GUYS IM SCARED FOR THIS SOMEONE HOLD MY HAND

Michael, you would fall and turn the white snow red as strawberries in the summertime.

Super inspired by @weevildead 's michael painting! I hesitate to post this bc it was super experimental, and i hate the hair and how unblended the edges are w the obvious layers and weird blurring and stray marks...but idc im posting it.

My take on The Manager and Kayne

The moment John and Arthur enter The Managers office were told something very clearly. He looks and sounds EXACTLY like Kayne aside from the color of his suit. To the point that the boys think they were sent to Kayne in death. This tells me one thing very clearly: This is still a specific mask of Nyarlathotep. Not his core being himself. Or a different mask.

I've seen a lot of theories that this is Nyarlathotep himself and Kayne is a rambunctious kid who is off making trouble but that doesn't seem to be the case. Nyarlathotep has at least 1000 avatars or 'masks'. Hell there is an entire CoC game that takes a year of regular play minimum to get through and it only has you dealing with 3. These masks all look very different from each other. Some human, a lot not.

The body that Kayne is in, is one of those masks. It's the one Nyarlathotep is wearing right now. It's still him in there. Because The Manager looks exactly like Kayne we know that he's still that mask. He just made different choices, just like Kayne asked a different question.

I've also seen a lot of theories that add a layer of self loathing to him that pretty much every character in the show has. But I really doubt that's the case. Most of Nyarls masks aren't that manic or crazy. They're charming and put together, able to sway LARGE groups of people, in some cases entire empires. That shit takes boiling the frog, not dancing around in gore. The Manager comes across more like how his masks normally behave. And I've always felt that Kaynes insanity is the result of collapsing so many iterations of himself into one body.

I don't think The Manager is innocent and pure. Or wracked with guilt. I think he just knows this isn't going to go the way Kayne wants, and just like Arthur and John, wants to keep living. Nyarl keeps Azathoth asleep because he likes doing what he does. He's more than capable of being helpful when it suits him, and I'd bet that's what we're seeing here. Not guilt and self hatred, just trying to keep the status quo he enjoys quite a lot. Trying to differentiate from Kayne is just a way of distinguishing himself, they're identical otherwise. Even in behavior when he's not actively trying to stop it. I don't think he's pure and good and feels guilty. I think he just doesn't want to die either.

Trying to get better at reblogging, it always takes me so long to warm up to apps and start posting, commenting, reblogging, etc etc 😔

Egg-volent

no one held my hand

GUYS IM SCARED FOR THIS SOMEONE HOLD MY HAND

There’s very few good things I could’ve realistically walked out of exams to see. A new malevolent episode is one of those things.

mal ep 52 spoilers below the cut

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Kayne killing every single version of himself is so interesting cause it's like.

This ultimate act of control. This is the only me that is and was and ever will be. In a way it's antithetical to the idea of a crawling chaos. It's this strange sort of contained order.

And then John who started as a fragment of something else. A piece who is constantly fighting against who he used to be and become someone else and become whole beyond what he was.

And then Arthur who is forced to change and endure and grow while still having connection with parts of himself he's been forced to leave behind.

John, Arthur, and Kayne: master of my fate captain of my soul but in very different ways.