May Or May Not Be Cooking Something Up

Thinking about an au where Khalid survives but Jaheira doesn't... Khalid clinging onto life during the torture, solely so he can see Jaheira if he survives... only to find out when they're escaping that she was killed....

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I love this meme

I have finished cooking

Here she is! Khalid’s mom + a baby Khalid

I think she turned out really pretty and I like her even if this was a struggle lol

I’m not very good at designing outfits so even though I had the parameters of wanting to be light weight and have light colors to avoid overheating as well as a head piece to protect her face and scalp from the sun I struggled to make brain work. I wanted her to look older than she ultimately ended up looking but she is an elf I suppose… but I still want her to look older

Something I think about is Khalid’s mother

Because in the first game in Khalid’s background she is not mentioned at all, and in siege of dragonspear she is mentioned as ‘not thinking much of him’ but to a lesser extent than his father did who we all agree was a POS

1. What was she like?

like her life probably sucked a lot.

She was an elven concubine in a country that is pretty much devoid of any other elves, and so she was seen as exotic, which is probably why Khalid‘s father had her as a concubine in the first place.

She would always be below his actual wife and I won’t get into all of the horrible things that could’ve happened to her prior or during this time

And then on top of everything, she has a illegitimate kid with the dude!

I doubt Khalid’s father or his wife (mother of Khalid’s half brothers) was particularly interested in raising him, so it was probably all on her.

So now on top of her life already probably sucking, she has this kid in a world that is guaranteed to be hostile towards him because he is considered lower by default.

There’s no way she could protect him from that even if she did try.

Maybe there was a combination of resentment of having another thing on her plate to take care of but also guilt about having this kid that she feels is guaranteed to have a miserable life

2. Was their relationship purely indifference and neglect or was there some love?

Is it possible that she walled herself off from him so that when he was inevitably hurt it didn’t hurt her as much? Like self protection so she only had to feel her own hurt

Were there good moments? Where she would protect him or comfort him in ways she felt she could?

Maybe she held some hope that because his father was of the merchant class Khalid would get further than she could only to have those hopes crushed within her lifetime

3. How does Khalid feel about her?

Maybe he is a bit overly forgiving of her actions because of he knows her circumstances (Which probably annoys Jaheira lol)

Maybe there’s some resentment for not being the mother he needed but he feels guilty about having those feelings

Maybe she just fades into the background of his childhood

There’s so many possibilities because we know nothing about her so we get to fill in the blanks!

It was a gift from my husband. Khalid. He was a Harper. A better one than me, truth be told - any idiot can swing a sword. But to believe in the cause, with the whole of your heart? A much trickier thing. He died. Alone, in pain, and far too young - murdered by a mage who craved immortality. I'll not grant it by naming him in the same breath as my husband.

It hurts everytime

Some Jaheiras for your troubles.

Did my design for an AU and in a sexy little party dress. Harpers gotta have a good time too :P

glowering jaheira

Jaheira smile :)

he's judging you

been a while since i drew on my tablet