very good at that.â
You donât push him to say more, though questions press against the tip of your tongue. The capital looms closer, the distant glow of lanterns casting an orange hue against the horizon. The trees begin to thin, giving way to rolling hills and farmland. In the distance, you can just make out the towering walls that guard the city, their stone surfaces illuminated by torches.
As you near the outer gates, the sleepiness of the countryside fades into the vibrant pulse of the capital. Even at this late hour, the city is alive, breathing, stretching its limbs in the form of flickering lights and distant laughter. You can hear the clatter of hooves against cobblestone, the occasional shout of a merchant still trying to haggle his wares, raucous debates from the inside of taverns. The air is thick with the scent of roasted meat and spiced wine, of damp stone and burning oil. Itâs overwhelming in a way that makes your head spin and your chest tighten with something too big to name.
The capital. Your dream.
Satoru slows Sukuna to a halt just before the stone walls of the capital, guiding him off the main road and into the cover of a surrounding thicket. You follow, ducking beneath low-hanging branches. The trail here is narrow and overgrown, winding through the roots of old trees. Sukuna moves easily, his hooves barely making a sound against the packed dirt. When the city walls finally loom ahead, Satoru pulls on the reins, bringing the stallion to a stop beneath the shadows of an ancient oak.
âThis is where we part ways,â the thief says, patting lightly on Sukunaâs saddle.
Megumiâs dark ears twitch, catching every sound, his green eyes narrowing at the imposing walls. The cat hops off the horseâs back. Heâs been tense since you approached the capital; he doesnât like unfamiliar places, and the sprawling city is anything but.Â
Satoru tugs the reins over Sukunaâs head and leads him to a sturdy tree, securing him with deft hands. He runs a palm along the stallionâs neck in reassurance before crouching to do the same with Megumi. The cat lets out a mrow but doesnât resist when Satoru scratches him behind his torn ear.
âYou stay here and watch Sukuna, yeah? Be good,â he says, tapping him once on the head before straightening and unhooking your weather-beaten packs tied to Sukunaâs saddle and tossing them over his shoulder.
âYouâre leaving them here?â you ask, glancing between the horse and the cat. It feels strange to abandon them at the outskirts, but you suppose it would be impossible to smuggle a massive stallion and a stray cat through the streets of the capital.
âNot leaving,â Satoru explains. âJust letting them sit this one out. Sukunaâs too big, and Megumi doesnât care for crowds.â
You hesitate. Satoru doesnât give you time to dwell on it, already striding ahead. You follow him through a break in the trees, slipping past the walls through a hidden opening you never wouldâve noticed on your own. The dirt beneath your feet slowly gives way to stone and lamp-light.Â
By the time you emerge into the streets, the towering stone walls are behind you, replaced by the overwhelming grandeur of the inner city.
You barely notice the way your breath catches in your throat, too preoccupied with taking it all in. The streets are narrower here, winding and twisting, labyrinth-like. The buildings loom taller than any youâve ever seen, their façades adorned with intricate carvings and delicate ivy creeping up the sides. Ornate balconies overlook the streets, their silk curtains swaying with the breeze, and the warm glow of candlelight flickers in every window.
A vendor still lingers at his stall, selling roasted chestnuts wrapped in parchment, the rich scent making your stomach grumble faintly. A group of masked performers twirls in the city square, their laughter bright and musical. A nobleman in embroidered silks strides past with a pretty woman on his arm, their voices hushed as they slip into a gilded carriage.
Itâs stupendous.
You donât realise how close youâve pressed to Satoru, your shoulder pressing into his arm. He notices, of courseâhe notices everythingâbut he doesnât comment. He simply keeps moving, weaving through the crowd with the sort of confidence that only comes with someone who has walked these streets their entire life.
âStick close,â Satoru tells you. âItâs easy to get lost if you donât know your way around.â
The deeper into the city you go, the grander the architecture becomes. The modest stone buildings give way to towering structures of marble, their columns wrapped in flowering vines, their streets lined with lush greenery and carved statues. The roads widen, no longer cramped and twisting, but sprawling and lined with golden lanterns. Thenâ
Your breath stutters as you step into an open courtyard, and there, standing tall and regal under the silver glow of the moon, is the palace.
Itâs massive, far grander than you ever could have imagined. White stone gleams under the warm lights, intricate carvings adorning every arch and column. The banners of the royal family ripple in the cool night breeze, deep blue with the yellow royal sigil against the ivory walls. The golden spires reach towards the heavens, their tips catching the light of the stars, as if they themselves are part of the sky.
Awe roots you to the spot. For years, youâve dreamed of this place; of seeing it with your own eyes. Now that youâre here, it doesnât feel real.
Satoru stops beside you, watching you quietly, blue eyes twinkling. With a smile curling at his lips, the thief tilts his head towards you and murmurs, âWell, sweetheart. Welcome to the capital.â
Satoru says he knows a place where both of you can spend the next three days until the lantern festival commences. You donât believe him, especially after what happened the last time with Shiu and the bounty hunter. He had glared at you, deeply affronted, said, âYour lack of faith in me is appalling,â and then proceeded to lead you back towards the inner city.
âRemember that bookshop I was telling you about?â he asks, rounding a corner.Â
âI remember,â you say.
âThe former ownerâs son runs it now,â Satoru says. âHeâll let us stay there.â
You donât deign to reply, still drinking in everythingâthe towering buildings, the banners hanging from balconies, the cobblestone streets that shine under the flickering lights. Shopfronts boast their trinkets and fine silks, while street vendors call out to passersby, offering skewers of sizzling meat and honey-dipped pastries.Â
Itâs strange. The world you have known until now has always been smaller. Quieter. Even in the busiest towns, even in the places where merchants and travelers gathered, there was never anything like this. The capital, you think, is a city that never sleeps; a city that belongs to people like Satoruâpeople who thrive in movement, in laughter, in places where the streets are never empty and thereâs always something new waiting around the corner.
You tune out the thief talking beside you. Heâs rambling about something, making some quip about your starry-eyed expression. The city is so alive, so rich with colour and movement, that it fills every space in your mind.
A sharp tug at your wrist yanks you back just as a carriage rushes past, wheels rattling violently against the stones where youâd been standing a second ago. The force of it stirs your cloak, wind whistling against your cheek. The shock of it doesnât register right away. You stumble, your body pulled by somethingâsomeoneâsolid and hard.
Satoruâs arm is firm around your waist, his fingers wrapped tightly around your wrist where he pulled you. The warmth of him is undeniable, even through layers of fabric. He holds you against him, close enough that you can feel the steady rise and fall of his chest. Your breath is stuck somewhere in your throat, heart pounding against your ribs. You hadnât even noticed youâd stepped into the carriageâs path, hadnât realised how dangerously close youâd come to being trampled beneath its wheels.
Satoru exhales slowly above you, his grip tightening for a brief second before relaxing. âGawking at the scenery is nice and all, but Iâd rather not have to scrape you off the road.â
âI wasnât gawking,â you mumble, more out of reflex than actual protest. Your stomach flips, though whether itâs from embarrassment or something else entirely, youâre not sure.
âYou were,â he murmurs, but the teasing lilt in his voice is absent. His fingers, still wrapped around your wrist, loosen just slightlyâbut he doesnât let go.
Instead, his grip shifts. His fingers slide down, intertwining with yours, palm pressing firmly against your own. Heâs holding your hand. A warmth unfurls inside your chest, one that you donât quite know how to name.
The two of you weave through the crowd like that, his fingers still tangled with yours, warmth bleeding into your skin with every step.
Satoru doesnât let go until you round the next corner. The streets narrow, becoming quieter. The clamour of the main road fades behind you, replaced by the occasional murmur of voices from dimly-lit taverns and the sound of the wind rustling through laundry lines strung between buildings. The air smells of damp stone, faintly sweet and petrichor-like.
You clear your throat, trying to ignore the persisting warmth of Satoruâs touch even after he lets go. If he notices, he doesnât say anything. Instead, he continues ahead. You wonder how often heâs taken this pathâhow many times heâs disappeared into the quiet corners of the city, both as a thief and as a soldier-in-training.
Eventually, he stops in front of a small, weathered shop tucked between a tailorâs boutique and an apothecary. The wooden sign above the door sways slightly in the breeze, the faint, worn lettering just barely readable. Nanamiâs Books.
It doesnât look like much from the outside. The wooden shutters are drawn, the paint on the door slightly chipped, but thereâs something sturdy about itâsomething dependable, like itâs been here for years, and will remain standing for years to come. A single candle flickers behind the window, casting a warm glow through the glass.
Satoru raps his knuckles against the door. âNanami,â he calls, sing-song.
The door creaks open, revealing a tall, broad-shouldered man with blond hair, wearing a crisp, white tunic, and an expression so unimpressed, one would think Satoru had just asked to rob the place. âNo.â
âNanami,â Satoru coos, grinning.
âNo,â Nanami repeats, firmer this time, as if sheer repetition will make him disappear.
âYou donât even know what I was going to ask.â
Nanami sighs wearily, bringing up a hand and rubbing tiredly at his forehead. âYouâre going to ask if you can stay here.â
Satoru places a hand over his chest, wounded. âWhat, no warm welcome? No, âSatoru, my dear friend, Iâve missed youâ?â
âIâve never said that to you in my life.â
âThe lack of hospitality here is astounding.â
Nanami does not dignify that with a response. Instead, his gaze shifts to you. His scrutiny is wary but not unkind, expression flickering with mild curiosity. You shift slightly under his gaze, unsure of what heâs looking for.
âYouâre new,â he says.
You nod. âFirst time in the capital.â
âAnd what trouble has Gojo dragged you into?â
The corners of your mouth lift up in a smile; Nanami seems like someone you can get along withâa kindred spirit in the art of pushing Gojo Satoruâs buttons. The thief, of course, doesnât share the same sentiment. He gasps, offended, and says, âWhy do you assume itâs trouble?â
âAre you really asking me that?â the bookshop owner asks dryly. He sighs, visibly considering whether allowing Satoru into his home is worth the inevitable headache. His fingers pinch the bridge of his nose, a gesture that suggests this is not the first time heâs found himself in this exact situation. âHow long do you plan on staying here?â
âTwo nights,â Satoru answers. âJust until the festival.â
âFine.â Nanamiâs shoulders slump as he reluctantly steps aside. âBut if you so much as breathe near my ledgerââ
âYouâre the best.â Satoru claps a hand on his shoulder before he can finish, flashing a triumphant grin. Nanami, on the other hand, looks like he instantly regrets his decision.
Inside, the bookshop is lit by candlelight, the scent of parchment and ink thick in the air. Shelves stretch from floor to ceiling, packed with books that look well-loved and well-worn. The floorboards creak softly underfoot, and a single lamp flickers on the counter beside an open ledger, its pages filled with neath, meticulous handwriting.
âThe loft is upstairs,â Nanami says, rubbing his temples. âTry not to destroy anything.â
âNo promises,â Satoru says cheerfully.
You follow him up the narrow staircase, stepping into the small loft above the shop. The space is simpleâtwo mattresses perpendicular to each other, pushed against the wall, a low table, and a window overlooking the street below. Dust lingers in the corners, the scent of old parchment soaked into the very walls. Thereâs no extravagance here, nothing grand or gilded, but itâs warm and lived-in.
Satoru throws himself onto a mattress with no ceremony, arms spread as he sighs dramatically. âSee?â he says, peering up at you. âTold you I knew a place.â
You roll your eyes, but despite yourself, a small smile tugs at your lips.
You wake up to the sounds of an argument in the shop below. The mattress is lumpy and a little hard, but it beats sleeping on the forest floor with nothing but your cloak separating you from the cold earth. Satoruâs mattress looks the same as it did last nightâthe covers placed meticulously and tucked into the sides, the pillow not creased, as though he hadnât slept at all. A quick glance around the loft leads you to find a wooden basin filled with water. You pad over to it and splash your face once, twice. The water is cool against your skin. You rub the gunk out of your eyes.
It seems the argument isnât going to abate anytime soon. Nanamiâs voice rises, and, cautiously, you make your way out of the door and pad over to the top of the staircase so you can hear better.Â
âYouâre a fool,â the bookshop owner says. âI told you that months ago, and yet here you are. Again.â
Satoru sounds almost amused when he replies, âWell, hello. What happened to good morning?â
âYouâre going to get yourself killed.â
A beat. You shift onto the first step, careful to keep your steps light.
âI appreciate the concern, Nanami,â Satoru says. âReally. But you should know by now that Iâm impossible to kill.â
âThat isnât the point.â Thereâs the sound of something hitting the counterâa book, maybe, or Nanamiâs palm pressing against the wood as he fights for patience. âYouâre still chasing thisâthis ridiculous theory? After everything?â
Your fingers tighten around the bannister. âIt isnât ridiculous,â the thief says, quieter this time.
Nanami scoffs, dry and unimpressed. âYouâre gambling with your life for a theory you canât even prove.â
âThatâs the point, Nanami,â Satoru counters, sharp. âI have to prove it.â
âYou donât have to do anything,â Nanami says, and thereâs something frayed at the edges of his voice, something that sounds a lot like concern buried under layers of irritation. âYou could leave this alone. Walk away beforeââ
âBefore what?â
âYou know what.â
For a moment, neither of them speak. The words sit heavy in the air, thick enough that you almost feel them pressing against your skin. Nanami exhales. âAnd even if youâre determined to be a reckless idiot,â he says, voice cooler now, âwhat gives you the right to drag someone else into this?â
You stiffen at the mention of yourself. Satoru clicks his tongue. âOh, come on. I didnât drag her into anything.â
âSheâs here, isnât she?â
âShe dragged me here. She made that choice herself.â
âShe doesnât know what sheâs choosing,â Nanami snaps. âTell me, Gojo, did you bother explaining anything, or did you simply try to charm her skirts off and decide that was enough?â
âI can be persuasive if I want, you know.â
âInsane. Youâre insane, and I want nothing more than toââ
Youâre not sure what compels you to move, but you step down the stairs, making your way towards them before the argument can escalate any further. Maybe itâs curiosity, maybe itâs annoyance, maybe itâs the simple fact that youâre irked at being talked about like you arenât standing just a few feet away. At the sound of your footsteps, both men turn.
Nanami regards you with a sharp, assessing gaze. Satoru runs a hand through his hair, but grins at you. âGood morning, sleeping beauty,â he greets. âEnjoy your beauty rest?â
You give him a withering look before turning to Nanami. âWhatâs going on?â
âThat,â he says, lips pressed into a thin line, âis exactly what Iâd like to know.â
âItâs too early in the morning for us to be concerned with all this serious talk,â Satoru cuts in, clapping his hands. He glances at you. âNanami, does Utahimeâs shop open this early?â
âYes,â he replies. âBut I donât think sheâll be very receptive to you barging in and ruining her morning.â
âNonsense! Utahime loves me.â
Nanami sighs. âIâll warn her first.â
âThereâs no need for that.â Satoru waves a hand in the air dismissively, placing his other one on the small of your back and gently steering you out of Nanamiâs bookshop. You bite your tongue, curious to know what they were arguing about, but unsure if itâs in your place to pry.Â
âWhere are we going?â you ask instead.
The thief grins, letting the door to the bookshop swing shut behind him. âTo get you some new clothes.â
âWhatâs wrong withââ You donât bother finishing the question, as Satoru leads you through the winding streets of the capital. The city is slowly wakingâmerchants setting up their stalls, children darting between their parents, the scent of roses and bread wafting from nearby bakeries and flower shops. You can hear the clang of a blacksmith hammering metal in the distance, the occasional neigh of a horse, and people haggling over the fresh produce thatâs just arrived from the surrounding countryside.
You clutch your cloak around you a little tighter, feeling a little out of place. Itâs different, now, in the daylight, when the darkness doesnât obscure your vision and those of others. You glance down at yourself, taking in the well-worn fabric of your cloak, the practical cut of your tunic and trousers. Itâs not like youâre dressed in rags, but compared to the finery youâve seen nobles wearing in the streets, you suppose you do stick out rather like a sore thumb. (So does Satoru, your mind offers helpfully, but unlike you, he moves as if he owns the very streets he walks on, as if the world itself bends to his whims.)
âIs this really necessary?â you ask hesitantly.
âAbsolutely.â
You narrow your eyes. âI feel like youâre just looking for an excuse to spend money that isnât yours.â
âI would neverââ he begins, but you give him a flat look, and his lips curl up into an utterly unrepentant grin. âAlright, maybe I would. But in this case, itâs a matter of principle. Donât you want to look all nice and pretty at the lantern festival?â
You roll your eyes but let him drag you long, weaving your way through the bustling market district. Eventually, he stops in front of a charming little boutique, its windows lined with displays of elegant dresses, rich fabrics draped across headless mannequins. A little brass bell jingles as Satoru pushes open the door. The interior of the shop is warm, bathed in the golden light filtering through the windows. Shelves upon shelves of neatly arranged fabrics line the walls, bolts of silk and brocade in every shade imaginable. The air smells of lavender and fresh linen, with the faintest hint of parchment from the stack of ledgers resting on the counter.
Behind that counter, a woman with dark hair pulled into a loose bun looks up from where sheâs inspecting a sheet of shimmering fabric. Her sharp eyes land on Satoru, and whatever semblance of peace she had this morning is immediately shattered. âOh,â she says, ânot you.â
âUtahime!â Satoru places a hand over his heart. âYou wound me.â
âYou deserve it.â
âIs that any way to greet an old friend?â he simpers.
Utahime arches a brow. âYou are not my friend.â
Satoru wags a finger at her. âBusiness associate, then?â
âBarely.â
You shift uncomfortably, not entirely sure how to insert yourself into this conversation. The two of them clearly have some sort of shared history, similar to Nanami and Satoru. Curiosity prickles in your stomach; you want to know more about them, about Satoruâs life before he became a wanted man.
Utahime exhales through her nose, then finally turns her attention to you. Her expression softens slightly, the corners of her lips quirking upwards. âAnd you are?â
You hesitate, suddenly feeling very out of place surrounded by all this luxury. âUmââ
âSheâs my new travelling companion,â Satoru interrupts, slinging a hand around your shoulders as if that explains everything. âWhich is why Iâve so graciously brought her hereâto make sure she looks the part.â
Utahime stares at him, then at you. Slowly, her grin turns amused. âYou mean, to make sure you donât look like a pauper standing next to her.â
You choke back a laugh. Satoru splutters, âIâhow dare youââ
âYou look like youâve been sleeping in ditches, Gojo,â the tailor says.
âThat is not true.â
âYou have leaves in your hair.â
Satoru blinks, reaches up, and, sure enough, pulls a small, dried leaf from his messy white locks. He flicks it away with a muttered curse.
âI canât stand someone as pretty as her walking around with a man who looks like he lost a fight with a laundry line. Come,â Utahime says, addressing you and already pulling a gown off a nearby rack. âLetâs get you sorted before I throw him out.â
You follow her shyly deeper into the boutique, leaving Satoru to sulk near the counter. The further in you go, the more extravagant the fabrics becomeârich velvets, shining silks, intricate embroidery, lacy tulle. You hesitate, again, feeling out of place among such luxury, but Utahime does not seem to care for your reservations. She studies you with a critical eye, holding up various fabrics against your skin.
You shift awkwardly under her scrutiny. âI donât need anything too fancy,â you say quickly.
Utahime gives you an unimpressed jerk of her chin. âYou think he is going to let you walk around in something plain?â
You glance over your shoulder at Satoru, who is currently inspecting a mannequin in the corner, tilting his head. He doesnât even pretend to be paying attention. You sigh. âProbably not.â
âExactly.â Utahime flicks through a row of dresses before pulling one out. âTry this.â
The fabric is smooth beneath your fingertips, a deep blue that shimmers like water under the sunlight. The embroidery along the neckline is delicate, intricate swirls of silver thread that catch the light. Itâs beautifulâfar more beautiful than anything youâve ever worn before.
âIâI donât know if I should,â you admit.
âWhy not?â
âI mean, Iââ You falter. The words sound silly even in your own head. Iâm not used to things like this. Things this nice.
But Utahime merely shakes her head and shoves the dress into your arms, though not unkindly. âYou should, because you can.â She gestures to a dressing screen next to you. âGo. Try it on.â
You nod, uncertain, before stepping behind the screen, fingers tracing over the soft fabric. It takes a moment to undo the laces of your old clothes and slip into the new dress. The material drapes over you fluidly, the fit surprisingly perfect. The bodice is snug but comfortable, cinching at your waist before flowing down in gentle folds. The sleeves are light, sheer fabric brushing against your skin like a caress.
When you step out, Utahime nods in approval. âBetter.â
You look down at yourself, smoothing your hands over the fabric. Itâs strange, wearing something so fine, something that makes you feel seen. Youâre so used to blending into the background, to preferring practicality over beauty. But nowâ
A low whistle interrupts your thoughts.
You glance up to see Satoru leaning against the counter, arms crossed, a grin tugging at his lips. âDamn,â he muses. âI always knew you were cute, but this is something else.â
Your face heats. âShut up.â
âIâm serious!â He pushes off the counter, walking over to circle you, inspecting you from every angle. âYouâre going to have every noble in the capital turning their heads.â
âWhich means you canât go around looking like that,â Utahime interjects, shooting Satoru a pointed glare.
He blinks. âLike what?â
âLike a half-drowned stray,â she says, and before he can protest, she shoves a bundle of clothes into his arms. âGo change. I refuse to let someone as beautiful as her be seen with an absolute pauper like you.â
You laugh, and Satoru pouts at you. âYouâre enjoying this.â
âExtremely,â you agree.
Grumbling under his breath, he disappears behind another dressing screen, leaving you and Utahime in silence. After a beat, she turns to you. âYouâre travelling with him willingly?â
âItâsâŚâ You chew on your lip. âComplicated.â
She hums, as if sheâd expected nothing else. âBe careful.â
You donât know how to respond to that, so you simply nod. A moment later, Satoru emerges, now dressed in something far more refined than his usual attire. The loose, tattered shirt underneath his vest has been replaced with a fitted tunic of dark navy, the high collar emphasising the sharp angles of his jaw. The long coat draped over his shoulders is a deep charcoal, lined with silver embroidery. Even his boots look newer, shinier.
He runs a hand through his hair. âWell?â
Utahime clicks her tongue. âItâs an improvement. Barely.â
Satoru ignores her and turns to you. âWhat do you think?â
âYou look⌠less like a thief,â you say.
âIâll take that as a win.â
Utahime rolls her eyes, thrusting a pair of slippers that match the colour of your dress at you, along with an ivory comb to pin your hair back in place. âTake these and get out of my shop.â
So you do.
The capital, youâve come to realise, is a place of contradictionsâgrand stone buildings adorned with ivy, shadowed alleyways where whispers slip through the cracks, noblewomen in embroidered shawls brushing shoulders with street performers balancing on stilts.Â
Satoru weaves between crowds easily, pausing only when something catches his interest: A vendor selling sugared fruits, a fortune teller shuffling tarot cards at a makeshift stall, a pair of children chasing each other with wooden swords, their giggles ringing bright in the late morning hour. He lingers just long enough to soak in the moment before moving on, as if the city itself is nothing more than an elaborate game designed for his amusement. You try not to stare, but the way he carries himself is captivatingâlike heâs seen it all before and yet, still finds a way to be charmed by it.
âSee?â He nudges your arm lightly with his elbow. âTold you youâd fit right in.â
You press your lips together and say nothing. The fabric of your new dress sways as you walk, softer and finer than anything youâve ever owned. It feels unfamiliar against your skin, but not unpleasant. It makes you feel different, somehow, like youâve stepped into a role that doesnât quite belong to you. People glance at you differently now; not with suspicion or wariness, but with curiosity.
âSo, what now?â you ask instead.
Satoru grins, wild, his blue eyes shining with mirth and excitement. âNow? Now, we explore.â
And explore you do.
He leads you through the winding streets, pointing out interesting stalls and dodging carts and carriages. He stops at a street performer juggling knives and dramatically gasps at every toss, leaning in as if heâs witnessing a royal duel. You shake your head, but his antics coax a quiet smile out of you. When he catches it, his smile softens just a little.
A hidden alleyway tucked between two bustling shops reveals an old woman sitting behind a small table, delicate glass trinkets laid out in neat rows. The figures catch the light, shimmering like captured stardust. Satoru crouches, fingers hovering over a tiny glass cat, its tail curled in mid-motion. His white hair falls into his eyes as he studies it, the briefest flicker of something thoughtful passing over his features.
âDâyou think Megumi and Sukuna are getting lonely?â he murmurs, turning the figurine over in his hands before placing it back, offering the woman a charming wink as he tosses her a coin for her time.
âYou didnât buy it,â you observe. The two of you step back onto the main street.
âDidnât need to,â he replies, slipping his hands into his pockets. âJust wanted to look.â
You make your way towards the bustling heart of the market, where stalls overflow with bright fabrics, glinting trinkets, and fresh produce. The scent of roasted chestnuts curls around you, warm and nutty. Satoru pauses, his gaze flicking to a vendor skillfully tossing chestnuts in a wire pan over an open flame. The chestnuts pop and crackle in the heat. Without a word, he steps forward, tossing a few coins onto the counter. The vendor barely has time to acknowledge him before Satoru is already handing you a small paper pouch, its warmth seeping into your fingers.
âTry one,â he says, grinning.
You peel open the shell of a chestnut, the scent much richer up close. When you take a bite, itâs soft and sweet, the kind of warmth that settles deep in your chest.
Satoru watches you expectantly. âWell?â
âTheyâre good,â you admit.
âOf course they are,â he boasts. âI have impeccable taste.â
You huff a small laugh, shaking your head, but you donât pull away when he reaches out, brushing a stray hair from your face that escaped the confines of Utahimeâs comb. His fingertips barely ghost over your skin fleetingly, but you feel it like an ember catching flame. It stretches between you like a thread being pulled tautâand then he clears his throat and looks away.
âCome on,â he says, tilting his head in the direction of another street. âThereâs one more place I want to show you.â
By the time you arrive at the jewelry stall, the sun hangs high overhead, casting long shadows across the cobblestone streets. Unlike the market district, this section of the city is quieter, the chatter of merchants distant, softened by the hum of rustling leaves. The stall itself is small but carefully arrangedâdainty chains displayed on dark velvet, rings nestled in silk-lined boxes, gemstones catching the light in a kaleidoscope of colours. Here, the world feels slower, as if it exists in its own pocket of time.
Satoru steps forward, fingers skimming lightly over the jewelry. His expression is uncharacteristically thoughtful. You watch him curiously. Until now, heâs been aimlessly amused by everything, flitting from stall to stall and shop to shop like a butterfly with no real direction, but thisâthis is different. Thereâs an intention behind the seriousness in his eyes.
âWhat are you looking for?â you ask.
He doesnât answer immediately, instead picking up a simple silver necklace with a small blue gemstone embedded in its center. He turns it between his fingers, the pad of his thumb brushing over the stone as he studies it for a long moment. Then, as if coming to a decision, he looks at you.
âThis suits you,â he says.
You blink, taken aback. âWhat?â
He steps closer, the space between you shrinking. âHere,â he says softly. âLet me.â
Your breath catches when his hands lift, brushing against the back of your neck. The metal of the chain is cool against your skin, but his fingersâhis fingers are warm, careful, the touch light enough to send a shiver down your spine. He lingers for just a fraction too long before fastening the clasp, fingertips grazing the nape of your neck in a way that makes heat bloom beneath your skin. When he pulls away, the pendant rests just above your collarbone. You touch it lightly.
âIâI canât take this,â you say, voice quieter than before.
Satoru only smirks, but itâs not his usual brand of tiresome arrogance. Itâs softer. âToo late. No returns.â
Your fingers tighten around the pendant. The stone is smooth beneath your touch, reflecting the sunlight in shifting shades of blue. It reminds you of somethingâof fleeting moments, of oceans youâve never seen, of something vast and untouchable yet undeniably present. The question slips out before you can stop it: âWhy?â
For a moment, he doesnât answer. His gaze roams over you, something unreadable flickering in those too-bright eyes. Then, he shrugs. âConsider it a souvenir,â he says. âSomething to remember today by.â
You want to press him for more, but something about the way he says it is fragile, delicate in a way that makes you hesitant to touch it too harshly. It is a thread pulled just slightly tighter, a balance shifted just slightly off-kilter. He reaches for your wrist, tugging you gently back towards the street.Â
âLetâs go,â he says, ever the one to move before a moment settles. âWeâve still got time before sunset.â
By the time the sun begins its descent, the capital is alive in a different way than before. Where the market had been filled with the shouts of merchants and the clatter of wooden carts, the town square now hums with a different kind of energyâjoyful and infectious.
Colourful paper lanterns have been strung between buildings, flickering to life as the sky fades from gold to dusky violet. Musicians gather in the center of the square, their lively tune spilling into the air, coaxing laughter and movement from the people around them. The scent of honeyed pastries from a nearby stall blends with the perfume of crushed petals from garlands strung over doorways.
âWell, sweetheart,â Satoru says, âitâs your lucky day. Looks like weâve arrived just in time for a celebration.â
You look up at him, slightly wary. âA celebration for what?â
âThe night before the lantern festival, âcourse.â He grabs your wrist and pulls you forward.
âSatoruââ
âHush, weâve done nothing but walk around all day,â he says, meandering through the crowd. âLetâs have a little fun.â
Your protests die on your tongue when you step into the heart of the square. The music swells, a melody of flutes, fiddles and tambourines; it is so rich and lively that it seems to settle beneath your skin, curling around your ribs like something alive. All around you, people spin and sway to the rhythm, moving as if the music is stitched into their bones. Women twirl in dresses of deep reds and blues, their skirts fanning out like blooming flowers, while men clap their hands to the beat, laughing as they switch partners. Children dart between the dancers, giggles escaping their lips, while couples sway together, lost in their own world.
Youâre so caught up in taking it all in that you donât notice Satoru moving until his hand finds yours again. The moment you realise what heâs doing, your eyes widen. âOh, noââ
âOh, yes,â he counters, grinning as he spins you suddenly, catching you before you can stumble. âYou canât expect me to dance alone, can you?â
âI can if I donât know how,â you retort, heart racing at the unexpected movement.
He clicks his tongue. âTsk. And here I thought you were quick on your feet.â
You narrow your eyes at him. âOnly when I need to be.â
The thief only laughs, that bright, boyish sound that makes something warm settle in your chest. âJust follow my lead,â he says, drawing you in.
Against all reason, you do. At first, youâre hesitant, stiff under his hands while he guides you into the rhythm of the dance. But Satoru is nothing if not persistent. He keeps you moving, spinning you into the flow of the music, making the world blur in bursts of colour and light.
Itâs dizzying, the way he movesânot just with grace, but with a kind of unshaken confidence, like heâs never once doubted that the world will bend to him if he asks it to. His hands are steady on yours, his steps sure, and when he grins, itâs the kind of grin that makes you feel like youâre part of some grand adventure, something wild and untamed.
Youâve never met a man like him before.
Somewhere along the way, your hesitation fades. Your body moves with his naturally now, drawn into the lilt of the music. Your laughter bubbles up before you can stop it, spilling into the air between you as he twirls you beneath the glow of the lanterns. Satoru watches you closely, his smile softening, just a little around the edges.
âTold you itâs fun,â he murmurs.
You shake your head, breathless. âWarn me next time.â
âYou do want a next time, then,â he says, and you donât have an answer to that.
Becauseâmaybeâyou do. Something in you, you think, has begun to unravel. Maybe, against all logic, youâre slipping. Maybe, you donât mind. You meet his gaze, heart rabbiting about in your chest. His eyes are impossibly blue, bright even in the dim glow of the lanterns. Your heartbeat is too loud in your ears, your thoughts a mess of tangled emotions, but you canât bring yourself to step away. Not when his grip is this steady, not when his eyes are watching you like that.
The music melts into something softer, the once-rapid twirls melting into something slower, more intimate. Satoruâs hand shifts, resting lightly against your waist, his other still holding yours between calloused fingers. The world feels smaller now, quieter, narrowed down to just the two of you.
When the song finally ends, both of you out of breath and a little bit sweaty, Satoru steps back and bows with an exaggerated flourish. The fondness in your chest betrays you, and you curtsey back. He holds your hand again, and doesnât let go. Even as the music fades and the crowd disperses, laughter trailing off into the warm night, his grip remains firm. You should pull away. Should remind yourself that heâs still a thief, still unpredictable, still frustrating beyond belief.Â
Instead, you let him guide you through the winding streets of the capital once more, past shops closing up for the night, past candlelight flickering through bedroom windows, past lovers whispering in darkened corners. The warmth of the evening settles over you both, the smell of jasmines and roses and summer heat pressing in close.
âYouâll like this,â Satoru says, turning back over his shoulder.
âYou say that about everything.â
âAnd I mean it every single time,â he replies.Â
He takes you through a narrow alley, walking with the surety of someone who has spent their childhood finding all the hidden parts of the city. A wooden ladder rests against the side of a weathered stone building; Satoru lets go of your hand and immediately starts climbing.
You pause. âSeriously?â
âUnless you want to climb up four flights of stairs,â he calls down, teasing. âBut I donât think youâre in the mood for a hike.â
With an exasperated shake of your head, you gather the folds of your dress into your arms, bunching up the fabric. The ladder, thankfully, is sturdy despite having stood in that spot for who knew how long. The climb is easier than you expect, and when you reach the top, Satoru is already waiting, standing near the edge of the rooftop with his hands in his pockets, watching the city unfold beneath him.
Your breath hitches. The view is stunning. From here, the capital is a sea of golden lights, stretching wide until the river that snakes around the perimeter near the far end. The castle looms in the distance, its towers reaching towards the heavens, the marble reflecting all the lights. Beyond it, the countryside stretches endlessly, shadowed hills rolling underneath a sky dusted with constellations. The stars seem impossibly close, as if you could reach out and trace them with your fingers.
Satoru watches your reaction, the corners of his lips curling into something softer than a smirk, something quieter. âTold you.â
You donât reply immediately, too busy taking in the sheer vastness of it all. The castle, the city, the starsâthings that once felt distant and untouchable now seem just within reach. Stepping closer to him, you ask, âHow did you find this place?â
âI used to come up here as a kid. Sometimes, when things gotâcomplicated, I guess you could sayâIâd sneak away, climb up here, and just watch. The world looks different from above.â
You nod, turning back to the view, letting the quiet settle between you. Satoru plops down onto the shingles of the rooftop, inches away from the part where it begins to slope, and motions for you to do the same. You comply, dress rustling as you sit down next to him. After a moment, Satoru shifts, leaning back on his palms, his long legs stretched out in front of him. The cool night air ruffles his hair, the moonlight catching on the silver strands.
âCan I ask you something?â
â...That depends,â you say.
His smile is easy, lazyâbut his eyes are sharp and searching, like heâs trying to peel back all your layers. âBack in the market,â he starts, slow, âyou let me pull you into that dance. You couldâve left. You couldâve made an excuse, walked away, ignored me entirely. But you didnât. Why?â
You suck in a breath, eyes drifting to the city below. The streets are quieter now, the celebrations beginning to wind down. For so long, your world has been small. Not just physically, but in the way that matteredâthe way that made it feel like you were meant to stay in one place, bound by duty, by love, by responsibility.
âMy grandmother,â you begin, softly. âShe was the only family I had left.â
Satoru doesnât move; he just watches you, waiting. âShe got sick,â you continue, wringing your fingers together on your lap. âAnd I had to take care of her. I couldnât leave, even if I wanted to. Even ifââ You pause, exhaling through your nose. âEven if I dreamed about it sometimes.â
The memories come back in piecesâwatching the world pass by beyond the edges of your village, wondering what lay beyond the fields and forests you had never crossed. The way you used to sit by your grandmotherâs bedside, listening to the stories she told of places she had never been either.
âShe passed away,â you say, quieter this time.
Satoru doesnât speak, but the way he looks at you makes your chest tighten. You turn your head, looking out over the city again. The castle towers rise high against the star-streaked sky, the view stretching beyond anything you ever could have imagined from your tiny corner of the world.
âI spent so long staying in one place,â you admit, âbeing careful and doing what was expected of me. But nowâŚâ You trail off, searching for the shape of the feeling thatâs been unravelling inside you since the moment you first stepped beyond the life you thought you were meant to live. âNow, I think I just want to see whatâs out there.â
A slow smile tugs at Satoruâs lips. Itâs not the cocky smirk youâre used to, nor the grin that comes with a teasing remark. Itâs softer, something almostâfond. âAnd now that youâre here, is it everything youâve dreamed of and more?â
âYes,â you breathe out. âItâs incredible.â
âIâm glad,â he says, then, after a beat: âAlright, my turn.â
âYour turn?â
âTo answer a question.â His eyes flicker to you, playful. âYou want to ask me something, donât you?â
You pause. Then, before you can overthink it, you ask, âAre you still only with me because you want the crown back?â
The teasing edge in his expression falters, just for a second. He doesnât answer right away. Instead, he shifts, fingers tapping idly against the rooftop, his eyes fixed on the distant castle. When he speaks, his voice is quieter, more thoughtful.Â
âAt first, yeah,â he admits. âThat was the plan.â
You wait, sensing thereâs more. Satoru lets out a breath, a faint chuckle escaping him, though thereâs a strangeness to the soundâlike heâs amused at his own thoughts, still figuring them out. He says, âBut youâre not exactly what I expected.â
You frown. âWhat is that supposed to mean?â
He shifts, turning to face you fully now, the golden lights casting shadows across the side of his face. âIt means,â he says, âthat I figured youâd be like everyone else. Predictable. Easy to manipulate. Someone whoâd either slow me down or get in my way.â
Satoru smiles, tilting his head, but this time, itâs differentâless teasing, more like heâs studying you, trying to commit you to memory. âBut youâre not.â
Your heart stutters. You donât know if itâs the words themselves, or the way heâs looking at youâintent, unrushed, like you are something worth decipheringâbut something shifts, something fragile and terrifying in its certainty. You should say something; you ought to shake your head, roll your eyes, scoff at him like you always do. But the night air is wrought with something you donât have a name for, and the weight of his gaze pins you in place.
âYouâre stubborn,â he continues, voice dipping just slightly, low enough that you feel it more than hear it. âSmart. Quicker than I expected. You surprise me.â
The breath youâve been holding releases in a slow exhale, but it doesnât make the feeling in your chest settle. âI donât know if I believe you,â you murmur.
Satoru leans in, not touchingânot yetâbut close enough that the heat of him brushes against your skin. âYou really should.â
You barely have time to process what he means before he moves, slow and deliberate, as if giving you time to stop him. Some part of you registers thisâbut you ignore it, because somewhere along the way, you stopped wanting to.
His hand lifts first, fingertips ghosting along your jaw, barely there, a touch so cursory, it could be mistaken for hesitation. He doesnât rush, doesnât pull you in like a man desperateâhe waits, breath mingling with yours, gaze flickering down to your lips, then back up again, watching. Itâs agonisingly slow, and maybe thatâs what makes your pulse hammer in your throat, makes your fingers tighten at your sides as if fighting the instinct to reach for him.Â
And thenâthe faintest brush. Featherlight; testing. A breath of a kiss, a question rather than an answer. You could pull away now, but the moment his lips meet yours, something inside you caves.
Itâs soft at first, uncertain, but the second you respondâjust the smallest tilt forward, the slightest press of your lips against hisâhe becomes more insistent. His hand cups your jaw more firmly, his other coming to rest against the small of your back, drawing you in as though the space between you is something offensive and unbearable.
You gasp against his mouth, but it isn't surprise. Itâs relief; like something that had been threatening to snap inside you has finally, finally broken loose. His lips move slowly against your, unhurried but devastating, a contradiction of softness and something deeper, something unjumbling beneath your skin. You donât even realise when your fingers twist into the fabric of his shirt, holding on like he might slip away if you donât.
You donât think. You donât breathe. You just fall.
Itâs easy enough to fall into Gojo Satoru like this. Too easy, really. It should be harder. It should be something that gives you pause, something that makes you second-guess yourself. But you donât, because right now, on this rooftop with the whole city stretching out below you and the stars scattered across the sky like crushed diamonds, it doesnât feel like a mistake. It doesnât feel like something youâll regret. It just feels like him.
Satoru pulls away and watches you carefully, the way he always does when heâs waiting for you to make a move first. His hands rest loosely on either side of him, deceptively relaxed, but his gaze tells a different story. Thereâs something in his eyes tonightâsofter, expectant, something that makes your stomach twist in ways you donât entirely understand. Maybe youâll never understand him fully. But you think, maybe you donât have to.
You reach for him first this time. A brush of your fingers against his wrist. He doesnât move, doesnât speakâjust watches, as if memorising the moment. You shuffle closer, until your knees touch where heâs sitting, until his breath stirs the air between you. When you finally lean in, when your lips graze his in something that isnât quite a kiss yet, you hear the sharp inhale of breath he takes. Then, finally, he moves.
Satoru kisses like he does everything elseâsure of himself, but not impatient. He takes his time, lets you press in closer as his hands find their way to your waist, his touch steady and warm. The rooftop is quiet except for the distant sounds of the city and the faint hum of the night air, but all you can hear is himâthe way his breath blows on your cheek, the way he exhales softly when your fingers slip into his hair.
You let him kiss you deeper, let him tilt his head and pull you closer and melt into him as easily as breathing. When he pulls you into his lap, hands firm on your hips and his lips trail lower, brushing along your jaw, your throat, your collarbone, you decide you donât want to stop at all.
The inn is a modest place, tucked between streets. Its wooden beams creak, and the scent of old bookshelves and candle wax wafts through the air, mixing with something sweetâhoney, maybe, or the remnants of a forgotten perfume. Satoru had brought you here so quickly and paid for a room that, despite the knowing look the innkeeper gave you both, you didnât have the time to feel embarrassed before he was whisking you away.
Itâs quiet here, away from prying eyes. The bed beneath you is softer than youâd expected, sheets worn but clean, warmed by the heat of your bodies. A single melting candle in the corner lights up the room, its glow casting shadows along the rough-hewn walls, pooling in the hollow of Satoruâs throat as he hovers over you.
Thereâs a momentâjust a momentâwhere uncertainty creeps in. Youâve never done this before. Somehow, Satoru seems to know that without you even saying anything. His hands, steady and warm, never wander too far, never push for more than what youâre willing to give. Even as his lips move against yoursâslow, coaxing, patientâthereâs an unspoken question between every kiss; an invitation rather than a demand. It makes it easier. Easier to melt into him and to follow the way his fingers map careful paths down your spine.
You barely register when he tugs at the hem of your clothes, when fabric slips from your shoulders, pooling somewhere unseen. His gentle fingers unclasp the comb in your hair, letting it fall down loose. He leaves the necklace on, though, the blue pendant just above your collarbone, reflecting his own blue eyes. They darken when he sees you like this. His hands are on your bare skin, and itâs differentâmore real, somehow. More intimate than anything else before this.
Satoru leans back, exhaling as he takes you in, eyes dragging over every newly exposed inch of you. His gaze is heavy, reverent in a way that makes you shiver. âYouâre beautiful.â
Your breath catches. Heat pools low in your stomach, spreading through you in slow, curling tendrils. Then heâs pressing his lips to your throat, his hands gliding down your sides, settling on your hips. His touch is firm but never rough. Still, the anticipation builds.
Your skin feels too hot, too sensitive, aware of the way his mouth drags lowerâover your collarbone, down the center of your chest, leaving a trail of warmth in its wake. Then, lower still. You shudder. âSatoruââ
He hums against your skin, one hand sliding beneath your knee, urging you to part for him. âLet me take care of you, sweetheart.â
You hesitate for only a moment before nodding. Thatâs all the permission he needs. His hands settle on your thighs, parting them gently. His lips ghost over the sensitive skin, teasing and testing, before he presses a kiss where youâre already aching for him.
The first touch of his tongue is tentativeâjust a slow, languid drag against you, as if savouring the taste. Like heâs learning exactly what makes you tremble. You do tremble. A quiet, broken sound slips from your lips before you can stop it, your fingers tightening instinctively in his hair. Satoru groans, low and pleased, and the vibration of it makes your stomach tighten.
He doesnât rush. Doesnât overwhelm you. He simply moves with purpose, unravelling you piece by piece, lick by lick, until the pleasure builds into something unbearable. You donât know when your eyes flutter shut and your body melts into the sheets. His grip tightens just slightly to hold you in place. When he drags his tongue over that one spot, when he sucks, slow and deliberate, pleasure licks up your spine like wildfire. You gasp.
âThatâs it,â Satoru says, a tad proud. âJust let go.â
Your fingers tangle in his hair, your thighs tightening around him as he coaxes pleasure out of you with maddening patience. The tension builds, winding tighter, higher, and when he rubs your bundle of nerves with his thumb, you moan. Warmth spills through your limbs; your breath catches and everything around you blurs, reduced to nothing but the feeling of his mouth, his hands, his name falling from your lips in a whisper. Satoru stays there for a moment longer, pressing one last kiss to the inside of your thigh before moving back up. He kisses you again, slow and deep, and the taste of yourself on his lips makes your head spin.
âHow was that?â he asks.
âYou talk too much,â you say, and slant your lips against his again.
Satoru pulls away, though reluctantly. Kneeling between your legs, his hands move to his belt. You watch, still dazed, as he undoes it and kicks his trousers off, then pulls his tunic over his head in one smooth motion. You swear you forget how to breathe.
Your fingers tremble slightly as you reach for him, pressing your hands against his chest, feeling the warmth of his skin beneath your touch. He shudders at the contact, and something about thatâabout the way you affect himâsends a thrill through you. Wordlessly, he leans back, watching you carefully.
You meet his gaze, and, slowly, slide your hands up, over the defined lines of his collarbones, over the faint scars that mark his skin. You take your time, tracing the firm places of his stomach, the ridges of muscle beneath your fingertips. He has a scar cutting through his torso, a jagged line that should look unseemly, but on Satoru it does not. You donât think anything ever could.Â
âHow did you get this?â you whisper, running your fingers along the line.
âFailed assassination attempt on me,â he whispers back. Youâre not even surprised anymore.
Satoru is beautiful. Itâs a thought that strikes you suddenly, like a realisation that had been waiting for the right moment to surface. Heâs all long limbs and lean strength, a body built for running and fighting and surviving. The sight of him, bare before you, makes something warm bloom in your chest.
âYouâre staring,â he teases, but his voice is quieter this time, almost breathless.
You hum, letting your nails drag lightly down his torso, watching the way his stomach tenses in response. âMaybe.â
His breath comes out uneven. Then, as if he canât help himself, he leans down, pressing his weight against you, caging you beneath him. The heat of his body is overwhelming, the feel of bare skin on bare skin sending a shiver through you. Even then, when he presses his lips to yours, he asks, âAre you sure?â
You donât hesitate. âYes.â
He exhales sharply, his forehead dropping against yours. âYouâre going to kill me.â
You laugh, breathless, tilting your head just enough to kiss him again. âThen die quietly.â
His answering grin is crooked. He nudges your nose with his, and his hand finds yours against the sheets as he laces your fingers together. Slowly, he moves.
The first press is slow, careful, an unfamiliar stretch as he eases himself inside you inch by inch. Your breath hitches in your throat, fingers tightening around his while your body adjusts to him. Thereâs a sting, a deep pull of discomfort that makes you tense, but he stills immediately, exhaling a shaky breath against your temple.
Satoruâs lips ghost over your skin, pressing soft kisses to your cheek, your jaw, murmuring quiet praises in between. âYouâre doing so well,â he breathes, voice barely above a whisper. âSo fucking perfect.â
The ache fades gradually, melting into something warmer. You take a slow breath, then shift your hips slightlyâjust enough for him to move. His sigh is shaky, his grip on your hand tightening.Â
He starts moving, and the world narrows to nothing but him. Itâs slow at first, every movement measured, as if heâs trying to memorise every little reaction and gasp that spills from your lips. He watches you the entire time, his expression softer than youâve ever seen it, like heâs seeing you for the first time. The pleasure builds gradually, a slow burn spreading through your veins. Each roll of his hips, each press of his body against yours sends another wave of heat through you, until the discomfort is nothing but a memory. Your legs tighten around him instinctively, pulling him closer, deeper. Satoru groans, his head dropping into the crook of your neck as he curses under his breath.
âFuck,â he murmurs, voice strained. âYou feelââ He shakes his head, unable to finish the thought. His teeth graze lightly over your shoulder. His pace quickens slightly, pulling breathy moans from you with every movement. The pleasure coils tighter and tighter in your stomach, winding like a thread about to snap.Â
And then he angles his hips just right, hitting something inside you that makes your vision blur. A broken sound escapes your lips. Your grip on his hand tightens, nails digging into his skin. âThere?â he asks, voice thick with something you canât quite place.
You nod, unable to form words, and he groans, pressing deeper, chasing every little reaction you give him. Itâs overwhelmingâthe warmth of him above you, the weight of his body pressing you into the mattress, the way he whispers your name like itâs something sacred.
When you finally reach that peak, when the pleasure crests and crashes over you in dizzying waves, your entire body shudders beneath him. The thread snaps, leaving you weightless and drowning in sensation as he follows soon after, his movements growing erratic. Satoru pulls out just in time, a sharp gasp escaping his lips as he spills onto your stomach, one hand gripping your waist as his body trembles above you. His breath is ragged, chest rising and falling rapidly; he takes in the sight of you beneath himâflushed, panting, utterly wrecked.
For a long moment, neither of you move. His breath fans over your collarbone, fingers fiddling with the silver chain around your neck. He presses a lazy kiss to your shoulder, and his grip on your hand loosens just slightly, but he doesnât let go. Eventually, Satoru shifts, rolling onto his back and searching for something to clean you up. He finds a wash basin with a cloth placed nearby; wetting it gently, he pads back to you. The thiefâyour lover, now, you supposeâis gentle, wiping you down with slow, careful movements before tossing the cloth aside. Then, without hesitation, he pulls you against him, wrapping an arm around your waist and pressing his lips against your temple.
His fingers trace absentminded patterns along your spine, his touch featherlight. You feel his lips press against your hair, and the gesture makes your chest ache. You curl into him. He rests his chin on the top of your head. âSleep,â he says.
You donât say anythingâjust let your eyes slip shut, and let yourself sink into the warmth of him and the steady rise and fall of his breathing.
Satoru coaxes you out of bed with the promise of buying you a honey-dipped pastry from one of the vendors youâd been eyeing the day before. You grumble about his methods, saying he has an unfair advantage knowing your weaknesses so well, but truthfully, you donât really mind. You dress quickly, smoothing your hands over the creases in your gown and pulling your hair back with the ivory comb, while Satoru lounges against the doorframe, watching you with that easy, lopsided grin of his. The sunlight catches in his hair, and when he tilts his head at you, something warm curls inside your stomach. You shove it down.Â
The two of you leave the small inn just as the sun begins to rise, the golden light spilling over the rooftops. The streets are still mostly empty, save for a few vendors whoâve begun setting up their stalls. You walk beside Satoru, your hands brushing against each other now and then, though neither of you makes a move to pull away. He fills the quiet with his usual chatter, talking nonsense, teasing you about how you hogged the blankets, about how you snored (you did not). You roll your eyes and shove at his shoulder, but he only laughs, catching your wrist and spinning you in a quick, playful circle.
When you finally reach Nanamiâs bookshop, it looks the same as it did the day beforeâquiet and unassuming, its worn wooden sign creaking slightly in the breeze. You push the door open.
Nanami is at the counter, as usual, a book open in front of him. But you can very quickly tell something is off. He doesnât look up right away. His hands are still, fingers pressed against the page, unmoving. When his gaze finally lifts, it lingers on Satoru first, then flickers to you. He exhales and gives you just the faintest shake of his head. A warning. Leave.
You blink at him, confused. Satoru, oblivious as ever, only grins. âMorning, Nanami,â he sing-songs, stretching as he strolls further inside.
Nanami doesnât answer. You hear footsteps, slow and heavyâthe sound of hard boots against wooden flooring. Not from the entrance. From the back of the shop.
A man steps into view. Tall, with broad shoulders, his dark hair pulled into a high knot, leaving a few loose strands to frame his face. His clothing is different from the soldiers youâve seen beforeâblack and deep blue, his vest embroidered with the sigil of the royal family. But what strikes you most is his expression: Blank and unreadable; the kind of stillness that feels dangerous without needing to try. His eyes, dark and steady, scan the room methodically before resting on Satoru. Heâs flanked by two soldiers on either side of him, standing in metal-plated armour with their faces hidden by the visors on their helmets.
âAh,â the thief says. âSo thatâs why Nanami was looking at me like I was already dead.â
The room is still. Satoru doesnât move. Neither does the man at the back of the shop. Nanami, ever composed, keeps his fingers pressed against the pages of his book, though you can see the tension in his shoulders. He knows exactly who this man is. You donât.
âYouâve gotten sloppy,â he remarks, as if he was simply commenting on the weather. âI had multiple reports of you wandering throughout the city yesterday. You werenât even subtle about it.â A small pause, and then: âFrolicking, they said. With a girl.â
His eyes slide towards you. Your stomach tightens. You donât recognise him, but something about his presence makes your skin prickle. Itâs the way he carries himselfâthe way his posture is lazy, the way his voice is even and smooth, but not emotionless. He reminds you of Satoru, but less flamboyant and raucous.
âI should introduce myself,â he continues, âto our friend here who appears visibly confused. Geto Suguru, captain of the Royal Guard, at your service, madam.â
Satoru merely shakes his head. âYou really ought to pay your soldiers more,â he drawls. âImagine sending them on a wild goose chase to find me. Surely there are more pressing matters to attend toâbut I am flattered about the attention youâre very generously bestowing upon me.â
The man hums, unimpressed. âThey do their jobs well enough. Unlike you.â
His gaze flicks to a low table pushed to the side. To the crownâthe crown that was supposed to be tucked underneath your mattress back in your cottage. Your pulse quickens. Satoru follows his gaze. âHm,â he says, like itâs all very unfortunate, âI suppose thatâs how you found us.â
âYouâre different,â the man says. âYou never used to be this careless.â
Familiarity bleeds into his tone when he says it. They have a history, the thief beside you and the soldier opposite him, that much is clear. Your fingers curl into your palm.
âIs this the part where you tell me Iâve gone soft?â Satoru grins but it doesnât reach his eyes.
Captain Geto lifts a brow. âIf the boot fits.â
Satoru snorts. You stay quiet, your mouth drying up. You donât know how deep their history runs. Youâre not sure if you want to, anymore, even though, earlier, your curiosity about Gojo Satoru knew no bounds.
âYou found me, Suguru,â Satoru says simply, grin vanishing.
The captain inclines his head. âYou always make things difficult,â he says, lifting a hand.
The soldiers step forward. Satoru doesnât fight when they grab him. He stays motionless, doesnât even flinch as they wrench his arms and wrists, twisting them behind his back. He doesnât move, but you do. âSatoruââ
He turns his head towards you, and you swear you see something shutter in his expression. But as quickly as it comes, it goes, replaced by a grin that looks more like a sneer.
âI assume you wonât struggle,â the captain says.
âWouldnât dream of it, Captain Geto,â Satoru says.
You open your mouth, but before you can say anythingâbefore your brain wraps around whatâs happeningâSuguru turns to you. His dark eyes sweep over you, assessive. âYouâre from the villages, arenât you?â
You freeze. His voice is calmânot unkind or threatening. Just certain. There is nothing that suggests immediate condemnation about the way he says it, but it sends a prickle of something cold down your spine. You force yourself to square your shoulders and look him in the eye when you confirm his question.
Suguru nods at your reply, something thoughtful about the way he regards you. âThen you have a choice,â he says.
âA⌠choice?â Your pulse thunders against your skin.
He tilts his head once more, slightly, and for a moment, you could almost call him composedâgracious, even. His words are anything but. âEither you come with us, as his accomplice. Or you return to your village and pretend this never happened.â
The words drop between you like stones. Your throat tightens. You know what heâs offering. A way out. A chance to walk away and go back to the life you left behind. You can let these past few weeks become nothing more than a bitter memory, something you can tuck away and bury deep. But if you leaveâ
You find yourself looking at Satoru. He grins at you, looking for all the world like he doesnât have a care. Like he isnât standing there, bound, with soldiers at his back and chains ready to be locked around his wrists. But you also see the way his shoulders have gone taut, the way his fingers twitch, just slightly, like he wants to reach for you. Before you can think to answer, Satoru cuts in.
âI lied to her.â
Your heart hammers in your chest at his sudden declaration. Captain Geto raises a brow, waiting.
Satoruâs grin widens, careless and easy. âShe didnât know who I was. She didnât know about the crown or any of this. I played her the fool, and charmed my way into her good graces. Can you blame her?â
You feel like the ground beneath you has vanished. Heâs lying. You know it, Suguru knows it, Nanami knows itâbut he says it anyway, as if willing it into truth, daring Suguru to challenge him.Â
âYou never change,â the captain murmurs.
âNope,â the thief agrees, popping the âpâ sound.
Thereâs a silence; a slow, quiet sigh. Suguru shakes his head. âTake him.â
The soldiers move. You react on instinct, lurching forward, reaching for himâbut rough hands seize your shoulders, pulling you back. Nanami, you realise. His sturdy armsâtoo muscular for a simple booksellerâhold you in place no matter how much you squirm in his grip.
Satoru, on the other hand, merely presses his lips together when they fasten the iron cuffs around his wrists. You feel the sharp sting of panic rise up your throat. âNoââ Your voice cracks, but no one is listening. Your limbs feel useless, weak, as the soldiers push past you. âWaitââ
Captain Geto steps forward, blocking your path, his presence an immovable wall of black and blue. His dark eyes settle on yours, calm and resolute. âWe found the crown at a cottage.â
His words feel like ice water down your spine. You swallow hard. Suguru doesnât look triumphant, doesnât even look like heâs enjoying this. He states it as an inevitable fact. âThe entire village was searched,â he continues, measured and unhurried, like heâs laying out the pieces of a story so that you understand. âWe found the stolen heirloom hidden there. And if it was there, then that means whoever lives in that cottageââÂ
He pauses. You donât dare to breathe.
ââwas harbouring the kingdomâs most wanted criminal.â
A leaden weight settles in your chest. No. No, thatâs not true. I didnât know. But the words donât come. Because you did know, right from the start, when you stole the crown from him. It was already too late, then, and it is too late now, because nowânow, you know the shape of his smile, the sound of his laugh, the calluses on his fingers. Satoru was protecting your secret, and the realisation burns. Your nails bite into your palm. You want to say something, to fight back and demand an explanation from Geto Suguru. Satoru turns his head towards you.
The soldiers pull him to the door, and you watch, your throat tight and your breath shallow. Your feet wonât move, your body feels frozen, like some part of you believes this is the last time youâll see him. Like some part of you is already mourning. Satoruâs grin doesnât slip. His white hair falls over his eyes, and for a brief second, you swear you see something thereâsomething reassuring. Heâs telling you itâs going to be okay. Heâs telling you not to follow.
âGojo Satoru,â the captain announces, âas the Captain of the Royal Guard, as per the First Commanderâs decree, I hereby arrest you for the cases of looting, thievery, causing bodily harm and injury, failure to repay your debts to the capital, stealing the royal familyâs most precious heirloom, and betrayal to the Royal Crown. Do you object to any of these claims?â
âNo, Captain,â Satoru says.
âVery well. Your punishment for the following acts of treason is death. The execution will be tomorrow, at sundown. Do you have anything you wish to say?â
His blue eyes find yours. âNo, Captain,â he repeats, quieter this time.
Your vision blurs. Gojo Satoru, the menace, the thief youâve journeyed with, the man who knows you more intimately than anyone else, smiles at you, eyes crinkling at the corners, as the guards lead him away.
âThereâs a history, isnât there?â You cross your arms over your chest. Nanami and Utahimeâwho had arrived almost as soon as Nanami had sent wordâlook at each other. âBetween the captain and Satoru, andâand you two and Satoru. Tell me.â
Itâs been two hours since Satoru was arrested. Two hours of restless pacing, your mind running in frantic circles and your hands clenching and unclenching as you tried to come up with a planâany planâthat didnât result in you standing at the end of a sword.Â
Nanami had stopped you before you could even try to follow the captain and his soldiers. âThatâs suicide,â he had told you, his voice low but firm. âYou wouldnât make it past the castle gates.â He had barely convinced you to stay. But the truth was, you wouldnât have made it far. Not when Geto had given you just one day to gather your things, buy what you needed from the capital, and leave. Leave. The word itches under your skin. You had nodded shakily when Captain Geto had told you as much. But even as you agreed, you knew. Youâre not leavingânot while Satoru is to be executed.
Nanami sighs. âItâs not something you need to involve yourself in.â
âThatâs not your call to make,â you snap.
Utahime shifts beside him, arms crossed. âYou donât understand what youâre asking.â
âI donât care,â you argue. âSatoru is in a cell somewhere, waiting to be executed, and youâre acting like itâs already over.â You take a step closer. âBut itâs not, is it? Because if it were, you wouldnât be here.â
âFine,â the tailor says. Nanami opens his mouth to protest, but she gives him a look and he stays silent. She leans against the table, fingers drumming on the wood, and takes a deep breath before she starts:
âWe were all soldiers once. Me, Nanami, our friends Shoko and Haibara, Geto, and Gojo. We trained together. We fought together. We thought weâd die together. And some of us did. Haibaraâhe was the youngest of us. Too kind, too trustingââ her jaw tightensâ âand he shouldnât have been sent on that mission. Gojo and Geto were the best of us. The strongest. That strength made them invaluable, but it also put them close to the former captain of the Royal Guard.â
âThe First Commander?â you ask.
Nanami nods, his expression darkening. âAfter Haibaraâs death, Geto and Gojo⌠They changed. Geto became more distant, more dissociated from all the blood and the killing. Gojo became more reckless. At first, we thought it was just grief. Losing Haibaraâit did something to all of us. But Geto and Gojo⌠they were different. They knew something we didnât.â
Utahime shifts uncomfortably. âThey spent more and more time with the First Commander. We didnât think much of it. He was a brilliant strategist, and they were his best soldiersâit made sense that heâd favour them. Then, one day, while we were busy sparring at the training grounds near the east wing, Geto and the First Commander came up to us. They saidâthey said that theyâve entrusted us with a new mission: To find and kill Gojo Satoru.â
Your blood runs cold. â...What?â
âWe didnât know why,â Nanami says, grimly. âWe still donât. But we didnât have a choice, so we played along. We followed his trail, but we never got too closeâwe made sure of it. Geto was the only one who really cared; the rest of us couldnât stomach killing our friend.â He lets loose a breath, shoulders slumping. âEventually, we got sent away for being too incompetent. I took over my fatherâs shop. Utahime became a tailor. Shoko moved to another kingdom to practice medicine.â
âAnd Satoru became the kingdomâs most wanted criminal,â you finish for him.
âYes.â The man sounds tired, resigned when he says it. âThe former captain of the Royal Guard became the First Commanderâhe is the current kingâs elder brother, after allâand Geto rose in the ranks to become the new captain. The late queen passed away, and the kingâs health deteriorated rapidly, until the First Commander was forced to rule in his name.â
Your head spins with all this information. There must be more to this storyâthere has to be. Satoru couldnât have become a notorious thief for no reason. Geto Suguru couldnât possibly have still been hunting for him if there wasnât something Satoru knew. Something invaluable. How does the crown tie into this? Satoru must have stolen it for a reason. What could he gain from stealing the royal familyâs most priceless heirloom, other than a grand amount of money? You know Satoru wouldnât have stolen the crown just for the fun of it.Â
Youâre missing something. Something crucial. You just need to figure out what. But first, you need to save the thief who showed you the world beyond the borders of your village.
Nanami exhales, rubbing a hand down his face. His expression remains blank, but thereâs something tense about the way his fingers curl into a fist before he forces them to relax. Utahime has her arms crossed, her fingers gripping the fabric of her sleeves. They had hesitated before, unwilling to speak of the past, but you are nothing if not determined and stubborn.
âDo you guys know your way in and out of the palace?â You shift on your feet. The words leave your lips with urgency, and you donât dare let yourself hope.
Utahime answers without hesitation. âOf course. I couldnât forget it even if I tried.â
The certainty in her voice makes your chest loosen just the slightest bit. You chew on your lip, mind racing. The execution is set for tomorrow at sundown. The timing isnât a coincidenceâif your hunch is right, Captain Geto has chosen to use the lantern festival as a veil for the event. A celebration of light and joy to mask the bloodshed.Â
Your fingers twitch at your sides, the beginning threads of an idea weaving together in your mind. Itâs reckless and dangerous, but what other choice do you have? âI have,â you say slowly, âa horse and a cat waiting for me outside the capital.â
Nanamiâs brows furrow. âWhat does that have to do with anything?â
You allow yourself a small, wry smile. The plan forming in your head is far from perfectâitâs borderline absurd, reallyâbut the best distractions are often the ones no one expects.
âWhat better way to cause a disruption at a crowded event,â you say, leaning forward slightly, âthan by letting a massive warhorse go rogue?â
The lanterns havenât been lit yetâthere are still hours to go for thatâbut the festivities begin with pomp and affair, much like the evening before, when Satoru and you had danced in the town square. Laughter rings out in waves, warm and unrestrained, carried through the crisp summer air laced with the sweet scent of spiced cider and roasted chestnuts. Music swells from the centre of the town square, a lively melody played by nimble hands on well-worn strings, and for a moment, the festival feels untouchableâlike something out of a dream.
Until a scream splits through the dusk. The first crack in the revelry appears as festival-goers stumble back, their joy crumbling into confusion, then alarm. The cobblestone streets tremble beneath the furious pounding of hooves, and the festivalâonce so bright and goldenâerupts into chaos.Â
Like a demon birthed from light and flame, the beast arrives. A massive white warhorse, his snowy coat gleaming beneath the lampsâ glow, surges into the square, his reins flopping about his sides with no one there to ride him and his mane whipping about with the force of his gallops. His powerful frame barrels through the market stalls, hooves kicking up a storm of dirt and debris. A merchant barely dives out of the way as a cart of oranges topples over, spilling fruit across the street in a surge of gold and tangerine. The scent of crushed citrus only seems to amplify the panic.
Sukuna. Warhorse, menace, and a walking natural disaster. He rears up, hooves cutting through the air, and lets loose a shrill, defiant neigh that sends festival-goers scrambling. Children clutch at their mothersâ cloaks. Guardsâonce lazily stationed at their postsâsnap to attention, hands flying to their weapons. Merchants abandon their wares, shouting frantically instead.
From the alleyway, you watch, heart hammering against your rib cage. The plan was simple. Let Sukuna loose. Create a distraction. Slip into the palace unnoticed. You were not, however, expecting this. Your eyes drift to where Nanami and Utahime stand, safely behind a water fountain, observing to make sure no real harm is caused and no one is actually injured. Utahime looks mildly shocked, while Nanami looks a little green.
Sukuna swings his massive head to an unfortunate vegetable vendor, plucks a perfectly round cabbage from the wreckage, chews it once, twiceâand then hurls it full force at the nearest guardâs nether region. The cabbage makes impact with a resounding thud. The man crumples instantly. You slap a hand over your mouth to keep yourself from laughing, holding Megumi tightly against your chest with your other one. Youâve replaced Utahimeâs gown with your tunic and trousers from before and a pair of sturdy boots; itâs easier to move and hide the cat against your chest by covering him with your cloak. Your pack rests against your shoulders, filled to the brim with all your supplies.Â
The horse pivots, tail lashing as he sends a stack of pastries flying with a single, well-placed kick. Cream-filled tarts arc through the air, and one particularly unlucky festival-goer takes a hit directly to the face, stumbling backwards in stunned silence. The panic spreads like fire through dry brush. Flower stands topple as people shove their way through the square, knocking over barrels and baskets in their desperate attempts to flee. Musicians abandon their instruments, their once-lively tunes now replaced by the erratic clang of an overturned drum.
You press further into the shadows, gripping Megumi a little tighter. âAlright,â you whisper, gaze darting to the now-abandoned palace gates. âThis is our chance.â
The cat flicks his tail against your arm, but doesnât resist when you set him down. He slinks forward, paws silent against the stone. You take one last glance towards the town squareâwhere Nanami and Utahime are watching Sukuna with the expressions of a duo questioning every single life decision theyâve ever madeâbefore slipping out of the alley.
The plan had been reckless from the start. Nanami had called it suicidal. Utahime had looked moments away from smacking you when you first suggested sneaking into the palace alone. But when it became clear you wouldnât be swayed, sheâd relented, pressing a map into your hands and tracing a single, hidden path with her fingertip.Â
âThe old passageway beneath the garden wall,â she had told you. âHardly anyone remembers it existsâexcept for Geto, maybe, but he wonât be looking for you. It leads you straight through the kitchens and towards the prison underground.â
From this distance, the palace looms like a beast sleeping beneath the stars, its many towers and arching spires silhouetted against the deep blue of the sky. The golden sconces hanging from its walls cast a warm glow, creating long shadows that dance across the stone. Behind you, beyond the square, the festival rages on despite the commotion Sukuna caused. With a population this big, a simple horse wonât stop the people from celebratingâno, Sukuna had done his job well. You donât hesitate in front of the palace. Hesitation means death.
The main gates are impossibleâtoo well-guarded and exposed. But Utahime had spoken of another way, a smaller side entrance used for deliveries that leads you straight to the garden. Itâs tucked away in the farthest corner of the palace grounds. The guards stationed there have been pulled towards the chaos in the square, just as planned. Still, you move carefully.
The shadows are your only ally as you press yourself to the outer walls, each step as silent as you can be. Megumi slinks beside you, nothing more than a wisp in the darkness with a half-torn ear, his sharp green eyes scanning for movement. You follow the curve of the stone wall, past ivy-covered archways and gushing marble fountains, untilâ
There. A wooden gate, half-hidden behind overgrown vines. You reach for the iron handle, fingers curling around the cool metal. You push against it with your shoulder, and it gives. The gate swings open just enough for you and Megumi to slip through, and then youâre inside the palace.
The palace gardens stretch before you in a maze of hedges and stone pathways. White roses bloom in the moonlight, petals pale as ghosts, their sweet scent thick and cloying. Marble statues of forgotten kings stand in silence, their hollow eyes seeming to follow you as you move. Somewhere beyond, you hear the distant murmur of voicesâguards perhaps, manning the main halls. But here, amidst the leaves and the flowers, you are alone.Â
You weave through the bushes, careful not to let your cloak catch on thorns. The path Utahime described had been clear in your mind before, but now, with the pressure to get Satoru out as quickly as possible increasing with every beat of your heart, the details feel hazy. A fountain, an old tree, and then the passage.
The fountain comes first, its water glimmering like molten silver under the moonlight. You crouch low, pressing yourself against its cool stone base, scanning the area. Thereâs no one around. A few paces ahead, a twisted oak rises from the ground, its gnarled roots stretching across the earth like reaching fingers. Its bark is scarred, and its branches are half-bare despite the seasonâjust as Utahime had said.
Your pulse quickens. At the base of the tree, partially covered by weeds and wildflowers, a patch of stone juts out at an odd angle. Unlike the rest of the carefully arranged stone tiles in the garden, this one looks out of placeâcovered by dirt and worn by time. You drop to your knees and press your fingers against the surface. There is a slight shift, a breadth of space where there should be none.
This is it. With a careful push, the stone gives way, revealing a dark opening beneath the roots. The air that rushes out is humid and damp, as though it has not been stirred in years. You glance at Megumi. âWell,â you whisper to no one in particular. âThereâs no turning back now.â
You drop legs-first into the hidden passageway. The moment your boots hit the ground, the world above seems to shrink away, muffled by layers of soil and stone. The darkness here is absolute. It presses in from all sides, thick and mawkish, the kind that swallows light and sound alike. For a moment, you do nothing but breathe, your fingers braced against the rough tunnel walls. The air is damp and stale, carrying the scent of moss, old stone, and something faintly metallicâlike rain-soaked iron.
In front of you, Megumi lands soundlessly, his lithe form slipping into the darkness easily. You hear the soft thump of paws against dirt, then nothing. If not for the glint of his sharp eyes, or the way he presses his body against your leg, he might as well have disappeared.
Your fingers find the small lantern strapped to your belt. You turn the wick as low as it will go before striking the flint. A tiny ember flares, then blooms into a soft, flickering glow, just enough to illuminate the path ahead. The tunnel stretches forward, curving out of sight, its ceiling low enough that you have to crouch slightly to keep moving.
The walls here are oldâolder than the palace above, maybe even older than the kingdom itself. Stones worn smooth by time line the passage, their edges softened by centuries of damp air and creeping roots. In some places, cracks have formed, letting in faint sounds from the world aboveâthe distant echoes of music and cheering from the lantern festival. Each sound feels impossibly far away, as if the tunnel exists in a world entirely separate from the one above.
You move forward carefully, your steps light on the uneven ground. Megumi pads ahead, his tail lifted in the air. The path narrows, forcing you to squeeze between the crumbling walls, and then widens again.
The passage spits you out into a vast, cavernous room, its ceiling arched and lined with thick wooden beams. Dust floats in the lanternâs dim glow, stirred by your arrival. Wooden barrels sit stacked in rows along the far wall, their formerly pristine surfaces marred by age and neglect. Bottles of aged wine and forgotten casks of ale sit upon the rotting shelves, relics of a time when this place had been used for more than secrecy. You drag your fingers across one of the barrels as you pass, feeling the rough texture of splintered wood beneath your touch.
Somewhere above, a faint creak echoes through the ceilingâa floorboard shifting beneath weight. Your breath stills. Someone is walking the halls above. You and Megumi freeze in place, listening. Silence.
Whoever it was is gone now. But the reminder is clear: Youâre inside the palace now. You are running out of time. Exhaling slowly, you move to the far end of the cellar, where Utahime had said the servantsâ door would be. The wood is warped with age, but when you press your shoulder against it, it gives way with a quiet groan. Beyond it, a narrow stairway spirals upwards. At the top lies the palace kitchensâand beyond that, the key you need to free Satoru.
You unsling your pack, shifting it in your arms, and step cautiously into the palace kitchens. The air is thick with the scent of past mealsâroasted meats, cinnamon, and something rich and spiced. The massive hearth smoulders with dying embers, glowing orange.Â
The kitchen is deserted, just as Utahime had said it would be. Most of the palace staff must have gone to watch the festival, orâmore conveniently for youâto see whatever disaster Sukuna had caused in the square.
Still, you donât take any chances. You straighten your back, undo the strings of your pack, and heft it in your arms like a sack. Striding forward, you lift your chin as though you belong here. Megumi flits past your feet, disappearing underneath one of the heavy wooden tables.
The ruse almost worksâuntil just as you near the door leading out of the kitchen, footsteps sound from the far hallway. You freeze for only a moment before forcing your limbs to loosen. With a quick breath, you throw a mild look of annoyance onto your face, shift the pack higher onto your hip, and march forward. The door swings open and you nearly collide with a harried-looking cook. Heâs a broad-shouldered man with a walrus moustache, apron stained with what looks like a dayâs worth of work, and he stops short when he sees you.
âYouâwho are you?â His moustache quivers. His eyes flick to the open bag in your arms, filled with a hastily gathered of carrots, leeks, and a single sad-looking turnip.Â
You let out an exasperated huff. âFinally,â you say, injecting the right amount of irritation into your voice. âDo you have any idea how hard it was to get these here?â
âWhat?â
âThe town squareâs a disaster! Some lunatic set a warhorse loose! I had to take the long way around the outer walls just to get here, and by the time I arrived at the usual gate, no one was there to let me in.â You shake your pack for emphasis. âThought I was going to have to eat these myself. Youâre lucky I even bothered.â
The cook eyes you suspiciously, but your complaint sounds mundane enough to be true. He rubs a hand over his face, sighing heavily. âThe gods are testing me tonight. Fine, fine, put them on the table. But be quick about it.â
âYes sir,â you mutter under your breath, making a show of stomping towards the long wooden table in the center of the kitchen. You set your pack down with a decisive thud, dusting your hands afterwards for good measure. The cook is already distracted, grumbling to himself as he turns towards the fire. You take the opportunity to scan the room, eyes landing on a rack of pots and pans hanging next to the hearth.
A weapon. Your fingers itch. Itâs not that youâre planning to hit someone, but itâs always good to be prepared. And you wouldnât exactly be the first person to use a frying pan as a last-minute means of self-defense; youâve heard of tales of the princess of a neighbouring kingdom escaping her tower where she was kept imprisoned with nothing but a chameleon for company and a frying pan for safety.
Without hesitating, you grab one from the rack, testing its weight in your hand. Itâs sturdy. Heavy enough to knock a man out cold if necessary. You slide it under your arm, keeping it close as you edge your way towards the door.Â
âOi.â
You stop. The cook is watching you again. You lift the pan slightly. âBorrowing this.â
His moustache quivers again. âFor what?â
âTo use,â you say vaguely. âSurely I deserve it after having brought you your vegetables despite all the trials and tribulations I faced along the way.â
âYou know what? I donât want to know. Just get the Hell out of my kitchen.â
You donât need to be told twice. With a slight nod, you make your way towards the hall, Megumi slipping out from his hiding place to follow at your heels. The moment youâre out of sight, you tighten your grip on the pan and let out a slow, relieved breath.
Youâve done it. Youâve infiltrated the palace.
The halls stretch before you, long and gilded, lined with tapestries and portraits. The marble beneath your feet gleams even in the dim torchlight, and the walls are carved with intricate patterns of swirling gold, catching the flicker of flames like veins of molten fire.
It really is beautiful. A shame you donât have the time to appreciate it.
Satoru had spoken of this palace with an almost begrudging sort of fondness, describing the soaring ceiling and the endless hallways. Heâd said that it was too grand and gaudy, but his voice had betrayed him. Maybe, if things were different, youâd have let yourself stop for a moment; might have run your fingers over the carved archways or peeked behind the heavy velvet curtains just to see if what he had said is true.
But right now, Satoru is locked in a cage beneath all this finery, and if you didnât move fast enough, heâd stay there.Â
So you force your gaze away from all this grandeur and press forward, Megumi keeping pace beside you. The entrance to the underground prison is right where Nanami had explained it would beâtucked away at the end of a long corridor, next to the life-size portrait of the late queen. A single guard stands watch, leaning lazily against the wall, arms crossed over his chest.
Itâs almost insulting. Youâd expected some kind of resistance, but clearly, the festival is a grander affair than you thought itâd be, given the fact that the entire palace is mercifully empty. (Take that, Gojo, you think. Itâs not just some stupid, fucking dream.)
The guard is young, barely older than you, and his helmet is tilted back on his head like he doesnât expect to actually need it. A ring of keys hangs from a nail on the wall beside him, just out of his immediate reach. You exhale slowly. It has to be fast.
You step forward, letting your footfalls become just loud enough to catch his attention. The guard startles, straightening as his hand drifts to the sword at his hip. âYouâre not supposed to beââ
You donât give him a chance to finish. Before he can react, you swing the frying pan. Thereâs a thunk as the cast iron connects with his temple, and his expression shifts from alarm to blank surprise before his knees buckle beneath him. He falls to the floor, out cold before he even hits the ground. For a moment, you just stand there, blinking down at his unconscious form.
âOkay,â you mutter. âThat actually worked.â Megumi lets out an unimpressed meow.Â
You shake off the momentary shock and step over the fallen guard, reaching for the keys. Theyâre cold in your hand as you lift them from the nail, heavier than you expected.. You kneel, looping a thin cord youâd kept in your pocket through the keyring before carefully tying it around Megumiâs neck. The metal dangles against his dark fur, catching the light as it sways with the felineâs movement. Megumi flicks his ears.
âDonât look at me like that,â you whisper, scratching behind his ears in silent apology. âYouâre the only one small enough to slip through the bars. Go save Gojo, yeah? Iâll let you use him as a mattress for the rest of your life if you do.â
You glance toward the heavy wooden door leading to the prison. You can already feel the cold draft seeping through the hinges. Satoru is waitingâand youâre almost there.
The moment Megumi slips through the prison door, you press yourself against the cold stone wall, every muscle in your body coiled tight. Now comes the hardest part: Waiting.
The silent stretches, suffocating. The distant echoes of the lantern festival feel like they belong to another world entirelyâone where people are laughing, dancing, reveling underneath lantern-lit skies. But here, away from all the joyousness, in the belly of the beast, the air is still. You tighten your grip on the frying pan, the only weapon you have, though youâre not sure how much use itâll be if someone really finds you. The minutes drag, each one more agonising than the last, and you fight the urge to start pacing.
Whatâs taking so long? Did Megumi make it inside? Did Satoru get the keys? Did somethingâ A sudden, ear-splitting clang echoes from the prison depthsâand then, footsteps. Heavy, fast, running. Before you can brace yourself, the door bursts open.
Gojo Satoru is a blur of white and shackles and laughter, stumbling forward as if he canât believe the oxygen heâs breathing is real. Megumi bounds after him. The thiefâs hair is a mess, his clothes rumpled from captivity, and the iron cuffs that once bound his wrists now dangle uselessly from one hand with the lock wrenched open.
He stops, just for a moment, breathing heavily, and thenâ âOh.â
He reaches for you. Strong arms reach around you, lifting you clean off your feet before you can protest. He spins you once, laughter bubbling from his chest, the sound bright and alive and so him that your heart lurches.
âYouâre brilliant, did you know?â he says, breathless, grinning into your hair. âMy beautiful, clever girl.â
Heat rushes to your face, but before you can come up with anything resembling a response, he pulls back just enough to look at you. His hands settle firm at your waist, fingers pressing into you as if he needs to ground himself, needs to believe that youâre real.Â
âYou actually did it,â he murmurs, voice softer now, as if the realisation is still settling in. His eyesâso much brighter now that heâs not sentenced to imminent deathâroam your face, searching. âYou came for me.â
âOf course I did,â you say, and thereâs a conviction to your voice that you didnât know you were capable of. âWhat, did you think I was going to leave you in there?â
Satoru lets out a breath that could almost be a laugh. His fingers tighten just slightly, the corner of his mouth quirking upwards. âNah,â he says. âYou love me too much for that.â
You would have smacked him for that, but Megumi hisses in warning, andâ
A slow, deliberate clap shatters the moment. The sound echoes through the empty corridor. Satoru stiffens. You twist in his arms, and there, standing at the entrance to the corridor, framed by torchlight, is Geto Suguru.
He is calm. He is composed. His uniform is pristine, untouched by the madness of the outside world. Something about the way he standsâthe way his eyes glintâtells you that he had been expecting this.
âOh, my,â Geto says, dark amusement curling at the edges of his voice. âWhat a touching reunion.â
He doesnât lunge, doesnât rushâsimply tilts his head, fingers shifting ever-so slightly around the hilt of the sword sheathed at his waist. But that is enough. Satoru reacts immediately.
âTime to go,â he says, and before you can even register it, his hand grips yours and pulls.
You break out into a run, Megumi bounding alongside you both. Your feet barely touch the polished marble floors as you tear through the hallway. Satoruâs grip is firm, unyielding, tugging you forward even as your heartbeat roars in your ears.
The palace corridors blur past in streaks of gold and shadow. The vast, open walls, formerly filled with the hum of courtly affairs and the soft shuffle of silk-clad nobles, now echo with the rhythm of your own footsteps. The grandeur, the impossible opulenceânone of it matters now. The only thing that does is putting as much distance between you and the man behind you.
Geto does not rush, but you feel him there, just beyond the edges of your vision. He moves like inevitability, his steps unhurried, the soft tap of his boots against stone barely audible over the breathless pace Satoru sets.
Left. Satoru veers sharply, nearly yanking you off balance as he takes a turn down a narrower passageway. The walls here loom closer, lined with paintings depicting long-forgotten wars and rulers whose names history has nearly erased. Megumi races ahead, his black fur a blur against the dim light, navigating the twisting hallways with a hunterâs instinct.
âWhereââ you barely manage, lungs burningâ âare we going?â
Satoru doesnât answer immediately. His grip tightens around your wrist, fingers warm despite the chill in the air. Then, finally: âThe throne room.â
You nearly stumble. âThe what?â
âBest place to corner him.â He doesnât sound the least bit winded, despite the speed at which youâre moving. âNo exits. Just him and me.â
âThatâs a terrible plan!â
âOh? Got a better one, beautiful?â
You donât. Not one that doesnât involve getting caught. Another turn. Another impossibly long hallway. The walls here are differentâsleek, dark stone rather than marble, lined with towering pillars that stretch high into the vaulted ceiling. This is the heart of the castle, you realise. The oldest part. The place where power has been passed from one ruler to the next, where history has been carved into the very foundations. The entrance to the throne room looms ahead. Twin doors. Impossibly tall, made of dark oak reinforced with gold filigree. The sigils of the royal bloodline are carved into them, worn smooth from centuries of rule.
Megumi reaches it first. He doesnât slowâjust slips through the narrow gap left ajar. Satoru doesnât stop running, either. He shoves against the heavy doors, and they groan open, the vast chamber beyond yawning wide to swallow you whole.
The throne room is silent. No guards. No nobles. Just tall stone columns, high windows that cast fractured moonlight against the polished floors, a row of swords hanging on the far end of the wall, and the lone, empty throne that sits at the far end of the chamber. Your stomach drops when you see whatâs placed on the throneâs seat.
The crown. Geto Suguru has expected this to happenâhad planned for it, even. All for what?
Satoru releases your wrist just as the doors slam shut behind you. The sound of approaching footsteps makes you whip around so quickly, you nearly lose grip of the handle of the frying pan. Satoru turns, unhurried, a smile curling at the edges of his lips even before Geto steps into the dim light.
âHow predictable,â the captain drawls. His fingers roll the hilt of his sword idly, his gaze sweeping from the empty throne to Satoru, to you. âWell played, Satoru. But Iâm afraid this game is already over.â
He doesnât move in a rushânot in the reckless, desperate way of a man eager to end a fightâbut with slow steps. The grip on his sword remains loose, casual, as if heâs hardly concerned. As if this is nothing more than a simple conversation. Satoru backs up, just as measured, retreating step by step towards the far wall where the swords hang in an orderly row. You stay still, carefully stepping away, Megumi hiding behind your legs. This is not your fight to partake in; you know this because the captain barely glances your way.
âYouâve always been stubborn,â Geto says, tilting his head as his boots click against the floor. âAll those years, running in circles, chasing shadows. Looking for something that was right in front of you the entire time.â
âI donât know,â says Satoru, almost lazily. âI think I was more preoccupied with avoiding your assassination attempts.â
Geto chuckles. âCome now, old friend. I gave you plenty of warning.â
âOh, sure. That time you nearly poisoned my drink?â Satoru grins manically. âTell me, was that your idea, or were you merely using the First Commander as inspiration?â
Your breath hitches. The First Commander?Â
The laughter in Getoâs expression doesnât quite reach his eyes. âI was doing what I had to do. Look at me now, Gojo. Iâm the Captain of the Royal Guard, while youâre just a fugitive with no place to call home. This couldâve been your position, had you not decided to be so fucking righteous.â
âRight. Itâs my fault for finding out that the First Commander murdered the late queen.â
Everything clicks into place. Nanami had mentioned that the First Commander was the current kingâs older brotherâthe current king, who has been severely ill for the past decade, who hasnât been seen in the public eye ever since, because he was supposedly on permanent bedrest. Your heartbeat quickens. Just how much rot is this kingdom hiding behind the rubies?
âAh,â Satoru continues. âIâm forbidden from speaking of it, arenât I?â
The captainâs jaw ticks, but his smirk remains. âI donât know what youâre talking about.â
The thief scoffs. âOf course. Because it wasnât you who told me to shut up about it instead of confronting the old man. To turn a blind eye, to let it happen âcause it wasâwhat did you say?âbigger than us.â He laughs, sharp and humourless. âHowâs that working out for you, Suguru?â
âStill so naĂŻve.â
âAnd youâre still so blind,â Satoru throws back. He reaches behind him, grabbing the nearest sword from the wall, and swings it down. âWhat was it, again? The commander deserved the throne because he was older? Because the king was too soft? Because it was for the good of the kingdom?â His voice drips with mockery. âCome on, Suguru. Give me that speech again. I loved that speech.â
Getoâs fingers shift on the hilt of his sword. âYou never understood.â
âOh, I understood perfectly,â Satoru snaps. âThe commander couldnât sit on his hands and wait for fate to hand him what he thought was his. So he took matters into his own poison-stained hands. And you let him.â
Silence stretches between them, thick as fog, pressing against the walls. You swallow hard, watching the way Getoâs jaw sets.Â
âWeâve had this conversation before, right before you decided to rat me out,â he continues. âWe both knew. We knew he was killing them.â
Getoâs eyes flash. âAnd what was I supposed to do, Satoru? Fight back? Get myself executed like you nearly did? The commander had already won the moment the queen died.â
âThe queen,â Satoru seethes, âwho had a son, Suguru. The trueborn heir to the throne. The very thing the commander feared most.â
Getoâs lips partâthen press into a thin line. There. There it is. The missing piece, the lock to the key.
Satoru takes a step forward, lifting the sword in his hand. âThatâs what broke you, isnât it?â His voice is softer now, but not kind. âYou could stomach the poison. You could stomach the lies. But when he tried to kill the baby, that was when you hesitated.â
âI thought you were dead,â Geto says, almost conversationally. âWhen you ran. The first few months when they declared you a fugitive, I thought you wouldnât make it. And yet, here you are.â
âI am very hard to kill.â
âThat, you are.â
They move at the same time. Steel clashes in a burst of sparks, the force of the impact ringing through the cavernous throne room. Satoru twists, parrying the next strike with ease, but Geto presses forward, forcing him back towards the dais. They circle each other, two hunters hunting each other. You tighten your grip on the frying panâthough it might be rendered useless given the situation.
âYou were so convinced you could save him,â Geto murmurs, keeping his blade pointed at Satoruâs chest. âThat you could find the heir, put him on the throne, and somehow make this kingdom right again.â
âAnd you were so convinced that I wouldnât,â Satoru says. âIt took a while, but I managed to steal the crown, didnât I? The late queenâmay she rest in peaceâwas clever. It was tough trying to figure it outâthat the clue rested upon what belonged to the true heir.â
âClever, indeed. But not clever enough. You see, Iâve already figured it all out.â Geto lunges again, blade flashing. Satour meets him mid-strike. They push against each other, each testing the otherâs strength, neither giving way.
âYou think youâve won just because you found the crown?â Geto taunts. âBecause you figured out the queenâs little riddle? It changes nothing.â
âNo, Suguru. It changes everything.â Satoru grins, eyes alight with someone reckless. He shifts his weight, twisting free of Getoâs grip, and swings his sword in a sharp arc. Geto blocks it, but just barelyâhis foot skids slightly against the polished marble, his balance momentarily off. Satoru seizes the opening, pressing forward with quick, calculated strikes.
The clang of their swords echoes, the only sound save for your own shallow breaths. You inch closer to Megumi, keeping him shielded behind you, even as you cannot tear your eyes away from the fight.
âYou were there that night,â Satoru bites out in between strikes, âwhen the commander told us of his plan for the queenâs son to be killed.â His blade swings, forcing Geto another step back. âYou heard the order.â A sharp clash. âYou almost let it happen.â Another blow. âAnd you knew I wouldnât.â
Geto parries the next attack with more force, forcing Satoru back. âI told you to let it go. I told you it was too late.â
âAnd I told you to go fuck yourself!â Satoru fires back. He dodges another strike easily, as though his years of training as a soldier have not left his body despite the disuse of sword-fighting.
âYou shouldâve joined me,â he says. âWe couldâve risen the ranks together. Fixed things together.â
âFixed things? You wanted to erase the truth. I wanted to bring it back.â Satoruâs eyes narrow. âThatâs why you never killed me, isnât it? Because some part of youâsome part of youâwanted me to prove you wrong.â
A flicker of something crosses Getoâs face. A hesitation. A second too long. Satoru moves. His blade sweeps low, and Geto barely has the time to block before heâs forced back again, this time nearly stumbling. His boot scrapes against the first step of the dais, right in front of the empty throneâmere paces away from where youâre standing, clutching your frying pan like itâs a lifeline. Satoru stops, standing just a few feet away, his own sword lowered slightly, his breathing steady.
Geto exhales slowly, eyes shadowed, and thenâfinallyâhe laughs. Low; amused; dark. âYou always were the best, Satoru,â he says. âIâll give you that. But Iâve figured it out too. The queenâs secret. The heirâs true identity.â
Satoruâs expression doesnât waver. âOh?â
A slow smile spreads across Getoâs face. âOkkotsu Yuta is his name,â he says.Â
You take a step forward. Geto continues, âThe last remaining royalââ
Another step. ââwas raised asââ
Another step; this time, you raise your arms over your head. ââa low-life peasant on the border between our kingdom and the next.â
CLANG!
Geto Suguruâs mouth slackens. His eyes go cross-eyed before he crumples to the floor, unconscious. Satoru blinks. His eyes dart up to meet yours.
You stand over the captain of the Royal Guardâs stupefied body, the frying pan gripped so tightly in your hands, the handle digs into your palms. â...Oops?â
Satoru exhalesâa sound caught between disbelief and sheer delightâbefore throwing his head back with a bark of laughter. âYou,â he says, stepping over Getoâs unconscious form, âare fucking amazing. And here I was, thinking Iâd have to duel him for longer.â
You lower the frying pan, shoulders sagging slightly as the adrenaline ebbs. âYeah, well, you were taking too long.â
He drops the sword; it falls to the floor with a resounding thud. You grimace. Satoru wraps his arms around you, melting into you as though drained of all his energy. You lean against him, as well. Itâs not over yetâthe First Commander is still alive, the kingâs health is still failing, the heir is still unaware of his royal lineage, and the kingdomâs fate is uncertain.
âHey,â he murmurs after a while, after Megumi weaves about in between your legs. âWe might be able to catch a glimpse of the last bit of the lantern festival if weâre lucky.â
You pull back slightly, brows knit together in a frown. âArenât you tired? You should be resting!â
âNah.â He grins. âWhat sort of man would I be if I brought you all the way to the capital and didnât let you see your dream?â
âButââ
âTomorrow. Weâll figure it all out tomorrow.â
âOkay.â You give in. How could you not?
The river glows with the reflections of a thousand golden lanterns, each one a drifting star against the darkened water. Somewhere beyond the riverbanks, the kingdom rejoices, but hereâadrift in a tiny wooden boat, far removed from the noise and the worldâit is quiet. It is just you and Satoru, bathed in the warm glow of floating light. You trace your fingers along the delicate paper lantern in your lap, the thin parchment almost translucent beneath your touch. Satoru watches you, a smile playing at the corners of his lips. âMake a wish,â he tells you.
You let your lips turn upwards, closing your eyes. The lantern lifts into the air. It floats upwards, joining the sea of golden light that drifts towards the heavens. Beside you, Satoru releases his own, head tilted back to watch it rise, the glow reflected in the blue of his eyes. For a long while, you donât speak. The world has never felt so hushed, so suspended in time.Â
Then, he turns to you, the shimmer of the lanterns casting his face in soft gold. âI think,â he says, âI have a dream too.â
âReally? Tell me.â
He leans in instead, and his lips press against yoursâwarm, certain, like the promise of something endless. Overhead, the lanterns continue their slow, drifting ascent, rising higher, higher, until they are nothing but distant constellations in the dark.
It feels like stardust.
⢠a/n: @mahowaga & @admiringlove, you both know who you are. thank you, as well, to kae, @ylangelegy, for beta reading this fic, giving me invaluable feedback, and letting me ramble about this fic to them; i appreciate you endlessly. and, of course, thank you, dear reader, for reading this behemoth of a fic :) i hope you have a wonderful day! sidenote: due to tumblrâs paragraph limit, several paragraphs that were written as separate word blocks had to be combined into one in order to make it fit in one post. to read it with the original formatting, as it was written in my google docs, ao3 would definitely offer you a better experience!
summary : satoru gojo is many thingsâbasketball star player, campus menace, objectively the best-looking guy in any roomâbut he is not a model. so when you, some quiet, intense art student, shove a flyer in his face and ask him to pose for a painting, his first instinct is to laugh. his second instinct is to say no.
itâs supposed to be easy money. sit still, look pretty, collect cash. but between your infuriating perfectionism, your absolute refusal to be flustered by him, and the way you stare like youâre trying to figure him out, satoru starts to suspect heâs in way over his head
tags â> one shot, 22k wc, university au, oblivious mutual pining, slow burn, idiots to friends(?) to lovers, banter, fluff, light angst, first kisses, reader has questionable financial priorities
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satoru hates being late.
heâs not a model student, not by a long shot, but failing a long quiz because a horde of fan girls blocked his way to class? unforgivable. he was so close to making it in time, tooâif only he hadnât stopped to sign that last autograph. normally, heâd brush it off, but this wasnât just any quizâthis was for a professor who already had it out for him. if he fails even one subject, the coach might force him to take a break from the team to focus on his studies, even if he was their star player.
he thrives on attention, okay? whatâs the point of being their university's star player if he canât bask in the privelege and the fame? that last game was legendaryâhe clutched the final shot, the crowd went insane, and now half the campus is screaming his name. still, if he gets benched over grades, that win wonât mean a damn thing.
now, heâs sulking on a campus bench, spinning his phone between his fingers, wondering how hard his professor is going to roast him next lecture. probably a lot. maybe enough to make him consider actually studying. his teammates will be insufferable about it, especially suguru.
and then, like a gift from the universe, you show up.
âexcuse me.â
he barely glances up. heâs still bitter. still annoyed. but when he finally does lookâoh, he knows your type. wide-eyed, a little nervous, clutching a sketchbook like itâs a lifeline, like it holds something more important than just paper and ink. he bets youâre about to ask for a selfie, or his number, orâ
âi need you to model for me.â
his head tilts slightly, brow arching in lazy amusement. huh?
he waits for the punchline, but you only stare, unwavering. thereâs something unnerving about your gazeânot shy, not desperate, just⌠intent. like youâve already decided something, and his answer doesnât matter. then, as if confirming it to yourself, you give a small, determined nod. âyeah. youâre perfect.â
his lips twitch, the ego in him flaring up instantly. âobviously.â
âso youâll do it?â you lean in, hopeful, hands gripping the edges of your sketchbook like itâs anchoring you.
âobviously not.â he leans back instead, stretching an arm along the back of the bench, his smirk turning sharp. âlisten, i know iâm pretty, but iâm not that easy.â
your expression shifts, a flicker of something unreadableâthen, with a breath, you square your shoulders. âiâll pay you.â
he barks out a short laugh, blue eyes gleaming with amusement. âoh? and whatâs my going rate, then?â
without hesitation, you pull out a flyer from your bag, movements quick and businesslike. âi have an hourly rate. cash upfront.â
he plucks the paper from your hands, more entertained than anything, scanning it with a smirk. this is, without a doubt, the most absurd thing to happen to him all day (and thatâs saying something). youâre actually serious. actually offering him money to sit still and look pretty.
you must be so down bad.
âsorry, sweetheart,â he drawls, handing it back lazily. âbut iâm a busy man. canât waste my precious time sitting around just so you can stare at me.â
he expects you to stammer, to get flustered and retreat. most people would.
thereâs a pause, thick with hesitation, before you finally speakâlike youâre pulling the words from somewhere deep, somewhere you donât usually let people see.
âhold still,â you murmur, more to yourself than to him. your gaze moves over his face with the kind of scrutiny that makes people uncomfortable, but satoru doesnât squirmâhe preens under it, smirks like heâs used to being admired. but thatâs not what this is.
your eyes narrow slightly, head tilting. âyour features are sharp, but not harsh. the lines of your faceââ you trail off, thoughtful. âthey flow too well. itâs almost unnatural.â
he blinks. âuh. thanks?â
you ignore him, scanning lower. âyour collarbones frame the composition perfectly. and your handsâŚâ your gaze flickers to them, fingers twitching against your sketchbook. âdeliberate. expressive.â
his brows lift. âyouâre checking me out.â he accuses, tone dripping with amusement.
âiâm analyzing your composition.â your voice is absentminded, matter-of-fact. youâre still staring, still studying, like heâs some kind of divine anomaly.
and maybe he is.
satoru should be smug about this. should be teasing you. but thereâs something about the way youâre looking at himâserious, unwavering, like youâve seen something no one else has. something not even he knows how to name.
his smirk falters, just slightly. ââŚso?â
âso,â you say, straightening, gripping your sketchbook tighter. âi need to paint you.â
not want. need.
and for the first time in a long time, satoru gojo is left without a clever comeback. becauseâokay. wow. that was a lot.
for the first time, he actually looks at you, really looks at you. and thereâs no hint of deception in your expression, no underlying flirtation. your eyesâburning with something too raw, too genuineâthrow him off completely.
âsounds like youâre obsessed with me.â he tries, aiming for his usual brand of cocky. but itâs weaker this time. a little off.
âiâm obsessed with getting my pieces right,â you counter, and it lands like a challenge. your voice doesnât waver, steady in a way that makes his smirk twitch. âiâll even raise your pay.â
his smirk falters for half a second. âyeah?â
âiââ you hesitate, fingers tightening around your sketchbook, knuckles pale from the pressure. âi can go up to⌠ten bucks per session. upfront.â
he snorts. âsweetheart, do i look like a discount model to you? you want me to sit still for hours, meâan in-demand athlete, a social necessity at every party, the backbone of this schoolâs sports programâfor a measly ten?â he leans back, draping an arm over the bench like heâs getting comfortable for a long negotiation. âat least pretend to respect my market value.â
you exhale sharply, visibly weighing your options, then straighten with new resolve. âfine. twenty-five bucks per session. i can push to fourty, but you have to commit to at least three sittings.â
he opens his mouth to refuseâjust for the drama of it, just to watch you scramble for a better offerâbut then he hesitates.
and he sees it.
the way your fingers tighten around your sketchbook, the way your shoulders hold a quiet, unyielding tension. the way your eyes stay locked onto him, not with admiration, not with infatuation, but with something deeper, something urgent. thereâs a pull in them, a quiet desperationânot for him, not for his attention, but for the shape of him, the angles of him, the way light bends and softens around the sharp edges of his face. he realizes, with a strange flicker of something he canât name, that you arenât begging himâyouâre needing him.
âŚugh.
satoru groans, throwing his head back dramatically, hands flopping uselessly onto the bench like the universe has personally inconvenienced him. âyouâre not gonna let this go, are you?â
ânope.â your jaw sets, firm, unwavering.
a sigh. a pause. a moment of self-reflection where he briefly considers if the extra cash is worth sacrificing his free timeâhis parties, his practices, the worship of a school that already thinks heâs untouchable.
thenâhe grins, sharp and easy, like heâs the one whoâs won something here. âalright, mystery artist. iâll be your muse.â
he leans in, cocky and insufferable, but thereâs something new behind it nowâa flicker of intrigue, the curiosity of a man who knows heâs irresistible but has never quite been needed like this before. âbut only because iâm feeling generous.â
the next day later, satoru reminds himselfâfirmlyânot to let this happen again. he should have held out longer, should have played hard to get, should have, at the very least, haggled for more cash. but no, he let himself get swept up in whatever this was, in your weird little artist intensity, and now heâs sitting on a questionably stable stool in the middle of your cozy, cluttered studio space. regretting. just a little.
your âstudioâ is barely more than a corner of your dorm room, wedged by the window where the light slants in at an annoyingly aesthetic angle. the floor is a battlefield of abandoned sketchbooks and paint tubes, half-squeezed and discarded like fallen soldiers. unfinished canvases lean against the walls in various stages of completionâsome just rough sketches, others hauntingly close to done but left untouched, as if you lost interest mid-stroke. itâs clean and chaotic all at once, the strange contrast between the precisely arranged brushesâlined up by size, bristles all facing the same wayâand the paint-stained rags draped carelessly over the back of your chair. the room smells like turpentine and old paper, sharp and familiar, like stepping into the mind of someone who never really stops thinking.
he should be boredâbut heâs not.
âshoes off.â you say the moment he steps inside, not even looking up as you sort through your supplies.
satoru stops mid-step, blinking. his latest purchaseâsome limited-edition basketball sneakers, bought with the last of his cash prize from securing mvp last season, the sheer reason why he is broke right now to be here in the first placeâsuddenly feel heavier on his feet. his gaze flicks from you to the floor, then back again, a slow, deliberate movement as if testing whether youâre serious.
âseriously?â he drawls, shifting his weight.
âyes.â
âwhat, afraid Iâll track in dirt?â he tilts his head, smirk lazy, but his fingers hook around the back of his shoes, already anticipating your answer.
âno, i just donât want you stepping in paint and crying about your expensive sneakers.â you finally glance up, eyes flickering to the telltale logo on the side of his shoes. thereâs no mockery in your tone, just detached amusement, but he still bristles slightlyâmaybe because youâve already figured him out so easily.
satoru exhales, exaggerated and put-upon, before kicking them off with a bit more force than necessary. the shoes land haphazardly by the door, slightly askew, pristine against the chaos of your floor. â...fine. but I better not step on a thumbtack and die.â
ânoted.â you murmur, already moving on.
he takes in the room as he tugs at the hem of his hoodie, adjusting it. the space is a contradictionâsmall, but alive, every inch used with an artistâs careless precision. tubes of paint lie scattered like relics of past battles, pages of half-formed sketches peek from beneath stacks of books, and the air smells sharpâturpentine, charcoal dust, something faintly citrusy, probably from the cup of tea cooling by your desk. he should be unimpressed, but his gaze keeps getting caught on the little detailsâthe careful arrangement of brushes, the single paint-smeared rag draped over your chair, the faint blue smudge on the back of your wrist.
"sit here." you drag a wooden stool into the light, the scrape of its legs against the floor cutting through the quiet.
his eyes narrow. âthis thing gonna hold up?â
âunless you plan on moving around like a child, yes.â
satoru hums, unimpressed but intrigued, tapping two fingers against his thigh before finally dropping onto the stool. his posture is lazy, all careless sprawl and long limbs, arms hanging over the backrest like heâs got all the time in the world.
you click your tongue, stepping closer. âsit up straight.â
he sinks even lower, stretching his legs out in front of him. âbut I like this angle. mysterious. brooding. like I have a dark past.â
you donât even hesitate. âit looks like you have scoliosis.â
he barks out a laugh, sharp and genuine, teeth flashing under the dim light. âmaybe that is my dark past.â
âfix your posture.â
satoru sighs, rolling his shoulders backâbut not enough. you click your tongue, unimpressed, and before he can react, your hands are on him, firm but careful, adjusting his posture with practiced ease. your fingers press lightly against his upper back, trailing down to nudge at his shoulder blades, guiding him straighter. clinical, detached, nothing more than necessity. but he still goes still, something unreadable flickering behind his eyes.
your hands are cool against his skin, grounding in a way he doesnât expect. for the first time, he realizes youâre really looking at himânot like most people do, with admiration, envy, or that desperate need to impress. no, you look at him like heâs a problem to solve, a subject to study, something to be rendered on paper in strokes and shadows. he should say somethingâflirt, tease, break the moment before it turns into something elseâbut the words sit strangely in his mouth. and then youâre already pulling away, back to your desk, already moving on.
"good," you murmur, reaching for a pencil amid the mess of supplies. you donât sound satisfied, exactlyâjust focused, as if his presence in your studio is nothing more than another detail to get right. then, after a beat, you look up again, really look at him, and say, âdonât move.â
satoru smirks, tilting his head just enough for his bangs to shift, casting a fleeting shadow over his eyes. âno promises.â
you exhale sharply, shaking your head as you adjust the angle of your easel. the wooden frame creaks as you tighten a knob, movements brisk, preciseâlike you donât have the patience for his nonsense today. ârelax your shoulders.â
he spreads his hands, a lazy, exaggerated gesture, his varsity jacket slipping slightly off one shoulder. âmy shoulders are relaxed.â
you glance up, unimpressed. âyou look like youâre trying to fight god.â
âthatâs just my natural aura.â
your hand pauses over your palette, fingers hovering just above the tubes of paint. thenâa twitch. fleeting. almost imperceptible. but he sees it, the tiny, reluctant quirk of your lips, and his eyes glint with amusement.
âwas that a smile?â satoru's grin is all teeth, sharp and victorious, as he leans forward, resting his forearm on his knee. âare you falling for me already?â
you donât even bother looking up as you squeeze out a streak of cadmium red onto your palette. âi was smiling at the thought of shoving you off that stool.â
he lets out a low chuckle, leaning back again, hands bracing the edge of the seat as if testing its limits. âthatâs fair.â
acrylic meets oil in a slow swirl, the colors blending as you mix with deliberate strokes. outside, the sun shifts, casting golden streaks through the dusty windowpanes, dappling his profile in warm light. he watches you in the silence that follows, something unspoken settling between the brushstrokes and banter.
and thatâs how the first session goesâhim trying to be difficult, you trying to make him less difficult.
but somewhere between the banter, the occasional begrudging moments of stillness, and the quiet scratch of pencil against paper, something shifts.
at first, heâs just counting down the minutes until he gets paid, watching the clock, tapping his fingers idly against his knee. but then, he starts watching you instead.
satoru notices the way your brow furrows in concentration, the way your fingers hesitate before committing to a line, the way your teeth graze your bottom lip when something isnât turning out right. thereâs a softness to you when you work, an intensity that feels different from how people usually look at him. no awe, no expectationâjust a quiet, unwavering focus, like heâs something worth capturing.
he should be bored. this kind of thing isnât for himâsitting still, staying quiet, being studied like some museum exhibit. but heâs not. instead he is interested.
not by the painting itselfâhe still doesnât get the whole âartâ thing, still doesnât see why people obsess over lines and colors and whatever meaning they think is hidden beneath. but he gets this. gets the way you treat it like it matters, like itâs something real, something worth your time.
so he keeps coming back.
SPRING bleeds into familiarity as summer approaches. the air carries the scent of sun-warmed pavement and freshly cut grass, the kind of early heat that settles into your skin before you even realize it. days stretch longer, the sunsets grow richer, but in this quiet, in the hush between afternoon and evening, itâs routine nowâas natural as practice drills, as effortless as muscle memory.
the soft scratch of pencil against paper, the faint drag of graphite as you sketch his form for the hundredth time. the way you chew on the inside of your cheek when you concentrate, brows furrowing in that particular way that means youâre unhappy with a line. the way satoru makes a grand show of complaining, of stretching obnoxiously, of sighing like heâs been sentenced to something far worse than sitting still for an hourâbut he always shows up anyway.
âthis is cruel and unusual punishment.â satoru groans, slumping back in the chair like the very act of modeling is siphoning the life out of him. his long legs sprawl out, one foot tapping idly against the floor, an unconscious rhythm that betrays his restlessness. strands of white hair fall messily over his forehead, catching in the afternoon light, but he makes no move to fix them. instead, he tilts his head back dramatically, like a man resigned to his fate, letting out a sigh so deep it should echo through the room.
âyouâre literally getting paid.â you remind him, tilting your head, adjusting the angle of your sketch with a practiced flick of your wrist. your voice is steady, patient, but thereâs a weight to itâa quiet exasperation that makes the corners of his mouth twitch.
the soft scratch of pencil against paper fills the space between you, a contrast to his theatrics. your fingers move with precision, thumb smudging a shadow, expression unreadable as your gaze flickers over him like youâre dissecting every line and curve.
âat what cost?â satoru presses, shifting slightly in his seat, the chair creaking beneath his weight. his arms drape lazily over the armrests, fingers tapping against the woodâanything to keep himself occupied. his restlessness isnât feigned; heâs never been the type to sit still, and the urge to move tugs at his muscles like an itch he canât scratch. but he waits, because the way you sketchâbrows furrowed, lower lip caught just slightly between your teethâhas him more intrigued than he wants to admit.
âat the cost of you shutting up for five minutes.â
âbold of you to assume iâm capable of that.â
his eyes flick toward you, sharp and searching, waiting for the reaction he knows is coming. for a moment, youâre still, the only movement the subtle shift of your fingers against the page. thenâyour lips twitch, the barest ghost of amusement, before you catch yourself and shake your head, returning to your work. satoru leans forward just slightly, just enough for the smallest smirk to pull at his lips, because he saw itâsaw the way you almost gave inâand he counts that as a win.
you start talking more.
not just the usual corrections or critiques, but moreâabout your process, your ideas, the frustration of trying to capture his proportions because âseriously, satoru, why are your legs so stupidly long?â
âcanât help that iâm perfect, sweetheart.â he says, flashing a grin, stretching in his seat like heâs on display. his limbs sprawl out with practiced ease, one arm draped over the back of the chair, the other lazily resting against his knee.
âyouâre built like a faulty character model,â you mutter, erasing a line with more force than necessary. your brows pinch together, irritation bleeding into your strokes, and satoru watches the way your lips press into a thin line, your focus so sharp it almost cuts.
âso you admit i look unreal.â satoru says smugly, tipping his head to the side, silver strands slipping over the curve of his cheekbone.
you exhale through your nose, controlled and measured, but he catches the slight twitch in your jaw. âyes, satoru. thatâs exactly what i meant.â
his grin spreads wider, pleased and easy, tapping his fingers idly against his knee in a steady rhythm. youâre getting used to him nowâthe sarcasm, the running commentary, the way he moves like he owns the space around him. you roll your eyes less, sigh less, even smirk sometimesâtiny, almost imperceptible, but he catches it every time, cataloging each one like a victory.
he starts talking more, too.
about his classes, about basketball, about how he wasnât late to his quiz this time because he jumped out a window to avoid his fan girls. he says it so casually, like itâs just another tuesday, like itâs not the most absurd thing youâve ever heard.
âyou jumped out a window?â you ask, blinking, your pencil hovering mid-stroke. your brows pinch slightly, lips parting like youâre trying to process the sheer idiocy of it.
âlisten, it was a short fall.â
thereâs a beat of silenceâjust enough for him to catch the way your eyes flick over his face, searching for any sign of exaggeration. his smirk is lazy, easy, like heâs waiting to see if youâll scold him for it.
and then you laugh.
itâs sudden, unfiltered, slipping past your lips before you can catch it. breathless, a little incredulous, like even you canât believe heâs that ridiculous.
he wasnât expecting that.
itâs not like you never laughâyou do, just not at him. not like this, not in a way that feels so real, so genuine, soâunfair. it hits him square in the chest, something sharp and electric threading through his ribs, like a perfectly aimed free throw sinking straight through the net.
âoh my god,â you say, shaking your head, still grinning. âyouâre actually ridiculous.â
âthank you,â he says, flashing a smug grin, because he made you laugh.
and thatâs the first time he realizes he likes your laugh.
so he starts playing it like a gameâhow many times can he make you laugh in one session? how many times can he distract you before you start scolding him? itâs almost too easy, the way you fall into the rhythm of his teasing, the way your lips press together like youâre fighting back a smile even when youâre glaring at him. he takes it as a challenge, a personal mission to pull a reaction out of you, to chip away at your stubborn focus just enough to make you crack.
âhey, what if you sketched me mid-dunk? you know, capture my essenceââ satoru leans forward, gesturing dramatically, his white hair falling into his eyes.
âsit still.â you mutter, not even looking up, but he catches the way your brow furrows just slightly, the way you grip your pencil a little tighter.
âbut imagine the drama! the movement! the raw athleticismââ he babbles, spreading his arms wide as if to showcase the sheer grandeur of his idea.
âsit still or iâm deducting your pay.â your voice is flat, but the way your eyes flicker toward himâjust for a secondâtells him youâre at least half-listening.
âcold.â he pouts, slumping back into the chair, but his grin never wavers.
sometimes, when youâre too absorbed in your work, he shifts in his seat just to see if youâll notice. a tiny movement, barely anythingâbut your head always snaps up, your gaze sharp, the slightest exasperation flickering in your expression. âstop that,â youâll say, and heâll throw his hands up in mock innocence, feigning surprise. itâs stupid, really, but he likes it.
(he starts winning. he always wins.)
but somewhere along the way, he starts losing, too.
because he catches himself watching you between poses.
satoru catches himself noticing things he shouldnâtâthe way you tuck your brush behind your ear when your hands are full, leaving a faint streak of graphite on your temple. the way your sleeves are always smudged with paint, like youâve been too caught up in your work to care. the way your fingers twitch when you talk, tracing invisible shapes in the air, like you want to sketch your thoughts into existence. itâs the little things, the ones that slip through the cracks when he isnât paying attentionâexcept he is, now, and he doesnât know when that started.
catches himself waiting for your sessions.
it sneaks up on himâslow, creeping, like a game he didn't realize he was playing until he was already losing.
one moment, itâs just a side gig, a funny little arrangement, an easy paycheck. another, itâs something else entirely, something that lingers in his mind longer than it should.
because sometimesâwhich is already a lotâwhen he steps onto the court, ball tucked under his arm, the first thing he wonders isnât about the game, but whether youâll be sketching from the bleachers. sometimes, when he sees something stupidly prettyâthe golden slant of light cutting across the gym floor, a perfect shot arcing through the net, the weightless seconds before it sinksâhe thinks, youâd know how to capture this.
sometimes, when youâre concentrating, when your brows pull together, when your lips part just slightly in thought, when your whole world narrows to the page in front of you, he thinksâhe doesnât finish that thought. because itâs just routine, right? just the same way he looks forward to practice, to games, to winning.
itâs nothing more than that.
right?
but then, it starts happeningâsubtle at first, easy to dismiss. a text invitation left on read, a half-hearted âmaybeâ in response to a party heâd normally say âhell yeah!â to.
itâs a gradual shift, barely noticeable at firstâuntil it is. until suguru eyes him from across the court, spinning a basketball on his fingertips, gaze sharp and knowing.
âyou skipping out?â suguru asks one afternoon, his tone casual, but the way he watches satoru says he already knows the answer. âbig party tonight. everyoneâs going.â
âgot plans.â satoru says easily, crouching to tie his laces, fingers tugging the knots tight like heâs sealing the conversation shut.
suguru bounces the ball once, catching it smoothly. âsince when do you have plans that donât involve getting wasted?â
satoru straightens, rolling his shoulders until they pop, shaking out his arms like heâs gearing up for something. his hair is a mess of white strands falling over his forehead, a little damp from practice, but he doesnât bother fixing it. instead, he flashes a smirk, weight shifting easily onto one foot. âiâm broadening my horizons.â
suguru snorts, spinning the ball in his hands. âyeah? whatâs her name?â
satoru flicks his wrist, and before suguru can react, his hand snaps out to intercept the ball satoru just stole from him, catching it last second. suguru narrows his eyes, unimpressed. satoru just grins, rocking back on his heels, the picture of insufferable ease. âshut up.â
he tells himself itâs not a big deal. heâs just picking his battles, choosing his nights, being selective.
but then, one evening, his phone buzzes with an inviteâexclusive rooftop party, vip only, the kind of thing that wouldâve had him saying âhell yeahâ months ago. the kind of thing he used to crave, to thrive in, all flashing lights and endless noise, a crowd that could never quite keep up.
instead, he glances at the time, sees that your session starts in half an hour, and swipes the notification away without a second thought.
he doesnât even hesitate.
SUMMER arrives with a vengeance. springâs fleeting softness is long gone, replaced by air thick with humidity, pavement hot enough to sizzle, and days that stretch into slow, languid eternity. campus, once alive with restless energy, now feels like an echo of itselfâhalf-abandoned dorms, quiet hallways, the distant hum of cicadas filling the silence. no fan club lurking outside his lectures, no teammates calling his name across the quad. just heat, stillness, and a lot of free time.
satoru gojo is losing his mind.
your dorm is somehow even worse than outside, the air stifling, unmoving, dense with trapped summer heat. the pathetic excuse for a fan in the corner barely stirs the air, its dull hum doing nothing to ease the sweat clinging to his skin. heâs slouched in a chair, legs stretched out, head tilted back dramatically as he groans to no one in particular.
âthis is inhumane,â satoru whines, shifting again, the fabric of his jersey clinging uncomfortably to his skin. his arm drapes lazily over his forehead, white bangs damp with sweat, eyes half-lidded in a show of exaggerated suffering. âyou canât expect a man to look this good while melting, yâknow.â
âsatoru, i swear to god, if you move one more timeââ you mutter, not looking up from your easel, brush moving in slow, deliberate strokes. thereâs a tension in your shoulders, one he recognizes by nowâfocused, immersed, determined to ignore him.
he cracks an eye open, a lazy smirk tugging at his lips. âyouâll what?â he drawls, voice syrupy with amusement. âpaint me uglier?â
you donât dignify that with a response, just exhale through your nose and keep working.
itâs been months since you first hired him, and somewhere between his insufferable attitude and your exasperated sighs, something shifted. something settled. something... comfortable.
satoru is still impossibleânever quiet, never fully still, always testing limits. but youâre used to him now, the same way youâre used to the hum of your fan or the scratch of your brush against canvas.
and heâs used to you, too.
he knows you never play music while you work (insane). he knows you paint in layers, slow and methodical, as if each stroke is a commitment too big to rush. he knows you hate when people hover over your shoulderâbut for some reason, you let him stay.
so he stays.
âremind me why weâre even in the dorms right now?â satoru complains, flopping back onto your bed without permission, limbs splaying like he owns the place.
âbecause itâs a hassle to go home.â you murmur, brush dragging against the canvas, expression unreadable.
âyou say that like normal people wouldnât want a break from all this,â he gestures vaguely, letting his hand fall limply onto his stomach.
âi donât like breaks,â you say simply, not bothering to look at him. âbreaks mean i stop making things.â
he squints at you, the weight of your words settling in his chest. it sounds like a joke, but itâs not. and just like that, something clicks. maybe youâre here for the same reason he is. not because you have nowhere to go. but because being here is easier than being somewhere else.
he doesnât say anything. just shifts further onto your bed, limbs sprawling even wider, purely out of pettiness.
the sheets beneath him smell like youâsomething faint, something warm, something familiar. he exhales, eyes slipping shut for a moment.
yeah. he could stay a little longer.
âseriously,â he groans again, tugging at the neckline of his jersey, the fabric clinging to his skin like a second layer. with a restless sigh, he rolls onto his stomach, sprawling out across your bed like a cat too lazy to move from a sunspot. his cheek presses against the sheets, indigo eyes flicking lazily toward you, half-lidded from the heat. âwhy is it so hot? isnât there some artist trick where you suffer for your work without making me suffer too?â
you donât bother looking up, your focus unwavering, the soft scratch of your brush against canvas filling the silence between you. thereâs a faint crease between your brows, a telltale sign of concentration, though your expression remains unreadable.
âmaybe if you stopped talking, youâd cool down.â you murmur, dipping your brush into a shade of blue.
he scoffs, shifting onto his elbows, pushing damp strands of hair from his forehead with a lazy flick of his fingers. âbold of you to assume thatâs an option.â
and it irritates himâhow unfazed you are. does nothing shake you? does nothing break through that focus?
so it turns into a game.
at first, he starts smallâsubtle shifts in posture, exaggerated sighs, ridiculous flirtation, all carefully designed to draw your attention. a slow roll of his shoulders, the slight tilt of his head, the stretch of long limbs sprawled across your bed as if he owns the space. each movement is deliberate, each word carefully chosen to poke at you, to pry beneath that layer of calm focus you always seem to wear.
âwhat if i posed like one of those renaissance statues?â satoru muses, arching his back slightly, stretching his arms over his head, the muscles in his shoulders shifting beneath sun-warmed skin. his voice is thick with faux contemplation, his white lashes lowering as if heâs actually considering it. âyâknow, real dramatic, real divine. make me look like a legend in the making.â
âyou already think youâre a legend.â you mutter, the barest flicker of amusement crossing your face, so quick he almost misses it.
his grin sharpens, flashing teeth, and he rolls onto his side, propping himself up on one elbow to watch you work. his hair falls slightly over his forehead, messy and weightless, catching the light in wisps of silver and white. âi mean, arenât i?â
you donât even look at him. just reach for your paintbrush, flick your wristâand suddenly, a few drops of cold paint water splatter against his bare arm.
he yelps, jerking away like youâve actually wounded him. âthe hellââ he glares at the tiny droplets seeping into his skin, like theyâre an offense to his very existence. âare you serious? thatâs abuse.â
you hum, not bothering to hide the faint smirk on your lips as you dip your brush back into the paint.
his narrowed eyes linger on your expression, on the relaxed set of your shoulders, on the tiny, satisfied twitch of your mouth.
(point goes to you.)
when that doesnât work, he switches tactics.
his gaze flickers to the stack of empty ramen cups in the corner, precariously balanced like a monument to bad decisions. his lips twitch, smug and knowing, before his eyes drift toward the mini fridge tucked against the wall. last time he checkedâwhich was purely out of curiosity, mind youâit was nearly empty, save for a half-full bottle of water and a single, sad yogurt cup. it doesnât take a genius to put two and two together.
âdo you always paint this obsessively?â
âyes.â
âdo you ever eat?â
âobviously.â
he hums, stretching his arms behind his head, the movement making his damp jersey stick even more uncomfortably to his skin.
ââŚyou sure?â
your brush hesitatesâa fraction of a second, barely noticeable, but he notices. then, just as quickly, you resume painting, voice perfectly even, expression carefully blank.
âwhatâs with the interrogation?â
âjust curious,â he says, shifting until his long legs are stretched across the bed. his head tilts back against the sheets, white strands of hair falling messily over his forehead. âplus, if you pass out mid-session, whoâs gonna pay me?â
you roll your eyes, exhaling through your nose, the corners of your mouth twitching. âiâll put that in my will. âto satoru gojo, my life drawing model and worst financial decision.ââ
satoru's laughter bursts out of him, loud and unfiltered, cutting through the thick, oppressive heat of the room. itâs the kind of laugh that makes walls feel smaller, that shifts the air, that lingers longer than it should.
and you donât hide your small smile fast enough.
his laughter stutters for half a second, his sharp eyes catching the curve of your lips before you press them together again. fleeting, but unmistakable. something smug and delighted unfurls in his chest, a warmth that has nothing to do with the summer air.
his grin stretches slow and wicked. âoh, you like me,â he sings, rolling onto his back, looking at you upside down with that insufferable glint in his eyes.
âi tolerate you.â you correct, but your hand twitches, and before he can blink, another flick of your brush sends a tiny splash of paint in his direction.
he yelps, twisting away, but itâs too late.
(heâs still winning.)
but thenâhe moves too much.
a shift of his shoulders, an exaggerated sigh, the creak of your mattress beneath him. his knee bumps against your sketchbook, disrupting the careful balance of supplies stacked at the foot of the bed. then, as if testing the limits of your patience, he stretches, arms extending above his head, his basketball jersey riding up just slightlyâjust enough to reveal the sharp dip of his waist, the faint sheen of sweat at his collarbone. his head tilts back against your pillow, and he groans, long and drawn out.
you exhale sharply, setting your brush down with a click before pushing yourself up from your stool.
satoru's eyes track your movement, bright and sharp even in the dim light of your dorm. heâs expecting a scolding, maybe even an irritated glare. but thereâs something different this timeâyour expression unreadable, your gaze fixed on him with that same unwavering focus that always throws him off. you move with purpose, deliberate steps closing the space between you, and the room suddenly feels smaller, the heat pressing heavier against his skin, against the air between you.
he watches, waiting for the usual sigh, the exasperated reminder to stop fidgeting. he waits for you to roll your eyes and mutter something about how heâs impossible to work with.
insteadâyour fingers catch his chin, tilting it just so.
satoru's breath hitches, barely perceptible, but you donât noticeâor if you do, you donât acknowledge it. your touch is firm, not hesitant, your thumb grazing just beneath his jaw as you adjust the angle of his face. then, without a second thought, your hand shifts, fingers ghosting along the curve of his cheekbone, the edge of his jaw, brushing against the sensitive skin below his ear. thereâs dried paint smudged on your fingertips, faint streaks of color that leave invisible traces against his skin, and his throat bobs as he swallows.
you donât stop there.
your other hand lifts, smoothing his slouched shoulders back against the pillows, fingertips pressing briefly into the fabric of his jersey. then you reach for his wrist, shifting his arm so it drapes more naturally across his stomach. and all the while, youâre silent, your movements efficient, unthinkingâlike touching him is no different than adjusting the angle of a still life, like heâs just another part of the composition youâre perfecting.
before the silence stretches too long, before his brain can fully process the casual way you just handled him, he grins, slow and wicked.
âdamn,â he drawls, voice lazy, smug, but thereâs something tight beneath the ease of it. his head tilts back slightly against your pillow, eyes half-lidded, watching you with a mixture of mischief and something deeperâsomething that makes his smirk seem almost too deliberate, like heâs waiting for you to react. âyouâre really making this a whole thing, huh?â
âwhat?â you say absently, fingers still deftly adjusting the angle of his jaw, your touch steady as you tilt his chin just another fraction higher. the concentration in your expression is unreadable, but your gaze never wavers, sharp and focused. he notices how your brows furrow just the slightest, the way your lips press together in a line that says youâre not going to let him distract you this time.
ânothing,â he smirks, his grin widening, amused by the way your hands move over him with such intention. his fingers twitch where they rest against the blanket, itching for something to do, but he forces himself to remain still, curious to see how far he can push you. âjustâyâknow, if you wanted me like one of your french girls, you couldâve just said so.â
your fingers tighten slightly in response, the faintest press of your nails against his skinânot quite a warning, but close. you can feel the pulse of his heartbeat under your fingertips, steady but accelerating just slightly, as if your touch has an effect on him heâs unwilling to admit. thereâs an almost imperceptible shift in his posture, as if he's bracing himself, but his eyes are still locked on you, playful but careful.
âif you donât shut up,â you say, voice perfectly even, calm in the face of his teasing, âi will paint you uglier.â the words roll off your tongue without hesitation, but thereâs an edge to them, something you both know you mean more than you let on. your hand doesnât move from his jaw, but your fingers tighten for a momentâenough to make him flinch, just barelyâand itâs enough to make his grin falter.
âmm. bold of you to assume i have a bad angle.â his voice is dripping with sarcasm, his smirk returning in full force, and his hand twitches again as if heâs resisting the urge to reach out, to touch you in return. but he holds himself back, all too aware that this is your spaceâyour processâand heâs simply a subject in it. yet, his confidence remains unshaken, a challenge flickering behind his eyes.
you give his jaw a deliberate little nudge, the motion slow and purposeful, and barely suppress a sigh as you watch him reactâhis body tensing under your touch, as if the slight pressure is just the right amount to make him ache for more. but youâre not finished, not yet.
âstay still, satoru.â you murmur, your voice the slightest bit sharper this time, but with a subtle undercurrent of something softer. he could almost mistake it for a command, if not for the way you adjust his position with gentle precision, ensuring every detail of his form is just as you want it. your eyes flicker over him, tracing the angles of his face, the sharp line of his jaw, the soft curve of his neckâsomething about the way you hold him, make him stay, makes him feel like youâre in complete control, and thatâs when it hits him.
he doesnât dare move.
not because he suddenly respects the process.
but because your fingers are cool against his overheated skin, an unexpected relief against the oppressive heat of the room. because for a moment, when you adjusted his posture, you were close enough for him to see the flecks of paint on your cheek, the way your lashes framed your eyes, the soft crease in your forehead when you concentrate.
because you touched him without hesitation. without thought. without treating him like something fragile, something distant, something untouchable.
and he doesnât move for the next three hours.
...oh.
heâs in grave danger.
AUTUMN arrives with brisk winds and golden light, the air carrying the scent of fallen leaves and distant bonfires. the campus shifts with the season, summerâs lazy sprawl giving way to hurried footsteps and layered clothing, students caught between clinging to warmth and embracing the inevitable cold. the world feels sharper now, edges clearer, the sun hanging lower in the sky, stretching shadows across the pavement. satoru gojo hasnât changed much, still striding through campus like he owns it, but thereâs something different in the way he keeps showing up.
it starts with a realization: youâre an idiot with money.
satoru has been modeling for you for months now, first as a casual arrangement, then as an unspoken habit, and nowânow heâs not even sure what to call it. at first, it was just a side hustle, a way to fund his snack addiction and make up for his tendency to forget that classes required effort. he still shows up late sometimes, still complains about holding the same pose for too long, still finds ways to annoy you just to see how youâll react. but somewhere between summer and autumn, it stopped being about the money.
because youâre routine now.
just like basketball practice. just like late-night convenience store runs. just like winning. he doesnât think about it too much, doesnât poke at the feeling, just lets it settle into the spaces between his days. but then, one evening, it clicksâthis thing between you isnât exactly balanced. because for all the money you pay him, youâre the one stretching yourself thin.
it happens when he catches you eating a sad cup of instant noodles for what must be the fourth day in a row.
at first, he doesnât say anything, just watches as you peel back the lid, steam curling weakly into the cool autumn air. he thinks maybe itâs a preference thing, some weird artist habit, until his gaze driftsâto the extra commissions stacked on your desk, the supply receipts stuffed into your sketchbook, the way you barely check your phone unless itâs him texting about a session. your fingers tighten around your chopsticks, movements slower than usual, exhaustion threading through the way you stir the noodles.
you are, quite literally, funding him instead of yourself.
âagain?â he finally asks, gesturing at your dinner. his voice is light, teasing, but thereâs something else behind it, something sharper, like heâs waiting for you to slip up. he watches the way you barely react, how your grip on the chopsticks stays loose, how you keep your focus on the pitiful cup of noodles steaming in your hands instead of looking at him. his knee bounces once, a restless motion, before he stills it with a pointed exhale.
you shrug, not meeting his eyes, stirring half-heartedly, and the broth sloshes over the rim, spilling onto your sleeve in a dark stain. but you donât react, donât even seem to notice, just keep stirring, keep avoiding his gaze like you can will this conversation into disappearing. âi have a budget.â you say, voice even, detached, like youâre stating a fact and not making an excuse. your fingers tighten around the flimsy cup for half a second before you force yourself to loosen them, nudging a stray noodle back under the broth like you canât feel his eyes on you.
satoru narrows his eyes, shifting where he sits, the mattress creaking under his weight. his arms stretch over his head for a beat, but thereâs tension in the motion, his jaw tight even as he forces himself to lean back, feigning nonchalance. âyou literally raised my pay just to get me to pose.â he says, voice incredulous, edged with something between concern and irritation. he isnât laughing anymore, isnât teasing, just watching, waiting, expecting you to have some kind of answer.
âthose two are completely different things.â you mumble, slurping up some noodles like the conversation isnât happening, like you can hide behind the motion. your posture shifts, shoulders curling inward, the steam from the cup rising in thin wisps against your face, half-obscuring your expression.
different how?
but you donât elaborate.
you donât meet his eyes, either, just keep pushing your noodles around the cup, the movements small, aimless, stalling. his gaze flickers down, catches the little detailsâthe fading paint stains on your fingers, the slight tremor in the way you stir, the tension coiled in your shoulders like youâre bracing for something. he exhales, head tilting, watching you with the same sharpness he saves for an opponent about to make a move, for a moment of weakness he can take advantage ofâbut this time, it doesnât feel like a game.
and then, all at once, it clicks. how much youâre actually paying him. how much of your already-limited allowance is going to him just so you can paint. how much youâre giving up without a word, without a complaint, without even a hint of hesitation.
and suddenly, his next paycheck doesnât sit right with him.
so from that moment on, satoru starts caring for you in ways you donât even notice.
itâs subtle at first, woven into the fabric of your routine, slipping in so seamlessly that you almost donât register the shift. he still shows up late sometimes, still drags his feet through the doorway like heâs doing you a favor, but nowânow heâs always carrying something. a plastic bag crinkles against his fingers as he drops it onto your desk, careless and offhand, like he isnât watching for your reaction.
âleftovers,â he says way too casually when you glance up at him, suspicion flickering in your eyes. his voice is loose, unconcerned, but thereâs something too deliberate in the way he nudges the bag closer, the way his hand lingers just a second too long before he pulls away. âfigured youâd want âem before i threw them out.â
you eye the freshly wrapped onigiri and convenience store sandwiches, brows knitting together as your fingers hesitate over the bag. the packaging is neat, unopened, no signs of the mindless picking and half-eaten portions he usually leaves behind when heâs actually careless. ââŚsince when do you not finish your food?â your voice is skeptical, flat, but thereâs something guarded in the way you ask it, something careful.
âsince now,â he says, flopping onto your bed with the kind of dramatic ease only he can manage. his hoodie rides up slightly, exposing a sliver of tanned skin, but he doesnât bother adjusting it, too busy stretching his arms over his head. âjust eat it before i change my mind.â
you do. you donât question it, donât pick apart the way he shifts his weight against your mattress like heâs making himself at home, donât dwell on the way his voice sounded just a little softer than usual. he pretends not to notice when you eat in silence, barely glancing at him. but later that night, when youâre alone, you find yourself smiling down at the empty wrapper before tossing it in the trash.
then he starts paying for your drinks when you go out, slipping the cash over the counter before you can argue, calling it his âtreatâ like heâs some kind of benevolent patron.
âyou only say that because iâm the only artist you know.â you deadpan, reaching for your coffee, fingers brushing the warmth of the cup.
âyeah,â he grins, unapologetic, smug, like heâs already won something. his fingers drum lightly against the side of his own cup, restless energy bleeding through the way he leans just slightly into your space. âand youâre killinâ it at first place.â
your fingers twitch slightly against the cup, grip adjusting like youâre trying to steady something that isnât your coffee. you pretend not to feel the warmth in your chest, pretend his words donât settle somewhere deep, somewhere dangerous. but when you take a sip, you donât fight the way the heat lingers.
but it still doesnât feel like enough.
satoru watches the way you flip through your sketchbook, fingers skimming the edges of each page like youâre weighing how much space you have left. he sees the way your gaze lingers on your paint tubes, the way your thumb presses absently against the label, as if debating whether the color is worth using. he notices the way your sleeves push up slightly when you mix paints, the faintest crease forming between your brows when you check how much is left. you wonât take money from him outrightâhe knows that muchâbut maybe, just maybe, he can get you to make money some other way.
so he tries introducing you to sports betting, grinning like heâs telling you the best-kept secret in the world. his energy is relentless, all sharp confidence and easy arrogance, like he truly believes heâs about to change your life. you donât even need to look up to know heâs leaning in too close, elbows braced against your desk, practically radiating self-satisfaction. itâs unbearable.
âsatoru, thatâs literally gambling,â you say flatly, dragging your pencil across the page, deliberately uninterested.
âitâs strategic investing,â satoru corrects, voice smooth, pleased with himself, like heâs just introduced you to some kind of financial loophole. he shifts slightly, and his jersey slips off one shoulder, exposing the curve of his collarbone, but he doesnât seem to noticeâtoo caught up in his own nonsense. his fingers tap against your desk, impatient, restless, waiting for you to take the bait.
you donât. instead, you finally glance up, brows raised. âyou lost thirty bucks last week.â
his lips part like heâs about to argue, but then he pauses, reconsiders, and pivots. âokay, but that was a fluke,â he says, already curling his mouth into a perfectly crafted pout.
âwas it?â
satoru exhales dramatically, like this conversation is somehow exhausting him, and drops his head onto your sketchbook, completely unbothered by the fact that youâre still holding a pencil. âhave a little faith in me, damn.â
you shake your head, amused despite yourself. you shouldnât be. you should shut this down, make it clear that you have no intention of entertaining whatever scheme heâs trying to rope you into.
but thenâ
âfine,â you say one day, flipping through your sketchbook, voice too casual, too offhanded. like this is barely worth mentioning, like youâre not actively indulging him. âiâll bet on your team.â
the change is immediate.
satoru's body goes still, and for once, thereâs no teasing, no smirk, no cocky remark. just a blinkâslow, calculatingâlike heâs processing the words more carefully than anything else youâve ever said to him. the tension lasts only a second before his mouth curves into something dangerous, something sharp, something entirely too pleased.
oh. oh, no.
âoh, sweetheart,â he drawls, voice all silk and trouble, reaching up to ruffle his already-messy hair. his fingers linger for a second, pushing back the damp strands before he tilts his head at you, grin widening. âyouâre not gonna regret that.â
he doesnât wait for your response. heâs already out the door. and frankly, you didn't expect the game to be brutal.
clearly, your estimate was wrong. the gym is packed, filled with students from both universities, the air thick with tension, sweat, and school pride. banners hang from the walls, school colors clashing, chants echoing through the space like war cries. the visiting teamâtall, muscular, built like they were engineered for thisâcarries themselves with the weight of confidence, a roster of starters who have dominated the league all season. they tower over the court, standing like an immovable wall of defense, but it only takes one play for them to realize theyâre in trouble.
because satoru gojo is simply faster. better.
the moment the ball is in his hands, he moves like he owns the court. the opposing point guardâa solid 6â5 with broad shoulders and a killer defensive recordâlunges to block him, but itâs over before it even starts. satoru feints left, shifts right, and leaves him grasping at air, breaking into a sprint toward the basket before the others can react. their power forwardâtall, heavy, built for blocking shotsâsteps in, arms raised high, but satoru barely acknowledges him.
because satoru is 6â3, fast as hell, and has a vertical leap that makes people question physics. he jumps, body twisting mid-air, and the slam dunk is so violent it rattles the rim.
the crowd erupts.
the visiting teamâs coach is already shouting, hands flying in frustration as his players scramble to reorganize. they try to lock satoru down, try to double-team him, but itâs pointlessâhis crossovers are disrespectful, his footwork impossible to track, his speed completely unfair. one defenderâ6â7, easily one of the best in the leagueâsteps up, stance wide, arms ready, but satoru doesnât even give him time to think.
because satoru is playing with purpose.
his second shot? half-court. no hesitation.
the ball soars through the air, clean, perfect, and the second it lands through the net, satoru is already turning away, smirking as if he knew it would go in before he even let go.
âoh, youâve got to be kidding me.â nanami mutters, watching as the other universityâs shooting guardâwho up until now had been known for his defenseâgrabs his knees like heâs questioning his life choices.
âtheyâre frustrated,â suguru notes, amused, stepping up beside satoru during a dead ball.
âthey should be.â satoru says, rolling his shoulders, letting his sweat-slicked jersey shift against his skin. he looks completely relaxedâuntouched, unbothered, infuriatingly smugâas if he isnât systematically destroying one of the best teams in the league.
but this isnât just about winning.
because every time he scores, he looks at you.
he doesnât even try to be subtle. his icy blue eyes flick up to the bleachers, head tilting slightly, lips curving into a knowing grin. his fan girls scream, convinced heâs looking at them, but you know better. because satoru isnât just playingâheâs showing off.
he breaks past another defender with ridiculous ease, dribbling once before stepping back for a three-pointer that barely even touches the rim. the opposing teamâs captain calls for a switch, barking out orders, but it doesnât matterâthey canât stop him.
the timeout huddle is a mess.
players are breathing hard, jerseys clinging to sweat-damp skin, shoulders rising and falling as they try to recover. the gym is loudâtoo loudâthe crowd still buzzing from the absolute disaster that was the first half. their coach is talking, something about holding the lead, tightening defense, not getting cocky, but no one is listening. because across the circle, satoru is still grinning like heâs having the time of his life.
âyo, what the hell is wrong with you today?â suguru mutters, tossing him a towel, brow furrowed like heâs genuinely concerned.
satoru catches it with one hand, absently wiping the sweat from his forehead, movements lazy, easy, completely unbothered. his white hair is a mess, strands curling slightly from the heat, the glow of the overhead lights catching on the sharp angles of his face. his jersey is clinging to his frame, fabric damp where it stretches over his shoulders, his chest, but he doesnât seem to noticeâor care. instead, he tugs the collar away from his skin, letting the cool air hit, eyes flicking up toward the stands like heâs looking for something.
or rather, someone.
ânothing.â he says, voice easy, light, like he didnât just dismantle an entire universityâs defense and humiliate half their starters in front of a packed gym. his breath is steady, not a hint of exhaustion, only the slow rise and fall of his chest beneath his damp jersey, fabric clinging to his frame, sweat glistening along the sharp lines of his collarbone. his hair is an absolute mess, strands sticking to his forehead, white against flushed skin, but he makes no move to fix it. he just breathes in deep, exhales slow, and grins wider, a lazy, knowing curl of his lips, all sharp edges and unchecked arrogance.
then, too casuallyââjust gotta make sure my girl gets paid.â
suguru blinks. once. twice. then exhales, a slow, measured breath, like heâs trying to process what he just heard.
his expression shiftsânot shocked, not confused, but amused. a slow smirk tugs at the corner of his mouth, dark eyes glinting with something knowing, something entertained. because this is the same girl, isnât it? the same girl satoru was ditching party invitations for, choosing study sessions over late-night drinks for, showing up to campus early for when he barely woke up on time for class.
â...oh?â suguru says, just to hear him say it again.
but satoru doesnât elaborate. doesnât even look away from the stands. just flips the towel over his shoulder, rolls his wrists like this is just another game, like he hasnât just set the entire gym on fire with a single sentence.
the buzzer blasts. second half starts. and satoru gojo is playing for blood.
the other university comes back from halftime determined, desperate, their coach gesturing wildly from the sidelines, barking orders as if sheer strategy will make up for the fact that they are losing to one man. they throw everything at satoruâdouble teams, switches, aggressive press defenseâbut none of it matters. he slips through them like water, like air, like something untouchable, moving with the kind of ease that makes even the referees hesitate before blowing the whistle.
he isnât just scoringâheâs playing with them.
he spins the ball between his fingers, a lazy smirk curling at his lips, then passes it off last second, only to sprint across the court faster than anyone expects and sink a corner three. when their shooting guard tries to lock him down, satoru just laughsâactual laughter, low and effortless, before stepping back and draining another deep shot, his wrist flicking with a perfect follow-through. it barely touches the net.
you shouldnât be this invested.
but your eyes track him anyway, caught up in the rhythm of his movements, in the way his jersey clings to the shape of his shoulders, the sweat glistening at the hollow of his throat. heâs moving like this is personal, like the entire game is some elaborate performance meant for you alone, and itâs starting to get to you. every time he scores, he glances up, searching for you in the stands, and you hate that your stomach flips when his gaze finds yours.
you hate it even more when you catch yourself smiling.
heâs impossible to ignore, too bright, too loud, too much. the crowd responds to him like heâs some kind of basketball god, voices rising every time he moves, a mix of screams, chants, and what youâre pretty sure is an entire row of students calling out his name. his fan girls are in absolute chaos, some clutching each otherâs arms, others dramatically swooning, like theyâre seconds away from fainting just from watching him exist.
the other team is beyond frustrated.
theyâve thrown everything at himâdouble teams, switches, aggressive defenseâbut it doesnât matter. because satoru isnât just playing to win. heâs playing to humiliate.
his next victim is their shooting guard, 6â4, all muscle, built like he should be a defensive wall. he steps up, arms wide, eyes sharp, feet planted like heâs ready for anything. but satoru? satoru doesnât even look like heâs trying. he bounces the ball once, twice, just enough to let the anticipation build, before shifting forward like heâs about to drive in.
the defender lunges and satoru, the absolute menace that he is, just stands there.
he doesnât move. doesnât even attempt to go around him. just watchesâcompletely unbothered, completely stillâas the guy flies past him, momentum carrying him forward, stumbling face-first onto the court.
the crowd gasps.
the defender scrambles to recover, but itâs already over. satoru spins the ball in his hands, takes a single step back, andâwithout even looking at the rimâlaunches a half-court shot.
the ball soars, clean, effortless, perfect. it barely even touches the net. the gym absolutely erupts. and thenâhe winks up at the bleachers.
or rather, at you.
itâs infuriatingly slow, deliberate, the corner of his mouth curling up in a way that is both cocky and playful. his white hair is a mess, damp with sweat, strands sticking to his forehead, but it only makes the sharpness of his features more pronounced. his lips part slightly, the ghost of a smirk still lingering, the blue of his eyes catching under the lightsâbright, focused, sharp enough to be dangerous.
the reaction is immediate.
âhe saw me!â someone shrieks, grabbing their friendâs arm in a death grip.
âno, he was looking at me!â another one yells, voice already breaking.
âoh my god, heâs literally flirting with our section!â
meanwhile, youâre still just watching him play, like he didnât just incite a full-scale riot in the stands. you donât even thinkâyou just lift your hand, give him a thumbs up, then go right back to pretending this is normal.
satoru freezes.
for a split second, he stares, blinking like he wasnât expecting you to actually respond. the gym is too loud, too chaotic, but all of it fades into static as he holds your gaze, something unreadable flickering behind his expression.
thenâhis grin stretches slow and sharp, something almost dangerous flashing in his expression.
the opposing team barely has time to react. the second satoru turns back to the game, heâs already moving.
their point guard makes the mistake of hesitating, fingers gripping the ball a second too long as he scans the court for an opening. satoru doesnât wait. he lunges forward, impossibly fast, cutting through the space between them like a blade. his hand shoots out, fingers slapping against the ball with a sharp, decisive smack, and suddenlyâitâs his.
the steal is clean, effortless, unfair.
the defender barely has time to curse before satoru is already gone, already breaking into a full sprint down the court. his movements are fluid, sharp, ruthless, his jersey clinging to the sweat on his skin as he takes off, the crowd roaring in anticipation.
a single defender manages to keep up, breathing hard, desperate, sprinting beside him in a last-ditch effort to block him. but satoru doesnât even look at him. doesnât even acknowledge him.
he takes one step inside the paintâthen jumps. and he just keeps going. the crowd screams as he soars, legs tucking, arm pulling back, body arching so high it feels unreal. the defender leaps, arms stretching, tryingâfailing.
because satoru gojo is 6â3, fast as hell, and plays above the rim like the air belongs to him.
his fingers clamp around the ball, grip firm, the muscles in his arms flexing as he swings forwardâthen slams it through the net with enough force to make the entire backboard rattle.
the gym explodes. the other universityâs bench is silent. their coach buries his face in his hands.
satoru drops back down to the court, landing lightly on his feet, rolling his shoulders as if he didnât just commit a crime in front of a full audience. he turns, gaze flicking up toward the bleachersâtoward you. his fan girls lose their minds.
but you? you donât stand a chance.
you exhale slowly, pressing your knuckles against your lips, trying to ignore the warmth creeping into your face. youâre not swooningâyou refuse to be one of them, one of the girls throwing themselves at him like heâs some kind of untouchable idol. but your fingers curl against your sketchbook, grip tightening, and you know youâre falling for him anyway.
the game is already over.
the scoreboard doesnât say it yet, but everyone knows. satoru knows. the other university knows. even their coach, red-faced and exhausted from yelling, has stopped trying to call plays that might turn things around. but satoru? heâs still playing like he has something to prove.
his next move is straight-up cruel.
their point guard is waiting for him at the three-point line, arms wide, stance low, feet planted like heâs ready for anything. he isnât. satoru bounces the ball between his legs once, twice, then shifts forward just enough to make it look like heâs driving in. the defender lunges, panicked, reaching out to block himâbut satoru is already gone.
a single, fluid crossover sends the guy sprawling onto the court, hands catching empty air as satoru steps back and sinks another three-pointer like heâs just shooting around at practice. the bench erupts, players falling over each other in disbelief, a mix of laughter and shouts filling the gym. even the refereeâusually stone-faced and neutralâlets out a quiet, impressed whistle.
you cover your mouth with your sleeve, shoulders shaking as you try to stifle your laughter. itâs unfair, really, how easily he does thisâhow easily he turns the game into his own personal stage, his own playground.
he doesnât even look at the scoreboard. he looks at you.
your breath catches, because this time, thereâs something different in the way he holds your gaze. he isnât just searching for a reactionâheâs watching. like heâs waiting for something. like heâs confirming something.
your fingers tighten against your sleeve. you know.
and from the way his smirk softens just slightly, the way his head tilts, eyes bright beneath the glare of the gym lightsâhe knows, too.
the final seconds tick down.
the other team stops trying to chase the scoreâthey know itâs hopeless. some of them donât even bother running back on defense anymore, hands on their hips, breathing hard, completely defeated. when the final buzzer blares, itâs almost mercy at this point, the end of a game that shouldâve stopped being competitive long ago.
final score: 112-39.
satoru lifts his arms in a lazy stretch, grinning, completely unbothered, as if he didnât just personally crush one of the highest-ranked teams in the league. sweat clings to his skin, his jersey damp, hair an absolute mess, but he still looks ridiculously good, annoyingly confident.
his teammates crowd him immediately, patting his back, ruffling his hair, laughing at his absolute disrespect on the court. he takes it all in stride, leaning against suguruâs shoulder like he didnât just outrun everyone on that court, fingers lifting in a lazy peace sign as cameras flash.
but the moment heâs freeâhe looks for you.
he doesnât find you right away.
by the time the final buzzer blares and the court erupts into cheers, youâre already making your way down the bleachers, tucking your sketchbook under your arm like you can pretend you werenât watching him the entire time. the gym is still loud, electric, the energy of the crowd vibrating against your skin as students swarm the court, players getting swallowed up in a mess of high-fives and celebratory shouts. you keep your head down, moving quickly, telling yourself that youâre just avoiding the chaos, that youâre not actually running from him.
but thenâfootsteps. fast. deliberate. coming straight for you.
âoi, oiâwhy are you leaving so fast?â
too late.
you barely have time to react before satoru catches up, falling into step beside you, grinning like heâs won something more than just a game. heâs still breathless from the court, his jersey damp, sweat clinging to the edges of his hair, but he moves easily, like the entire game was just a warm-up. the fluorescent lights overhead catch on the sharp line of his jaw, on the bright blue of his eyes, on the smug tilt of his lips as he leans in slightly, invading your space like itâs his right.
âso,â satoru drawls, voice still rough from exertion, breath still a little uneven. his skin glows under the fluorescent lights, sweat clinging to the sharp lines of his jaw, the hollow of his throat, the stray strands of white hair sticking to his forehead. but he doesnât seem to careâtoo busy grinning, too busy basking in his victory. he leans in slightly, crowding into your space the way he always does, eyes alight with something smug, something expectant. âhowâs it feel to profit off your favorite athlete?â
you blink, gripping your sketchbook a little tighter, pressing it against your chest like a shield. this is not a conversation you want to have right nowânot when he looks like that, not when heâs still riding the high of the game, not when heâs standing too close, towering over you, sweat-drenched and insufferably pleased with himself.
ââŚi think i probably only made like twenty bucks.â
he freezes. for the first time all night, satoru gojo short-circuits. â...huh?â
you shift your weight slightly, trying not to smile, but he sees the way your fingers twitch, the way your gaze flickers away for half a second, like youâre barely keeping it together. âi only bet the minimum,â you admit, voice calm, unaffected, like you didnât just shatter his entire perception of the game. âdidnât wanna risk too much.â
thereâs a pause. a long one.
satoru's grin falters. his gaze sharpens, like heâs replaying the last two hours in his head, like heâs remembering every dunk, every deep three-pointer, every ridiculous play he pulled offâall under the assumption that you had gone all in.
you see the exact moment he realizes. he ruined a college teamâs entire morale for twenty bucks. he also accidentally started several dating rumors.
âno way.â his voice is flat, almost horrified. âno actual way.â
you bite the inside of your cheek, struggling to keep your expression neutral. itâs too easy.
he runs a hand through his hair, pushing back the damp strands, still looking like heâs processing an entire life-altering event. âyouâyou barely even bet?â
âyup.â
âso you werenâtââ he gestures vaguely, looking genuinely lost, like heâs been personally betrayed by the universe itself. âyou werenât, like, invested?â
you shrug, avoiding his gaze, because you suddenly feel kind of bad. ânot really.â
his expression crumbles.
âoh my god.â he exhales sharply, dragging a hand down his face, fingers pressing into his temples like this is causing him actual physical pain. âi wasted all my best moves for twenty bucks?â
you nod, lips pressing together, but this time, the guilt outweighs the amusement. you peek up at him, watching the way he slouches slightly, shoulders dropping, his usual confidence momentarily replaced with the weight of sheer disbelief.
ââŚi mean,â you murmur, hesitant, before reaching into your pocket. âyou looked pretty cool.â
he doesnât react immediately, still looking far too devastated to register your words, but when you pull out a neatly folded handkerchief and raise it toward him, he finally glances down.
his brows lift.
âwhatâs this?â he asks, voice suspicious, but thereâs something softer in it now, something curious.
you swallow, suddenly self-conscious, but you donât pull your hand back. âyouâre, um⌠sweating.â
his lips twitch.
âoh?â he says, and now heâs watching you instead of the handkerchief, instead of anything else.
you avert your gaze, cheeks warming slightly, but you still reach up carefully, dabbing the cloth against his forehead with quiet, deliberate movements. he goes still, just for a second, just long enough for you to register the shift in the air, the way his breath hitches almost imperceptibly.
thenâslowly, teasinglyâ
âdamn,â he murmurs. âif i knew youâd be this sweet about it, i wouldâve played even harder.â
your fingers pause, pressing against his skin just a fraction longer than necessary, before you pull back abruptly, heart stumbling over itself.
âforget it.â you mutter, stuffing the handkerchief back into your pocket, turning on your heel.
satoru laughs, bright and unbothered, falling into step beside you like he wasnât just existentially wrecked a minute ago. and somehow, you know this isnât the last time heâs going to make you feel like this.
but as it turns out, offering satoru a handkerchief isnât enough to alleviate his moodâhe sulks for an entire week.
he still shows up, still lounges around your dorm like he owns the place, but everything he does is unnecessarily dramatic. he sighsâloudly and oftenâcollapsing onto your furniture like his limbs donât work properly. he sprawls across your bed without asking, flopping onto his stomach like some overgrown cat, muttering about betrayal every time you glance at him. he pokes at your art supplies absentmindedly, dragging a finger along the rim of your paint jars, staring mournfully at your sketchbook like it personally wronged him.
satoru refuses to play pickup games at the campus court, claiming heâs âretiredâ after his efforts were wasted on someone who only bet the bare minimum. he stretches out on your floor instead, staring at the ceiling with the air of a fallen war hero, occasionally tossing a basketball in the air and catching it one-handedâjust to remind you of what was lost.
âyou couldâve told me.â he grumbles one evening, sprawled out in the middle of your dorm, arms crossed like a petulant child. his hair is still damp from practice, the ends curling slightly where sweat has dried, but he hasnât even changed out of his jersey yetâtoo busy sulking.
you hum in response, dipping your brush into a fresh shade of blue, too used to his dramatics to entertain them. âwhat, that i wasnât planning to go broke over a basketball game?â
âyes!â he says miserably, rolling onto his side so he can stare at you like you personally ruined his life.
his arms are still crossed, but one hand is half-buried in his hair, fingers tugging lightly at the strands, his expression caught somewhere between disbelief and heartbreak. âi wouldâve toned it down.â
you snort, finally glancing at him. his blue eyes are fixed on you, sharp but lazy, like heâs waiting for you to admit you were wrong. âno, you wouldnât have.â
satoru opens his mouthâprobably to argue, probably to deny that he's the most dramatic person aliveâbut then he catches the look on your face. something shifts in his expression, something slower, something warmer, like heâs seeing you in a way he hadnât before. for the first time since he walked into your dorm today, he goes quiet.
you donât look away.
outside, the wind rattles against your window, golden leaves scraping against the glass. the air smells crisp, cold, like the start of something new. autumn is settling in.
ââŚdid you at least have fun?â you ask, raising an eyebrow. your voice is lighter than usual, quieter, like you already know the answer but want to hear him say it anyway.
he doesnât answer right away.
he just grins, lazy, easy, completely insufferable, like he knows something youâre not ready to admit yet.
âyeah,â he murmurs. âguess i did.â
the last days of AUTUMN slip in quietly, fading into the edges of routine like the final strokes of a painting.
the air is sharper now, biting, enough that satoru finally stops showing up in just his jerseyâthough he still refuses to wear anything heavier than a hoodie, claiming heâs "built different." the wind rattles your dorm window more often, slipping through the cracks to nip at your fingers as you paint, and the trees outside stand bare and skeletal, their golden leaves now forgotten heaps on the pavement, damp and crumbling underfoot.
and then, thereâs finals.
campus shifts with the season, brimming with stress, the energy heavier, more desperate. the library is always full, lights flickering through the windows at all hours of the night. students hunch over laptops in cafĂŠs, their cups stacked high with unfinished coffee, their fingers smudged with ink and exhaustion.
and youâyou are pushing yourself too hard.
satoru sees it before you do.
he sees it in the way your hands donât move as fluidly when you paint, how your brushes sit in murky water for too long before you remember to rinse them out. he sees it in the way you rub your eyes more often, fingertips pressing against your temples when you think no oneâs looking. the way you sip your coffee like itâs medicine, like you need it just to stay upright.
but more than anything, he sees it in the way youâve stopped sketching between sessions.
at first, he doesnât say anything.
because he knows you. knows that you hate being told to slow down, that you treat breaks like enemies, that unfinished work sits on your conscience like an open wound.
so instead, he tries harder in ways you donât notice.
he starts bringing you food more often, not even bothering to pretend theyâre leftovers anymore. he tosses a granola bar at you before every session, drops a water bottle onto your desk without explanation, side-eyes your instant noodles with blatant, unfiltered disapproval.
so instead, he tries harder in ways you donât notice.
he starts bringing you food more often, no longer bothering with the flimsy excuse of calling them leftovers. he tosses a granola bar at you before every session, always with an offhanded commentâ"donât die on me, yeah?"âbefore flopping onto your bed like he didnât just shove sustenance into your hands. he drops a water bottle onto your desk without explanation, the plastic cool against your wrist as you sketch, and side-eyes your instant noodles like they personally offend him. when you ignore him, he clicks his tongue in disapproval, muttering something about "atrocious dietary habits" like heâs one to talk.
âyouâre not my mom, satoru.â you say one evening, peeling the wrapper off the snack he just unceremoniously threw at you.
ânah,â he scoffs, propping himself up on one elbow, watching you unwrap it with clear satisfaction. âif i was your mom, iâd actually let you starve so youâd learn a lesson.â
you pause, narrowing your eyes. â...what lesson?â
he shrugs, grinning like he didnât just say something completely unhinged, dimples showing slightly. âi dunno. that eating real food is important or some shit.â
you roll your eyes, but you still eat whatever he brings.
and when you think heâs not looking, you chew a little slower, savoring the warmth in your chest that has nothing to do with the food.
he starts texting you more, too.
[10:47 PM] still awake?
[10:48 PM] wait dumb question. ofc you are.
[10:48 PM] go to sleep before ur brain melts. if you canât sleep we can call, im a wonderful singer.
[10:49 PM] also if ur ignoring me rn iâm gonna be soooo hurt u donât even know.
[10:50 PM] iâm okay, satoru.
[10:51 PM] just a little tired. iâll sleep soon.
[10:51 PM] thank you for checking, though.
he doesnât reply right away.
you stare at the screen for a moment, thumb hovering over the keyboard, wondering if he fell asleep or got distracted, if heâs still there. as if sensing this, his replies arrive.
[10:54 PM] yeah, i know.
[10:54 PM] but take it easy, okay?
[10:55 PM] iâll see you tomorrow.
you exhale, something warm settling in your chest, something you donât have the energy to unpack right now.
[10:56 PM] okay.
you flip your phone over, tucking it beneath your pillow, but you fall asleep easier that night. because itâs nice. having someone to notice. having someone to care.
then, one evening, it happens.
youâre halfway through a painting, something thatâs been frustrating you for days, something that isnât coming out right no matter how many times you fix it. the colors arenât blending the way you want, the strokes feel too heavy, too forcedâlike your hands arenât listening to you anymore.
satoru is there, sprawled across your bed like he has nowhere else to be, phone in one hand, the other tucked lazily behind his head. he glances at you between scrolling, sighing loudly whenever you donât react, making just enough noise to remind you of his presence. when that doesnât work, he shifts onto his side, propping himself up on an elbow, eyes flicking toward your hunched form at the desk. âyouâre supposed to entertain me, yâknow.â
âiâm busy,â you mutter, barely sparing him a glance, your focus locked on the canvas in front of you. your brush hovers midair, colors blending under the dim light of your desk lamp, but thereâs a tightness in your grip, a frustration in the way your shoulders remain stiff.
âso?â he rolls onto his side, propping himself up on one elbow, his head tilting slightly as he watches you. âi am literally your muse.â
you exhale sharply, setting your brush down with a little more force than necessary. âyou are literally annoying.â
he gasps, clutching his chest like you just struck him. âharsh.â his voice is light, teasing, but his eyes stay on you, watching as you tilt your head, exhale through your nose, then lean forward again, brush hovering over the canvas.
youâve been fixated for too long now, barely moving except to mix colors, sigh, and frown at your work. your posture is too stiff, too tense, your shoulders drawn up, the curve of your spine locked in place like youâve forgotten how to relax. your fingers tighten around the brush, knuckles whitening, the bristles pausing mid-stroke as your breath shudders slightlyâtoo shallow, too uneven.
something itches in his chest. for the first time all night, he frowns.
âhey,â he says, sitting up, his phone forgotten beside him. âid you even eat today?â
"âhuh?â
your reaction is delayed, your head turning toward him like it takes effort to shift your focus. you blink at him, slow, eyes unfocused, as if youâre still caught between here and the painting, like you donât quite register what heâs saying.
thenâthe brush slips from your fingers. before he even registers whatâs happeningâyou sway.
his heart stops. then heâs off the bed in an instant, faster than thought, hands reaching, catching you before you can hit the ground.
âwoah, woahâhey.â his voice is too sharp, too urgent, nothing like his usual lazy drawl. one arm curls around your waist, steadying you, while the other grips your wrist, fingers pressing against the faint pulse beneath your skin. youâre too light in his hold, your weight sinking into him like you canât hold yourself up.
your head lolls against his chest, and he barely registers the faint smudge of paint you leave on his hoodie becauseâyouâre not responding.
panic flares white-hot in his gut.
âokay, no. you donât get to just faint on me,â he mutters, adjusting his grip, his breath coming quicker than heâd like. he taps your cheek lightly, the warmth of your skin too cool against his fingertips. âwake up, idiot.â
you groan softly, brows pinching together, your expression twisting like even the act of regaining consciousness is too much effort.
â...mâfine,â you mumble, barely coherent, words slow and heavy like your tongue canât quite keep up.
satoru lets out a sharp breath, his grip on you tight but careful, like heâs still processing the fact that he had to catch you in the first place. âoh, yeah? yeah? that why you just dropped like a damn sack of flour?â his voice is sharp, edged with something thatâs not quite annoyance, not quite panic, something he doesnât know what to do with.
you donât answer.
his jaw tightens, muscles flexing as he exhales through his nose, his chest rising and falling too fast, too unevenly. without another word, he shifts, carefully maneuvering you onto your bed, his movements stiff, deliberate, too controlled.
âunbelievable,â he grumbles under his breath, pulling the blanket over you with a little more force than necessary. âwho even does this? who just forgets to function?â
you mumble something unintelligible, your voice so soft that it barely even reaches him, your eyes fluttering open just enough to meet his. theyâre glassy, unfocused, struggling to stay on him, and for some reason, that frustrates him even more.
satoru exhales sharply, running a hand over his face before pushing his hair back, his fingers tangling into the damp strands at the nape of his neck. after a beat, he crouches beside the bed, forearms resting on his knees, his gaze steady as he studies you.
âyou okay?â his voice is quieter now, but thereâs an edge beneath it, something pressing.
ââŚmâfine,â you repeat, voice barely above a whisper, but you donât even sound like you believe it.
his eyes narrow.
âyou literally just passed out.â his tone is flat, unimpressed, laced with something dangerously close to concern. âtry again.â
you blink slowly, like it takes effort, like you have to search for the words. ââŚjust⌠tired..â you admit, the syllables slipping together as your lashes flutter, fighting to stay awake.
he doesnât like the way that sounds.
âyeah, no shit.â
you shift slightly, eyes slipping shut again, breath evening out, and he presses his lips together, watching you too closely, his expression unreadable. his fingers twitch against his knee, like thereâs something else he wants to say, something else he wants to do.
then, quieterâlike heâs speaking more to himself than to youââyou gotta stop this.â
you hum softly in response, already half-asleep, your breathing slow, steady, but heâs still watching you, still too aware of how small you look like this, how fragile you felt in his arms.
but he means it. you canât keep doing this. canât keep running yourself into the ground, pushing past your limits like they donât exist.
he wonât let you.
his arms remain loosely folded over his knees, but his fingers tap restlessly against his leg, his jaw tight. his hoodie is still stained with the smudge of paint from where your head rested against him, but he doesnât move to wipe it off. instead, he watches the slow rise and fall of your chest, the faint crease between your brows even in sleep, like youâre still carrying the weight of exhaustion. he exhales, rubs a hand over his face, then reaches for the blanket crumpled at the edge of the bed and drapes it over you, movements slow, careful.
he stays until heâs sure youâre really resting.
when you wake up, the first thing you notice is the blanket draped over you. the second thing you notice is the smell of something warm, something fresh.
your fingers twitch against the fabric, gripping the edge of the blanket like youâre grounding yourself, like youâre trying to make sense of where you are. your head feels heavy, dull with leftover exhaustion, but thereâs something comforting in the warmth pressed against your legs, the scent curling into the cold air. you blink blearily, sitting up, and thereâ
satoru, on your floor, typing away on his phone. beside him, a steaming cup of instant miso soup sits on your desk.
his back is against the bed frame, legs stretched out, hair a mess of uneven strands where his fingers mustâve run through it too many times. his hoodie hangs loose on his frame, sleeves pushed up just enough to expose the sharp cut of his forearms, and when he hears you shift, he glances upâexpression unreadable, gaze sharp but softer than usual.
âyouâre awake,â he says, this time without looking away, without the usual smug edge to his voice.
satoru's eyes flicker over your face, assessing, sharp but softer than usual, like heâs searching for somethingâproof that youâre really okay, that youâre here, conscious, breathing. his posture is relaxed, but thereâs something unnaturally still about him, like he hasnât quite settled since you collapsed. the glow from your desk lamp casts uneven shadows across his face, catching on the messy strands of his hair, the faint crease between his brows.
â...what happened?â your voice is hoarse, rough around the edges, like youâve been asleep for much longer than you should have. you shift under the blanket, fingers tightening around the fabric, the weight of exhaustion still pressing against your limbs.
he gives you a flat, unimpressed look.
âyou died.â
you blink at him, lips parting slightlyâstunned, too tired to argue.
he holds your gaze for half a second longer before exhaling, reaching for the cup on your desk. â...briefly,â he amends, his fingers barely touching the ceramic as he pushes it toward you, the soft scrape of porcelain against wood filling the quiet space between you. âdrink. before you die again.â
your fingers curl around the warmth, hesitating for just a second before lifting it. the heat seeps into your palms, steadying, grounding, and for some reason, your chest tightens in a way you donât want to name.
you take a slow sip, the warmth spreading through your bones, reaching into the cold, exhausted parts of you that you hadnât even realized were there.
âthanks,â you mumble, voice quieter now, the steam from the soup curling into the cold air between you.
satoru shrugs, but his gaze lingers, watching you a little too closely, a little too long, like heâs waiting for something. thereâs no teasing grin, no smart remarkâjust a quiet, unreadable weight in the way he looks at you. his fingers tap absently against his knee, the rhythm uneven, restless, like thereâs something on the tip of his tongue that heâs still deciding whether or not to say.
thenâ"you know," he starts, voice too casual, too calculated, like heâs testing the waters before fully stepping in. "you never let me see your sketchbook."
your grip tightens slightly around the cup, the warmth pressing against your palms, suddenly too much, too distracting.
he notices.
satoru's gaze flickers downâjust for a second, brief but deliberateâbefore meeting yours again, sharper now, curiosity replacing the usual lazy amusement in his expression. the teasing edge is gone, replaced by something steadier, something unreadable. âwhy is that?
ââŚno reason,â you lie, shifting under his stare, trying to appear unaffected. but the soup in your hands is suddenly too warm, too grounding, your fingers curling tighter around the ceramic like it might steady you. you can feel the weight of his attention, the way heâs watching you too closely, too intently, like heâs waiting for the cracks to show.
his brows lift, his expression flat, unimpressed. âbullshit.â
you scowl, gripping your soup tighter, like itâll shield you from this conversation, like it might somehow block him from seeing through you.
âitâs private.â
âso? iâm literally the subject,â he argues, leaning forward slightly, elbows resting on his knees, his presence suddenly heavier, more insistent. âi should get at least a sneak peek.â
âno.â
his eyes narrow slightly, the corner of his lip twitching like heâs already planning a new approach. âwhy?â
âbecause,â you say, and thatâs all you give him. because you donât know how to explain it. because you donât want to.
his lips press into a thin line, his gaze lingering just a little too long, just sharp enough to make you shift under the weight of it.
a challenge.
but youâre still half-buried in exhaustion, your limbs too heavy, your mind still foggy, and he knows it.
so after a beat, satoru exhales through his nose, then leans back against the bed again, arms folding behind his head, stretching out like heâs already decided this conversation isnât over.
âfine. for now,â he says, voice light, easy. but thereâs something about the way he says itâsomething low, something certain, like a promise rather than a concession.
you glare at him, because you know himâknow the way his mind works, know that he never lets things go, never drops anything without a reason. you see the way his grin lingers, the way it tugs at the corner of his mouth just slightly off-kilter, like heâs already planning his next move. itâs not a matter of if heâll bring this up againâitâs when.
he grins wider, because he knows you know. because youâre predictable in a way that amuses him, in a way that keeps him entertained. youâre trying too hard to brush this off, to pretend like the question doesnât rattle something inside you, but heâs always been good at noticing the little things. your avoidance, your tight grip on the cup, the way your shoulders stiffen just slightly whenever he pushes too close.
and just like that, the weight of the moment lifts, the air turning lighter again, slipping back into something familiar. you take another sip of the miso soup, the heat seeping through your fingers, spreading through your chest, anchoring you in the quiet. satoru shifts, arms still behind his head, gaze flickering away from you for onceâout the window, toward the sky, toward the city beyond.
outside, the wind rattles the glass, slipping through the cracks, curling into the room like the first whisper of something colder.
autumn is ending. and winter is near.
WINTER has settled in, quiet but undeniable.
the air is colder, sharper, slipping through the cracks of your dorm window no matter how tightly you close it. the ground outside is dusted in frost, the once-vibrant autumn leaves now forgotten beneath slushy sidewalks and the occasional crunch of ice. campus is emptier now, students retreating home for winter break, leaving the dorms quieter, the hallways less crowded, less alive.
but heâs in your dorm all the time now.
it started with quick drop-ins after gamesâan excuse to complain about how sore he was, to stretch out on your floor like a lazy cat, to toss you a snack without explanation. then it turned into late-night visits when he had nowhere better to beâuntil, eventually, he stopped pretending he needed a reason at all.
your dorm isnât much, just a tiny room barely big enough for the both of you, but somehow, itâs become his space, too.
he kicks his shoes off without thinking, leaves his jacket slung over your chair like it belongs there, flops onto your bed without asking. he always brings something with himâsometimes food, sometimes a new brand of tea he insists you try, sometimes just the lingering warmth of conversation when the room feels too quiet.
(you complain about it. âthis is not a hangout spot.â âstop making a mess on my desk.â âfor the last time, satoru, my bed is not your personal couch.â but you never actually tell him to leave.)
and lately, you seem less exhausted when heâs here.
finals are over. winter break has started. the campus is quieter, the stress that had settled into your shoulders finally lifting, loosening its grip.
you still overwork yourself, still get lost in your paintings for hours, but youâre taking care of yourself now, too.
he sees it in the way you actually eat full meals instead of just instant noodles. in the way you donât fight him when he shoves a bottle of water into your hands. in the way youâve stopped waking up with smudged paint on your cheek from falling asleep at your desk.
heâs proud of you. not that heâd ever say it out loud. maybe one day. but for now, heâll just keep showing up.
tonight, though, youâre running late.
some meeting for an art exhibition, something you were weirdly cagey about when he asked. you had waved him off, barely sparing him a glance as you gathered your things in a rush, stuffing papers into your bag, adjusting your coat with hurried movements. he had teased youââlook at you, so professional. should I start calling you sensei?ââbut you had just rolled your eyes, muttered something about being late, and disappeared out the door.
he almost doesnât notice at first, too busy digging through a plastic bag of snacks he brought for you, tossing a pack onto your desk, then tearing open another for himself. he stretches out against your bed frame, one knee propped up, his phone in one hand, snacks in the other, making himself comfortable in the way he always does. your absence doesnât bother himâyouâll be back soon, and besides, heâs already claimed this space as his own.
but thenâhis eyes flicker to your desk. to your sketchbook.
itâs right there.
heâs been curious for months.
heâs seen the way you snap it shut the second he moves too close, how you always turn it facedown, tuck it under your arm, keep it pressed against your chest when you leave a room. itâs deliberate, protective, like it holds something you donât want him to seeâsomething more than just rough sketches from your sessions.
and heâs been good. heâs been patient. but now? now, heâs alone. and, wellâwhatâs the harm in taking a little peek?
his fingers brush the cover, hesitating for just a secondâa quiet moment of restraint before curiosity wins out. then, with one last glance at the door to make sure youâre not back yetâhe flips it open.
he expects sketches of his poses from your sessions. the usual. the planned. the predictable.
what he doesnât expect isâpages and pages of him.
not the carefully composed ones, not the ones youâd shown him before. no, these are different. the lines are loose, unpolished, realâlike you werenât drawing to impress anyone, like you were just trying to capture something before it slipped away.
his fingers still against the page, breath catching slightly, pulse stuttering in a way he doesnât understand. his own face stares back at him, over and over again, not the carefully arranged expressions from your sessions, but the ones he didnât know you were paying attention to.
him, tying his shoes before a game, the curve of his shoulders loose and relaxed. him, tossing his head back, laughing, mouth open, eyes crinkledâdrawn in a way that makes him look softer than heâs used to. next to it, in small, slanted handwriting: âloudest laugh in the world.â
satoru exhales slowly, flipping the page, movements quieter now, more deliberate.
him, spinning a basketball on his fingertip, drawn from multiple angles like you were trying to get it just right. him, leaning against your dorm room wall, arms crossed, head tilted, gaze sharp but amusedâlike heâs in the middle of teasing you. his eyes flick to the corner, where youâve written, âalways watching. annoyingly perceptive.â
he huffs out a quiet breathânot quite a laugh, not quite anything. his throat feels tight.
he turns another page, his fingers careful now, almost hesitant. a corner of a napkin peeks outâhe pulls it loose, unfolding it carefully. a quick, half-finished sketch of him mid-sprint, lines rushed, motion barely captured, next to a coffee-stained note that just says: âtoo fast to draw. unfair.â
his lips part slightly, breath catching at the words, at the fact that you even tried.
another, taped messily into the spine of the bookâa full-body drawing of him from behind, hoodie pulled up, hands in his pockets, walking away. âsomehow takes up more space than anyone else.â you wrote in the margins, the ink slightly smudged, like you had run your fingers over it absentmindedly.
he swallows, jaw tightening. his thumb brushes the edge of the page, lingering there, like if he just holds still, heâll figure out what to do with the way his chest feels too full, too tight.e because thisâthis isnât simply a collection of sketches. this is him, through your eyes.
and thenâhe flips another page. this one is different.
not a quick sketch, not a half-finished doodle on the edge of a napkin, not something you scribbled in passing. a full portrait. detailed, deliberate, like you took your time with it. like you wanted to get it exactly right.
he recognizes the jersey immediatelyâitâs from last week, when he had come over grumbling about practice, throwing himself onto your bed like it was his own, arms sprawled out, eyes shut, muttering about how being the best was exhausting. he remembers laughing, remembers the weight of your gaze on him, remembers teasing you about how you were always staring anyway.
but thisâthis means you had watched him even longer. the expression you capturedâitâs him, but itâs softer. relaxed. comfortable. unaware.
oh.
his fingers pause against the edge of the paper, grip tightening just slightly.
but you couldnât have done all this in front of him without him noticing. youâre always preoccupied, always doing something else whenever heâs aroundânever reaching for your sketchbook. had you drawn this only after he left? had you memorized these moments, watched him for far longer than he realized, until you could capture him this accurately?
his stomach does something weird again.
like a sharp twist of something unfamiliar, something heavy, something he doesnât quite know what to do with. his throat feels tight, his pulse uneven, a strange warmth creeping into his chest and settling there, stubborn and unmoving.
his gaze lingers on the portrait, taking in the detailsâthe careful shading of his jawline, the way his hair looks slightly messier than usual, the way his arms are draped carelessly over the sheets. he looks like he belongs there.
he swallows, jaw tightening. because he does.
he hears your footsteps before the door even opensâthe soft, familiar rhythm of them padding down the hall, the faint rustle of your coat as you shift, the quiet exhale you always let out before stepping inside.
the door creaks open gently, slow and careful, like youâre trying not to startle the silence of the room. âiâm home,â you say softly, the words barely past your lips before you step inside.
but satoru isnât paying attention. because his heart is still racing, his hands are still gripping the sketchbook, and heâs way too fucking giddy to think of a way to get rid of his crime in time.
you take two steps in before your gaze lands on himâseated on your bed, sketchbook open in his hands, looking like a kid caught with his hand in the cookie jar. your expression shifts in an instantârelaxed to confused to absolutely horrified.
âsatoru, what are youââ your voice cuts off mid-sentence, sharp and sudden, like you physically canât finish.
he looks up at you, eyes bright with mischief, lips already curling into a grin, the kind that spells nothing but trouble. fingers still pressed against the pages, holding them open like evidence, like proof. thenâcasually, effortlessly, like he didnât just get caught red-handedââyou like me.â
you freeze, body going rigid, fingers twitching at your sides like you donât know whether to snatch the book back or bolt.
he tilts his head, grin widening, flipping through the pages with exaggerated slowness, dragging out your suffering. âand here i thought you only liked me for my bone structureââ
âgive it back.â your voice comes out too fast, too sharp, laced with something close to panic.
he laughs, flipping another page, gaze flicking between the sketches and your rapidly reddening face. âso you have been staring.â
"satoruâ" you take a step forward, but he just leans back against the bed, completely unbothered, holding the sketchbook out of reach.
âoh, this oneâs nice,â he teases, holding up the sketch of him mid-game, spinning the book slightly between his fingers like heâs inspecting it. âwas this from last week? so you were watching me train and not just pretending to be absorbed in your sketchbookââ
âi was drawing!ââ
ââdrawing me.â his voice is light, teasing, but thereâs something else under itâsomething quieter, something warmer, something dangerously close to fondness.
you snatch the sketchbook out of his hands so fast it nearly smacks him in the face.
he expects you to yell at him. maybe shove him. maybe even hit him with the sketchbook. but instead your expression twists, your cheeks burning, lips parting like you want to say something but canât, and before he can react, before he can stop youâyou groan and slam the sketchbook back to your bed, turn on your heel and leave.
âheyâ!â he scrambles after you, nearly tripping over a stack of books, nearly sending an entire pile of papers flying, nearly proving why you never let him near your workspace unsupervised. his breath comes out in sharp puffs of white against the cold air, but he barely notices, too focused on closing the distance between you, on the way your shoulders are stiff, the way you move like youâre fighting the urge to break into a full sprint.
outside, the first real snowfall of the season is drifting down, dusting the campus in white, clinging to the bare branches, softening the edges of the world. but youâre too preoccupied with storming away to notice, too caught up in your own mortification to care.
âoh, come on,â satoru groans, catching up with long, easy strides, like this isnât a crisis, like this isnât your worst nightmare unfolding in real time. âdonât just run awayââ
âi am not running away.â
âyou totally are.â
âiâ!â you whirl around so fast he nearly crashes into you, nearly walks straight into your personal space like an idiot. he stops just short, breath catching slightly, eyes flicking down to the tiny sliver of space left between you.
the air is cold between you, breath visible in the space that suddenly feels too charged, too warm despite the winter creeping in.
your arms are crossed so tightly it looks like youâre holding yourself together, like if you let go, you might actually combust from sheer embarrassment.
âyouâre soââ you huff, flustered, frustrated, desperate to change the subject, desperate to claw back even a fraction of your dignity.
âhandsome? charming? incredibly kissableââ
ââinfuriating!â
he just grins, all teeth and shameless amusement, because youâre easy to read now. because no matter how much you glare at him, your ears are pink, your fingers are twitching, your weight is shifting like you want to run again but canât bring yourself to.
âyou like me,â he says again, softer this time. more certain.
you donât answer.
snowflakes land on your lashes, catching in your hair, melting against your skin. your lips are parted like you want to argue, but nothing comes out. your eyes are too bright, too wide, too caught between wanting to flee and wanting to stay.
satoru gojo is not known for his restraint.
so, naturally, he kisses you.
he moves before he can think, before he can overcomplicate it, before you can run again. his head tilts, his breath warm against your skin, and thenâhe leans down, slow, deliberate, giving you every chance to pull away.
but you donât.
and ohâoh.
his lips are warm despite the cold, despite the way the winter air bites at your skin, despite the snowflakes melting between you. his eyelashes flutter against his cheeks when he closes his eyes, those impossibly bright baby blues disappearing beneath pale lashes. he doesnât rush, doesnât tease, doesnât turn it into something playful. for once, he takes his time.
his free hand lifts just slightly, like he wants to cup your cheek, like he wants to hold you there, but at the last second, he hesitates. instead, his fingers curl lightly around your wrist, grounding, steady, just enough pressure to keep you from slipping away.
you freeze for half a second.
then, you melt.
your breath stutters, your fingers gripping at the fabric of his uniform, hesitant at first, then firmer, anchoring yourself to him. your body tilts forward, just the slightest bit, just enough to tell himâyes.
and heâs already grinning into the kiss, absolutely insufferable, because he knew it. because he knew you wouldnât pull away. because he knew you liked him.
when you finally pull back, breathless, he doesnât let you go.
doesnât want to.
his grip on your wrist stays firm, not tight, not demanding, just enough to keep you here, to keep you in this moment a little longer. his breath is warm against your skin, fanning softly over your lips, his fingers twitching like heâs debating pulling you back in.
âso,â he murmurs, forehead pressing against yours, nose barely grazing your own, âare you gonna admit it now, or do i have to go through another sketchbookâs worth of proof?â
your fingers tighten slightly around his sleeve, your heart hammering against your ribs like itâs trying to escape, like itâs trying to make up for every second you spent pretending this wasnât real. your cheeks are burning, the cold doing nothing to help, but stillâyou force yourself to meet his gaze, to stare straight into those impossibly bright baby blues.
ââŚi do.â
his breath hitches.
âyou⌠do?â
âi like you,â you clarify, somehow both firmer and shyer at the same time, words tumbling out too fast and too soft. then, before he can say anything stupidâânow you say it.â
his grin faltersânot in amusement, not in teasing, but in something softer, something fonder, something that makes your stomach flip.
âi like you,â he repeats, like itâs the easiest thing in the world, like he never doubted it for a second. his ears are pink, his fingers twitch against your wrist, but his voice stays steady, stays sure. âa lot.â
your stomach twists, your face burns, and before he can get even more unbearably smug about it, you shove him, pushing at his chest with more force than necessary, just to wipe the grin off his face.
he laughs, stumbling back a step but still holding onto your wrist, still looking at you like youâve just handed him the greatest win of his life.
but this time, you donât walk away.
instead, you sigh, shaking your head as you grab his sleeve properly and start pulling him back toward your dorm, fingers curling around the fabric like youâre holding on without realizing it.
âwhat, no dramatic speech about how i misread everything?â he teases, falling into step beside you, his free hand slipping lazily into his pocket.
âshut up,â you mumble, voice muffled by the scarf youâve pulled higher over your face, like itâll somehow hide the warmth still lingering in your cheeks.
âsoooo,â he drawls, bumping his shoulder against yours, âdoes this mean iâm officially your muse and your boyfriend now? multi-purpose?â
âno.â
âcold.â
he laughs, and itâs light, easy, painfully warm despite the winter air, like itâs found a home between you, settling there without permission. his breath fogs in the cold, but the space between you feels warmer somehow, lighter, like the weight of something unspoken has finally lifted. his steps are relaxed now, shoulders looser, head tilting toward you every so oftenâa quiet, effortless gravity pulling him closer, even when he doesnât realize it.
when you get back to your dorm, he kicks off his shoes like always, sending them haphazardly toward the corner. shrugs off his jacket like always, barely looking where it lands. flops onto your bed like always, stretching out like he owns the place, arms behind his head, hair messy from the wind.
but this time, you roll your eyes and curl up beside him, too.
he doesnât say anything about it, doesnât tease, doesnât even try to fight the smug grin tugging at his lips. he just shifts, adjusting without thinking, making room like heâs been waiting for thisâlike youâve belonged there all along.
when he tucks his arm around you without thinking, you donât complain.
when you mumble, half-asleep, voice softer than usual, âthanks for taking care of me.â he just hums, low and content, the sound barely more than a vibration against your skin. his fingers move without thought, absentmindedly tracing slow, lazy circles against your back, the rhythm steady, grounding.
when he presses a lazy kiss to the top of your head, breath catching just slightly against your hair, you donât push him away.
outside, the snow keeps falling, soft and slow, blanketing the world in quiet. winter settles in around you. and for once, you let yourself rest.
the last of WINTER lingers in the early mornings, cold air curling against skin, clinging to rooftops, biting at fingertips. but the afternoons are warming up, the sun stretching a little higher in the sky, melting the ice that once lined the sidewalks. students swap heavy coats for lighter jackets, trading chattering teeth for the kind of energy that only comes with knowing winter is finally loosening its grip. cherry blossoms are just beginning to bud, hesitant, as if uncertain the cold is truly gone.
campus is filling up again. winter break is over. the once-quiet halls are alive with movement, voices overlapping, footsteps echoing against tile, the hum of life creeping back in. the scent of freshly brewed coffee drifts from the cafĂŠs, mingling with the crisp air, a sure sign that students are shaking off their winter sluggishness.
and satoru gojo is a public menace.
he was already bad enough as their universityâs basketball star before. always loud, always impossible to ignore, always moving through campus like he owned it, like he was more event than person, someone you watched because you couldnât help it. with that ridiculous, effortless kind of charm, all long limbs and easy smiles, like heâd never once known the weight of the world.
but now? now, he has a girlfriend. and now, he has you. and he makes sure everyone knows.
âmy beloved!â
his voice slices through the courtyard like a warning bell, sharp and unmistakable, sending heads turning with an almost comical synchronicity. heâs leaning against a vending machine when you spot him, his navy varsity jacket loose over his shoulders, white t-shirt just barely clinging to the lean muscle beneath. his hair is a mess of soft white strands, tousled from the windâor maybe practiceâbut his grin is bright, his blue eyes locked onto you with alarming precision.
you freeze for half a secondâjust halfâbut thatâs all it takes for him to zero in on you, and you can feel the shift in the air, the heat of his gaze on your back as if heâs been waiting for this moment all along. the sound of his footsteps quicken, and before you know it, the familiar, teasing voice slices through the space between you.
âlovey! sweetheart! honeybunch sugarplumââ
you donât even hesitate. the instinct to escape rises up, and you walk faster, head forward, eyes fixed on some imaginary point in the distance. itâs an old trick, pretending like if you just focus hard enough on something far away, you can ignore the fact that satoru gojo is loudly, dramatically, chasing after you like some over-the-top rom-com hero.
âstop it.â your teeth grind together, a faint blush creeping up your neck as you force your shoulders to stay stiff, trying to hold onto whatever dignity you have left.
he laughs, delighted by your discomfort, the sound almost echoing in the quiet space. with a lazy, unbothered air, he shoves his hands into his pockets and easily falls into step beside you. his white hair is still a mess from practice, some strands falling into his eyes, but he looks effortless, like he hasnât even broken a sweat. âyou wound me, darling.â
âi am not doing this with you.â you mutter under your breath, barely glancing at him, hoping that if you ignore him long enough, heâll just go away. but itâs futile.
heâs faster. itâs always the same. his long legs carry him with a grace that shouldnât be possible for someone so tall, and with barely any effort, heâs at your side, matching your pace, his grin stretching impossibly wide. his head tilts slightly, his white hair falling over his eyes in that way youâve come to recognize so wellâshifting and effortlessly falling into place. his blue eyes catch the light, looking so damn intense, you canât help but notice the way they gleam through the long lashes, unguarded and almost playful.
âstarlight, love of my life, future mother of my childrenââ
you stop mid-step, throwing him a sharp look, and his smile only widens at your frustration. âsatoru.â
he gasps, clutching his chest in mock horror, eyes widening as if youâve physically hurt him. he stumbles back a step, just for effect, and lets out an exaggerated sigh. âare youââ his voice drops to a dramatic whisper, his expression feigning scandal as he leans in closer. âare you ashamed of me?â
your jaw tightens, the irritation mixing with something else youâd rather not address. âi would like for people to know quietly.â
satoru halts mid-step, his hand flying to his chest as if youâve just ripped out his heart. his face contorts into exaggerated pain as if youâve just shattered him with a single sentence. âyouâyou donât want to scream our love from the rooftops? you donât want the whole world to know how much you adore me?â he flutters his fingers dramatically in the air as if visualizing the grand spectacle of it all.
you groan, shoving your hands into your pockets, doing your best to ignore the amused glances and curious whispers around you. itâs not bad, really. the attention.
you had expectedâwell. you donât know what you expected. for people to react badly? for them to wonder why heâs with you, of all people?
but mostly, people are just⌠surprised. conversations halt mid-sentence, heads whip around for second and third takes, and whispered speculations weave through the air like static electricity.
a lot of:
âwait. gojo has a girlfriend? for real?â
âdamn, i thought he was just messing around.â
âno way. no actual way.â
a handful of utterly devastated fangirls, clutching their textbooks like lifelines, staring as if their world has just come crashing down. but no one says anything cruel. no one scoffs or sneers. no one looks at you like you donât belong next to him.
itâs a little overwhelming. but not awful. just⌠loud. and satoru? he thrives in it.
heâs absolutely ridiculous about it, keeps throwing his arm around your shoulders, keeps making a show of lacing his fingers through yours, keeps finding ways to bring it up in conversations that have nothing to do with him. when youâre walking together, he tugs you just a little closer, just a little tighter, like he wants everyone on campus to see. his hand is always finding its way to your waist, resting there like it belongs, fingers tapping idly against the fabric of your sweater. sometimes, when heâs feeling particularly dramatic, heâll spin you around in the middle of the hallway, dipping you like youâre in the final scene of a romance movie, just because he can.
and youâearnest, quiet, and in love despite yourselfâyou let him.
you donât indulge him the same way he does you. your affections are smaller, tucked between the spaces he leaves, a quiet echo to his relentless declarations. but you donât pull away when he leans into you. you donât protest when he sneaks his fingers through yours. and when you think no oneâs looking, when his head is turned just so, when heâs grinning at something dumb and impossibly satoru, you let yourself look at him the way he looks at you.
one time, in the middle of lunch, he just sighs dramatically, leaning back in his chair, stretching his arms like the weight of the world is on his shoulders. his white hair is a mess from practice, sweat-damp at the nape of his neck, but he still looks effortless, still looks like he belongs under the sun, basking in the warmth of his own theatrics. he exhales, long and suffering, tilting his head back so far his chair almost tips. and then, with all the weight of the universe pressing down on his chest, he declares;
âman, having a girlfriend is crazy.â
you donât even look up from your sketchbook. youâre used to this. you barely even blink anymore when he starts talking like the main character in a tragic love story. âyou literally asked for this.â
âyeah, but still.â
he hums, thoughtful, like heâs truly pondering the gravity of his situationâthen abruptly flops onto your lap, draping himself across you like heâs meant to be there. his head lands against your stomach, arms sprawled, legs stretched out across the bench, the weight of him pressing down on you like an overgrown cat. his hair tickles your wrist, and when you peer down, his eyes are already on you, bright and full of trouble. heâs grinning, of course heâs grinning, his lips twitching like heâs barely holding back a laugh.
you grunt under the sudden weight, the pressure of his body settling onto you like a heavy, careless blanket. you barely stop yourself from elbowing him off, your muscles tensing from the surprise, but heâs already too comfortable, sprawled across your lap with a dramatic sigh. âget off me.â
âno.â
he sounds so certain, so annoyingly nonchalant as he rests his head on your stomach, his hair messy from practice, damp strands sticking to his forehead like a defiant halo. you sigh through your nose, fingers tightening around your pencil, the sharp tip pressing against the paper as if it could ground you. âwhat do you want.â
âyou know,â he says, his voice light, almost sing-song, as his head tilts just enough to meet your gaze, those ridiculously bright, ridiculously smug baby blues peering up at you with a look thatâs both teasing and entirely too pleased with himself. âyou kinda have a responsibility now.â
your sigh is louder this time, escaping through your nose as you flip to a new page in your sketchbook, trying to ignore the weight of him and the pull of his presence. you shift a little beneath him, adjusting to make space as your gaze flickers down at him. âwhat responsibility.â
he doesnât move, doesnât break the casual pose, his arms still spread wide like heâs claiming the space between you, his legs stretched comfortably across the bench, his fingers tapping lightly against your stomach. âyou have to come to all my games. non-negotiable.â
you finally glance down at him, unimpressed, but your eyes soften just a little when you see the way heâs looking up at you, his grin wide, eyes twinkling like heâs saying something thatâs a matter of life and death. you roll your eyes but canât help the quiet smile that tugs at the corners of your mouth. âall of them?â
âyes. all.â
you blink at him, your hand drifting to your lap, pressing down the fluttering feeling in your chest, the soft affection you try so hard to keep from spilling over. âbut i already go to most of themââ
âall. of. them.â his tone is firm now, a little playful but undeniably serious, his finger poking at your side like a reminder of his claim over your attention. he lifts his head just slightly, his lips pulling into a smirk thatâs far too smug for anyone's good, and you know, without a doubt, that heâs completely and utterly certain of his win.
you sigh, louder this time, rolling your eyes as he grins up at you like heâs already won. his hair is soft when your fingers brush against it, a stray lock falling over his forehead as he waits, expectant. you hesitate for just a second, then let your fingers linger a beat longer than necessary, smoothing it back into place. âand why, exactly?â
his smirk falters, just for a fraction of a second. almost imperceptible. but you catch it, the flicker of something softer beneath the bravado, the way his throat bobs slightly before he answers.
âbecause you have to witness your incredibly talented, best-athlete-on-campus boyfriend in action, obviously.â
âobviously.â
âplus,â he adds, reaching up to poke your cheek with the most obnoxious little tap, âi play better when youâre there.â
your fingers tighten around your pencil, just slightly. you donât answer immediately, because if you do, it might come out too soft, too earnest, too much. but your lips press together, and your gaze lingers, and when you finally murmur, ââŚis that true, or are you just saying that?â it sounds quieter than you mean it to.
his grin widens, eyes gleaming, mischief and sincerity tangled together like a promise. âguess youâll have to keep coming to find out, huh?â
you shove his face away.
but later, when his attention is stolen by something elseâwhen heâs laughing with his friends or zoning out as he stretchesâ you find your gaze lingering, the subtle shift of your focus as you tilt your head. your eyes trace the smooth curve of his cheek, the way the sunlight catches in his hair, making the white strands look like a halo around his face. thereâs the easy slope of his shoulders, the way he leans back with that effortless confidence, his legs stretched out over the bench like he owns every inch of space around him. you notice all these things in the quiet moments when heâs not looking, and itâs almost like a secret you keep tucked away.
and then you think, helplessly, hopelesslyâ he plays better because heâs looking for you. it's not just the game heâs focused on. itâs the stands, itâs you. and for all his teasing, all his dramatic declarations, thereâs this undercurrent you canât denyâthat he needs you there, in that spot, where his eyes always find yours.
you go to all his games anyway. itâs not a question, not a choice. you sit in the stands, your eyes fixed on the court, but your mind elsewhere, always waiting, always watching. every time, without fail, he looks for you before tip-off, and the moment he spots you, his expression shiftsâjust the faintest change in the curve of his lips, the way his eyes brighten as if heâs found something precious. every time, he finds you, like thereâs no other place he would rather be. every time, he grins that obnoxious, confident grin, the one that says he will win, that he knows youâre there, and thatâs enough.
spring creeps in. the last of the cold melts away, and you notice how the days stretch longer, how the warmth settles in your bones as everything begins to bloom around you.
and satoru gojo never stops being loud about loving you, his voice always rising above the noise, always unafraid of being seen. and you, quiet as you are, never stop loving him right back, holding it all in the space between the moments, where words arenât necessary.
a/n : i would like to formally announce that i was this close to killing her off in winter via tragic anemia-induced collapse, but in a rare act of mercy, i decided against it. as such, i will be accepting 100-word minimum essays filled with gratitude in the comments. failure to comply may result in me rethinking my generosity. choose wisely.
kidding aside, im glad i finally got this fic out of my draftsâthis has been rotting and slowly cooking since the episode with satoru playing basketball releasedđ idk much about western school year so i apologize if the schedule is all wrong! i only relied to google writing this. not like they will read this but i still wanna thanks my homeboys for helping me write the basketball scene, i definitely needed that <3 im not an artist so i apologize if there are any misconceptions in my fic ^^